I'm Currently Studying To Become A Teachers Assistent So I Have To Learn About Every Ilness, Or Study

I'm currently studying to become a teachers assistent so i have to learn about every ilness, or study disability and basicly everything children from the age of 0 till 20 can go through. I go to every class, do all my homework and i ace all my tests. But it takes like 100000x more effort than my classmates. I have days where i cant get anything done so i have to work even harder on other days so i can finish the 5 assignments i have due. I also never read the books, i never read the books. I memorise everything from class and look up the bits im missing at most.

So i get high scores and im pretty much on top of my class, but its exhausting. I just keep living from assignment to assignment. I have to take all my energy and strength to make it to the next break where i collapse and need to regather all my energy.

But dont get me started on math, i dropped math in highschool. That was actualy a idea from my teacher becouse she saw it.just coused me stress and frustration. But now i have math again and its realy getting in my way of getting the study points i need. I can do the basics, i know 1+1 is 2 becouse i memorised most things but as soon as it gets a bit more advanced my brain stops working. I keep trying to tell my teacher i just cant do it and she keeps telling me to practise so every math class and every test is absolute hell. I open my book to do my homework and sometimes actualy start crying becouse i feel dumb.

Becouse of this post i realised its a common thing and i will be doing more research.

For everyone who DOESN’T have ADHD, congrats, the last 24 hours have showed you exactly what it is like. For everyone else who DOES have ADHD and has spent the day on an ADHDx2 speedrun like I have, I don’t know how we haven’t short-circuited either.