Neyso - Ney

My brain hates sleeping

Okay, lemme try and answer the question of why Dazai abused Akutagawa.

This is such a debated topic in the fandom sob

Dazai never apologized to Akutagawa, or really did anything to say sorry about how he abused him.

Why?

Well, let's take a look at Dazai's debut.

The answer is staring yall in the face.

Dazai says that he wants a painless suicide, yeah, but there's one part that usually overlooked.

He wants a painless suicide that doesn't bother anyone.

So what if him abusing Akutagawa is on purpose? To make him hate him?

Dazai doesn't want to be missed. That's why he said that he has no regrets when he died in BEAST.

By abusing Akutagawa, he can make Akutagawa hate him, and Atsushi somewhat feel conflicted about him.

That way, once he finally dies, no one will miss him.

Note: Him being the reason that Murase died could be a hing to make Chuuya hate him that failed or smthing... idk...

21.01.2025

Hot take but I hope in uni my life will spin around 180 degrees and I will have tongue piercing and beautiful, clever girls in my flat but I’m afraid the only thing I will fuck will be Calculus 1

Как же я хочу быть гениальной. До слез

I was too talkative today so I’m going to be silent for ages

re-reading a book feels like visiting an old friend who never changed since your time apart, but you see them differently and you notice new things about them because you have.🥹

You don't have to force yourself to bounce back so quickly. I read something recently that said "when you come in from a rainstorm, you don't expect yourself to be dry and warm right away", and it really resonated with me. It's okay to take time to dry off and warm up. Take the time you need to process what happened to you.