Shifting Is My Hobby. In My Free Time I Am A Mermaid, Solve Murders, Have A Debate With Aristotle, Ride

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I am so lost. I’ve been trying to shift for years now, and I am actually pretty content with how I’m doing right now. But once I realised that there are endless universes and stuff, I realised that there must be a universe out there where my S/O or the people of my dr or even the people of this reality are constantly watching and judging me. It’s making me so uncomfortable knowing that out there is a universe where everyone is constantly judging each and every thing I do. It’s really making me feeling very weird and insecure. I mean I don’t even pretend I’m in edits anymore (I know y’all do the same….) because I’m constantly feeling watched and judged. I can’t do anything to stop making them watch me, I know, but I genuinely don’t want to feel like this anymore. It’s so weird. I’ve tried to meditate or reprogram my mind into thinking it’s not a big deal, but for me it kinda is since I’m kinda anxious about what or how people think about me. I’m desperate. I’m kinda asking different people now to see what others think could help. So don’t be confused if you see this question on other pages too. Thanks

thank you the ask, anon!! >3<

Hmm, let's see...

It feels like the entire universe has turned a giant spotlight onto you, exposing every little thought, movement, moment of silence like you’re the main character, right? It just makes me want to wrap you in a warm, cozy blanket and tell you everything will be okay! But first, let's break this down: 

First of all, the fact that you’ve been shifting for years and you’ve already made peace with where you are now is an accomplishment on its own and I’m so proud of you ˃ ᵕ ˂ !! You’ve come so far so I hope you’re giving yourself the credit you deserve just for that. On the other hand, it’s totally understandable that you’re feeling anxious with the whole “endlessness of the universe” and everything. How do you even process something like that? And the idea that there’s a reality that your favorite characters and people you know are constantly watching and judging you? No wonder why you’re so uncomfortable!

But listen: even though there’s a universe like that out there, what does that really change about your life? Their judgement shouldn’t hold any power over you. These people can’t hold you back and stop you from being you, and that’s the important part: you’re still in your world, living your life. And if you believe in the multiverse, then there must be one where you’re the coolest, funniest, most admirable person in the world and everyone has no choice but to wonder how you’re just so…amazing! So why focus on that awfully uncomfortable universe when there’s one where everyone thinks that you’re wonderful, no matter what you do? Instead of trying to force yourself not to care about what other people may think in other realities, have you tried just…living your life? Let yourself exist, you’re the protagonist of your own life, after all. By that I mean replace "what if people are watching and judging me?" with "what if they're watching me because I'm so admirable?" or even "what if I don't care about what these people think of me?" People are always going to have opinions, but it’s ultimately up to you to decide how much space you want them to take up in your mind.

If you've found that meditation doesn't doesn't help you as much as you would like it to, try something different—experiment with it! Journal about why you love yourself, surround yourself with things that make you happy. Romanticize your reality, not someone else's perception of it. At the end of the day, you are the one holding the pen and writing your story. No one else.

Good luck and I'm rooting for you!!!

xoxo, nana

i love my husband 😫

.ᐟ SPECIAL ABILITIES : JJK DR ⊹˖

playing: the way things go — beabadoobee ⊹˖

"oh I guess that's the way things go.."

BACKGROUND: Before the modern age of Jujutsu, when curses were able to roam around freely and the influence of sorcerers was almost non-existent, an entity, 魂伝導 (Tamashī Dendō), rose to power. Written in ancient history and passed down from ancestor to ancestor, this curse wasn't just a curse but a force of nature itself—a collection of ionized cursed energy and the anger from the Gods above. This entity was known for consuming ancient beasts and taking the form and ability of the creature. Anyone who was able to capture and consume a piece of this force was considered to have part of it inside of them, though very few were capable of doing so. Clans all over Japan hunted for the curse, hoping to possess the power themselves. Legends tell of a sorcerer—a master at astral projection—who climbed the tallest mountains and lived there for decades, believing the Gods would channel their energy into him and create a pathway between him and the afterlife. One fateful day changed everything: after a day filled with meditation and leaving offers for the above night had fallen and the man, gathering his last offerings before bed, was struck by an strong bolt of lightning unprompted. As folklore tells it, he believed his years of devotion had been rewarded, that his Gods had chosen him and were ready to provide him with the afterlife he deserved. However, moments after the lightning bolt hit, a wave of energy—cursed energy—surged through him. That's when the man realized he wasn't divinely blessed, he was connected to the wrath of his Gods itself. This powerful force fused with his soul, leaving his body behind. The sorcerer did not ascend to the heavens but instead was transformed into a plasmic entity, a force of nature and he lived the rest of his life forever bound to the very essence of 魂伝導. News of this mishap spread throughout Japan, filling clan leaders with avarice, desire. For years now, members of these clans tried every attempt to obtain these powers for themselves, hoping to unlock the full potential of 魂伝導 and claim dominion over the world. Expeditions were launched, prayers were recited, people were told to have gone mad over this demand for power.

After generations of failure from even the strongest sorcerers, Yumi Komatsu, raised in a modest and small town by her grandparents, was born with this connection to this curse. She remained unaware of her destiny until one seemingly ordinary day when a white-haired man with bright blue eyes emerging from the slit of his shades appeared on her doorstep, asking for her by name.

INNATE TECHNIQUE: 加熱電流 (Kanetsu Denryū) — Heated Currents

⊹˖ 加熱電流 is an innate technique that allows the user to generate and manipulate plasma by forcefully combining extreme heat with one's cursed energy. Since plasma doesn't naturally occur in the Earth's atmosphere, the user excites air molecules through her cursed energy, stripping the electrons and creating plasma curves. While natural plasma may scatter easily, I am able to stabilize it with my cursed energy, allowing it to be shaped and controlled.

⊹˖ As the material is excruciatingly hot, plasma is a natural weapon for me as I am able to shape it without applying any of my previous training from the Zen'in clan into my methods. Alone, 加熱電流 is mainly used for attacks based on burning, shocking, or vaporizing curses !!

CURSED TECHNIQUE: 電漿幻躯 (Denshō Genku) — Plasma Phantom Form

⊹˖ 電漿幻躯 combines the ability of plasma generation with shikigami summoning, a Zen'in clan special, allowing the user to use plasma-based shikigami that can absorb, refine, and weaponize cursed energy through the electromagnetic and ionization process. Through special training, I was able to exercise my CT and transfer a curse's cursed energy into 加熱電流, including their shape.

Disclaimer! if the user isn't careful with their use of their plasm, in shikigami form or not, it can burn through anything and everything, potentially harming the user themselves. +

So far, I'm able to summon four shikigamis, each with a constantly shifting look...

毒蛇 (Dokuja) — Poisionous Serpent : A long, ghostly blue serpent. With a thick and muscular body and needle-like fangs, surrounds and circles its victim before injecting plasma vemon into them and dissolving the cursed energy within (also used as a rollercoaster escape device).

遊び狐 (Asobi Kitsune) — Playful Fox : A small, semi-transparent white fox with gold glimmering eyes and nine tails each tipped with red, plasma-like light. With a small yet agile body, she dashes at high speeds, chasing after or confusing her prey on where she'll be next. When they least expect it, she pounces on them with brute force, leaving them immobilized (also known as: Hikari, my silly little fox).

蜘蛛 (Kumo) — Spider : a small, black spider composed of cursed energy. With its eight tiny eyes and sticky, thick webbing, it's mainly used for sensing and trapping its prey while draining cursed energy.

雷竜 (Rairyū) — Thunder Dragon : A large deep violet dragon with its scale appearing to be made out of glowing electric currents. It's extremely fast and strong, burning through the toughest barriers and combating with intense heat and electromagnetic charges with it's breath.

...no one truly knows how many shikigamis are found within this technique, these are the only ones discovered so far.

CURSED TOOLS: They are usually provided by the school or, in special cases, borrowed from Maki. My technique does get exhausting at times so during missions that require high stamina, I usually carry around a cursed tool, small and easy to move around with, just in case :)

happy shifting : xoxo, nana

my 50¢ on this:

It's a psychological problem. Humans are born with an instinct to worship others, particularly those who've accomplished what others could only dream of having. When it comes to shifting, the community doesn't rely on themselves but rely on the one's who have reached that level of "impossible". They see them as some kind of "god" and believe that if they put all their trust and support into the creators, they'll have a better chance at shifting themselves, which in my opinion is plain stupid.

moral of the story: stop relying on people who've shifted to help you shift, it's an individual journey !! you won't get anywhere closer to your goal if you spend all the time you could be spending in your dr putting others on a pedestal.

Idk something about how (some if not most) shifters will treat you better when they know you've shifted kinda reminds me of classism, like why is there a hierarchy in the shifting community 😭💔

”🤓☝️you shouldn’t just make your dr a romanticised version of your life-“

BITCH TF AM I SHIFTING FOR THEN?!?!?!?

outfit i’d wear in my hogwarts dr.

confession : I have different rc's and names for every reality I shift to because I get tired of repetition easily .‸.

learning is best with experience and I'll be learning about edo period—japan's golden age—by living it myself !

creating three different scripts for three different guys in one series is another level of downbadary omg..