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alex being avoidant and casey being anxious is SO real

CALEX headcanons — the series

part 1: running back to each other after breaking up and cursing each other out of their own lives

they have different attachment styles. toxic but they persevered long enough to last two years.

alex being an avoidant attachment and casey being an anxious attachment. both obtained from their own past — unhealed trauma that they carried with them.

they both healed each other but overtime, alex would catch herself relapsing and casey would always be there to catch her and coax her.

alex called the break up and casey cursed her out of her life, repeatedly yelling the sentences “i wish i never met you!” and “i hope you end up alone forever!”

alex spent her days regretting what she had done. drowning herself in work, purposely forgetting to eat, abandoning her feelings, and drinking and crying herself to sleep.

casey spent her days crying over alex. she would occasionally stare at her phone blankly hoping that maybe, just maybe, alex would call and apologize to her.

one night, alex, drunk, called casey. of course, casey picked up. she was waiting—longing for alexandra’s return.

“we we’re doing so well and i messed us up. i’m sorry my love. i really tried. i know you won’t forgive me. so, if not in this life, then maybe in the next one. i’ll be the best you’ll ever get”

sniffling, casey replied with a raspy voice. “why not now? why not in this lifetime, lex?”

there was no response from alex, only soft whimpers that could be heard from the other line. so, without any hesitation, casey grabbed her keys and rushed to their old apartment.

there, she found a cried-out alexandra. weeping, nursing a beer bottle. face red, eyes puffy, and voice raspy. “i don’t deserve you” she cried out as she saw casey’s figure.

casey sighs and walks over to her, sitting by alex’s side. “you’re all i ever wanted, you know?”

“but i’m shitty”

“so what? we all are. except you’re nice to me and you love me — deeply, endlessly.”

“if anything, we deserve each other. we’ll make it work. we already did. we can do it again”

alex, rubs her nose, smiling as she lays her head on casey’s shoulder. “i love you and i love that we’re in love”

Every day I mourn what we lost:

i hate svu tiktok

stop voting cabenson.

my motivation is out the window. i miss her too much.

pwp or like… a fic with actual effort…

newpopenewpopenewpope

i thought of this and giggled

Alex: “I’m pregnant.”

Casey: (blank stare) ”…Is it mine?”

Alex: (equally blank stare) “We are both women, Casey.”

Casey: (turning red) “Right. Yes. Correct. Sorry. I just… I don’t know, I panicked.”

"If you use em dash in your works, it makes them look AI generated. No real human uses em dash."

Imaging thinking actual human writers are Not Real because they use... professional writing in their works.

Imagine thinking millions of people who have been using em dash way before AI becomes a thing are all robots.

REBLOG IF YOU'RE A HUMAN AND YOU USE EM DASH

i’ll probably edit and post this some time tomorrow

maybe

it’s only 10k words but i cried writing

hey gorjuses

it’s no secret that i project my own personal problems into my writing. would yall be down to read a calex fic where one of them has cancer?

it’s how i’m coping while i wait for the results on my own tumor <33

so many people on this app are way too casual about being friends with diane neal