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26 Oct (Intro. Number Theory)

This is by far the worst class that I have taken. Consistently I have been with the lowest grade, and my overall understanding of this class is abysmal. Despite being in my professor’s office every day.

In any case I make a point to strive for perfection, and not understanding something haunts me to my core. In any case I am forever hopeful. Im happy to be back, and I have lots to share

🎧 Momma Told Me - Earthgang

Stay Up y’all

Skye from humble boness, wishing you the best of luck and necessary motivation to achieve your goals. Wishing your family better recovery.

Thank you so much friend 🙏, this road has been rough, and I’m not quite out of the woods.

Hey bro, just so you dont get anyone who yells at you for no reason, reposting is when you take the content from someone else's post and put it in your own without crediting them, or sometimes even with crediting them. Reblogging is when you hit that funky reblog button that automatically gives credit to the original poster, and any notes on that post go to the OP. I just noticed you use the word repost weird

It was an honest mistake. I’m happy you caught that. It will be corrected here soon.

Cheers friend 😎

I MUST REPOST

28 April (Diff Eq.)

The struggle has been very real over the course of the last week. I failed a test (it was in the teens), my mom is still in the hospital, and some days are definitely better than others, but I am holding on.

I can’t in good faith give up everything that I’ve worked so hard to build. I have also been procrastinating. The Howard deadline is 30 April, and tbh I haven’t put my all into it (despite really wanting to attend the school).

Small update, but that’s all for today.

Stay up✌🏿

🎧 Trappin in Japan 4 - Ryan Celsius

It is honestly saddening that I used to have to deal with this. Reposting for the fact that there are a lot of black students who have succumb to this mentality. Be proud of your education.

23 April (life update)

So, keeping things honest I’m not doing the best right now friends. Over the course of the last 2 weeks one of my parents had a heart attack and the other is now on life support.

I really appreciate all of you who continue to support me and this study blog.

Morale of the story is that bad things happen to all of us, but it’s our actions after the fact that define us

Stay up ✌🏾

🎧 Trappin in paradise 78 - smooth sounds

I just hit 100 followers, and I am truly grateful for all of you.

I would like to do a challenge.

For every interaction this post gets (from ANYONE) I will pick up 1 item of trash.

The earth has done so much for us, and I can’t think of a better way to give back

9 April (The joy of being in STEM)

Today was not the best by any stretch of the imagination. I was fighting myself most of the day trying to get my HW done despite putting in good time to try and complete it, the topics just aren’t resonating.

I find myself once again dragging behind the rest of my peers despite studying just as hard as they do. Sadly, I couldn’t tell you the last time I actually had a weekend to myself, or a nice moment that wasn’t overshadowed by the crippling weight of school.

I wish there were more instructors who truly understood that different students have different needs.

Stay up✌🏿

🎧 Einaudi: Fox Tracks (Day 1) - Ludovico Einaudi

Inspired as fuck by your page

That literally means the world to me. Thank you so much

7 April (Calc 4: happy exhaustion)

Today was rough, but I feel like I’m getting the hang of maximum and minimum values (thank you so much Lagrange).

I will say that I’m running into a bit of an existential crisis as far as my career is concerned. I feel like I really enjoy physics and am going to love making a job out of it, but this online learning environment is painful.

I want to actually do physics now that I have a better mathematical understanding, but at the same time I can only put forth so much effort in a class that has no social interaction. I can’t help but feel neglected considering I know how amazing my physics instructor is and knowing I’ll never officially have a “class” with him.

I’ve been struggling with my BPD as of late and it’s making me a bit more emotional than normal, but I’m taking strides to work through my issues.

A bit of positive news, I’m getting more comfortable on my skateboard, and am looking to land my first heelflip soon

You are strong

You are beautiful

You are powerful

Now go change the world

Stay up ✌🏿

🎧 The Watchtower - Sigimund

4 April (thoughts)

I never really took the time to explain what the big picture is, so I’m going to attempt to explain it here

I want to be a great dad. As cheesy as it might sound, I love the idea of being a positive father, and father-figure to those who need that person in their life. To this day my dad doesn’t claim me, and much as I love my mom, there are still some things that I would have looked for from him. I will be the change

I want to be a millionaire, and establish various forms of income that can be utilized after my journey on earth is complete. I have already began investing, and look to retire (read: not work as hard) around age 40.

I want to make the world a better place. The earth is OUR mother, and its OUR job to protect her. I have created an animal rights groups, organized adopt-a-highway’s, gone to and organized many protests (the March For Science being to this day the biggest protest I’ve ever helped create).

I want to own a RHD (right hand drive) Snow White FC-RX-7. I adored Initial-D growing up and Ryosuke’s was the first car I actually fell in love with. I was able to own one for a short while, but due to a lack of money, and time I was never actually able to complete the build. I try to play it off like it was no big deal, but that car really meant a lot to me, and it’s my goal to do it right.

I want to be an example of a great physicist, and a symbol of black excellence. I want to show that if I, a vegan, pan, non-binary person can get their Ph.D doing what they love DESPITE being homeless and abused, then you can too.

In case you need to hear this

1. You are loved

2. You are accepted no matter who you are

3. My inbox is always open

Stay up ✌🏿

🎧 my thoughts

Shout out to @messy-does-cosmology for putting in work, and being a good friend.

29.3.2021

This date is kinda fraudulent because it's past midnight now, but I'm giving myself a pass on being accurate because I am exahsted and I did about 10 hours of work today. I don't know if I've ever done that much work before in a day. Anyway I've been working on my research project report, and it's at 5500 words now out of about 6400 I need as the minimum for a first, so I only need to do roughly another thousand words to be in the clear (bibliographys don't count). I had a bit of a breakthrough because I worked out how to use the proper SDSS explore tool and it has been... life changing. I'm definitely going to be able to write another 1000+ words about my topic before I hand it in on Wednesday.

Day 29: Name your own aesthetic! What's an aesthetic you'd like to try out? I don't want to pretend to be a complex human being here but I really struggle to "try out" new aesthetics, because I feel very dismorphic about my own appearance often enough as is. Dressing like myself involves lots of primary colours, big jeans and a little shirt, or big jeans and a big shirt. I don't recognise myself otherwise. And if I were to name an aesthetic, it would be called astronomercore. It would involve a lot of fleece jumpers and thick jeans and gloves. And like maybe a big duvet stuffed in your backpack. Any fellow astronomy bitches will know.

2 April (Calc 4 and Diff. Eq)

These classes are the embodiment of a toxic relationship (but in the best of ways). The overall course load is a lot and most days I am struggling to get done by 10pm, but I can confidently say I FEEL LIKE A MATHEMATICIAN.

The math I’m doing now has real world applications. Yeah finding the slope of a line is cool, but when you find the vector tangent to the curve that accurately depicts the heating or cooling of a particular environment per mile THAT’S ACTUALLY USEFUL, AND HELPFUL TO THE WORLD.

On one hand, I have late nights followed by early mornings, and a fair amount of stress.

On the other, I have an overwhelming sense of validation, pride, and comfort.

This post goes out to @juicycupz, she was hands down the best partner I’ve ever had. While we may not be together now, she definitely played a major role in who I am now.

Stay up ✌🏿

🎧 Trappin in paradise 65 - Smooth Sounds

Transgender Day of Visibility.

My desk/dorm area

the aftermath of studying for 11hrs

31 March (Calc 4)

Today seemed to me an uphill battle from the start. I woke up to heart issues and dealing with an embedded lip ring (again), but I didn’t let that stop me.

I managed to get all of my work done, and am now trying to get further ahead so hopefully I won’t get crushed later on down the line.

Apologies for the short video, my iPhone corrupted most of the time lapse

Stay up y’all ✌🏿

🎧 L’Enfant Sauvage - Gojira

@milkie-studies

❝Since her death in 1979, the woman who discovered what the universe is made of has not so much as received a memorial plaque. Her newspaper obituaries do not mention her greatest discovery. […] Every high school student knows that Isaac Newton discovered gravity, that Charles Darwin discovered evolution, and that Albert Einstein discovered the relativity of time. 

But when it comes to the composition of our universe, the textbooks simply say that the most abundant atom in the universe is hydrogen. And no one ever wonders how we know.❞ — Jeremy Knowles, discussing the complete lack of recognition Cecilia Payne gets, even today, for her revolutionary discovery. (via alliterate)

OH WAIT LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT CECILIA PAYNE•

 Cecilia Payne’s mother refused to spend money on her college education, so she won a scholarship to Cambridge.

• Cecilia Payne completed her studies, but Cambridge wouldn’t give her a degree because she was a woman, so she said to heck with that and moved to the United States to work at Harvard

.• Cecilia Payne was the first person ever to earn a Ph.D. in astronomy from Radcliffe College, with what Otto Strauve called “the most brilliant Ph.D. thesis ever written in astronomy.”

• Not only did Cecilia Payne discover what the universe is made of, she also discovered what the sun is made of (Henry Norris Russell, a fellow astronomer, is usually given credit for discovering that the sun’s composition is different from the Earth’s, but he came to his conclusions four years later than Payne — after telling her not to publish)

.• Cecilia Payne is the reason we know basically anything about variable stars (stars whose brightness as seen from earth fluctuates). Literally every other study on variable stars is based on her work

.• Cecilia Payne was the first woman to be promoted to full professor from within Harvard, and is often credited with breaking the glass ceiling for women in the Harvard science department and in astronomy, as well as inspiring entire generations of women to take up science

.• Cecilia Payne is awesome and everyone should know her.(OP: Matthew Gardner)

So, I’ve been tasked with putting my playlist on shuffle and identifying the first 10 songs in hopes that y’all will get to know me better 😅.

Stone love - Pepper

I will never change - Benga

Everlasting Sleep - Chelsea Grin

Who’s the Man - ABN

Grove St. Party - Waka Flocka

Mechano - Datsik

Hoax - Jericho

Jazz (We’ve got) - A Tribe Called Quest

So High - Doja Cat

Plain Jane Remix (DJ HenDu Gotti) - ASAP Ferg and Nicki Minaj

And now to tag mutuals

@messy-does-cosmology @miss-biophys @caytheblkmermaid @karmahoudinii @caffeine-integral-studies @thegeekdomain @schrodingersstudent

30 March (the first day of classes)

I have mixed feelings about this quarter. On one hand I’ll be receiving a degree and moving on to an actual university. On the other I am faced with the fact that I won’t see many of my friends for quite some time after I graduate (not to mention the new course load and ops tempo)

In all I’m happy to be back, and look forward to future productivity

Stay up ✌🏿

🎧 Trappin in Paradise 78 - Smooth sounds

whats a nonlinear system

It’s a system that either tends toward infinity or tends toward a fixed point. The weather would be a key example of this. 😊

Am I nonbinary? No I don't think so. Would I be totally chill if someone used they/them or other nonbinary pronouns for me? Yeah honestly. Call me whatever you want tbh. I don't even think using he/him would feel that weird to me. Like I'm pretty confident that I'm a woman but I really think I'd be chill with whatever pronouns (except for maybe it/its). Call me whatever honestly.

In a similar vein, I've been having questions about my sexuality recently and I was reading old journals and realized I was having those same questions three years ago too. But the difference is, then I was very distinctly calling myself bisexual so this potential change in identity was really difficult and upsetting for me. Now I pretty much just call myself queer so a potential change in the nuance of my queerness doesn't upset me at all.

03/17/2021

After another long period of very little productivity, today I...

Researched some scholarship options

Answered emails/requested a recommendation letter

Filled out the big questions section of a college application

Wrote a brief "why this college" statement

Started planning a longer college admissions essay

17 March (last day of classes)

This quarter has collectively brought out the best and and worst in me. From dealing with heart issues, to dealing with mental issues it hasn’t been a fun time.

I had hopes of getting straight A’s, but ultimately I find myself once again looking just to get through it without failing (read: anything less than a B+). The burnout has been real and very hard to with but, I persevered.

It’s ok just to get through the quarter...

I love y’all ✌🏿

16.3.2021

Today and yesterday were a total whirlwind, but today was better than yesterday. I got lots done, even if I didn't do everything on my list (because I had to catch up from yesterday, haha!). I had stopped doing yoga as regularly, so I'm so glad I did some today. It brings my body a lot of peace.

@progressaesthetics challenge prompts:

Day 15: tag someone you would get along just fine with

"fine" seems like a low bar, but I love @nonlinear-student's posts and I think he's a really committed student. I love meeting other physics students here!

Day 16: what is your go-to beverage?

Masala chai with some kind of non-dairy milk, preferably almond. I also loooove hot chocolates, or some kind of flavoured "not real coffee" coffee, like cinnamon bun lattes.

15 March (linear algebra study session)

Today was rough, I was constantly fighting tooth and nail to study, and ultimately didn’t get much done. As much as I love being neurodivergent, it definitely has its drawbacks. However I am going to be headed back to the doctor soon to try and help with my focus.

Just because someone looks alright doesn’t mean that they are conversely, don’t assume that people who don’t look the best are struggling.

I love all of you beautiful creatures

🎧 The Internet x The Chopstars - Ego Death