Gay Rights

i dont believe for a second anyone actually thought andrew was straight. HOW did they explain andrew disappearing into the back of a club with their favourite gay bartender every friday... in this essay i will

Can we talk about how unbelievably normal Kevin would've been if he wasn't the Son Of Exy? I mean seriously, even with that he's a history major. A history major. His mother died in a car crash, he was abused for over half his life, he ran away to live with his illegitimate father and yet he is still tries so hard to be normal. When Andrew gets at him for having no spine, it makes me so unspeakably mad because yes! of course he's scared! His abuser is chasing him across the country to his safe space and is torturing and killing his friends!

Kevin pretty much grew up in a cult and his response is to avoid confrontation with them because opening his mouth has always meant incurring Riko's wrath; it's better for everyone to take the path of least resistance- sit down, shut up and don't cause any problems. Kevin is pretty much the fawn response to Andrew's fight and Neil's flight and it's so annoying how critical of Kevin everyone was. He was trying his goddamn best and when Wymack literally had to tackle Kevin in his apartment to calm him down showed us how much pain and fear he was in, how much he had always been in.

He grew up in a cage and he never got the outlet Neil had when he ran, or when Andrew lashed out and got shipped somewhere else. Kevin Day deserved the life he was owed and he finally got it when he went to Palmetto. He finally got to play exy on his own terms, went pro, made the US Court AND got a family- Wymack, Abby, and Thea. Not only them, but the Foxes too. Neil and Andrew, Nicky, Aaron, Dan, Matt, Allison and Renee. He got everything he deserved in the end and yes that is the success story we all needed for him.

long haired Neil? long haired Neil 😌

that one scene in tkm iykyk

no.1: dickieboy oldman

First impressions: he's nothing like me. he's a weird narrator, unreliable and all this account take on this dreamlike take of what happened. i mean seriously, his account of everything is almost a decade after the events and it's idealised and confusing, chock full of timeskips.

But. he's an incredibly written unreliable narrator. he leaves out key details, (like the fact he was drunk off his ass half the time) (or on drugs) and just really. he lets his own bias get in the way of everything. he still loves bunny and charles (charles somewhat less because he actually hurt someone he "cared" about) because he's a white man from california in the eighties. he doesn't care that they're but abusive hateful people because their prejudices don't actively hurt him. even though they harmed his friends.

and furthermore he kind of indulges in the same prejudices. he feels violent urges towards camilla (though it was really a passing remark and he doesnt act on them as charles does) and his internalised homophobia inhibits his relationship with francis whenever he's confronted with francis' gayness all over again. (although francis was flirting with him the entire time. so that may be a moot point.) so yeah. he's definitely a narrator alright.

the way he interacts with people is interesting because he feels the urge to lie about. well. everything to do with his past. and so he doesn't really HAVE a relationship with people until they realise he's penniless. which they notice pretty quickly. (even bunny does) (ie making fun of his offbrand ties etc etc) as the people around him spend mroe time with him and realise that Richard Papen is actually poor, they start treating him like a person.

Richard has a very distinct and interesting way of interacting with his friends individually. he builds up a distinct way to build rapport with each of them. (reassuring charles that he is liked, listening to francis and taking him to the doctors etc) because not only does he have a deep seated need to be like, BUT he wants these people to stick with him for life. he wants them to want him.

but onto the reason i wrote this. hes fuckin gay. the way he describes men is just out of this world. henry is described like he's a god. francis is beautiful and untouchable. charles is an all american dream. and camilla. is constantly described as boyish and looking exactly like charles. which means he's attracted to charles by proxy. he literally kisses francis back in the kitchen. he would've got on his knees for henry had he the chance. he was literally a charles apologist. he was so repressed it hurts my heart. he just didn't like women the way he described men. he wanted to grow old with francis in the countryside. camilla was the closest he was going to get to a man.

he's toeing the line between bicon and gay bastard but god does he walk it hard. he does it for us. i love and hate his junkie ass.

Hey man you okay?

NO. In Foxhole Court when Neil finished his first session with Betsy he goes out and talks to Aaron, he tells him he just spoke to Betsy about exy facts and Aaron tells him he just sat there in silence. AND NEILS REACTION IS "damn...I wish I thought of that. Thats good"

Please why isn't anyone talking about this.

Jean is a backliner and Kevin is a striker need i say more?

exactly!! he was scared of her because she could see him!! and that was such a scary thing for him because he couldn't form attachments if he was going to run by october, then by spring. but because of this understanding i can see them becoming literally the best duo. like you know when you introduce someone to one of your friends to another friend and they end up becoming better friends with each other? that's EXACTLY what happened to andrew with neil and renee.

renee being on the ball about EVERYTHING neil likes and dislikes. "not everyone dislikes bee" "that's why i make you uncomfortable" "i'm not andrew's type because im a woman" etc etc. what a queen. she's literally neil's mentor. like what didn't she tell neil. nobody else noticed these things and obviously she hasn't survived this long by being ignorant to other people's emotions, but she just reads neil so well. it's probably incredibly disconcerting for neil to be so known by a stranger.

Ok i understand the i love you thing as someone who hasn't said i love you since they were eleven but for the marriage but i raise you one better- Tax benefits. They would 100% get married for tax benefits. And legal stuff in hospitals and/or different legal matters with like. the police or some shit. Anyways yeah. i feel like marriage would happen but i love you never would.

I know many people complain a lot that Neil and Andrew never say I love you or get married. But why would they ever need to? They have promises they will never break . Those promises are about keeping one another, staying, and protecting one another no matter the cost. Is that not what love and marriage is supposed to be? Why do they have to say it or prove it legally when they already know it’s true? Those are just words and a legal document, arbitrary in the wake of their past. they prove it everyday to one another how much their love means just by staying together.

the actual funniest shit. an ideal world where aaron wasn't homophobic

What if Andrew bans everyone from calling Neil his boyfriend & Aaron just goes overboard to spite him calling Neil his "loverboy", "groupie", "squeeze", "side piece", "exclusive boy toy" etc

One day Aaron introduces Neil as "Andrew's love muffin" and the ban is officially off. 😆