Born To Hit Beans Forced To Have Parents

gng i literally couldn't get out of bed without crying this morning, but then I happy now 🤤🤤🤤🤤

(the delusions and Maretu are keeping me alive rnnnnn🤤🤤🤤🤤🔥🔥🔥💪💪💪💪)

i hate it when mental illness doesn't just make me a silly person who cuts and is chill about it or whatever but also an actual deppressed loser who stays home alone all day and cries >:(

I was wrong. Things aren’t getting better. I’ve just been ignoring reality

Yes looking at pictures of peoples self h4rm makes me feel better

Yes it also makes me feel like shit because I know I don't have enough courage or supplies to actually cut as deep as them

Jirai tiktok when a minor can't afford the expensive blouses that adults can >:((

(seriously wtf is wrong with Jirai tiktok, they revolve it all around the fashion and whenever they see someone who actually has a more explosive disorder they get angry that there not doing it correctly...like...that's the whole point...Jirai means Landmine, and Landmine's explode...)

IM SO HAPPY I ATE ONLY AROUND 500 CALS TODAY !!!

(i would have eaten less but it is so hard to get around eating when in recovery 😭

Im currently at 42-43 kg (it alternates because yk im in recovery so its acc so hard to starve or purge now)

AND I WAS AT 39 KG !!! LIKE TWO AWAY FROM MY UGW BUT HAUFDAUHWHFEF FUCKING THERAPY SNITCHED ON ME >:[

CAN WE ALL AGREE THAT JIRAIBLR IS BETTER THAN JIRAITWT AND JIRAITT ?!?!?!?!

It just feels so much more inclusive and accepting.

sorry kittens daddy is about to kill himself

the four horsemen of jirai kei: horny, manic, suicidal, and depressed

Wdym my thighs are in pain and there's NO ONE available to kiss them better?!?!?!?!?!??💔💔💔