Hi Welcome To The Regression Fest.

today i wrote zero words! but i did think about my story twice in passing. that probably counts for something

I know I’m posting about the issue two days late, but I do have two (2) serious thoughts about this honestly ridiculous situation. One of them is that my heart truly goes out for actual gay people inside seminars. It’s funny to us, but I can’t imagine how they feel right now.

These are people who have faith, not only in God but in the institution of the Church. These are people who truly trust it and want to take part in helping strengthen and spread the catholic faith. Maybe they’re even people who have found solace in side-b beliefs, who decided that their gayness was a calling to abstinence and priesthood.

How betrayed and desolate they must feel now. What a bucket of cold water to the head to realize you can change yourself however you want, dedicate your whole life to Christ, to the Church, and they still won’t see you any differently.

You cannot try to be ‘one of the good queers’. There is no such a thing to them

end of january affirmations

im not doing anything wrong and no one is mad at me

there must be a place for me in this world because here i am

my art doesnt suck

instagram is nothing to me

everyone's favourite siblilngs in their new movie outfits 🫶❄️

I've been a Joel supporter since the game came out and after watching that episode, and especially now that I've become a mom since the game, I still stand firm in my choice to support what Joel did.

For those saying "But he lied to Ellie!" - yeah. He did. But you know who else did? The Fireflies. Marlene. She even had the balls to say to Joel "You're not giving her the choice because you know what she'd choose." Implying that she would choose to be operated on. But you know what? She didn't give Ellie a choice either. Marlene even said they sedated her and told her nothing so she wouldn't be afraid. That right there says Marlene doesn't know for sure that Ellie would choose self sacrifice, so she withheld that rather important piece of information from her.

Ellie is also 14 years old. This sort of decision is way too much to put on her shoulders, and I say this as a very mature 14 year old when I was that age.

"Ok, but this is the fate of the world!" Says who? What they didn't give you in the show was the letters/notes Joel finds in the hospital saying Ellie wasn't the first immune person that they've performed lethal surgery on to poke around in a brain. And you know what? None of it worked. Could Ellie have worked? Maybe. But it's a slim chance in hell it would and that just wasn't worth it to Joel.

You also can't vaccinate a fungal infection. It doesn't work that way, which is why doctors give people creams and hope for the best when they have fungal infections.

Also, this was ONE doctor with some nurses. A doctor and a scientist are not the same thing. Granted, a doctor would be better at figuring something out, but that wasn't his area of expertise. He'd need a whole team of experts to even hope to find a cure IF it was there. They also had no equipment, no mri's or cat scans, nothing. Yes, they were in a hospital but right before Joel enters the room, one of them asks "Do we have enough power?" They're not even sure they can power the room to perform the surgery - how ar they going to spend countless months and years on a supposed cure?

BUT let's overlook all of that and say by some miracle they find a cure. How are they going to mass produce said cure? They most likely don't have the resources for this as everything is shut down and 20 years old. And even if they did, how to mass distribute it? Marlene said the Fireflies would, but so many people distrust them so who's to say they'd accept it? Not to mention Joel, by himself, took out an entire building of them.

Marlene also had the audacity to say to Joel that she understands his plight because she was there when Ellie was born so she gets it. No, you don't. You took your friend's baby out of obligation and put her in an orphanage and straight into a FEDRA school/camp. Marlene came back when Ellie was bit, chained her up in a room for weeks, and kept performing experiments on her to see if she would turn. She didn't raise Ellie so she couldn't possibly have known that sort of connection.

In the end, Joel chose love because he loves Ellie like he loved his daughter. And if I were in his shoes, I 100% would've made the exact same decision.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

Good morning, you have to be the thing that saves you

not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing (so devoted the lines blur)

my beautiful infant son Untitled Document

As a Christian, I have the unique reassurance that my God understands what it is to literally be human. Jesus was a human, He experienced pain, hunger, social rejection, and many other pains we face in this fallen world. It's beautiful that God loves us so much He suffered as us. That being said, I am disgusted and outraged at how trans children (and adults) are forced to suffer. I hate this world right now.

I'm legitimately in tears.

how it feels to have no social media presence as an artist