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Clouds of Rain
Neteyam X F!Reader
Part 3 of Clouds Series
Summary: Everyday you and Neteyam get closer, but now he's seen a side you want to hide
Warning: Toxic parents, a little angst, fluff moments between Neteyam and Reader, Neteyam and Reader are eyeing eachother đâ€ïž
When the day had started, distant sounds of thunder echoed around the forest. Shadows crept across the moss covered floor as a storm rolled in. Many Na'vi relished in the rain, the prosperity it brought to the food and animals almost seemed mystical, but to you it brought a sorrow.
You weren't allowed out of your families tent on stormy days, even though you were seen as a grown adult, you were unmated, uncourted, so therefore, still a child in your parents eyes.
You longed for the sunshine and blue skies, but Eywa seemed to want a day of rest and restoring water to the cycle of life. "(Y/N)! Come here at once!" Your mother's voice cut through your day dream as you stared out into the vast mist of rain in the distance.
You stood from your position and walked with small steps to your mother. Your youngest sibling, a boy the age of three, sat in her lap fast asleep. You wished you could curl up like that, remembering the days she would coo at you and kiss you sweetly, that changed when more siblings came along and suddenly you couldn't do anything right in her eyes.
Kneeling in front of her, she spoke,"You are to go get us some fruit from the gathering circle, be quick, you are to come straight back, do you understand," her tone left no answer needed, it was a demand.
You nodded, going to stand but her hand tightly grapsed your wrist, pulling you back around to face her, her dull yellow eyes hard. "Answer me girl!" "Yes mama," you quietly spoke, eyes meeting her face but not her eyes, she hated when you looked at her in the eyes.
Releasing you, she waved you off and you quickly turned and hurried out. It wasn't usual for Na'vi to be abusive to their children, yet it wasn't unheard of. Your parents just happened to check every mark there was, verbal, emotional, mental, and physical. It just depended on their mood of the day to determine how your day would end.
Reaching the gathering circle, you picked the nicest looking fruit that you hoped would appease her rath, you began to walk back with it bundled in your arms, only to run smack into another person.
The fruit got squashed between both bodies, the juice sticking to your arms, chest and stomach, your mouth slightly open in shock. That was unexpected, but then again you were rushing with your head down.
"Oh Great Mother, I'm sorry!" Neteyams voice made you jolt up to meet his eyes, his face worried as he realized he ran into you. Just another foolish episode it seemed.
"(Y/n)! I'm so sorry, let me help you," Neteyam reached down to grab the fruit, but it unsavable at that point. You covered your mouth with a soft laugh, not wanting to upset the man in his rush to help you.
"Its alright Neteyam, no harm done," you assured, a smile gracing your lips. Neteyam was a light in your gray world, he could do no wrong in your eyes. The thought of the fruit left your mind, now focused solely on spending time with Neteyam.
"Come," you helped him up, his words stumbling over each other as he tried to figure out how to help, "B-but your fruit? Let me, let me help," you shook your head, waving it off, "There will be more fruit, but let's go get washed up," he let you drag him away, the fruit left forgotten on the floor.
Mother would not be happy later.
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Laughing as you two walked up the edge of the village where vases of water sat, you let go and approached the water. Cupping your hands together, bringing the cool water to your face and neck, you breathed in a sigh of relief and shut your eyes, the water doing good to help rid the sticky fruit and seeds that stuck to your skin.
Neteyam allowed his eyes to trace over each water droplet that ran down your soft skin, going where only his eyes could imagine and where he wished he could touch too. Oh to be envious of water.
"Aren't you going to wash up?" Your soft voice broke his concentration, eyes looking to your face and seeing your glowing green eyes staring at him with your eyelids lowered, a look you weren't trying to give him but his thoughts quickly wondered and this caused him to rush forward, almost dunking his head into the water to cool himself off.
You giggled, having noticed his look from before and allowed your own eyes to slowly rake over his flushed body. His years of training doing wonders for him, the muscle and strength he held made your tail flick a few times before you willed it to stop and wrap around your leg.
"I am sorry, for ruining your fruit," Neteyam wiped his face of water, looking down at you though you smiled.
That pretty smile made him weak.
"Its alright, there will be more fruit later," you looked up at him, "let me make it up to you," he offered, though you grew confused. How would he make it up to you? Why did he feel the need? It was only a few pieces of fruit, surely you could replace it on your own.
"Oh? How?" You asked, arms crossing and staring at him intrigued, your hip jutting out a little causing him to gulp, trying to focus back on you as a whole.
"That's for me to worry about, now, let's go grab you some more fruit," he placed a small kiss to your head as he walked by, your face flushing as you trailed after him.
It was true you had kissed him before, a few weeks ago before he took you flying on his Ikran, but since then it had only been longing stares and a few light touches. A whisper here and there in the others ear, both of you too scared to ruin what you had going on. Scared that your realities would be crushed by the world if the true feelings were spoken out into the air.
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Arriving back at the gathering circle, Neteyam grabbed new fruit to replace the ones he messed up, placing only one in your arms and he carried the rest.
"Oh no, Neteyam I can carry It really," you begged, not wanting him to follow you home. Not to the horrors that may await you. "Nonsense, allow me to help you, it was my fault," he grinned, not picking up on your worried tone.
It seemed he didn't have to, for your father's voice cut throught the air like a knife. "(Y/n)!" His deep, growl like voice caused you to freeze, Neteyam frowning when he saw the fear plaster on your now pale face. His eyes glanced behind you where two figures were appearing.
"Papa," you greeted, turning where the tall, brooding Na'vi man stood. He was one of the best hunters in the clan, your younger brother, only three years younger than you, trailing behind him with a small, smug look.
Your brother quite enjoyed when you got in trouble, but that's only because he himself didn't have to bare your father and mother's disapproving gaze.
"What are you doing? Your mother has been waiting and here you are, goofing off and laying around like you always do," Your fathers eyes made you shrink, head down into your shoulders hoping to disappear.
Neteyam placed himself between you both, chest puffing up to match your father. He didn't like how dull your eyes got, he hated how you tried to shrink instead of stand tall. "The fault is mine, sir, take it up with me. Leave your daughter out of this," Neteyam hissed, his tail lashing at the thought of what this man would say or do to you, his own child.
Your Father seemed to realize who he now faced, eyes narrowing suspiciously as they darted between Toruk Maktos oldest son, the future leader of the clan and his own child, his only daughter and oldest child.
The way the young man stood in front of you, challenging him to dare say another word had your father ask,"Who are you to tell me how to talk to my daughter? Have you courted her, mated with her," he knew the answer, but your father wanted to prove a point.
"No sir, but the fault is mine. I caused her to drop fruit and helped to clean her up, so any qualms you have you can deal them with me right now," Neteyam promised, knowing that the fact you two really weren't together stung, but he would defend you no matter what. He loved you that much.
It seemed as though Eywa had a saving grace, his own father, Jake Sully, appeared. "What's going on here?" Jake looked narrow eyed to the hunter in front of him, he knew (F/N) well, the man was very strict and harsh, but one of the best hunters to the clan.
You rushed forward, tired of all the arguing and not wanting a whole fight to break out. "Neteyam was helping me with fruit, I was clumsy and dropped it," you spazzed through your words, not turning to meet either Sully mens eyes behind you, focusing on your father instead, scared of what he would say more or do.
"I'm sorry Papa, I will be more careful from now on," Your father didn't want to cause a bigger scene infront of his Olo'eyktan, so he called for your brother to take the fruit who glared at you as if you had asked him instead of your father. "We will speak at home," your father leaned down close and threatened, eyes of green, though darker than your own, stared right through you. His words a silent threat that more than talking will be done at home.
"Yes Papa," you submitted, ears pulled back in fear and humiliation. Fear of what your father would do. Humiliation that Neteyam had to witness you like this.
Your Father and brother stomped away, your shoulders tense as you turned to see both men staring at you sadly.
"Thank you for helping me Neteyam, I'll see you around," you hurried out, words like mush as you trailed off into the direction your family had gone to.
"(Y/n)-" Neteyam reached out, but his father's hand on his shoulder stopped him, a huff of defeat in his lips as you disappeared from view.
"Give her some space, (F/n) is not one to mess with, getting her in more trouble may not be a wise case," Jake instructed, Neteyam clicking his tongue in annoyance and anger.
"(Y/n) shouldn't be suffering with them! It was my fault that the fruit fell, she shouldn't have to pay for that," he felt himself become hostile every second that passed, now beginning to pace in front of his father.
"(Y/n) deserves to be free! She is a grown woman, not a pet or a child!" He cried, Neteyam turning his body, eyes gazing after your invisible figure one last time.
"She so gentle, I want to watch her float on the clouds, not be tied down," Neteyam whispered.
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Makes me wanna grab my own man and throw him on the couch đđ§Ą
It's me again! This is my first time posting a request, sorry! đ Fixing it, 5 + bakugou đ„
a/n: youâre okay !! donât apologize, lovely <333 tysm for sending one in đđđ SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG OMG
cw: virgin!bkg, dry humping
prompt 5: âIs it good when I touch you here?â
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Through the haze of his mind, Bakugou tries to recall how he landed himself here. Leaning back on your couch, with you perched prettily on his lap. His chest heaves with arousal, and he prays you donât feel the bulge pushing through his trousers.
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âWould you like to come in?â you ask shyly, biting your lip. His face flushed at your question, shuffling his feet nervously. âLike, right now?â Your laugh eased his worry, small smile forming on his own face. âYeah, right now. You totally donât have to though!â you mumble, âI just like bein around you.â Gods, it was only your guysâ fourth official date and he already thinks heâs in love. âYeah, Iâll come in,â he said, pressing a kiss to your head. You squeezed his hand with your own, smile brightening. âGreat! We can watch a movie or something,â you smile up at him.
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The movie in question played behind you long forgotten. Moans mixed in with the track playing behind you. He nearly whimpers when you grind yourself into him, hands tightening on your waist. âIs this okay?â you whisper to him, fingers twirling the short hairs on the nape of his neck. He grunts in response, not trusting his ability to his the desperation the claws up his throat. His hand moves to the back of your neck, pulling your mouth back onto his. You moan into his mouth when he runs your tongue against his, hips grinding harder onto him. He breaks the kiss, eyes avoiding yours. He clears his throat, willing the heat rushing up his cheeks to stay dormant. âUhh- Iâve, um. Iâve never done this,â he cringes at his own words. âOh, thatâs alright,â you say with a smile, âwe donât have to do anything.â
âNo, itâs not like thatâ like I havenât, you know. But it only becauseâ
âBakugou.â
ââbecause of paperwork and my job I just donât really have time toâ
âBakugou.â
âLike Iâm not experienced or whatever but I know what Iâm doing it doesnât have to be a weird thing orâ
âKatsuki.â
His mouth is quick to close, eyes squeezing shut in embarrassment. âKatsuki,â you whisper, âIâm not worried about it. We can stop.â Your hands card through his hair, forehead falling lightly into his. He breathes heavily through his nose, eyes opening to meet yours. âI want to, eventually. Just, maybe not right now. But I dunno, Iâ I donât want to stop.â Youâre quick to press your lips to his again, content to let him set his own pace. You gasp in surprise when he grinds you back onto him, hands gripping his hair tighter. You rest your hands over his where theyâre resting at your hips, sliding them under your skirt to rest against the bare skin. He moans at the action, warm hands gripping your bare skin to bring you down harder onto him.
âFuck,â he moans, head falling back, âcan feel how wet you are.â You whimper at his words, hips stuttering when he rests his thumb against your throbbing clit. âIs it good when I touch you here?â he whispers, thumb rubbing harsh circles over your covered heat. âYes! Yes, Katsuki. Youâ youâre gonna make me cum.â He groans, lips attaching to your neck to nip at the skin. âCâmon, sweet girl. Cum for me.â
A tear falls from your eye as your high washes over you, hips bucking wildly at the intense pleasure. You fall against his chest as you come down, breaths heavy. âYou okay?â he whispers, âFeel good?â You hum in approval, moving to peck his lips. âSo good. Weâre not done though, right? I still want to make you cum,â you say, grinding your hips over his throbbing member. Yeah, he thinks, maybe I am in love.
Love Festival
Kirishima Eijiro x F!OC
Summary: Being Fatgums adopted daughter can be challenging, especially when it comes to meeting his new interns while also having to keep watch over Eri.
Quirk: Ram
Quirk fact: Bring able to run, jump and react like a Ram, the user is able to also headbutt and cause great damage with their strength and horns. They also can digest anything like a Ram. Also has a fluffy wool tail, and a wool band around both wrists. Her legs from the waist down are ram legs, so she looks more like a Mythical Fawn.
Warnings: Fluff, cursing, enjoy!!
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"Oh hey Eraser Head! What's going on?" Fatgum answered his phone while sitting at his desk in his office at Fatgum Agency. "Fatgum, Midoriya and Togata have requested for Eri to be present at our School Festival, seeing as how Eri has bonded with Aki, do you think she'd be willing to join her on that day?" Aizawa questioned, standing outside Eri's hospital room where the young girl was currently having her lunch.
Fatgum pondered for a moment,"Well I don't see why she couldn't. I guess she could use a break too, between her assignments and being with Eri at the hospital, I'm sure she'd love it!" "Alright, I'll be sure to let the class know so they don't freak out. Speaking of, only Amajiki and the others in the Big Three have met Aki right? She was away on another assignment when Work Studies happened," Aizawa knew his students would probably freak out when seeing Eri's caregiver and friend, who was the same age as them but on a whole other level.
"You're correct, so Kirishima hasn't met her. It'll be fine though, I have full confidence that everything will be fine," Fatgum smiled into the phone, nonchalant about anything going on. "Alright, we'll discuss details later then," with that the two hung up.
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"Oh hey Togata!" Midoriya called out to Togata, waving him over from where Togata was hiding behind the bush. Togata narrowed his eyes, realizing he'd been found out before he can surprise them.
The dance team looked on in surprise as Togata stuck his bottom out from the bush, Eri standing beside him looking surprised as well, "Hey guys! I brought a PEACH for ya,"
"Eri!" Midoroya called out as he, Uraraka and Tsuyu ran up to greet them. "That dress looks so cute," Tsuyu commented, "You are precious!" Uraraka gushing in fondness. The girls couldn't help the big smiles on their faces.
"Midoriya, I finally got permission from the Principle," Togata climbed out of the bush and began brushing off his pants as Aizawa spoke, "in order for her to not get stressed, we're allowing her to roam around today before the Festival, also there's someone you all need to meet as well,"
The other dance team members came forward to introduce themselves to the young girl. "Well hello there, you must be Eri, I'm Iida, nice to meet you," "Wassup I'm Mineta, man you're gonna be a looker when you're older huh~" Mineta smirked, but the young girl hid behind Togata, "I want Aki,"
The name had taken them by surprise, "Aki? Whose that?" Midoriya questioned, confusion written on the Work Study kids faces. "Oh right, you haven't met her yet. Aki is Eri's caregiver, well when she's not on Assignments for Fatgum," Togata explained, "Eri can be a little shy around new people, but her and Aki get along very well,"
"Its perfectly alright to be shy," Iida commented, softening his voice to not scare Eri further. "Let's start the tour! Aki should be here soon, so I wanna show her as much of the school as I can so she can see what we do here, you wanna come along too Midoriya?" Togata extended the offer, knowing that since Aki isn't here, Eri might be calm with Midoriya around too. "You bet!" "Hey Dance Team! New idea!" Kirishima's voice broke out, before realizing Eri was there.
"Oh hey Eri! Wait, we've never been officially introduced," Kirishima crouched down to meet Eri's gaze when another voice broke out.
"I'm so sorry I'm late, someone decided to rob a gas station on the way over and I couldn't just leave the situation," it was a soft, silky voice that came from behind Aizawa. The students all turned their attention to see a young dark skinned girl about their age.
Her hair was a dark auburn red that came to below her shoulder blades, soft waves accentuating her purple eyes that seemed to have a swirl of white in them but were framed with thin gold wired glasses. Freckles dawned her nose and cheeks that were flushed with red, giving her an innocent look. What caught their attention the most was the Ram horns that protuded from her head, her legs being Ran legs with red fur like her hair but black hooves. Her outfit consisted of a off the shoulder wool dress she seemed to be wearing that came to stop at her upper thighs, a bell was wrapped around her neck and jingled everytime she moved, of course it also brought attention to her chest that was framed by the wool.
Some of the boys blushed, and Kirishima found himself entranced by her. "Aki!" Eri exclaimed, walking over to the girl who crouched down to her height, "I missed you!" Eri reached her arms out to her, Aki smiling and welcoming the girl into her arms, "I missed you too," giving Eri a nuzzle as the girls closed their eyes and embraced eachother.
"So you're Aki! It's a pleasure to meet you!" Midoroiya smiled, the class seemingly broken from the momentary shock. "The pleasure is all mine! Thank you for what you did for Eri, I would've been on the assignment too if Papa hadn't sent me on a different one," Aki greeted, before realizing she needed to properly introduce herself.
Standing up, Eri still in her arms as she bowed, "I'm sorry! My name is Toyomitsu Aki, it's so nice to meet you all, please call me Aki!" Straightening up, Eri wrapped her arms around Aki as rested her head on Aki's shoulder.
"Wait, Toyomitsu? Why does that sound familiar?" Kirishima wondered aloud, rubbing his head as if it would bring the answer to him. "WAIT I KNOW YOU!" Midoriya yelled out, eyes growing wide as he pointed toward Aki,"YOU'RE RAM-RAM, THE YOUNGEST PERSON TO EVER BECOME A HERO, YOU'RE ALSO FATGUMS DAUGHTER!" Now the students outside all yelled in shock, "WHAT!?"
"Oops, guess the cats out of the bag," Togata laughed, Aizawa just shaking his head in embarrassment from his students. "WAIT, you're really Fatgum's daughter!? Why didn't I know this!" Kirishima cried out, his head a mess knowing the girl he found cute was actually his Mentors daughter.
"Yeah, Papa adopted me when I was a baby, I hope this doesn't affect us becoming friends?" Aki smiled nervously, her small tail twitching in anticipation. "No way! That's so cool, let's take a break everyone, it's tea time!" Mina chimed in, hoping to calm everyone down from the excitement, "There will be more time to explain later, get on with the tour, we don't have time to waste," Aizawa called out, Togata and Aki nodding as Midoriya went to go change his clothes really quick.
"So if you're Fatgums daughter, you must know Amajiki right?" Kirishima questioned, trying to push through his nerves in front of the pretty Ram girl. He was determined to get to know his Mentors daughter. "Definitely! Tama-Kun is so nice, I love going on assignments with him, especially when he shares his food with me like Papa," Aki gushed, her red cheeks getting even darker with excitement, a closed eye smile making Kirishimas cheeks match hers in color. "My name is Kirishima Eijiro, my hero name is Red Riot, I'm actually a new intern at your father's agency for my Work Study," He introduced himself, holding out a hand in greeting.
Aki's jaw dropped and sparkles seemed to erupt from no where, "NO WAY! Papa has told me all about Red Riot, your name is a play off of Crimson Riot right!? I love that, he's such an amazing Hero!" Aki rambled, Kirishima feeling himself fall even harder.
Togata chuckled and took Eri from Aki, who was so engrossed in her conversation she didn't even seem to notice the weight lifted from her arms. Eri looked between the two red heads and noticed that Aki looks so happy, like when she finds a good object to chew on, then again anything was good to chew on for Aki.
"Totally manly right! Hey, are you gonna be here for our School Festival? It'll be totally killer, we're putting on a performance!" "Of course, I'll be chapperoning Eri that day so we won't miss it," The two had seemed to have fallen into their own little world, the other students just watching in amazement.
"I don't think I've seen Kirishima this excited before," Tsuyu commented, Uraraka and Mina nodding in agreement. "Oh jeez, he's got it bad," Ojiro laughed, Mineta seething from the mouth that he didn't get to touch the pretty animal girl. "He's got what?" Shoji asked, looking to Ojiro for answers, although Hagakure answered instead, "Kirishima is totally falling for Aki! What better romance is that!? An employee and the Bosses daughter? It's so forbidden but romantic!" Hagakure couldn't contain her excitement and started to swoon, Mina grabbing her shoulders as she tries to balance her friend.
"Hey Aki! Let's get this show on the road!" Togata called out, waving his arm to grab her attention. "Oh, coming MiMi-Kun! I guess I should go, we'll talk again soon, right?" Aki questioned, taking Kirishimas hands into her own, a bright smile on her face as her eyes seemed to sparkle. Kirishima felt his face warm up, but nodded, a nervous smile on his face from how close she was,"Definitely, we can meet up sometime at the agency maybe,"
"See ya later," she giggled, walking over and taking Eri's hand into her own. Kirishima could only watch with his heart beating out of his chest as the beautiful girl left, when he felt a hand on his back slap him forward, "OH MY GOSH KIRISHIMA, YOU'RE SO LUCKY, YOU SLY THING YOU!" Mina exclaimed, repeatedly hitting him in her excitement. "Way to go dude," Ojiro laughed, the rest of the students all smiling and calling out their support for him. "Come guys this is so not manly," he whined, embarrassed having realized they watched him and Aki. Yet he smiled and couldn't help but think 'Maybe this Festival will be good,'
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Walking around the school seemed to excite Eri and Aki, both wondering how all the different classes worked and what each class would put on for the School Festival.
Meeting up with Amajiki and Hado excited Aki to the point of her having steam come out of her nose in puffs, "Tama-Kun!Nene-chan!" She called out to them, Nejire flying over in greeting as they began to discuss the beauty pagent in detail and how Nejire was going to win this year.
"Hey! Maybe you should join Aki! I bet you'd be a shoe in for runner up!!" Hado squealed, wanting the girl who was like a little sister to join in on the fun. "Oh I'd live to Nene-chan but I'm not a student here," Aki smiled, though Midoriya thought her smile seemed a little forced, "plus I wouldn't wanna ruin your chances by competing, I'll be sure to cheer you on though!" Aki grinned, giving Hado two thumbs up who returned it. Eri looking between the two and then to her hands, mimicking them but smaller, though everyone swooned.
After visiting the Support Class last, they went to Lunch Rush's in the cafeteria to give Eri somthing to eat to finalize the tour. "Well that's all of U.A!" "What did you think of our School Eri?" Midoriya questioned, Eri though looked unsure, "I..I don't know," both boys looked at eachother nervously, but Aki smiled at her which gave Eri enough courage to continue, "But I can see how hard everyone is working, so I do wanna see how it turns out," Aki gave her a grin, proud of Eri for trying to speak out more and explain her thoughts and feelings.
At the end of the day, they returned Midoriya to Heights Alliance and said goodbye. "We'll be back on the day of the festival," Togata explained, pumping his arm in excitement, "So make sure it's killer,"
As they went to leave, Aki spoke up, "I will catch up with you in a moment MiMi-Kun, I wanna ask Midoriya somthing really quick," Togata nodded and escorted Eri out.
"What is it Aki? Is everything okay?" Aki stared at him for a second, before her eyes sharpened and it made him jump back, "What is your deal with Eri? What are you hoping to gain?" "W-what?" Midoriya was taken back, 'How can such a sweet and cute girl get terrifying to quickly!?'
"You seem very focused on making her happy. Why? I don't want anyone near Eri who was bad intentions," "It's not like that! When we found Eri that first time, I was so upset we couldn't do anything. I beat myself up everytime I think about it, I wanna be a hero that saves people with a smile. But Eri hasn't smiled once, so I wanna help her smile. I wanna help her become a child again, especially after what she went through," Midoriya was firm with his answer, now staring Aki back in the eyes, hoping to show her the true meaning of his intentions.
Aki suddenly smiled, sparkles surrounding her like with Kirishima earlier, "Okie dokie. I hope your goals come true," Midoriya sweat dropped, 'How bipolar can she be?' Aki then bit her lip nervously, arms behind her back as she shuffled, "I do have one more question, more of a favor though,"
This caught him by surprise, "Sure, what is it?" Holding out a folded up paper, she asked, "Can you give this to Kiri-kun for me?" "Huh!? KIRISHIMA!?" "Y-Yes, I know this sounds silly but.. he's very cute," Aki admitted, her face turning red and her tail stub swished back and forth.
"U-uh sure, I can give this to him. Wouldn't you wanna give it to him in person though," "I-I don't know..I don't wanna over step," "Nonsense, come on,"
With that Midoriya led her inside, the rest of the class unwinding in the main sitting area, though they looked in surprise with the girl in tow with Midoriya. "Hello again!" Mina greeted, "Guys this is Toyomitsu Aki, she's Eri's caregiver," Midoriya introduced the girl, her bowing to the class with a smile.
"Hello everyone, so pleased to meet you," her smile made them all flushed, 'SO CUTE'. "So what are you doing here? Is everything okay?" Jirou questioned, "I-I was hoping to speak to u-uh..Kirishima-kun," Aki was embarrassed, now noticing how many people were staring at her intensely.
"Did someone call me? Oh hey Aki! What's up?" Kirishima questioned, having just walked out of the kitchen, but smiled big when he saw the beautiful girl from this morning.
"H-hi! I just wanted to u-uh, give this to you," stumbling over her words, she tried to act relaxed but was dying on the inside and outside. "O-Oh, thanks," Kirishima blushed, taking the folded up note from her out stretched hand, when their fingers touched however they both jumped apart and their faces burned red.
Of course, Mineta took this time to try and sneak up behind the girl. Reaching his hand out to flip the bottom of her dress, mumbling on how it was so short, it'd be a crime to not go through with it. Thankfully, Kirishima took notice and pulled her to him, hardening his hand as he punched him away, "KNOCK IT OFF," He growled, holding Aki close in his left arm.
Aki shivered, noticing how his muscles squeezed her like she'd dissappear if he let her go. Tapping his chest, he realized he was holding her and jumped back, "I'm so sorry! He can just never keep his hands to himself and it'd be so unmanly if me to not step in," Kirishima freaked out, waving his hands and trying to plead his case. He froze though when Aki walked up and gave him a kiss on the cheek, "It's alright, thanks for being my Hero," she winked, suddenly finding some courage in his embarrassment. "I'll see you at the festival like we talked about earlier, right?" Aki asked, let her hands rest on his chest, "U-Uh YYEaH Suree," his voice cracked, his whole mind running in auto pilot. "Awesome, I'll see you then," she turned on her hoof and began walking toward the exit, she looked over to the class in a whole and waved goodnight before exiting Heights Alliance.
A loud thud made everyone turn toward where Kirishima was, noticing he'd fallen over, his eyes swirling and a giant grin in his red face. "Aki's so cute," he chucked, Kaminari and Sero whooping for him while Iida lectured about proper PDA in the presence of others. All Kirishina knew is that the festival couldn't come soon enough.
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On the day of the festival, Aki and Eri sat in the back if a taxi has Togata sat up front and was going over the schedule for the day. "We'll catch 1-As performance, then race over to 1-B for their play, then it'll be lunch and the pagent, does that sound alright?" He turned to face the horned girls in the back, Eri's outfit was a cute red and white dress while Aki wore her usual wool dress only this time it was red to compliment her hair.
"Sounds great, we can probably catch 1-A setting up before they perform," "oo~you just wanna catch Kirishima before he performs, maybe to wish him luck~" Togata teased, Aki gritting her teeth and raising her hood, kicking him in the back if the head leaving a hoof print, "Hehe, nevermind," Togata smiled, Eri looking up at Aki, "Do you like Kirishima?" "U-uh well, I admire him so to say," Aki tripped over her words as Togata laughed at her misfortune.
Once they'd arrived at the school, Aki mentioned she was going to see Nejire before 1-A to wish her luck before she got ready.
"Nene-chan, are you in here?" Aki knocked, hearing a lot of voices from inside the dressing room. Opening the door, Aki was met with Hado, Yuyu, and a few other students. "Oh sorry, I just wanted to come wish you luck," Aki smiled, holding her hands together in front of her.
"Ram-Ram!?" The other students exclaimed, shocked that a young hero would show up here. "Oh hello! Wonderful to meet you," she bowed, greeting them as they momentarily freaked out before bowing back.
"Hey hey! What're you doing here Aki? Where's Eri? Or Togata?" "They went to go see 1-A real quick, I was about to go see them, just wanted to see you first," Aki sheepishly explained, Testutestu suddenly appeared in front of the girls face making her lean back in surprise.
"Wait a second are you that girl Kirishima is always talking about!? The pretty red haired Ram girl that is Fatgums daughter!" Aki flushed hearing the red haired boys name.
"Well it's nice to know he thinks of me," she said happily, before looking at the clock, "I've gotta go, I hope everything goes good for you girls!" She cheered, waving as she walked out leaving the others stunned, "Why does Kirishima always get the good opportunities," Testutestu cried out, falling to his knees depressed that a beautiful girl like that was already taken by Kirishima.
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"Hey! I'm not too late am I?" Aki called out, running up to the 1-A group. "Oh Ram-Ram! Welcome," Yamomo greeted, fiddling with her keyboard to make sure it was on the right setting. "We've still got about twenty minutes until we go on, Midoriya should've been back by now, he went to go get rope earlier," Kirishima mentioned, cheeks going a light pink at facing Aki again.
"Well I'm sure it'll be amazing, are you doing special affects?" Aki questioned, leaning close into Kirishimas personal space, "Y-Yeah, I hope you'll enjoy them," he smiled, running a hand through his hair. "HEY SHITTY HAIR, LETS GO WE AINT GOT ALL DAY!" Bakugou yelled out then realized Kirishima was talking to a girl.
"Hey Sheep Ass! What're you doing in here?! Don't be trying to pull anything dammit," Bakugou seethed, his teeth gritting together in annoyance of a new person.
"I was just wishing you guys luck," Aki began to ring her hands nervously, "Well we don't need luck! We'll kick ass either way dammit!" Bakugou exclaimed, getting in her face. Aki decided he needed to calm down and quit yelling.
Ramming her head into his stomach, Bakugou lurched forward coughing as he fell to the ground holding his stomach,"Damn Ram Bitch. What the fuck was that for," he gasped, rolling around on the floor in pain. "I didn't appreciate you being in my face," she calmly spoke, turning to Kirishima again who looked at her in awe at her strength.
"I'll leave you to it, you'll do amazing," her lips pressed to his cheek again, although this time they grazed the corner of his mouth slightly. Giggling she turned and left the room.
Silence ticked by for a second before Kirishima belted out, "GUYS THIS HAS TO BE AMAZING, TOP NOTCH MANLY," He hardened up without knowing, the others in the class around him sweat dropping at the sudden mood change.
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As the curtains opened and a deafening explosion happened, Aki smiled as Jirou started her song, the dancers and musicians knocking it out of the ball park all at once.
The beat had Aki dancing in place, Togata laughing at her as Eri watched in surprise of Midoroiya dancing, well at least until he went off stage for some reason. "He left," "He'll be back, let's keep watching," Togata assured her, the music still blaring into their ears.
The song kept continuing to grow in progress when all of a sudden a lot of special effects went off, Uraraka swinging out to the crowd and lifting some audience members off the ground, one of them being Aki who laughed and brought Eri with her who couldn't hold it in any longer, throwing her arms out and laughing, a giant smile on her face. Aki and Togata had tears in their eyes as they smiled, knowing this young girl had finally broken free from her shackles of a pervious life. Aki hugged her tight before spinning in a circle with her, both girls laughing together in glee as Togata cheered them on. The song came to an end as the audience screamed and cheered, Aki and Eri now holding onto Togata as the three of them embraced in a hug. Eri had finally smiled and it made the two older ones warm with happiness.
As the gym filled out, the three met up with Midoriya on his way back in, Togata congratulating him on a job well done. "It was so crazy! First there was a loud sound and it was scary, but then everyone started jumping, even Aki was dancing and then Deku you went away for a little bit. But then there was a spinning guy and it started to get cold and I saw a lot of birds and people went "Wow" and you know what I said? Wow too!" Eri rambled on, her arms being thrown everywhere in excitement as Togata and Aki copied her from her side. "It was so much fun! Especially when Aki flew in the air with me and we danced," Eri stopped when she noticed Midioriya getting tears in his eyes, "I'm so glad you had fun Eri," this caused Eri to smile wide at him, Aki not able to hold it in anymore and swooped her up, spinning in circles as both girls laughed together. The boys looking on with their own smiles.
Heading outside, they met up with some of the boys that were melting the ice. "Ah dang this ice is too big, hey Bakugou can you-" "Kick Force!" A voice cut off Kaminari as a blur of red jumped in the air and came down on the giant block of ice, breaking it into little pieces. "Whoa!" Peoole passing by stopped and stared, Aki standing up and fixing her glasses. "Is this okay?" She asked, tilting her head with a smile.
"Hey its Ram-Ram!" "I didn't know she'd be here!" "She's so cute!" Voices came from behind her, causing her to turn over her shoulder and smile at the students and give a wave causing them all to flush red from the adorableness.
"Hey Aki! How'd you like the show?" Kirishima asked, hands on his hips, but he quickly put them put to catch Aki who jumped at him, landing in his arms as hers went around his neck that was turning red, "It was so amazing! The lighting, the music, the dancing, it was so beautiful! The affects were so awesome too! It was a rush of adrenaline for sure," Aki couldn't help but gush over the performance, Kirishima grinning and twirled her around, cheeks still flushed, "THAT'S GREAT! I'm so glad you guys enjoyed it! I did happen to catch you dancing a few moves too," he winked, catching her off guard but she laughed and nodded, finally getting set back in the ground.
Togata watched for a second before smirking, "You know we still have about two hours or so before the pagent, why don't you show Aki the rest of the festival Kirishima!" Aki and Kirishima turned bright red, but both agreed to it as the rest of the class came out to begin their own sight seeing if the festival too. Kirishima grabbed Aki's hand and began to drag her out of sight, she looked back over her shoulder to see Togata and Eri waving to her, both smiling as she disappeared from sight.
Both red heads walked around, looking at all the different food vendors and games, before coming upon the High Striker game, where you bring the hammer down to ring the bell and win a prize. They went to walk past it before Aki noticed fluffy Ram and Shark plushies. Kirishima looked to her and then the prizes before waking up to the student running it. "Hey dude! What do you have to do to win those two?" Pointing to the plushies Aki was eyeing. "You've gotta ring the high bell, you only get one try though," the student informed, gesturing to the tallest one they had which looked to be about fifty feet high. Kirishima grabbed the hammer, Aki stopping him momentarily, "You don't have to do that Kiri-Kun" she informed, but he shook his head, "It wouldn't be very manly of me to not win a pretty girl the plushies she wants, so just sit back and watch," he grinned at her before turning his attention to the game in front of him. He hardened his body as he swung the hammer up and brought it down full force, the little rod shooting straight up and knocking into the bell, denting it but ringing it nonetheless.
Aki cheered in amazement as Kirishima was handed the two plushies, the student behind the counter complaining to himself about needing a new bell now. Aki was handed both but then looked to Kirishima and handed him back the Ram one. "Seems only fair you get one too, right," she giggled, Kirishima smiling and nodding, taking Aki's free hand into his again as they continued down the path. Both could agree that this was probably the best day ever.
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Standing at the gate to see the three off, Aki and Kirishima stared at each other for a minute before smiling softly to one another. "I'm glad you could join us, maybe you can come back another time?" Kirishima asked, hopeful he'd get to see her again, preferably outside of Work Studies and School. "Mmm, I don't know. I have my assignments and taking care of Eri too," Aki admitted, her purple eyes staring into his Ruby red eyes that were full of hope.
"Actually, I guess it's alright to tell you that you'll be seeing everyone alot more. We're planning on moving Eri into the dorms here, to keep a better eye on her and her progress with her quirk. Of course, her care taker is gonna have to be with her," Aizawas voice cut in, making both teens turn toward him in shock before turning back to each other.
Kirishima whooped and picked up Aki, spinning her around as they both laughed, setting her back in the ground, he blurted out, "Would you like to go out sometime?!" He realized what he said and burned red, but kept his eyes trained on her shocked face but she soon smiled shyly and nodded, "I'd love to, maybe you can show me a nice Cafe around here?" She asked, Kirishima nodding as he took out his phone to get her number so they can plan it for the day she comes back.
Aizawa and Togata watched the two as Midoriya and Eri said goodbye a little ways to the side, "I'm gonna regret this aren't I," Aizawa sighed, feeling the need to go to bed after such a long day, "Awe come on Eraser Head, it's cute," Aizawa merely shook his head, turning to walk off, "Some School Festival this turned out be," Togata only laughed and called out, "I'm pretty sure you mean Love Festival!"
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Hiiiii. Hope you enjoyed it. Let me know your thoughts! I know some people don't like OCs that much but I thought I'd give it a try.
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Thinking about hitman Bakugou whoâs known in the seedy underbelly for being the best in his field. The man you call when you need someone to disappear, and his rates have the price tag to match. He never asks questions, only name and photograph. In exchange he gives his own photograph backâ one heâs taken at the scene to prove that heâs been successful. The bloody, broken body of his latest target left cold and alone as he collects his payment. Bakugou can charge whatever he wants and people will pay because he has a hundred percent success rateâ that is until he finds you.
He knows nothing about you apart from what heâs seen watching youâ the coffee shops you like to frequent each morning, the commute you take to work, even what you buy grocery shopping (you buy way too many instant ramen packets to be healthy.) but somehow the more he watches you the more he becomes intrigued by you.
Itâs almost pathetic really, how easily he allows himself to fall into you. Starting to think about more aspects of you, things that shouldnât matter when heâs on the job. He starts to wonder why someone would want you deadâ questions heâs never asked before on any other hit. But you have him questioning himself. Even as he watches through your window as you ready yourself for bed, peeling your shirt up and over your head as you unclasp your bra. Letting your breasts spill out as you pick up your sleep shirt, clearly oblivious to his eyes watching as you tug down your jeans, giving him the perfect glimpse of your pink panties.
Bakugou has to take deep, long breaths through his nose to stop himself from palming the tent in his pants as he watches you make your way towards your bed, slipping beneath the sheets as you settle down for the night. His gloved hands lifting up the window that heâd unlocked earlier that day to climb insideâ sleuthy feet padding across your carpeted floors as he stands over your bed. Giving him the perfect view of you sound asleep, your lips parted slightly as he watches the steady rise and fall of your chest. The gun in his hand wobbling slightly as he aims it towards your foreheadâ hesitating as he cursesâ heâs never hesitated before.
Bakugou Katsuki is the best hitman, with a hundred percent success rateâ until he met you.
Uh. Excuse me. It's there a doctor in the house. I'm dying from cuteness and wholesome over load đđâ€ïžđ©”â€ïž Please let me lick the dirt off your shoes.
pairing: bakugou katuski x f! reader contains: enemies to lovers, fluff, mutual pining status: standalone, one-shot, completed wc: 17840 summary: there you stand at the beginning of the world, with you and your sunflowers; your lovely liar's smile.
note: canon-compliant but i bend it; early childhood and then up to season 3. also cross-posted to ao3.
The first time you meet Bakugou Katsuki, you are six-turning-seven, and you remember it well. Not just because itâs the first day of school, or even that itâs your birthday. Rather, you remember it because of him, and though you think you would rather die than admit it, there is some part of you†a more rational part†that can temper itself down to acknowledge the fact.
You remember it well, because that morning, your mother makes sure to doll you up extra pretty. She dons you in a frilled dress like it is your armor, taking extra care with your hair, its bows, and she does: so much that there is an extra skip to your step as you walk. You donât just feel pretty, you know you are; a work of art atop a work of art. But you still make sure to say your thank yous to all the unfamiliar faces that compliment you with gummy smiles and a not-so-quiet, conspiratorial grin. âItâs my birthday!âÂ
You remember the way your cheeks hurt from forcing the wideness of it, the way you think it has started to sound like a mantra. You remember smiling, nonetheless, at his friend, as he wishes you a happy birthday! in return†you are smiling at his friend, and not him.
You remember it well, because the first time you ever meet him, he looks you up and down, clad in your careful curls and prettiest dress†and dares to call you ugly.Â
If you were anyone else, you mightâve taken the words like a physical blow. Already, your new friends are tensing for the inevitable confrontation. âYou canât just say that to her,â Sueko says, her eyes already narrowing in a glare.
âAnd who the hell are you, extra?â The crimson-eyed boy scowls right back.Â
The other girl wilts a bit, but her glare remains set.
You decide, right there and then, that she is your new best friend.Â
You smile. If you were anyone else, you mightâve taken the words like a physical blow. But you donât just feel pretty, you know you are; a work of art atop a work of art. So you only give him your kindest smile, because your mother told you to play nice in the morning, as she brushed out your hair. You make sure to give him a once over, glancing down, and then up.Â
âItâs okay!â Your eyes curve, ingratiatingly polite; ingratiatingly sweet. âSome people are just born blind. And stupid.â
âHAH?â His reaction is exactly what you hoped for, and itâs almost too easy. âWHO THE HELL ARE YOU CALLINGâ€âÂ
The slight quirk of your mouth is amused, but you only turn, pointedly, to your new best friend. âAny chance youâre free this weekend? Letâs hang out.âÂ
She stutters an answer, eyes darting between you, and the blond you know is seething behind you, if the glare heâs practically boring into the back of your head means anything.
You tilt your head to the side. A little inquiry, a little push. âSo?â
Hands slam down on your desk, cutting out her squeaked yes. You jump a little at the sound, your eyes widening†both a little bit at the sound, and how close his face suddenly is. All of a sudden, youâre glad you didnât call him ugly right back†it would have sounded petty, after all, and almost certainly would have bit you right in the foot, considering how this crimson-eyed boy is so clearly not.
âIâm talking to you.â Well. You think, heâd probably be a great deal prettier if wasnât glaring down at you, face contorted in what seems like half snarl, half scowl.Â
His friend adds, a little bit placatingly. âBakugou-sanâs not stupid. Heâs really smart, actually, always been top of the class. Heâs really cool!âÂ
You note the way the class eyes him, the way the blondâs eyeing the door. He grunts. âI also have twenty-twenty vision.â His chin raises, arrogance in the set of his features, a bit calmer at the praise, but also a touch quieter, almost a bit wary.Â
The door opens. He glances back, just as a man walks in, old enough that you assume that he is your teacher.Â
It takes effort to keep the shit-eating grin from spreading across your features. âAre you sure?â You ask instead, completely straight-faced. ( You should really consider acting, you think. Youâre practically a genius! ) You simper, a hand covering your mouth. âCouldâve fooled me.â Â
Itâs almost too easy, you think, the way he explodes, literally.Â
âYOU WANNA FIGHT, EXTRA?â Miniature blasts pepper the table, and you might have thought it intimidating, if itâs not for the way your sensei is stalking over, looking almost as murderous as the boy himself. âIâLL KILL YOU!âÂ
You coo a little, fearless with the backing of your newfound supporter. âYouâre really scary. Thatâs illegal, you know.âÂ
He opens his mouth. But then†âBakugou. Seeing as itâs the first day, you wonât be getting detention.â His mouth closes mutely. You grin a little at the way heâs being pulled away from your desk, fingers still clutching at the edges of it†by the scruff of his collar, and somewhat like a dog, you think.
His eyes flash, a little bit angry, a little bit dangerous. He points one grubby finger in your direction. âShe started it!âÂ
The sensei also pins you with a stern look. âThe next time this happens, the both of youâll be staying after class to clean, as detention. Am I clear?âÂ
You gape at both of them. Itâs half genuine, half not. You think this verdict is a little unfair. The boy grins, smug.
A complaint is on the tip of your tongue, then you see the senseiâs expression: deadpan, tired, and unsympathetic. You sober up, frowning a little.Â
âOkay. Sorry, sensei. Iâll try.âÂ
The crimson-eyed boy is still glaring at you, a little victorious, a little smug, but with a gleam in his eyes. This is war, they seem to say, silent and from across the room.
Little does he know, it has been, ever since the moment he decides to look you up and own, clad in your careful curls and prettiest dress†and calls you ugly.
You blow him a kiss.
He jolts. The face he makes is obviously a frown of disgust.Â
The sensei straightens. You smile ingratiatingly, turning away.
This is war, his eyes seem to promise, and really, you canât help but agree.Â
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Your revenge is served not even three days later, on a Saturday evening, and you think it is the sweetest thing you have ever tasted.
You have your father to thank for it, actually. The boy, whose name you learn is Bakugou Katsuki, is something of a mini celebrity at your school.Â
This means that the surface level things are easy to find†he has anger issues, an explosive Quirk, and is smart, consistently at the top of the class. ( You frown a little when they tell you. These are all things you already know, and the only new information†he likes spicy food†isnât helpful in the slightest. ) But this also means that, knowing his temper, there are very few willing to actively take your side, and much more openly against you. You are the new girl, the outlier, and though he canât quite make you an outcast†you and your horde of girl-followers ( bought with your motherâs fashion, your fatherâs wallet, and your pure, sunny disposition )†he has enough friends, or rather sycophants, that will ignore you in the hallways, or mutter names at you.
The boy in question doesnât, though.
He storms up to your desk the second day. You are chatting with your friends, as he slams his hands on the desk and snarls: âFight me.âÂ
Catching your pencil just before it falls, you frown up with him. âWhat ever happened to: hi, hello, how are you?âÂ
âHi, hello, how are you.â He sneers. âScared?âÂ
âNo, and my answer is no.â
His scowl deepens. âSo you are scared.âÂ
âIâm a healer.â You lift your chin in outrage, affronted. âIâm not violent.â
âNah. Youâre just an extra.âÂ
Internally, you seethe. First ugly, and now an extra. You have never been called such things in your life. You open your mouth, a retort on the tip of your tongue.Â
The sensei walks in.Â
It dies in your throat, Bakugouâs face splits into a shit-eating grin. He turns away, head held high; arrogant and condescending, having won this encounter by a mile.Â
Wrath boils in your ears, but you tamp it down, expressionless. Your pencils are carefully aligned, your notebook opened with just a little more force than necessary. Internally, you promise yourself, heâll get whatâs coming to him. You will make sure of it.Â
You get your chance soon enough on a Saturday evening, dolled up again in a dress your mother painstakingly picked out for you, your hair pressed into careful curls. Your father had told you: your family had been invited to dinner by a friend heâd met at work, and that they have a son in the same grade as you, in the same school.Â
You had shrugged. So long as thereâs a chance their son would be willing to join your Anti-Bakugou Society ( consisting only of you at the moment ), you donât particularly mind.
âPlay nice,â Your mother reminds you now, as you stand before the door; your father knocking on it. There is a bouquet of sunflowers clutched in your hands, matching the color of your dress, and you only scrunch your nose up a little at her.Â
âIâm always nice.âÂ
Your mother doesnât get a chance to respond, because then thereâs a†Katsuki, get the door!†along with an answering†âSHUT UP, OLD HAG! IâM GETTING IT!â†and then, you blink.
The name sounds rather familiar. The voice, too.Â
The door opens. You stare, wide-eyed, as a head of blond hair enters your vision, familiar and crimson-eyed.
Heâs just as stunned as you are, as you watch, with no small amount of delight, as he takes one look at you, and then the sunflowers you hold in your hands, and sneezes.Â
Christmas has come early, you think. âKatsuki! This is your house?â You step a little closer, a sickly sweet grin on your face.Â
He dodges the sweep of your bouquet. A pity, you think, but you are successful: he only sneezes all the harder.
You raise an eyebrow. âAre you⊠by any chance allergic to sunflowers?âÂ
Your mother gasps, tearing the bouquet from your hands. She had been the one to pick them out.
He doesnât need to respond for you to know the answer: as soon as theyâre taken away from his immediate vicinity, his sneezes lessen. Â
Your mother had been the one to pick them out, and you had disliked the way they looked. But you decide, there and in the moment, that they are your favorite flower.Â
He straightens. His nose is still red, and there is murder in his eyes. âWhy the hell are you here?âÂ
His mother sweeps in, pinching him by the ear. âYou will not address our guests that way.â She hisses, before looking up at the three of you, apologetic. âIâm sorry. Iâve been trying to teach him manners, I swearâ€â
âNo worries at all, Bakugou-san.â Your mother says, correcting herself at the other womanâs oh, just call me Mitsuki! She pinches your ear in turn. âThis one is much the same. A righteous demon, she is.â You narrow your eyes a little at her.Â
The blonde laughs, and the way she ruffles her sonâs hair is terribly fond. âThatâs just part of their charm, I suppose.âÂ
He hisses up at her. She hisses right back.Â
You love her, you think.
âOh, where are my manners!â She straightens, blinking. âPlease come in. Masaruâs in the kitchen, just setting upâ€â
Your parents walk in first, complimenting the decor. Mitsuki beams at them, and down at you. âMasaru tells me the two of you go to the same school,â She says. âHave the two of you met before?âÂ
You say: âYes!â at the same time he gives a flat, but resounding, âNo.âÂ
He glares daggers into the side of your head. You grin. âWeâre in the same class, and heâs my best friend!â You exclaim, the lie rolling easily off your tongue.
âNo the fuck Iâm not.âÂ
âLanguage, Katsuki!â Mitsuki reaches for his ear again, her face the picture of delight. âIâm so happy youâre finally making friends!âÂ
âWEâRE NOT FRIENDS!âÂ
She gasps, affronted, looking like she wants to tear him a new one. You smile. Your parents look on, utterly lost. âItâs okay, Mitsuki-san. Thatâs just how Katsuki-kun shows his love. I donât mind.â
âOh, you angel.â And from the look on her face, one might have thought she truly believed it. She whips around to glare at her son. He glares back. âI donât know how she puts up with you, but youâd better treat her well.â You grin at him from behind, terribly smug, and terribly victorious.Â
She turns around, and your smile is pretty again, pleasant and soft.
Mitsuki coos at you. You think the dichotomy between the way she talks to the both of you is like heaven and earth. âCome over to our house more often. Iâd love to have you over anytime!âÂ
âHAH? WHATâ€âÂ
âWe wouldnât want to trouble you, Mitsuki-san.â Your mother says, assertively. She is shooting you the look, the one that means she knows what youâre up to.Â
âOh, itâs no trouble at all!â She dismisses the statement with a wave of her hand. âKatsuki has few enough friends as it is.âÂ
Your father laughs, ever the mediator. âWeâll have to invite you over next time as well. We live just down the street.â He brightens. âActually, seeing as theyâre classmates, they could maybe walk together in the mornings?âÂ
Your motherâs grip tightens around his arm.Â
There is a wicked grin on your face. âIâd love that!â
The boy in question doesnât even get the chance to protest, because Mitsukiâs already chirping. âItâs settled, then!âÂ
You think: it doesnât even matter if he emerges victorious in all the encounters you have after this, because when the adults turn, you get to stick your tongue out at him.
The look on his face is so quietly violent, so blatantly murderous, as you wave your still sunflower-smeared hands in his face, that you think you will remember the sweetness of this victory for the rest of your life.Â
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Your relationship does not change in the slightest after that.
Mitsuki invites you over to her house once a week, and your parents do the same. The adults do their own thing, and you do yours: trying your best to annoy the daylights out of your newfound nemesis, and he only does the same to you. Youâll make fun of his All Might merchandise, the ones displayed proudly in his room, and heâll make fun of your Recovery Girl ones, the ones you have so painstakingly collected†sheâs not nearly as popular of a Hero. Heâll sneer: âSo thatâs why you used to kiss everyone you healed?âÂ
Youâll sneer right back, cringing internally at the reminder of that phase, though you are still Recovery Girlâs number one fan, though. âMy Quirkâs literally activated through touch. Youâd be lucky if I poked you with a ten-foot pole, let alone heal you with a kiss.âÂ
Heâll make a face. âEugh. You wish, idiot. Iâd never want to kiss an extra like you.âÂ
The two of you have learned to act relatively civil with adults in the house. You smile up at him, sickly sweet. âYeah. This extra is an idiot, and she definitely didnât score higher than you on the last history test.âÂ
By one point, but still.Â
He snorts, though you can tell the reminder irks him. âThatâs only âcause you sucked up to sensei like, three classes in a row.â
You sniff in derision. âI did not.â Sure, itâs true: youâd definitely been a little more active in class, and answered more questions than usual, but youâd studied for it! Youâd studied a lot!
He sneers back. âDid too.âÂ
You have learned to imitate the murderous glare he likes to level you with, and the first time you mimic it, you grin a little as his eyes widen, stunned.
The two of you are civil for the most part, though, at each otherâs houses. His mother would tear him a new one if she heard him acting anything but†( she has )†and you think you like his parents too much to ruin your relationship over something as trivial as this.Â
School is a different story, however, as are your walks in the mornings. âShut the fuck up,â Heâll snarl at you.
âBut Katsuki-kun!â Youâll coo right back, using the tone you know he hates. âI havenât even started talking yet!âÂ
Heâll scowl at you. Youâll simper right back. Heâll speed up, and you do not slow, nor do you attempt to match his pace, because you know: if you slow, he will too. Always keeping that same distance, and if you speed up†well, youâd tried that once. And youâd kept pace with him for all of two seconds, before heâd sped up in turn, until the both of you were practically sprinting to school.Â
You lose, of course. You have never run a day in your life.
( You start training right after. )
You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You flop on his bed, making sure to crinkle his carefully-pressed sheets, forcing him to his desk during one of your so-called âhangoutsâ and âstudy sessionsâ†Mitsukiâs words, not either of yours, but there are textbooks in front of the both of you, so that is good enough. You study harder than you ever have before, and rub every one of your small victories in his face, and he studies like a demon in return†( even though heâs never needed to study in his life )†until the both of you are neck and neck, with perfect grades in every subject. You buy everything sunflower-colored, sunflower-shaped, and tack sunflower stickers onto every surface you can see, pinning some cute ones to your backpack.
( Your mother picked out the flowers, but you are the one that held them, and you were also the one to decide, there and then, that these were your favorite flowers in the world. )
You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You see his face more often than anything else, and he calls you an idiot when you tell him about the fictional boys you think are cute. Well, you donât care. You tell him about them anyways, because you are bored and Kuroo-kun looked particularly stunning in the episode the other day†only because you are bored and there is nothing else to do, or so you tell yourself. You find: you do not regret lying the first day and calling him your best friend, because even if you are not even friends†you donât think you are, at least, because he has never confirmed it, even if he does seem somewhat tolerant of you; punches your pseudo-stalker in the face for you, and carries you piggyback on the way home, crying all the while.Â
âYouâre ruining my shirt,â He grouses. âStop crying. Iâm literally more injured than you are.âÂ
You sniff. âIâm not kissing you better.âÂ
He snarls. âCome anywhere near me with your mouth and Iâll blow your face off.âÂ
âYou want it so bad it makes you look stupid.â You tell him, and he tenses beneath you, but you only press your cheek to his neck, and think, heal.
The pain of the bruises lances through you, and you feel the way he relaxes.
You droop. âOnwards, steed.âÂ
âI will literally drop you.âÂ
âI just healed you. Iâm tired.âÂ
âNo one fucking asked you to.âÂ
He doesnât make good on his promise, though, and eventually, you sigh a little into his neck.
âWhat.âÂ
âNothing.âÂ
âWhat, dumbass.âÂ
You hum, a little absentminded. âYouâre going to UA, right?âÂ
âYeah. Why?âÂ
âOh, I was thinking of applying for the healer understudy openings.â You shrug. âDunno if I can get in, though.âÂ
âYou will.â His certainty surprises you.Â
You smile. âDidnât know you believed in me so much, Katsuki-kun.â Your head flops back onto his shoulder. âWill you still walk with me in the mornings, then?âÂ
âAfter school, too. Even if you donât get in.âÂ
You shift to blink up at him in surprise.Â
He clicks his tongue. You donât think youâve ever seen him look this uncomfortable.
âWho the fuck elseâs gonna punch shitty stalkers for you?â
You donât think youâve ever felt like this before, like the sun cresting upon the horizon, lighting up like a dawn inside your chest. You laugh at the feel of it. âAre you sure you woke up on the right side of the bed today? Besides, you donât even know where Iâd be going.â You reach up to pinch him on the cheek.Â
He jerks away, the look on his face disgusted.
âThen Iâll teach you to fight.âÂ
You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You find: you do not regret lying the first day and calling him your best friend, because even if you are not even friends†he is tolerant of you, he punches your pseudo-stalker for you, he walks with you before school, and he walks with you after. He lets you flop on his bed, lets you push him to the desk, wrinkles his nose at you when you tell him about a boy that was cute, and calls your friends dumb when you tell him about something they said that was funny. You weasel his birthday out of Mitsuki, and get him that All Might merch you know heâll like. Thereâs some Recovery Girl merch left on your windowsill the day of yours. He laughs when you try a bite of his food for the first time and cough instantly after, your face aflame. What the hell is this? You hiss, and he grins, telling you itâs real food, and that youâre just weak. He never calls you his friend, but he believes in you and your dream, and promises to walk you to and from school anyways, even if you do not attend the same one.Â
( Thatâs just how Katsuki-kun shows his love, you tell Mitsuki-san, once upon a time, and though you are not sure if it is love, you think: you do not mind it. )
This is how your relationship is, and how it remains, until the end of the second last year of middle school, right before the both of you enter UA.
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You are asleep at your desk when you are jumpscared awake.Â
âUA? That national school? Isnât their acceptance rate really low?â Someone in your class is asking.Â
âThatâs exactly why you guys are just extras!â You roll your eyes as the ash-blond jumps straight atop his desk. âI aced the mock test! Iâm the only one at this school who could possibly get into UA. Iâll definitely surpass All Might and become the top hero!âÂ
This is not the first time youâve heard this tirade. Sueko nudges you, quietly. âHey. Didnât you say you were applying for one of their healer slots?âÂ
âOh, yeah.â The sensei glances down at his list. âMidoriya wanted to go to UA as well, right? And someone elseâŠâ You tense.
The class bursts into uproarious laughter, and it seems you are temporarily saved.Â
âHuh? Midoriya? No way! You canât get into the Hero course by just studying!â
The green-haired boy stammers. âTh-they got rid of the rule! Thereâs just no precedentâŠâÂ
You roll your eyes at the sound of familiar explosions. âHuh? Deku! Youâre below the rejects! Youâre quirkless! How can you even stand in the same ring as me?â
âNo, wait! Kacchan! Itâs not like Iâm trying to compete with you or anything! Believe me!â He falters âItâs just that itâs been my goal ever since I was little! I wonât know unless I tryâŠâ  Â
âWhat do you mean, unless you try? Youâre Quirkless!âÂ
You slam your textbook down with a little more force than usual, and the whole class turns to you in surprise. âHe has a dream that he dares to try for,â you say, coolly and careful. âIsnât that enough?âÂ
âAnd what the hell would you know about that?âÂ
Disbelief rushes through you, and you turn to look him squarely in the eye. The class tenses, and his own eyes widen. It has been a while since youâve challenged him like this directly, whether in school or otherwise.Â
Sueko pipes up, unhelpfully, from beside you, as if he wouldnât know. âSheâs also applying for UA.âÂ
You donât get the chance to glare at her, because your sensei continues the thought. âOh, yes, thatâs right! You were the last student applying to UA! The healer routes are notoriously difficult†howâs that coming along?âÂ
âAh, I applied to some hospitals for volunteering, but I donât know if they accept middle-schoolers,â You laugh.Â
Your sensei nods, in support, but also a little condescendingly. âWell, itâs also a very difficult path, so donât beat yourself up about it too much, yeah?âÂ
The smile on your face feels a little bit painful, a little bit stretched.Â
You are distracted for the rest of that day. So out of it, in fact, that when the sensei calls upon you, his favorite student, you take all of five seconds to respond†blinking, first, then glancing up, with a: âSorry, what was the question?â You are so out of it that you bump your hip into your own desk as you move past for lunch, wincing at the twinge of it, and you are so out of it that you forget your pencil case when you leave after class, and have to go back to get it.
âBelieve that youâll be born with a Quirk in your next life, and take a last chance dive off the roof!âÂ
You know that voice. You pause. But then, the blast of familiar explosions.Â
Before your hands, the door slams open.Â
You donât know what you were expecting. Bakugou and Midoriya both, obviously, and you suppose you should have known his two lackeys would have been there, too. They turn from their face-off, and your glare is sharp and terrible. âSo what if heâs Quirkless?â You snap, storming over to grab the green-haired boy by the wrist. âAt least he has a dream. At least he dares to try. Thatâs more than I can say for the two of you.âÂ
âStay out of this,â The blond snarls, a warning.Â
You are not entirely a good person. You lie as you please, wielding the power of your motherâs fashion, your fatherâs wallet, and do things entirely for your own amusement, uncaring of the aftermath. You know Midoriya, or rather, you know of him, and how he is a frequent target of Bakugouâs scathing remarks. At first, you had assumed heâd just been one of the people that disliked you, but it had become increasingly evident that he was just one of the people that didnât dare to brave the blondâs wrath. And you are not entirely a good person, because you just didnât care. Not to talk to him, not to stand up for him, not if he hadnât even tried to for you.
You are not entirely a good person yourself, but even so, you know that there are lines that should not be crossed.Â
You lift your chin, and say, quietly. âApologize.âÂ
âHah?â He tilts his head. âAnd why the hell should I? Why the hell are you defending him?âÂ
You feel incredulous. âWhat does that have anything to do with it?â You donât see the way his eyes flicker down to where you are holding the green-haired boy, by his wrist. âThere are things that you should never, ever, say to a person.â His eyes narrow, but thereâs an irrational anger within you, a disbelief. âYouâre literally trying to become a Hero. How can you, an applicant of UA, who hopes to become one of the best heroes in the world, tell someone to kill themselves, and not think thereâs anything wrong with it?âÂ
âWho the fuck do you think you are?â Little explosions are escaping his hands, in the uncontrolled way they do when heâs furious and unaware of them.Â
You think Midoriya makes a pained sound, what with the way your hands are clenching, angry and white. Heal. A sting pulses through you, and you drop his wrist, but your eyes are flashing. âYouâre being an ass. Apologize.â
âYou donât tell me what to do.âÂ
You lift your chin. âIf you value our friendship in the slightest, then yes, I do.â The vehemence of your words stuns you a bit, and the blond recoils, as if he has been physically struck.Â
You think you have won, for all of a moment, and then he scoffs.
âYeah, right. What friendship? The one you lied to my mom about and said that we had? That friendship? The one that doesnât exist? Wonât exist?âÂ
His sneer is not harsh, but the breath that leaves you is shaky.
You do not hear his next words.
( You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You flop on his bed, making sure to crinkle his carefully-pressed sheets, forcing him to his desk during one of your so-called âhangoutsâ and âstudy sessionsâ†Mitsukiâs words, not either of yours, but there are textbooks in front of the both of you, so that is good enough. You study harder than you ever have before, and rub every one of your small victories in his face, and he studies like a demon in return†( even though heâs never needed to study in his life )†until the both of you are neck and neck, with perfect grades in every subject. You buy everything sunflower-colored, sunflower-shaped, and tack sunflower stickers onto every surface you can see, pinning some cute ones to your backpack. You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You see his face more often than anything else, and he calls you an idiot when you tell him about the fictional boys you think are cute. Well, you donât care. You tell him about them anyways, because you are bored and Kuroo-kun looked particularly nice in the episode the other day†only because you are bored and there is nothing else to do, or so you tell yourself. You find: you do not regret lying the first day and calling him your best friend, because even if you are not even friends†you donât think you are, at least, because he has never confirmed it, even if he does seem somewhat tolerant of you; punches your pseudo-stalker in the face for you, and carries you piggyback on the way home, crying all the while. You make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You find: you do not regret lying the first day and calling him your best friend, because even if you are not even friends†he is tolerant of you, he punches your pseudo-stalker for you, he walks with you before school, and he walks with you after. He lets you flop on his bed, lets you push him to the desk, wrinkles his nose at you when you tell him about a boy that was cute, and calls your friends dumb when you tell him about something they said that was funny. You weasel his birthday out of Mitsuki, and get him that All Might merch you know heâll like, and thereâs some Recovery Girl merch left on your windowsill the day of yours. He laughs when you try a bite of his food for the first time and cough instantly after, your face aflame. What the hell is this? You hiss, and he grins, telling you itâs real food, and that youâre just weak. He never calls you his friend, but he believes in you and your dream, and promises to walk you to and from school anyways, even if you do not attend the same one. )
This is how Katsuki-kun shows his love, you say to Mitsuki-san once upon a time, but now, you know, because you have learned to read between the lines of his words; to understand him: that this is just how he treats liars who worm their way into his world, and how he tolerates them.
Your lip wobbles. There is a lump in your throat. But you will not cry for him, nor will you plead. Play nice, your mother chastises you once upon a time, because you are a willful child, vindictive in both your action and your speech, and petty enough to hold onto your grudges. She chastises you once upon a time, because you do not particularly care to cater to the feelings of those around you unless you feel like it; do not care to stand up for a boy who has done nothing to you, just because he has done nothing for you.
You are petty, yes. Vindictive, too. You may not be that much of a good person, and you are not without your own feelings, hypocritical as that may be. But you are trying, and you are genuine, or at least as much as you can be, as much as you ever have, and he†he has just thrown all of that in your face.Â
âFine, then.â You smile, and you are unfeeling as you lie. âIâve never thought of you as a friend, either. Donât talk to me again.âÂ
The door slams behind you.
You do not hear his next words, so you do not hear him mean: not while you choose him, and not me.
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Katsuki is six-turning seven the first time he meets you.Â
It is the first day of school. You are seated at your desk, a crowd of adoring sycophants around you. âHappy birthday! You look really pretty today,â His friend says from beside him, and he looks you up and down. You are wearing a sky-blue dress, with your hair pressed into careful curls.
His cheeks warm. He thinks youâre the prettiest girl heâs ever seen, but he only grunts, looking away to the side. âDunno. She looks pretty ugly to me.âÂ
âYou canât just say that to her,â Your friend hisses. He doesnât know her face.Â
He scowls at her. âAnd who the heck are you, extra?âÂ
She wilts under the force of his glare, and he feels a little better, as if satisfied.
âItâs okay!â You smile. He blinks. Maybe he should call you ugly more often.
And then you call him stupid. And blind.
And the rest is history.Â
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The results of your hospital volunteer application are sent back the next week, and the first thing you think of, somewhat bitterly, is that at least now, you have a proper excuse for skipping out on your weekly dinners.Â
You have already skipped out on the first, pretending you feel sick.Â
Your phone is still silent. You have not talked to him since that day, not even to check up on him when you see the news, though your fingers itch to. You think of sunflowers: how you didnât even like them, until him. You think of how your bag now feels empty without its signature pins, how you have thrown every scrap of yellow clothing into a pile in your closet, your sunflower-themed charms and notebooks tucked away.Â
Proof of life comes from your mother, and you do not turn on your phone.Â
You break your silence two days later, pushing your vegetables somewhat morosely around your plate. âMy volunteer application was accepted. Theyâre letting me intern at the hospital.âÂ
Your father beams. âThatâs great news! You shouldâve told us earlier! Honey, we have to eat out to celebrate! Oh, I need to tell Masaruâ€âÂ
âI wonât be going to weekly dinners for the rest of the summer,â You cut in. Your motherâs chopsticks pause midair.Â
Your father blinks at you. âSurely the hospital isnât making its interns work that much.âÂ
âWell, Iâm applying to UA.â You shrug. That much is true, but itâs also just so you can fill in your hours, work yourself down to the bone. âIâd like as much experience as possible.âÂ
Your mother is watching you carefully.Â
Your father clears his throat. âWell, donât work yourself too hard.â He says, jokingly, as he dishes another helping of food upon your plate. âYou tell us if theyâre giving you any trouble, alright?âÂ
You force yourself to smile back. ââCourse, dad.âÂ
( Your mother asks you, a week later, when you arrive home from your internship. âAre you still friends with him?â She has asked you a similar question once, years ago and late in the evening, at the end of the dinner party, your father drunken and half-leaning on her shoulder.
You give her the same answer you did then, and in the same way. Cheery, and without a hint of hesitation. âNope!âÂ
She is watching you carefully.Â
You excuse yourself, and she does not ask you about it again. )
It feels like the days never end, and yet summer passes by before you can blink. You banish all thoughts of blond hair and crimson eyes entirely from your mind, and truthfully, you do not have the mind to think of him much, anyways. You steal the pain of your patients and make it your own, smiling at the brightness of their faces as you heal one, then two, then several more. It tires you terribly so, and between your time at the hospital and pre-studying for the UA exams, youâre so fatigued each night that you fall asleep before your head even hits the pillow. You donât even have the time to meet up with your friends. And before you know it, the last year of middle school is upon you, as are the start of your applications.Â
It is a whirlwind of things to do, so much that you feel you do not have the time to breathe, or even think. Katsukiâs been placed in a different class from yours, which comes as a relief in more ways than one†firstly, that you donât have to see him, and secondly, because you can let your grades fall just a little, and still come out as top of your class. Between your intern shifts, your mindless studying, the applications, the tests and quizzes and preparing endlessly for interviews, the thoughts of anything else vanish entirely from your mind. You do not feel the emptiness of your afternoons, nor much of your mornings.Â
About two months in, Midoriya Izuku is the one to seek you out.Â
There is a spoonful of rice halfway to your mouth, a textbook in your other hand. You notice him when a shadow falls over it, blotting the light out. You glance up, drawling. âYes?âÂ
âCan I⊠talk to you for a moment?â He ventures, nervously, a tray gripped in his hands.Â
You eye him a little strangely.Â
You havenât seen him since four months ago†you havenât really been paying much attention, and even the reminder sets your walls of iron slamming up. Heâd been shorter then, you think, and significantly more hesitant. The boy from back then would never have even dared think about approaching you like this.
He flusters. âI-I just! Another time is also okay, or if you donât want to, thatâs also okayâ€âÂ
There he is, you think, a touch amused. âCan it be said here?âÂ
Beside you, Suekoâs jaw drops. You can feel the stares of your friends boring into the side of your face.
âY-yes?âÂ
âThen make it quick.â You flip the page of your textbook.Â
He hesitates. âIs it really okayâŠ? For me to sit here?âÂ
Your eyebrow arches, high. âSince when have you been unable to sit where you like?âÂ
Mutely, he sets his tray down, and sits.Â
You only flip another page. âYou can either eat or talk.â You say, conversationally. âLunch wonât last all day.âÂ
Obediently, he takes a spoonful of rice, and swallows. âI just⊠wanted to thank you.â He begins.
You know exactly what he is talking about, and your throat tightens. ( You think of your backpack, how empty it feels, but your refusal to tack on your sunflower pins anyway. ) You shrug. âNo need to thank me. I didnât do it for you.â
âEven so,â Midoriya perks up a bit. âN-no oneâs ever stood up for me like that before, and especially not to Kacchan⊠I-Iâm really grateful, either way!âÂ
You snort a little. Never would you have thought Midoriya Izuku, of all people, would stand here one day, thanking you.Â
âI think youâre a really good person,â He says to you, a little bit hesitant. It jolts you a bit, the genuine honesty of his tone, but what you are not prepared for is what comes after. âAnd I know Kacchan does, too.âÂ
Your spoon stops halfway to your mouth.
âHe still cares about you,â Midoriya says, a touch softer. Your friends are not looking at you, but you can still feel the weight of their gazes, their ears.
You say as you set your spoon down. âIf you want to be friends with me, then you will never speak of him again.âÂ
Midoriya watches you carefully, notes the finality in your tone. His gaze rises to a point above your shoulder.
He flinches.
He does not speak of what he sees, or of this conversation, ever again.Â
You do not turn, and you do not ask.
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The week of UA acceptances arrive, and you await your own with bated breath.Â
Your father laughs as you run out exactly at eight every morning to check, before he finally deigns to tell you that the postman usually delivers to your house around twelve. âI knew that!â You say, and he laughs at the obvious lie.
You stick your tongue out at him, but you still sneak out the next day at the same time, just in case.Â
But as it turns out, the postman is late. You know this, because Midoriya texts you late in the evening, after dinnertime, with his signature All Might emoji and a brief: check your mailbox!!!!!
You stop, your heart in your throat. You donât think you are breathing.Â
Heâs still typing, spamming your text messages with a thousand All Might emojis, each of them more despairing than the last. You do not know what this means. And then, you see his next message: I got in!!!!!Â
It turns out that you are not, in fact, breathing.
You feel like you are holding your breath the whole time youâre fumbling through your mailbox, dropping random letters haphazardly onto your doorstep. That one looks like itâs important, you think, distantly, and it gets dropped somewhere onto the growing pile at your right, scanning them all for a familiar logo, and†you see it at the very bottom of the pile.
You thumb it open with shaking hands. Congratulations, it reads, and you scream.
( You think for one moment of sunflowers, how you can imagine exactly how heâd react, hear exactly what heâd say. )
Your father pokes his head around the corner. âI heard screaming. Everything alright?âÂ
Your mother is smiling. âMitsuki just called. Katsukiâs in.âÂ
Your father is looking at you with wide eyes. You are grinning, there are tears in your eyes, and you are wordless in your delight.Â
Your mother laughs, soft. âI suppose two congratulations are in order.âÂ
âMidoriya also made it, so make that three.â You correct, grinning.Â
Your father whoops. âTHATâS MY GIRL!â For the first time in almost a year, you feel light as a feather, like the world is spread wide before you, and you are a young god before it, your wings wide and at the ready.Â
For the first time in almost a year, you think, for one moment of sunflowers, how you can imagine exactly how heâd react, hear exactly what heâd say. You think of reaching for your phone†( and if you did, youâd see his icon that youâd purposefully wiped blank bubbling )†but you donât. You think of a boy with blond hair and crimson eyes that you have not looked at in almost a year, how youâll brush past him in the halls, surrounded by your gaggle of friends, your uniform and makeup, your armor, and try not to note how heâs grown taller. For the first time in over a year, you think of him, and your heart does not feel like an empty cavity in your chest; you do not feel so hollow, nor do you ache.
Your heart only squeezes, a little tight, but.Â
You think you will be fine.
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You are delusional. You are not, in fact, fine.Â
You are standing in front of the classroom door. It spells the code of your class: 1A, in bold lettering, proportions inhumanly large. You are three minutes late, but itâs really not your fault†youâd simply fangirled so hard over the fact that youâre finally getting to meet your idol in person last night that youâd barely gotten any sleep, and your mother had had to haul you practically out of bed and out the door, throughout the whole of your alarm.Â
You slide open the door. Instantly, youâre met with a sea of faces, and you steel yourself†but then.Â
For the first time in over a year, you see him, and all of a sudden, you are painfully aware of the lack of yellow on your figure; your backpack entirely empty of its signature sunflower pins.Â
The smile is frozen on your face, and he looks just as shocked as you feel.Â
A voice drawls at your side. âYou must be the healer,â You are glad for the distraction; the source a scraggly-haired man halfway through removing himself from a sleeping bag. Your sensei, you deduce. âYouâre late.â
âSorry, sensei!â You bow. âI overslept because I was fangirling too hard over meeting Recovery Girl today! I promise it wonât happen again!âÂ
A wave of soft laughter ripples through the class, and over the din, you hear a†sheâs kinda cute!†at the same time as a†oh, I love her already.Â
âIf I get hurt, will I get to see you?â A voice calls, and you turn to see a boy†blond, and your heart stutters for a moment, but his shade isnât ash, itâs golden. Heâs grinning cheekily up at you.Â
âNo flirting in my class.â Your sensei warns. âBut yes, seeing as sheâs 1Aâs healer understudy.â He turns to you. âRecovery Girlâs waiting for you in her office. You know where it is?âÂ
You nod cheerily. âSir, yes, sir!âÂ
âGood.â You turn at the obvious dismissal, shooting a wave at your green-haired friend as you do.Â
You leave the classroom with your shoulders set, your chin tilted high, your outfit your armor, and your makeup your helm.
You pretend like you do not feel the crimson glare that seems like itâs trying to pierce through the back of your neck.Â
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Recovery Girl likes you, and you feel as if you are floating for the whole of a day. Not even meeting Bakugouâs gaze the next morning can knock you from it, nor can the grape-haired boyâs leering from across the room. You canât really dwell on them for long, either, not with the crowd of people aggregating by your desk. You blink up a little, surprised.
Itâs not like youâve made an effort to dress up especially pretty today, and you donât think youâve come off as incessantly nice. You are not the you from first grade anymore†you donât just think yourself pretty, you know you are†but are confident enough in your own skin that you have stopped putting on airs; have allowed yourself to be as cold and sarcastic and dry as you want. Most of your girl-followers†( the ones you buy with your motherâs fashion, your fatherâs wallet, and your pure, sunny disposition )†have only seen glimpses of you like this, and you can count on one hand the people outside of your parents who know you as you are.Â
Sueko, Midoriya, and of course, him.Â
You do not dwell on it for long. You are confident in your own skin, and though you would like some more friends, you do not wish to temper yourself to gain them.
You smile a little at the question the purple-haired boy asks, disliking the way his eyes are lingering at your chest. âYouâre all welcome to drop by the clinic anytime you like. Itâs what weâre here for, after all. Though, if you want a kiss to make you feel better,âÂ
You pause a little bit for dramatic effect watching the eyes of several boys brighten just a bit.
âYouâll have to go to Recovery Girl.âÂ
Your straight face is very well-practiced, but you do not hide the small quirk of your mouth as you watch their souls die.Â
An arm slings around your shoulder, its pink-skinned, pink-haired owner grinning at you. âI think weâre going to be best friends, you and I.âÂ
You remember thinking the same thing about a different girl, when you are six-turning seven, and you hear the same genuinity behind it.
( You are clad in your outfit like armor, your makeup a helm. Today, you are exactly as cold and sarcastic and dry as you like, because you are confident in your own skin, and you do not temper yourself in the slightest. )
You smile up at her. âI think Iâd like that!âÂ
Her grin widens, but then, an older Hero walks in†Cementoss, you think. You have made an effort to memorize the roster. âTo your seats, everyone.â He calls.Â
You take out your notebook, neatly arranging your pens. New year, new you. You donât have as many shifts at the hospital anymore†you donât need the experience exactly, as youâre sure UA will look good enough on your resume, but it canât hurt. Besides, you enjoy working there anyways; the older nurses who help you out with a kind smile, the doctors who are almost always willing to answer a question. But the lessened shifts allow you to breathe, just a little, to settle back into a healthier routine; one no longer so bogged down by your thoughts.Â
Math transitions quickly into English. You think you prefer Cementossâs teaching style just a little, even if Present Mic is more energetic†a little bit too loud for your tastes, you think. The material is basic, seeing as itâs the unofficial first day of class, and though youâve already pre-studied most of the content, you end up writing most of it down, anyways.Â
Lunchtime arrives. You balance your tray on your hands, walking side-by-side with Mina. Midoriya waves at you from his table, surrounded by an assortment of friends, and you nod back. âLetâs sit there!â The pink-haired girl points excitedly at a particular table.Â
You see several boys from your class, some more familiar than the rest. A head of ash blonde, crimson eyes that glance up to meet your own.Â
âMidoriya wanted me to sit with him today,â You say, a touch apologetic. âYouâre welcome to join us, if youâd like?âÂ
Her eyes widen a bit, and you note the glance, the observance. Her own smile is your mirror, just as apologetic, and just as assertive. âMaybe another time,â She says.
She knows what she wants, and sheâs not afraid to say it. You like that about her.Â
You incline your head, eyelid pulling down in a wink. âDo let me know which one you like,âÂ
She only laughs at you, her answering grin somewhat sly.Â
All Might steps into the room after lunch, and though youâve never been one of his particularly die-hard fans†you think of your sunflowers, how you make fun of the things he likes, and he of yours†you can admit that in person, he stands a legend in real life. You are just a little starstruck, you think, as he smiles at you, and says†âDo try to keep your injuries to a minimum, though not to worry! Our healer team will be here to assist you!âÂ
You find yourself grinning a little as you respond, âNothing fatal, though. I donât think Iâve ever heard anything about anyone bringing a dead person back to life.âÂ
He booms a laugh. âNaturally! You are all Heroes! You should refrain from using lethal power whenever possible!âÂ
He speaks too soon. The first teams are called up, and the matchup is almost comical.Â
Bakugou will be fine. You know this. You are not worried for him in the slightest†not that you would, you tell yourself, a touch sardonically.
No. What you worry for is the state of your Quirkless friend, and you are right to worry. Bakugou seems almost angrier than youâve ever seen him, and thatâs saying a lot, considering how good you are†how good you used to be, you correct yourself†at getting on his nerves, though Midoriya seems to be holding up very well.Â
Your friend has grown, you think. He is not at all the same person he was over a year ago in that classroom.Â
But you are right to worry, because All Might is shouting into his microphone. âYoung Bakugou, stop! Are you trying to kill him?âÂ
No, you think, immediately, instinctively. You know Bakugou is many things, but he is not that. Never that.
You feel the force of that explosion from here. âThis is supposed to be a class!â One of your classmates, red-haired and red-eyed, is saying. âYou have to stop him!âÂ
âHe knows what heâs doing.â You find yourself saying. Somewhat cold, somewhat callous. There are eyes on you, surprised.
You shrug.
You donât really know why you say it, either.Â
âYoung Bakugou, the next time you use that, Iâll stop the fight, and your team will lose. To attack on such a large scale inside is inviting the destruction of the very stronghold you are supposed to be protecting. That is a foolish plan for both heroes and villains, and you will lose a lot of points!âÂ
You donât need to look at him to feel his teeth gnash in anger, but you still watch the screen, anyways.Â
Their clash is violent. You remember saying, once, that you dislike violence because you are a healer. But that is not entirely true, you think: you see the passion in their every movement, even as your green-haired friend receives the brunt of the beating, the callous elegance of it. The careful calculations, the years of training that you have walked alongside most of to witness.Â
âThis looks bad!â One of the classmates from before seems to shout. âSensei!âÂ
You donât dislike violence just because you are a healer. What you have always disliked is the senseless brutality of it, the cruelty of its aftermath. Not because you have to deal with it, but because sometimes, you canât.Â
You look to All Might. He seems to be struggling with something.Â
âSo long as it is not fatal,â Your voice is soft, but no less firm. âI can heal it.âÂ
His mouth tightens, but you see his decision made in that moment.Â
You turn your attention back to the screen just in time to see Midoriyaâs Quirk. Your eyes widen. Itâs so sudden, so powerful, that you almost miss it; the blast entirely different from Bakugouâs own. So he was not Quirkless after all, you think, but all thought of that vanishes when you see the aftermath.Â
All Might is turning for you, but you are already running.Â
You see the two you are unfamiliar with first. âHow is she?â You ask the blue-haired boy who stands upright.Â
âIâm fine!â She gasps out. âJust nauseous! But Dekuâ€âÂ
You hear the nickname, and you think you look a little strangely at her for it. You donât dwell on it very long, though, because youâre already slipping past.Â
Then, you see him, and though your heart stutters a little in your chest†( your bag, empty of its sunflowers )†you still look him in the eye. You are professional. âAre you hurt?â You ask, because he is standing there, still gaping, a little open-mouthed.Â
He turns that look upon you, and his eyes widen.Â
The eye contact feels slightly unsettling. You look away first. âWell. If you are, you can let me know.âÂ
You kneel at the green-haired boyâs side.Â
A hand stops you, just as you reach out. Theyâre a little bit bigger than what youâre used to, a little bit more callused. âWait,â He says, voice raspy, and you tense a little: both at the familiar and unfamiliar touch, and because itâs been so long since youâve heard his voice. âYou donât have toâ€â He scowls, cursing. âRecovery Girl.â
You blink up at him, a little confused.Â
But then you see his eyes dart towards your arm, and then the green-haired boyâs, lying prone on the ground.Â
âI am a healer. Itâs what I do.âÂ
âThatâs not what Iâ€â He curses again under his breath. âThe damn nerd will be fine. Does he even know about your Quirk?âÂ
âWhy would that even matter?â You are confused, and you shove his arm away. Your friend is still hurt, and he is keeping you from your job. Why do you even care? You want to say.
You bite your tongue, and think: heal.Â
Midoriya blinks awake halfway through. Your arm is covered in purple contusions, and he gasps, jerking away. âYou†your arm!âÂ
They fade within seconds. You only reach again for it, feeling the crimson gaze burning into the side of your face, as youâre sure the rest of the class is too, from their camera screens hundreds of meters away. You stare straight ahead, and think, heal, even as your arm ripples in agony again, painted and purple.Â
You steal your patientâs pain, and you feel all of it, but you donât show a thing. Because you are a healer, and thatâs what you do.Â
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You are a healer, and thatâs what you do, but the next day, Aizawa-sensei still admonishes you for it.Â
âYour records are very impressive,â He tells you first, and you straighten. You figure: he is likely a man notorious for his lack of praise, so you might as well lap it up while you can. âHowever, just because you have a very high pain tolerance, does not mean you do not feel pain. Am I correct?âÂ
âYes, sensei.â You dip your head.Â
âThe lot of you hear that, right?â He addresses the rest of the class. âSheâs a healer, and she can heal almost anything, save those who are already dead. Thatâs very impressive, and itâs very rare. Donât let her become your crutch. She will not always be there, and though she might say she doesnât mind your burden, others will. Whether itâs yourself, your fellow Pro Heroes, or the civilians you are trying to save.âÂ
There is murmured assent from the class.Â
He turns back to you. âHeroism is also about knowing when to step back and let others handle the situation. It is okay to share your burdens,â He tells you.Â
You blink a little, surprised at the comments that are not really criticism at all. âI am a healer,â You state. âItâs what I do.âÂ
He sighs. âYouâre just as stubborn as your mentor,â He says.Â
You smile at this, chirping. âThank you!â
âThat was not a compliment.âÂ
You sink into your chair a little sheepishly, but itâs like a sun has been lit in your chest, because you take it as one anyways, and you are grinning.Â
Lunchtime is a little strange today, for more reasons than one. Mina invites you again, but she doesnât protest your decision, a knowing glint in her eye. But she doesnât mention a thing, and you are grateful for it.Â
Midoriya is sitting with the same people as yesterday, and he beams, delighted, as you slide into the seat beside him. Iida and Uraraka nod at you from across the table, and you nod back.Â
Surprisingly, itâs the red-and-white haired boy across from you†Todoroki, who breaks the silence. âMy father says he would like to meet you.âÂ
You blink. Thatâs certainly not what you were expecting. âEndeavour, right?âÂ
He nods, his face deadpan. âPlease decline.âÂ
You choke a little bit on the bite of food that has just entered your mouth. Midoriya slides you a napkin.Â
You cough around it. âWow, Todoroki-san. You really dislike me that much?âÂ
He shoots you a strange look. âNot at all. Why do you ask?âÂ
Youâre a little confused. âOh, that was a joke.â
âApologies. I have never been very good with jokes.âÂ
âNothing to apologize for, and I was planning on declining, anyways. Iâm going to intern under Recovery Girl for the rest of my life!âÂ
âI will communicate that to him, then.âÂ
Midoriya coughs lightly from your other side. You elbow him.Â
Uraraka giggles, but whatever she is going to say is cut off by the sound of the alarm. There has been a level three security breach, you hear.Â
âTrespassing,â You hear someone clarify.Â
You stare at the horde of gray-uniformed students crowding the hallway. You have never been a huge fan of crowds, especially ones as tightly-packed as this. Besides, you think, a touch dryly, that if there were an intruder, walking headfirst into a mosh pit like this would probably be the best way to get yourself caught up in a mass murder.Â
But you donât get to voice any of these concerns, because then Uraraka is tugging at your wrist. âIf we donât get ourselves in there now, weâre never going to get our way out! Come on!âÂ
You fall, weightless, and are carried away upon the sea.
Itâs horrible. Internally, you curse the girl, and almost donât even feel bad about it because yes, sheâs like the sweetest person youâve ever known, but sheâs also reason youâre in the midst of a thousand wayward bodies right now, wrinkling your nose at the reek, and practically fighting for your life to keep your head above the throng. You are a healer, you think, a little despairingly, as you elbow someone so harshly that your own limb twinges. You are fighting a desperate battle, but nonetheless a losing one†at least you are, until hands lift you by the waist and carry you forth; your savior cutting his way through the crowd with ease.
Your back hits the wall, and gratitude is on the tip of your tongue as you look up, but then you see him: ash-blond, and glaring at you with crimson eyes. âThe hell were you thinking?â He hisses. âYou donât even like crowds.âÂ
You hate the familiarity in the way he says it, as if he still knows you, and you hate the way he cages you in against the wall, his body larger than you have known, but how it still feels the same, pressed up against yours.
( You think of your sunflowers, how your bag feels strangely empty without them. )
It is the nearest he has been to you in well over a year. You hate the way he smells, like burnt caramel, and you hate the way your cheeks warm.Â
You want to say: neither do you, and you want to ask him why he even bothered to try and save you. You know he doesn't like you, not even in the slightest, not this liar who has wormed their way into his world; this liar that he tolerates. You think of a thousand witty remarks, ones that used to make his eyes light, the curl of his scowl somewhat harsh, but no less familiar, of giving voice to your outrage, to your feelings, and simply storming past.Â
You choose none of the above.Â
You still your features, the picture of calm, set the steel of your shoulders, and stare straight at a point above his shoulder. âWhy do you even care?âÂ
You do not look at him, so you donât see the way he recoils, ever-slightly. The expression he levels you, half-bewildered, half-disbelieving, the rest a complicated mix of emotions even he could not decipher himself.
You don't see the way he opens his mouth, because then Iida is there and shouting.Â
You see your chance, and you donât wait for his answer. You werenât expecting one, anyways.Â
He doesnât even have the time to reach for you, before you slip past, and are gone.Â
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You stand before the mouth of USJ, your heart in your throat.Â
You barely notice the weight of the device upon your wrist; a monitor that connects you to all the ones distributed amongst the class, because there are villains down there, you think, a little dumbfoundedly. Real villains, like the type you see in movies, and you feel almost ridiculous, out of place, as if someone will smack you upside the head and tell you: wake up! and that you are not in a story. And you are not, because you pinch yourself, and yes, this is real life.Â
You have never seen a villain yourself before, because you are a healer, and have only ever dealt with the aftermath of what they have done. You know the damage, the pain, the torture it can inflict upon a soul; the way sometimes, no one can ever fully heal them afterwards, not even you. So though you are a little wide-eyed, your thoughts blank, when the mist wraps around you, you donât even think.Â
You lunge.Â
Crimson eyes widen, and he catches you, just one second before you fall into darkness as one.Â
You try not to think about the way his body feels against yours, how he is cradling you, the way his hand automatically wraps around the back of your head. You feel the impact in your bones, though he bears the brunt of it. Automatically, you reach up, and think, heal, but you donât have the time to do much else, because then his eyes widen, and heâs shoving you away.Â
âSTAY THERE!â Distantly, you think he is roaring at you, and another time, you might have protested that you could defend yourself. But the shock of it all is still settling in†( these are real villains, you think dazedly, and this is real life )†and you are a healer, right now, you are nothing more than a civilian.Â
In the aftermath, you still stand, dazed. Bakugou and another red-haired guy from your class are panting, smoke curling from your familiar ash-blondâs figure, and you register, like the world is separated from you by a film: itâs over.Â
âOi.â There are palms cupping your face, and you blink a little, startled, as crimson eyes boring into yours. âYou hurt anywhere?âÂ
No, you think, a little too stunned to speak; the harshness of his tone at odds with the gentle manner of his touch. But then you see a hint of blood trickling down the side of his cheek.
As if on instinct, you reach out for him. He jerks away.
Wow, you think, the lump rising to your throat instantly. You had not known he hated you this much, to the point that he is unwilling of even your touch.Â
âI am a healer,â You say, your throat somewhat tight. ( You think of sunflowers, your bag that is empty, your closet and its piled-up yellow. ) âYou are hurt, and I am simply repaying a favor.âÂ
You sense that he is watching you carefully, but your eyes do not rise to meet his gaze. You simply steal his pain, and you barely feel a thing†even if his injuries were not so light, you think you are too numb to, anyways.Â
You move past, and he does not reach for you. The red-haired classmate†Kirishima, you recognize, grins at you, saying that he is unharmed. He offers to escort you back to the front, but then, your wristband is beeping, a location upon it.
You straighten. You are still afraid, you recognize, but there is someone out there that needs help, and this is simply another obstacle you must overcome. You will not always be in your hospital, tending to those that manage to get themselves wheeled in†and though there is fear in you, there is also an equal determination.Â
âThere are people who need healing,â You say, and that is all you need to.Â
You are a healer, but that does not mean you are any less brave.
You are a healer, and this is what you do.Â
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You ask Aizawa, two days later, if he would be willing to teach you self defense.Â
( You remember a boy, back from what feels like eons ago. You, on his back, the sun in your chest as he offers to walk you both to and from school. You donât even know where Iâm going, you tease, and he only scoffs at you. Then Iâll teach you how to fight.
You think of your sunflowers, and your bag, empty of them.
Your throat tightens, and you make your decision. )
He looks a little surprised, and asks you if you are sure. He warns you that he will not be a lenient teacher, but you have seen how this man dove headfirst into danger to save his students; seen his kindnesses that are masked in the form of tough love.Â
You also know he likes you, at least a little bit. If he hadnât, he would not have complimented you like that on the third day, would not have had the hint of fondness in his tone as he drawled, that wasnât a compliment.Â
And even if he doesnât, you know he will be at least a little lenient.Â
You had been the one to heal him, after all.Â
You are wrong.
You hate running. Always have. You started training, years ago, but that had been entirely out of spite, and in the wake of it†( your bag, empty of sunflowers )†you had stopped. You hate running, always have, and you have no time, youâd told yourself, nor the energy†but really, you hate it because it reminds you of him.
Now, you hate it for a different reason. You hate it because Aizawa pushes you, hard, until your lungs are gasping for air, your knees and legs trembling†you think, somewhat sourly, that none of your healings had ever prepared you for this. You have healed all manner of wounds, cured a variety of diseases, but that does not change the fact even back when you were running, you had not put everything you had into it, and that now, you are trembling, bones soft, muscles even more so, somewhat like a deer.
You heal fast, though, you always have. You would not have been able to heal without it†Aizawa knows this, which is why he pushes you hard. âIf you hadnât been so dedicated to medicine,â He tells you, âI wouldâve told you to go the Hero route instead.âÂ
You shrug. The thought has never occurred to you. Your mother is a doctor, and as soon as your Quirk had developed, you had never thought about anything else. But you donât get a chance to voice it, or even to thank him, because then heâs hauling you up by the arm.
âBreakâs over,â He informs you, a signature shit-eating grin on his face. You think youâre beginning to hate the sight of it. âBack to running.âÂ
You sigh, before dutifully acquiescing.Â
Schoolwork is easier, at least, though between your sparse shifts at the hospital and Aizawaâs daily after-school training, you are pretty much spent. You donât even register Mina chatting excitedly beside you about the upcoming UA sports festival that Aizawa has just announced†you only think, a little despairingly; more work.Â
You glance up at your pink-haired friendâs surprised exclamation, and you see: a crowd of people, so many that from your vantage point, it seems like itâs the intruder incident all over again. A scoff, vaguely familiar†âTheyâre obviously scoping out the competition, small fries. Weâre the group that made it out of the villain attack.â Someone protests, telling him to play nice†no, you think. This is him being nice. âOut of my way, extras!âÂ
âI came to see what the famous Class 1-A is like, but you all seem pretty arrogant. Are all the students in the Hero courses like this?âÂ
You see: a head of purple hair, mussed, and you think†wow, he could be Aizawa if your senseiâs hair was shorter, purple, and he were using his Quirk.Â
âSeeing something like this makes me disillusioned. There are quite a few people who enrolled in general studies or other courses because they didnât make it into the Hero course. Did you know that?âÂ
You didnât, but he only continues.Â
âThe school has left those of us a chance. And based on the results of the sports festival, theyâll consider our transfer into the Hero course, and vice versa. Scoping out the competition?â He scoffs. âI, at least, came to say that even if youâre in the Hero course, if you get too carried away, Iâll sweep your feet out from under you.â His eyes flash, chin raised high. âConsider it a declaration of war.â
You sigh a little internally at the theatrics. âExcuse me, coming through.â You call. You ignore the way the ash-blond tenses a little as you walk up beside him, and you smile politely at the crowd; your uniform your armor, and your makeup your helm. You can do damage control just fine. âIâm class 1-Aâs healer, so I donât have a bone to pick with you really, but,â You cock your head. âAll we did was fight off and survive a villain attack. Iâm not sure how thatâs arrogance. Have any of us gone out of our way to bother you?âÂ
You are sure your classmates havenât, because though you have not known them long, you are observant enough to tell that they are good and entirely dedicated to the path of Heroism. And you are right: he is wordless in the face of your diplomatic tone, the maturity of it all.Â
But then†a laugh, somewhat mocking. You think you recognize the voice, and you do: itâs class 1-Bâs understudy, standing in the middle of the crowd. You have not talked to her much, thinking her quiet, but it seems that really, she just dislikes you.Â
âThatâs so rich of you to say,â She says, with a scoff. âSucking up to Recovery Girl all the time, parading around like you own the place, all because you went viral and people started calling you The Best Healer of our Generation.âÂ
You blink†you remember Sueko mentioning it once, you think, after one of your co-workers, one of the older interns had started making videos of you, with your consent. You had not put much thought behind it, and you hadnât the time to, between your many hours and the boneless weariness that had been so constant in your life after.
âGet off your high horse,â She snarls, a vehement finality to it, as she scans you, up, and then down.Â
You donât know what to say, because honestly, you had never thought of yourself that way; had not thought of any others thinking of you that way. There are cries of outrage from behind you, you hear, distantly, as if you are underwater, but you are still stuck on the way she scans you. As if you are less than what you are, reduced to the painted trim of your nails, the makeup on your face, less than what you are and undeserving. As if it does not matter that you go to the hospital more often than not, your features clear, your hair pulled up, and lose yourself in your work; the agony of your patients, healing them and then some more until your bones ache with the ghost of their pain and you drop dead to your pillow, your phone turned off.Â
You are silent not because you are hurt, exactly†you do not know this girl, and she does not know you†but because you are so stunned. You donât know what to say, because you have never thought yourself reduced to just this, less than what you are and undeserving. Distantly, you hear the cries of outrage, you feel yourself, adrift amidst an ocean, your hands clenching. You donât know how to start, or what to even say.
But he does.Â
âShe doesnât use social media,â He starts, and yes, you donât, but how does he know? âIt obviously wasnât even her recording the videos, you fuckwit, and it says in the account biography that itâs owned and run by a friend.âÂ
You are staring at him, your heart held like hope in your throat. ( You think of your sunflowers. ) You donât understand why he is saying this, why he is stepping in for you. ( You remember making fun of the things he likes, and he of yours. You remember finding that you do not regret lying the first day and calling him your best friend, because even if you are not even friends†he is tolerant of you, he punches your pseudo-stalker for you, he walks with you before school, and he walks with you after. He never calls himself your friend, but he believes in you and your dream, and promises to walk you to and from school anyways, even if you do not attend the same one. )
He does not look at you, nor does he pause, and though there is anger in his voice, you think he is holding himself back. âHigh horse?â He laughs sardonically. âGet off yours. Sheâs already ten times the healer, hell, the Hero, youâll ever be.âÂ
( He doesnât call himself your friend, but he still stands up for you. )
You donât know what sort of expression youâre making, but it has to be ugly, something complicated, not exactly bewilderment nor gratitude or simply hope but some combination of them all; like something in between.Â
âAnd what would you know? What are you, her guard dog?â She snarks back.Â
And finally, you find your voice.Â
âHe does what he likes.âÂ
You are still watching him, and you see the way his hands clench, and then unclench.Â
( You think very briefly of your sunflowers, and you think that you will always miss them. You can heal any wound on this earth, save the fatal ones, but you cannot heal the hole he has carved into your heart; not the one from this boy who knows you, every facet, both the good and the bad. You have never needed to hide the unsavory parts of yourself from him; after all, your very relationship was built upon a lie. You think a part of you has always loved him for it, will always love him for it†this boy who is not your friend, has never been your friend, but still knows you, stands up for you, and believes in you, in all of you. And, you think, even if he does not care for you, there will always be a part of you that always cares for him. )
You turn to level her with a cool stare.Â
âHeâs right,â You say. âI donât use social media, and before you call me a liar, just listen.â You add, as her mouth opens.Â
( Your mother is a doctor, and when your Quirk develops, you know you want to go the same route. You have never even considered anything else; never even thought of being a Hero, until your sensei tells you that he mightâve pushed you for it, had you not already been so dedicated to the path.
And you will not pretend like you have been good every step of the way†you are not that much of a good person. Your mother tells you to play nice, because you are a willful child, vindictive in both your action and your speech, and petty enough to hold onto your grudges. You are not that much of a good person, you have never particularly cared to cater to the feelings of those around you unless you feel like it; do not care to stand up for a boy who has done nothing to you, just because he has done nothing for you.
You are grown now, better now, you know, but some elements of you still remain. You still wear your outfits like your armor, though it is not your hair but your makeup that is now your helm, you take time with your appearance and you take care of it every morning. Your volunteering at the hospital was not born entirely out of unselfish intention†firstly because your mother said it was what you should do, and second because you thought the experience would look good, especially since you were applying to UA. But†)
âI donât know why you applied to UA, but I know why I did.â You say, simply. âIt was because I wanted to become a healer, and this is one of the best places in the world to do it.â You straighten, jerking a finger at the ash-blond beside you. âWe all went through the same application process. Take him, for example. Heâs arrogant, heâs loud, and he always gets on your nerves. But that doesnât make him any less passionate, or any less of a Hero. It doesnât matter, because if youâre determined enough, strong enough, youâll eventually rise to the top.â
You are the center of attention, but you have never been so aware of a singular set of eyes, burning straight into you.
You continue. âI donât know who you are, or what you want to be, but that goes for the rest of you, too.â You jerk your thumb back to your classroom. âThereâs a green-haired boy in there that everyone thought was Quirkless, including himself. But he had a dream that he dared to try for, and look where he is now.âÂ
You look at your fellow intern, the class 1-B one.Â
âI donât use social media for a variety of reasons, havenât for a long while, and I wonât pretend like all of them were good. But ever since I started volunteering at the hospital, whenever I think about it, I think: every second I spend scrolling the internet could be another life lost. Someone I didnât save, something I didnât learn that couldâve helped someone in the future.â Your shoulders are set, and you lift your chin high. âYou can think Iâm a liar all you want, but I would hope, as a healer, you would be at least able to understand this.âÂ
She is mute, and you look at the rest of the crowd, wearing your outfit like armor, your makeup, your helm.Â
You raise one eyebrow. âAnything else?âÂ
Silence is your only answer, and you shrug.
âSee you around, I guess.â
The crowd parts mutely before you, but then your wrist is clasped in a hand†you think, very briefly, of sunflowers, but then you turn, and it is Mina grinning up at you, several others from your class in tow. âYouâre so fucking cool,â She tells you, bright and genuine.Â
You are not that much of a good person, never have been, and, you think, you are not entirely sure if you ever will be. You will never be entirely unselfish, free of your precociousness, your pettiness, your occasional lying habits, and all the other thousand-and-one flaws you could find in yourself, if you really tried.Â
But you are growing. You are the same you that you were before, and you are also different.Â
You grin at her. âI know I am,â You say.Â
You are not that much of a good person, but you are growing, just as much the person you were before, as you are someone new.
You are a healer, you are yourself; this is who you are, and this is what you do.Â
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His mother calls him out on his sulking, barely a week in.
âDid something happen between the two of you?â She frowns, and his heart clenches painfully in his chest.
âSâfine,â He snarls. âKeep your damn nose out of my business, old hag.âÂ
For once, his mother does not take him up on the challenge†he almost wishes she would. Heâs been itching for a fight, to get it out of his system somehow, but sheâs always been able to read him†just like you.
Mitsuki waves the phone in her hand. âHer father said she wonât be joining us for weekly dinners anymore†sheâs started volunteering at the hospital, and just wonât have time.â She states, plainly, and without judgment. âI donât know what happened between the two of you, or if youâre still friends, but you were probably a little shit like usual, so get off your ass and go apologize.âÂ
Apologize. That damned word. He hates it. And heâs considered it, but then he remembers: you, your face, the way it had crumpled, and then the way youâd sneered, donât talk to me again.
He has always been able to tell your lies from your truths, and it stunned him in the moment, because it had not seemed like so much of a lie.Â
And itâs not. He sees the truth of it, a week later, when you skip out on your weekly dinners, accept your volunteer position, and cut the whole of him from your life, just like that. He sees the truth of it, on the first day of school, as he waits by your intersection and is almost late because you arenât there, as he scans his class for your face and finds you absent, when you pass him in the halls and donât even bother to look up. He sees the truth of it two months later, when that damned nerd stands at your table, a tray in his hands, and you allow him to sit. His heart is in his throat, clenching around something painful, there is smoke rising from his hands†Deku looks up instinctively, flinching, and you do not even bother to turn.Â
( You and your sunflowers, the way you smile like the sun when you find out he is allergic, and go out of your way to plaster sunflower-themed things all over yourself, and heâs not quite sure if they are your favorite flower, or you do it just because you hate him. But then he gets to know you, slowly and over the years, a thousand-and-one forced interactions until he finds, one day, that he is not reacting so sharply to your barbs, uncaring that you flop onto his bed and muss up the sheets, unminding of your chatter, your studious, stupidly competitive nature, the way your eyebrows knit a little when you focus on a more difficult concept, or how youâre grinning as you annoy him, rambling about anything and everything; your fictional crushes.
You say you want to be a healer, and the first thing he thinks is: thatâs stupid, why not a Hero?†but your eyes are determined as you say it, there is a fire in them, and he sees that bleed into the way you do things; the way you act. You never call him your friend†you have, once, very clearly a lie†but he punches your pseudo-stalker for you, promises to walk you to and from school, even if he does not know which one you might go to, promises to teach you how to fight. Itâs stupid, he knows it is, the way he tenses when you joke that you want him to kiss you so bad because heâs imagining it. And then the guilt after, when you press your cheek softly into the curve of his nape, feeling the dried-out tracks of your tears, the way you shudder as you steal his pain†barely-there, but he feels it, anyway. )
He looks at you, properly, fork crumpling in his hand. âYo. Youâre staring.â One of his friends nudges him, gently, and he forces himself to look away.Â
( You, the sunflowers you bedazzle yourself in, your bag absent of them, and the way you never wear anything yellow ever again. )
Heâs angry at you, at first. Itâs unfair, he thinks, the way you seem to carve him completely out of your life, with all the practiced precision of a surgeon, that he spends almost all his time thinking about you, and that you do not do the same for him. You donât want to talk to him, youâve made that abundantly clear, and thatâs fine†he has his pride, and he is not going to beg you to stay. Not when you chose the nerd over him.Â
But then you stand in the doorway. You look like you did the first day, clear-eyed, but older. Your eyes widen when they catch sight of him, ever-slight, but heâs never missed a single expression on your face, and he does not miss it now. All of a sudden, he wants to talk to you so badly that it hurts†he sees the bags under your eyes and wants to tell you to sleep, the bone-weariness with which you carry yourself, your step absent of skip.Â
But then, your gaze drops. He sees your bag, absent of its sunflowers.Â
He feels as if his gut were a stone, heavy and damning.Â
He remembers: you have never once thought of him as a friend, and he will not beg you to. He will respect your space, your wishes.Â
And yet. You stand by the entrance, the day of that first class, fierce and silhouetted by the sun. Are you hurt? You ask him, and it feels as if he were floating, stuck in a dream.
He takes too long to respond, and you give him a once-over, clearly discerning he is fine. You kneel by the damn nerdâs side, and he feels the absence of your attention like a physical thing, but even that is secondary to the horror he feels when you reach the other boy; his arm painfully bruised and almost a terror to look at.Â
He wants to say: you donât have to do this, you donât have to hurt yourself. There are other healers in the building, and donât you have a mentor? You raved about Recovery Girl all the time, thereâs no reason you should be taking his pain for yourself. And the nerd will be fine†anger clenches at him, then, because if the nerd knows about your Quirk and still allows you to hurt yourself for him†âWhy does that even matter?â You ask him, and he hears the ghost of what you donât say: why do you even care?
He does. Of course he does. He always has, even when you giggle to yourself about something so blatantly stupid, even when you are an entire pain in his ass.Â
But then he thinks of you, your bag empty of sunflowers, the way you have not worn yellow since.Â
His arm drops back to his side, and he says nothing more to you, just as youâd like.Â
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You have always disliked crowds, but so has he.Â
He is watching you when it happens, sees you lingering hesitantly by the exit. Youâll be smart about it, heâs sure†heâs hotheaded, yes, but that doesnât mean heâs stupid or blind. But then†brown-haired cheeks tugs you by the wrist, forcing you into the throng, and he thinks: what the fuck?Â
He knows itâs stupid, and that you wonât thank him for it, but he dives after you, anyway.Â
He forces his way towards you, watching as you elbow someone particularly hard with a surge of pride, before heâs holding you and marching away, towards the wall, towards free space, trying not to think about how you feel in his arms, how you feel with the whole of you pressed against him. He needs to say something, anything to distract himself, so what he says is: âWhat the hell were you thinking? You donât even like crowds.âÂ
Your cheeks are a little flushed, and you are staring at him. He feels his own warm in turn, and he feels like a kid again, heart like a sun in his chest.Â
Your features still. Your mouth flattens, and you are cold as you say what you did not only a day before. âWhy do you even care?â You ask.
He does. Of course he does.Â
But you do not ask this question in hopes of an answer. Your gaze slides past, and then you go with it, refusing to give him even the time to reach for you.Â
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When the mist envelops him, the first thing he turns towards is you.Â
His eyes widen†you are already in the air, lunging at him, and he barely has the mind, the presence of thought to catch you. You fall as one, and his gut lurches†he wraps himself around you, shielding your vitals, your head from harm, and gladly takes the brunt of the impact. He has all of a second to check up on you, to feel you pressed against him, know that you are safe, before he catches sight of more villains behind. âSTAY THERE.â He shoves you into a corner, setting his back to you†and when they are done, you have not moved an inch.
He sees the daze of your eyes, the shock, and cups your cheeks anyways, trying to ground you. âOi,â He says, harsh, but also soft. âYou hurt anywhere?âÂ
You blink up at him, and then at the red he barely feels sliding down the side of his cheek.Â
He jerks away. He doesnât want you to touch him, not to heal him†heâs strong, heâs fine, he can deal with it, he doesnât need you to steal his pain. Not when itâll hurt you.Â
âI am a healer,â You say, and his heart clenches again at the sound of your voice, and again when you tell him: âYou are hurt, and I am simply repaying a favor.âÂ
He hears the steel in your voice, lets you touch him.
He would give anything to curl into your touch, even if for the rest of your life, your relationship is just like this: he, the dog, and your favors, the bone. He wants it, so long as you will keep on touching him like this, and yet he also doesnât want it, because he cannot bear to be the one causing you such pain.Â
He is angry beyond words when the extra starts laying into you like she does, and you simply stand there, bearing the brunt of it all.Â
Heâs watched the videos, seen every single one. Seen how hard you work inside of them†the comments talk about how beautiful you are, but all he can think of is the tired pallor of your face†but whatâs more is that he knows how hard you work outside, too, and who is this girl to even talk about you like that, when she doesnât know what itâs like to take the pain of another, and make it into your own? His tone of delivery is quiet, no less than lethal, and he speaks with every ounce of pride he has in you and the person that you are.Â
You are watching him, he thinks, and he thinks, somewhat dizzily, that this is it. Youâll chew him out in front of the crowd, call him out on his bullshit, tell him to stop speaking about you, speaking for you, that you hate him, that heâs stupid, anything and everything of the above.Â
But you do not.
You only rise, and he thinks that you are not at all the girl he has known before. Some parts of you are the same, entirely unchanged, but you have grown†so much that it takes his breath away. You have always been coolly elegant in your deliveries when you mean it, but thisâ€
He thinks: it is okay if you never want to talk to him, if you donât care one bit. It is okay if you choose never to wear yellow again, your bag remaining empty of its sunflowers, it is okay if you carve him entirely from your life.Â
He will respect your wishes, and watch from the sidelines, basking in the radiance of you: the healer, the girl, and simply everything that you are.Â
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You should not be here.Â
You feel terribly out of place in this darkened room, with a crowd of familiar villains before you, disoriented and groggy.Â
If it were not for the ash-blond by your side, you think you mightâve started hyperventilating. You are quiet as you wake. You notice: his hands are bound, but yours are not†they know you are a healer, you think, and they do not fear you.Â
You feel, rather than see, crimson eyes slide to yours. You blink up at him.Â
And then, his eyes flicker up.
You see the resolve set firmly onto his face. You know him, likely more than he does himself, which is why you know what he will say.Â
He says: âIâll listen. Iâll consider working with you, so long as you make sure to leave her out of it.âÂ
No. The word clangs into you with a force, a viciousness. You jolt upwards, so fast your head spins†no. You know he wonât. He is a Hero to the core, and you know this, because you have decided early on that you will remain a step behind him always, even if he does not care at all for you, there and ready to steal away your pain. You have decided: you will see him live out all of his days, full of glory and entirely unscathed, victorious, and you will not watch him burn his life away like this, tucked away in a corner of this world, quietly and without a sound.Â
He lies to protect you, and you decide there and then that it isnât worth it. You know him, have spent a thousand and one days getting to know him, just as you know that his bluff will be called before long, because though Bakugou Katsuki is many things, you have always known him to be a terrible liar.Â
You arenât, though.
You straighten, and rasp. âNo, he wonât.âÂ
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He watches you straighten, watches you drawl, and he feels a terror like ice creeping up to his throat.
Your lips are pulled into your liarâs smile, soft and lovely under the candlelight, but then†âKatsukiâs going to be a Hero,â You tell them, and his heart stutters because when was the last time you actually called him by his name?Â
âShut the fuck up,â He tells you.
You ignore him.
âTrust me when I say, this guyâs like, the biggest All Might fan youâll ever see. Well, actually, maybe not the biggest†Midoriyaâs collection is insanely impressive, but you get the point. Did you really see his actions at the Sports Festival and think that was your opening?âÂ
You stand, a smirk on your face, and he wants to tell you to shut the hell up again, to just stop talking, but†you turn, you flash him a grin, and itâs like heâs six again and seeing you for the first time. You see him, in a way no one else ever has, in a way that assuages all the criticism heâs seen since, narrowing his world down to these things: you, and your unwavering confidence in him. Your lips are pulled into your liarâs smile, you are scared and terrified and pretty much everything in between, but he hears your words, hears your truth.
âNewsflash, losers. Heâs wanted to be a Hero ever since he was a kid, and nothingâs ever going to change that.âÂ
His heart swells so tight he thinks itâs going to burst. You, in this moment, like you still care, that heâs not alone in this, and that he cares for you more than anything else in the world, loves you more than you will ever know.Â
You do not need to say anything else, because there is a knock on the door†pizza delivery, someone calls, and then the door opens; All Might in the flesh. The heroes†and then you are scrambling for him, your fingers fumbling with the knots, but he simply jerks his hands apart, tearing the fabric, and reaches for yours.Â
You still a little, surprised, flinching back a bit, but his heart is singing†you care, he thinks, somewhat dumbly, like a mantra bouncing around inside his head. He barely registers the rest of it†he emerges by the ruins of a building, your hand still in his, piloting the both of you around the villains who try to keep you. Shitty Hair, calling down at him from the fucking sky†what the fuck? but then heâs calling for you, and then there is you: looping your arms around his neck, knowing, instinctively, what he means.
His chest warms like the sun, ethereal and glorious.Â
You blast together into the night. His hand lands upon another one, similarly callused, and then heâs curling his other around you, latching you to him. Your head is settled in the crook of his neck, and you donât protest it in the slightest, only untangling yourself once you land.
You donât reach for his hand once you do, but thatâs okay. His heart is singing.Â
He snarls at the others in his usual manner, and you assert yourself with your own. He follows you as you walk, a step behind. The others leave you at the police station, their own parents plenty concerned, and he doesnât mind it in the slightest†he gets to walk you home, after all.Â
You are silent as he does. He walks a step behind, and does not prod you.Â
You stop. He does, too. Your hands ball up into fists. He watches, waiting.Â
Finally, you whisper. âWhy the hellâd you do it?âÂ
That is not at all what heâs expecting you to say.
âHah?â Heâs never been good with his words, always more combative than means. Particularly with you. Especially with you. âCause I wanted to, dumbass. The hell do you want me to say?âÂ
You whip around and slug him instantly, punching him square in the gut.Â
He barely bends from the force of it. You clutch your fist, teary and glaring.Â
âFuck you,â You hiss. âFuck you, Katsuki. You donât just get to pretend like you care when you want to, whenever it suits you! You donât get toâ€âÂ
Heâs stunned into silence. Heâs the one thatâs pretending like he cares about you?
Your mouth opens and closes, so angry that you cannot quite find the words. âYou donât get to just fucking try and sacrifice yourself for me! What the fuck!âÂ
He steps closer, disbelief lighting a second sun in his chest.
You lash out. âStay away from me!âÂ
He catches it in his hand, and you try to fucking headbutt him. He dodges that, too, and then heâs pulling you into him, as tight as his heart feels.
You stiffen. Frankly, he doesnât give a shit, not when heâs figured out how you really feel.Â
âIâm sorry,â He rasps into your ear. âI care for you. Iâve liked you since we were fucking six, and you shoved your stupid fucking sunflowers in my face. I was angry. Iâm sorry. Iâll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, if youâll have me.âÂ
You do not move. Do not breathe, and for all of a second, he thinks: this is it.Â
And then, you crumple.Â
He can count the number of times heâs seen you cry on one hand, but you weep into his shoulder now, a yearâs worth of repressed emotions wrung out of you in an instant. You melt into him so perfectly he feels as if he was made for you, the weight of you so perfect and familiar in his arms. âYouâre so fucking stupid,â He thinks you are saying though itâs somewhat unintelligible, between your sobs and the way your voice is muffled from being pressed into his chest.Â
He chuffs in your ear. âFeel free to add blind and ugly to the list, if youâd like.âÂ
You laugh, broken and teary, but then your arms rise, and you are wrapping them around him.
He thinks: itâs okay if the world ends right then and there, so long as he gets to hold you; just like this; just then and there; just for a moment longer.Â
( He thinks of you and your sunflowers, your liarâs smile. How your face had lit up in absolute delight at the sound of his first sneeze, and how youâd stepped forward to thrust it further into his face, a wicked grin on yours all the while. How you lie your way into weekly dinners, and heâs furious, swearing he wonât talk to his parents for the whole of a month†but then youâre there, in his room and making fun of his figurines.
You say, somewhat disinterestedly, that you think you remember a new All Might one on the market. He caves, and his vow lasts only a week.Â
He thinks of you and your sunflowers, your liarâs smile. How he had always hated the sight of them before you; a young god faced with his one mortal weakness, but as time went on, he learned how he did not quite mind the look of them on you. He thinks of you and your sunflowers, your liarâs smile; soft and lovely under the candlelight, scared and shaking and terrified but still believing wholly in him, just as he does you.Â
He thinks he has loved you since forever. )
Absent-mindedly, he presses his mouth to your hair.
And in the light of the dawn, pink-streaked and painting you awash in sunflower yellow, you look up at him, and smile.Â
bc i need to rant about this fic: afterword
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Warnings: +18 MINORS DNI Noncon, dubcon, manhandling, threatening, choking, fingering, penetration, creampie, oral sex (m.receiving), size kink, spit, degradation, public humiliation, Stockholm syndrome
ALL CHARACTERS AGED UP TO MID TWENTIES
DISCLAIMER: Characters belong to Kohei Horikoshi
Summary: You were a spy sent by the HPSC to infiltrate the infamous villain group in order to help the pro-heroes to catch them, which you nearly managed to pull off but unbeknownst to you, bringing Katsuki Bakugou and his cruel comrades in front of justice wasnât going to be that easy.
A.N.: So I sent this ask to @kingkatsukiâ and it was supposed to be just thirst, but her idea of a double agent got my creativity flowing big time and inspiring me to write it into a fic so I just wanted to give some credits for her! I ainât gonna lie, this was a tough one but I sure had fun writing this! Please read the warnings before reading!
Tag List: @mukagentropyâ @strangerdangerduh
The darkest spot of the bar counter offered its lonely spot for you and your thoughts which lingered somewhere in the depths of your weary mind.Â
With a straw between your slender fingers, you swirled your drink in a slow manner, the clattering sound of ice cubes mixing in with the beautiful melody of a saxophone playing in the background.Â
Rather than loud and crowded, the dim light of the pub and the relaxing music was exactly what you deserved after a long mission as a double agent in the most dangerous and violent villain gang Japan had ever faced.
Your duty ended last night as you excused yourself from the group, claiming you had things to take care of, when in reality the pro-heroes were about to execute their attack.Â
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The descriptions and word play. Beautiful.
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What Is A Flower If Not Petals? (What Is Love If Not Blooming?
â©pairing: Hard Of Hearing!Katsuki Bakugou x Fem!Reader
â©genre :hurt/comfort
â©word count: 7.4k
â©warnings: established Shinkami (who are terrible pet owners), sad bakugou, dumbification, oral (fem receiving), fingering, unprotected sex
â©authors note: this is for my sweet baby @dearestdynamight birthday!!!! iâm so glad u liked it and u mean so so so much to me my love u are literally my first tumblr friend and mean the absolute world to me!!!
Your mother always told you hate was a strong word, so youâve avoided using it.
However, spending your early 20âs walking dogs between classes wasnât what the teenage version of you imagined you would be doing at this age. You canât complain though. Most dogs behave well. You do get to make your own schedule and who wouldnât want to spend their free time walking dogs and playing with them while also avoiding the massive responsibility that they are?
Your motherâs chastising voice also reminds you to be grateful. That this job is better than nothing. That youâre lucky to have a consistent stream of customers that not only treat you well but pay you well, along with dogs that behave well.
Again. Most dogs.
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đđ» Have the passion, have the fun, the laughs and pleasure. It's more intimate, more nourishing, more beautiful.
Letâs be real, sex is weird. Itâs gross. They donât call it bumping uglies for no reason. It is the most unserious thing on the planet. So have fun with it!!!
We are often shown and told that sex is supposed to be a show. Youâre supposed to look a certain way, feel a certain way, sound a certain way. Itâs bullshit. You are literally touching and rubbing each otherâs mucous membranes and it feels good. Itâs sticky and sweaty and smelly and thatâs normal. Thatâs how itâs supposed to be. And itâs beautiful. We are just animals taking part in the most pleasurable activity on planet earth.
Idk man Iâll just never forget the time a coworker told me about an encounter she had with a guy she had been seeing for like six months?? He was manhandling her and she was having a great time and so she laughed. You know. As you do when youâre having fun.
Deadass this guy stopped cold and accused her of laughing at him. He was genuinely angry with her and got dressed and walked out. Iâm flabbergasted to this day like. Loosen the fuck up. Sex is not that serious.
Tldr sex is supposed to be fun so have fun
"That's not my child" đ€Łđ€Ł
pairings: neteyam x reader
warnings: cute, fluff, bad writing
key: skxawng - moron, muntxa - mate
summary: Neytiri and Jake talk about you and Neteyam being perfect for each other.
As long as Neytiri could remember, Neteyam always followed you everywhere.
Where ever Y/n L/n is, Neytiriâs eldest son was glued right by her side.
Didnât matter if they were five or fifteen, he had always been there, never embarrassed once by Y/nâs akward energetic personality.
Neytiri always kept an eye on the two kids, and couldnât help but notice her and Jake in them.
As Y/n was passionately talking and Neteyam was listening, Neytiri was watching from afar, as Jake walked behind her, wrapping his arms around her.
âHey gorgeous, what are you looking at,â he asked his lover.
As Neytiri glanced at her mate, she motioned at the kids. âYour son is in love, you know this?â
Jake spots the two laughing and nods in acknowledgment. âYea, Neteyamâs been following her around for years now.â
Neytiri wistfully sighed and leaned her head against Jakeâs chest and looked up at him.
âOh ma Jake, Neteyam is in love. He grows to fast,â she said, wiping a tear away.
âNeytiri,â Jake starts.
âYou know he loves you very much, being in love doesnât change that.â
Neytiri nods in agreement. âI know this, but why my son is not brave to ask to court her, I do not know,â she scoffs.
âYeah, that one is definitely something we need to work on with him.â
Neytiri sighed, âOh ma âTeyam. Y/n is good for him, yes?â
Jake nods, staring at the said person laughing.
âShe will make great Tsahik,â Neytiri says with no hint of uncertainty in her voice.
âNo doubt she will,â Jake agrees.
Hearing a crash, the parents turn to the noise to see Neteyam holding Y/n, as if she has tripped and he caught her.
Toruk Makto and his wife stood, silently urging their son to make a move.
As the pause between the teenagers had been prolonged, Neteyam cleared his throat and stepped back.
The adults facepalmed and looked at each other.
âYour son is stupid,â Neytiri said, turning to Jake.
âMy son? Heâs a mommaâs boy, thatâs all you,â Jake retorted.
Before they could continue arguing, Neteyam walked away from Y/n, headed in their direction.
âMother, Father, what are you doing here,â their son asked in confusion.
âApparently watching you be a stupid skxawng,â Jake answered his ignorant son.
As Neteyam spluttered, Neytiri held a hand to silence him.
âYou must, what is it you say ma Jake, âman up?â Is that how you say? You must âman upâ and ask her to be your muntxa, if you like her that is?â
Neteyam paused for a brief moment, trying to choose his words wisely.
âYes..â he started. âI like her. A lot.â
âThen I see no problem, go ask her,â Neytiri told her son.
Neteyam nodded and turned to find the said girl when he was suddenly stopped by his father.
âHey, Neteyam,â Toruk Makto called out.
âYes sir?â
âDonât be a skxawng, just ask her.â
âââââââââââââââââââââââ
A/N: Please comment what you think!! I might have an idea for part 2 or I might make another imagine similar to this for when Neteyam asks Y/n đ€
"Looks like she wants me" SIR IM DEAD â€ïžđâ€ïž
waking bkg up with head >>> or him doing it to you
cw: somnophilia
i think the consent conversation beforehand would be sweet too. like asking him if heâd be okay if you ever wanted to do that to him because he doesnât automatically smirk and do his goofy horny smile. he ponders on it then shrugs, âthink itâll be sexy. just not when i have to be up early that day. donât like being late.â you roll your eyes in amusement but also agreeing, âsame, i still wanna sleep in.â and with that itâs just choosing when to do it. a week has passed since you asked when you decide to.
first mission is to actually crawl out of his tight grip, squeezing and pushing at his arm to get out. he usually always slept on his back which was great for you so once you were out of his arms you admired how pretty your boyfriend was completely relaxed and asleep. his hair a flat mess, his eyebrows with no frown and his lips a little swollen like usual in the mornings. you have enough pictures of him asleep but you can still take one more.
then sliding under the covers, gripping his limp dick in your hand and spitting over the head. you use that to jerk him off slowly, not wanting to awake him just yet. you smile as he shuffles around, deep breath coming past his lips but heâs still asleep.
then you take him in your mouth. firstly taking him in so he hits the back of your throat to get the length wet, then focusing just on his tip, your fist around the rest of him. you swipe your tongue across his slit, sucking harshly on his tip how you know he likes. if your mouth wasnât full of dick, you would have smiled at how he slowly hardens in your mouth, a sleepy unconscious hand coming to rest lightly on your head.
you keep going, adding some licks down his tree trunk veins, sucking onto the side of his shaft and back to his head.
âohh-umpf-wha-f-fuck? b-baby?â he croaks, voice so deep you feel your clit pulsate.
you flick your eyes up to your boyfriend, mouth full of him as he blinks down at you, making sure heâs seeing and feeling correctly.
âoh youâre doinâ this shit today? fuck.â he mumbles mostly to himself, his eyes clenching shut. heâs already overwhelmed from just waking up and already so hard, dick encased by your wet warm mouth.
you keep bobbing your head, thriving on every deep morning moan you get from your lover. heâs grunting, mindlessly babbling and not thinking straight, âhow long have i even been hard for âcause iâm about to fuckinâ nut.â
then he does, feeling his body tense as he shoots ropes of white down your throat. you swallow it all, you even keep on sucking his head until you hear bakugou groan, âtoo s-sensitive baby.â you pull off him with a pop, leaving one kiss on his head then climbing up to lay beside him.
he slides his eyes shut again, circling an arm around your back and dragging you back into his chest.
âthatâs a good fuckinâ way to start my day.â
you kiss his chest, âyouâre welcome baby.â
âi think we should change the rules to even on busy days too like half an hour before my usual alarm. so iâm notâ,â
âyouâre never late anyway, âki. one time we fucked for two hours before you had to go and you still got there on time.â
he shrugs, âperks of being my own boss.â
you pinch his side as he chuckles, rolling into your neck to kiss you all over. then he rests up on his forearms, âcan i taste you? i know youâre probably soaked.â
you whine at his crude language, bite your lip when he slides two fingers between your legs, and you cover your face when he puts the glistening fingers in front of your faces.
âlooks like she wants me.â he grins.
âshut up katsuki!â
Stoop I'm hurting right now đ let them have their love
Aonung x Omatikayan!Fem!Reader   Â
Summary â You and Ao'nung fail miserably at trying to stay away from each other, unfortunately, that means your parents are quick to notice...
Contains: complex parental relationships, heavy development on platonic/family relationships, fluff, angst, Avatar TWOW spoilers (i feel like thats obvious but wtv)
Word count: 5.8k (I'm a few days late so i panicked a wrote a lot...)
pt.1 & pt.2
Will probably do one or two more parts :))
(the song will come in later :) )
You opted out of lessons for the day, honestly you havenât needed them for a while, you just liked being with the group, but now you and Aoânung have a facade to keep up. You sat in the Marui weaving the necklace, even though you were frustrated with Neteyam right now, you still wanted to make this.   Â
Youâre sure that these projects shouldnât take this long, but it was your first one, so you gave yourself some grace.    Â
"So this is where youâve been hiding out all day?â You look up to see Loâak standing at the entrance. You rolled your eyes, âYeah, unliked someone, I can afford to miss a few lessonsâ you teased.   Â
He threw his side bag at you, causing you to laugh, before he sat down across from you. âAoânung looked like a lost puppy without you aroundâ he quipped; you resisted the urge to smile. âAnd youâre over here pouting like a child.â you rolled your eyes again   Â
âI am not pouting, I am wishing that you would leave me be.â You kicked at him and he put his hands in the air.   Â
âAll right all right, I won't bother you anymore.â He laughed, dodging your kicks, but you landed one on his chest which pushed him on his back. âYou are the meanest sister Y/nâ he grumbled as you laughed.   Â
-Â Â Â Â
It was hard to ignore Aoânung, he was always around, and he did kind of look like a lost puppy... usually you would banter or explore the reef together, but now he stuck with Rotxo and you with Neteyam and Kiri. Stealing glances at each other and finding flowers in âout of the ordinaryâ places became a routine, as did meeting at the edge of the reef every night.    Â
Youâre sure that your family is growing suspicious of your nightly disappearances by now, but you couldnât find it in yourself to care.   Â
Lying on the rocks stargazing with Aoânung quickly became what you looked forward to everyday. You talked about anything and everything, life in the forest, growing up in the reef, family. Whatever you could talk about, you would.   Â
âOur parents talked to each other about us.â Aoânung stated, you sat up and looked at him, confusion splayed across your face. âApparently, we are a âbad influenceâ on each other...â he smirked   Â
Aoânung stayed lying on his back. You furrowed your brows, âBut we havenât even spoken to each other for days, at least in front of othersâ   Â
âYour parents say I've caused you to be too moodyâ He laughed, you rolled your eyes and smacked his chest.   Â
âWell, what about you lover boy? What bad influence have I had on you?â you teased, getting close to his face.   Â
Hs smile dropped and he looked away awkwardly, before you could question it you noticed a dark spot on his cheek. With how dark it was, you hadn't noticed until you were this close. You grabbed his face and turned it to get a better look, he protested but you had already seen it.   Â
âAoânung is this a bruise?â You questioned urgently, you looked him in the eyes, but he kept them averted. You frowned âAoânung...â you pleaded.   Â
He sat up and rubbed the back of his neck, âI uh...â you nodded for him to continue. âMom and dad say that youâve caused me to get into too many fights...â   Â
This was the first you were hearing of this... âWhat are you talking about?â you moved closer, placing a hand on his bruised cheek âDoes this have to do with my brothers?â you asked, ready to chew out the sully that couldnât butt out of your business.   Â
âNo no itâs not themâ he sighed, pausing for a moment. âThere were some guys talking about you and Kiri and... well they werenât being respectfulâ you didnât want to know what he meant by that. âI donât know, I tried to ignore it, but they started asking me questions about you and-â he gestured to his face.    Â
You frowned and cupped his face in your hands, âAtleast they look worseâ he added, amused. You rolled your eyes.   Â
âYou do not have to defend me, weâre supposed to be mad at each other remember?â You sat back and he leaned forward.   Â
âI know but I couldnât just let them talk like that about you and your sister...â he was only inches away from your face, you smiled. He went from being what you needed to be defended from from, to being the defender.   Â
If you had told yourself a year ago that youâd be sneaking around and lying to your family for some boy who almost got your brother killed, sheâd be feeding your head to your mothers ikranâŠÂ  Â
âWell please be careful next timeâ you placed a kiss on the bruise ânow it's not just my brother against us...â   Â
He smiled and grabbed your wrists, pulling you forward as he laid back down. You landed on his chest, a chuckle escaping your throat before you nestled into his side, arm wrapped around you. You could hear his heart beating, this was the closest you had ever been, you swore you could have fallen asleep like this.   Â
-Â Â Â Â
You didnât talk about Spider much, aside from conversations with Kiri and Jake comforting you, it was a touchy subject. Neytiri always tried to hide her scowl when he came up in conversation, Neteyam and Loâak didnât have much to say other than they missed him. It was like he was supposed to be forgotten.   Â
You knew he wasnât technically a part of the family, he was raised by the lab guys, but so were you. The more you thought about it, the more it bothered you. Spider was your brother, and they just kind of brushed off your worry about him.   Â
âHe is human. He will be fineâ Neytiri would always say. Neteyam and Loâak repeating the same sentiment, just more sympathetic and reassuring.    Â
What If I was the one that got caught?   Â
You wanted to ask them, but you were scared, of their reaction, their answer... so you didnât.   Â
But you wondered, and the more you did, the more you came to the conclusion that they probably wouldnât have done much to get you back. You know that you're not the same as Spider, but how would Jake and Neytiri view it?   Â
It was useless thinking about it, harmful even, you knew that, but you couldnât help it. So you found yourself spending more time with Kiri, she was the only one who could understand the heartbreak you harbored over your brother's capture.   Â
Out in broad daylight it was hard to have a private conversation in such a bustling village, so Kiri called for her ikran and held out her hand for you to mount after her. You raised a brow questioningly but took her hand before she had to explain.  Â
Before you knew it, you were flying above the village, circling as you closed your eyes and breathed in the air. It had been so long since youâd flown, spending most of your time swimming or in the Marui. Kiri did a few more laps before landing atop the mountains on the island, the view of the trees was somewhat nostalgic...  Â
âI thought youâd like it up hereâ She commented, placing her hand on your shoulder as you both sat on the edge, legs dangling far above ground.   Â
âI donât know why I never thought of thisâ you breathed, your shoulders relaxing, you didn't even know you were tense.  Â
âWell, you were a little distractedâ she bumped her shoulder against yours, you swatted her away, blushing.  Â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â you denied, and she laughed  Â
âI am not dumb sister. Our brothers may not notice the looks he gives you but sooner or later they willâ she smirks, leaning in closer. You look away and continue to deny her accusations, it grows quiet for a second and your mind drifts back to spider, Kiri notices your change in demeanor.  Â
âY/n you know I was just teasing you right?â she offers, placing her hand on your shoulder. you shake your head âNo I know Kiri, I just...â placing your hand over hers âI miss my brother...â you whisper.  Â
She breathes out and scoots closer, you lay your head on her shoulder and she moves both your hands to the ground, still holding onto each other. âI know, I do too.â Is all she says, she doesnât try to overcompensate or comfort you about how heâll be fine, she just understands.  Â
Thatâs what you always liked about Kiri, even when you were upset over something stupid or didnât even understand your own feelings, she listened and understood. You were both adopted by the Sullys with scientist mothers loyal to the Naâvi, granted, Kiri was adopted from birth and had her mothers recording to connect with, but the fact still remains that theres more than just being âfamilyâ connecting you. Â
âI remember when we were little and heâd always try and carry you aroundâ She started, âNorm and Max didnât trust him, but you begged and begged to go outside, they could never say no to you.â you giggled at the memory.  Â
âOf course, Neteyam and Loâak would start arguing about how theyâd be better fit to carry youâ she drawled, you could practically hear how she rolled her eyes.Â
âAnd I'd get so sick of it that I'd just end up running off or getting carried by you.â you added.  Â
âLoâak would complain that you were slowing us down but back home heâd whine to mom about not being the one to look after youâ she giggledÂ
âI still donât get why it was such a big dealâ You mumbledÂ
âYou were curious about the world, you took it all in like you were one with itâ Kiri explained âMax was so protective though, you barely got any time out, so when you did, we didnât want anything happening that could confine you back to the labâ she played with the ends of your hair as she spoke. âAnd none of us trusted the others to not mess it up.â  Â
You thought for a moment before sitting up and laughing âSo all of that was just a way to one up each other?â you threw your head back âNo wonder you guys kept it going when I became Naâviâ  Â
She laughs with you, âYour brothers are all stupidâ she states, playfully punching your shoulder âAnd old habits die hard, I donât think Neteyam ever gave upâ  Â
You smiled âTeyam is...â you thought for a moment âmy twin. I might just have to get used to itâ you shrugged, a grin spreading across both your faces.  Â
âWell, if you ever need a moment to not be used to itâ She leaned in âI think I'm the only one who knows about this placeâ she whispers playfully, like sheâs telling you a secret in a crowd of people, before winking.  Â
You lamely stuck out your tongue as she snickered. Before anything else could be said, the horn that signals the return of dinner hunters sounded, you looked at each other before getting up and mounting her Ikran. Â
-Â Â Â
You decided to sit with Loâak in one of the village dinner circles, youâre not sure why, but you were surprised to see Tsireya and Aoânung among the group. You were almost directly across from Aoânung, and it was hard to resist scooting closer to him.   Â
âCan he stop ogling at you?â Loâak leans in to ask, you roll your eyes âMaybe when you stop ogling his sisterâ   Â
He scrunches his nose âIâm just saying it's weird, you guys have been at each other's throats for days and now he canât keep his eyes off of you?â He questions, raising his brows, his argument is reasonable, but youâd rather not encourage him. You just shrug and go back to tearing up your fish to eat.  Â
âHey maybe heâs into thatâ He adds, jabbing his elbow into your side.  Â
You whip your head around to him, eyes widened, mouth agape, a sound of disbelief escaping your mouth. He only laughs and picks up a piece of your fish, placing it in your mouth and closing it with his hand.  Â
You spit the food at him, and it was your turn to laugh as he frowned at you. Tsireya laughed at the interaction between you two and Loâakâs scowl fell into a bashful smile as they shared glances at eachother. You made eye contact with Rotxo and Aoânung, you rolled your eyes as they smirked at Loâakâs awkward crush.  Â
âMaybe I ought to tell her youâre into that huh?â you chuckled into his ear, bringing back his scowl, he flipped you off before swatting you away.   Â
You spent dinner chatting away with the Metkayina your age, and Loâak reminding you multiple times to âeat or your food will get coldâ or a finger in front of your lips that pointed down to your food as soon as you stopped talking.   Â
Tsireya complimented you on your tweng, sparking a conversation on weaving and accessories. You shared stories of the different bracelets and additions to your necklace, how you helped Neytiri weave Tukâs first clothes, and when she outgrew them Neytiri wove a piece of it into your necklace before it was repurposed.   Â
She showed you the beads from her first underwater ceremony she performed under her mother, with this, others joined in. Rotxo telling the story of the bones on his necklace, Loâak showed off the teeth of his first kill in the forest, Tsireya listening intently. Aoânung spoke of the beads on his armband and the giant tooth woven into his necklace. the one he took off and insisted you wear while together just the night before.  Â
The conversation was lively and shifted from topic to topic, until some started to yawn and parents came to collect their children, until only a few of you were left. Rotxo and Aoânung shoved at each other as Tsireya and Loâak were immersed in a conversation about the forest, others continued their conversations. You stared up to the sky before a smile fell on your lips and stood up.  Â
You walked around the group, as you passed by Aoânung you flicked his back with your tail. You kept walking but glanced back and made eye contact with him, you smiled and continued to the shoreline on the other side of the village. You sat in the sand drawing for a few minutes before you heard him coming. Â
âTook you long enoughâ you teased, standing up to be face to face with him. Â
âI didnât want to be too obviousâ He twirled the hair that framed your face with his finger. Grinning, you took a step back. Â
âI think itâs a little unfairâ You drawled, taking slow steps backwards, âThat i've learned to swimâ with every step you took back, he took one forward. You stopped and you were face to face again âbut you haven't learned to flyâ Â
His face dropped; your grin only grew wider. Â
You resisted the urge to yell as you shot through the air, Aoânungâs hands holding onto your hips tightly. It was dark but not so dark that you couldnât see, you flew out past the village and reef. TsyĂa cried out, it had probably been a while since she had stretched her wings like this. A smile etched onto your face as you soared through the air. Last time you were over the ocean you were filled with dread, now all you can feel exhilaration.  Â
You couldnât help the cheers and laughter that escaped you as you accelerated, the waves below you crashed into each other, the sound reminding you of thunder, spraying water on your skin. Slowly you ascend upwards, the ocean now far below you.  Â
âHow ya doing back there fishlips?â you smirked. Â
âIâll be fine as long as we don't faAA-â you cut him when TsyĂa jerked down suddenly, leveling just above the ocean and tilting to the side so the tip of her wing could glide against the water. You laughed as his grip tightened and he jumped closer to you. When he realized what you did, he smacked you on the side of the head. Â
You snickered âDonât worry, I won't let you fallâ you titled your head back to look at him, delighted look on your face. He still looked uneasy, but he nodded with a smile, he placed his hand on your thigh and wrapped his other arm completely around your waist. Â
Admittedly, the position was much more secure and comfortable, but you shifted, his skin on yours felt like fire compared to the cool air nipping at you. Â
You leaned forward more as TsyĂa started to circle, not wanting to stray too far from the village. You let your body hang towards the sea as she started to tilt, the circles getting tighter, spurring on her speed. You laughed, thrill and adrenaline buzzing through your veins. Â
As TsyĂa twisted to the point you were almost upside down, out of the corner of your eye you saw Aoânung reach down and graze the surface of the water with his fingers. Thank Eywa you secured both of you to the saddle. Â Â
You noticed it was starting to get late, so you decided it was time to start heading back to the village, a shame since Aoânung had just started to let loose. You evened out and made a steady pace back to the reef. Â
Your head fell back resting on Aoânungs chest as you looked down at the ocean. Â
âItâs beautiful, isn't it?â You hummed, listening to his heart as it beat steadily.Â
âI can only wonder what the forest looks likeâ he pressed his lips to the side of your head. âYou must show me one dayâ he whispered. Â
A smile grew on your face, you nodded, breathing in the air as it whipped against your face.  Â
As you landed on a secluded part of the beach, you prepared to dismount but Aoânung beat you to it. He stood to your side, wordlessly he held your hips in his hands and lifted you off and onto the ground, your hands landing on his shoulders for stability. Â
You pouted, insisting you could do it yourself but he simply laughed, leaning into whisper in your ear âI know.â Â
-Â Â
You weren't there when Kiri had her seizure, Neytiri and Ronal had taken through the island to collect difference herbs and plants, you ignored Ronalâs subtle remarks about you being too clumsy or ungraceful, it took another kind of patience to calm your mother so she wouldnât attack the pregnant Tsahik. Â
You were sorting what you had collected when Neteyam and Rotxo came rushing into the Marui with Kiri in their arms, Jake not far behind them already making a call to the biolab. Before you could ask what happened, or even get a good look at your sister, you were ushered out of the Marui.  Â
You stayed close to the entrance, peaking your ear in, you heard Neteyam explaining to Neytiri that she had a seizure under water. Â
Thatâs when you started to hyperventilate. Loâak noticed but Aoânung was the first to act, pulling you into his arms and speaking to you softly, repeating instructions from your breathing lessons. His voice low and firm.  Â
You werenât calm at all, but you had your breathing under control now. Loâak placed a hand on your shoulder, telling you that the lab guys would be here soon, and Kiri would be fine. Â
It didnât take long for Norm and Max to run their analysis, but Neytiri had grown impatient and brought Ronal to take over, trusting her position as Tsahik over any human technology. As they walked out of the Marui you perked up and ran over to them. Â
âSpell! Pa!â You called out to them. Growing up everyone called Max âDr Patelâ and Norm âSpellmanâ, you of course being so young, couldnât pronounce it and settled on just the âSpellâ and âPaâ part. No one ever corrected you, so you never really grew out of it. Â
They turned around, their mood immediately changing once they saw you. Norm, being in his avatar, picked you up by the armpits and swung you around before placing you on the ground for a hug. âBirdie! How are ya kid?â  Â
Just like how your brother was given his nickname because of how much he crawled around, you were called Birdie because of how you supposedly âsquawkedâ as a baby, you're just glad it didnât stick like Spiderâs did. Â
Max placed a hand on your arm before pulling you in for a hug, ironic how now you were the taller one. Â
 âIâm good, just worried about Kiriâ You pulled away they looked at you sympathetically. âDonât worry kid, sheâs gonna be fineâ Â
You let them both place a kiss on your forehead before retreating to the Marui so they could talk with your dad. As you took your place next to Loâak, both he and Aoânung were giving you amused looks. Â
âBirdieâ They both questioned in unison, you rolled your eyes. âSomething neither of you have the privilege of calling meâ you state as you flick Loâak forehead. Â
Before either of them can say anything else, you hear Tuk exclaim that Kiri was awake. You peak inside to see your mother holding her hand, Tuk leaning over her, as she starts to cry. Â
It breaks your heart; you want nothing but to rush in and comfort her but you know she needs space, so you stay back. Loâak frowns the same as you rubs your shoulder saying he was right, that she is ok. Â
You lean back into Aoânungâs chest as you gaze at your sister, he wraps his arms around you, placing his chin on your shoulder. You were to wrapped up in your sisters distress that you didnât notice Ronal walking out of the Marui until she stopped in her place, glaring at your display.  Â
âSon.â her voice is cold, Aoânung jerks his head up, his ears immediately dropping. She doesnât say anything, she doesnât even acknowledge you, she just coldly glared at Aoânung before nodding for him to follow her.  Â
Wordlessly he lets go of you, he gives you an apologetic look before following his mother. Â
You can tell your heart is only going to break even further... Â
-Â Â
âWhat did I tell you son?!â His mother barked, he held his head down, his fists clenching. Â
âYou do not reprimand Tsireya for hanging out with Loâak!â He points out.  Â
âTsireya is not starting fights and slacking on her work because of him.â His mother hisses. She circles around him, picking up his hand to show him his bruised knuckles. âThat girl is inept, her connection to Eywa scant.â Â
He frowns âYou cannot know that mother-!â âDo not talk back boy.â She cuts him off. Â
He helplessly looks to his father who has been observing the whole time, he sighs and stands up. âRonal, dear, you are being hard on the boyâ Â
âI am talking sense into him. He has already made a fool of us; I will not let the son of the Oloâeyktan court a forest girl when our Tsakarem is already a fool for the forest boy.â she snarled. Aoânung dug his nails into his palms. Â
âThey have come here to learn our ways and become reef peopleâ Tonowari calmly stated, Ronal narrowed her eyes. Â
âYou let them into our clan and now you let our children mingle with them.â Her voice was steady. âIf it werenât for Tsireya, that girl would be considered an option for Tsahik?â  Â
âMother! It is not like thatâ Aoânung defends Â
She turns her attention back to him, hissing âI have seen you two, do not think your midnight escaped have gone unnoticed.â Â
Shit. Â
Aoânung looked down, embarrassment coursing through his body. Â
âI have stayed quiet but I will no longer. Stay away from her.â She hisses before turning and leaving the Marui. Â
Aoânung stands there, words caught in his throat. Tonowari places a hand on his shoulder. âListen to your mother, son.â Â
-Â Â
You tried to not cry when Aoânung didnât show up that night, you knew it was probably his mother, but you still couldnât help the shame and betrayal that stung at your heart. You waited for hours, you twirled the last flower he gifted you between your finger, the petals falling off wilted.Â
When you showed up at the pod in the middle of the night, tears running down your face, arms wrapped around yourself, you were surprised to see Neteyam and Kiri up. They were whispering about something, probably her seizure, but as soon as they saw you, it was long forgotten. Â
They soothed you and help you close as you cried, they didnât ask what happened, they could probably guess pretty easily, they just cradled you until you fell asleep in their arms. Your face buried against Neteyamâs chest; Kiriâs arms wrapped around your middle.  Â
You felt guilty for interrupting their conversation but the next morning they insisted it wasnât a problem, that they were glad you came to them. So you spent your entire morning huddled in the corner of the Marui with Kiri, neither of you having the energy to socialize.  Â
Maybe you were being dramatic but you really didnât want to face Aoânung or Ronal.  Â
You and Kiri had talked about her seizure, how he was sure it was because of the questions she asked her mother, but that was it. You fell into a comfortable silence until Tuk can barreling in. Â
âKiri! Y/n! Câmon you have to come see!!â She squeals, jumping up and down in the entrance. When neither of you seemed receptive, she came in and started dragging the both of you. Kiri protested until She got a glimpse of what was happening in the reef. Â
âThe Tulkun are here!!â Tuk yelled. You stared in awe at the giant creatures filling the reef. Kiri and Tuk both jumped into the water, ready to meet the Tulkun, but you simply walked to the edge of the dock gaping at the sight. Â
âY/nâ you heard him say your name, you looked down nervously to see Aoânung on his ilu in the water under you. âI am sorry about last night but pleaseâ he reached his hand out to you âCome meet my spirit brotherâ The apology in his eyes is genuine, you could tell it had pained him how you were visibly hurt and on edge.Â
Hesitantly, you took his hand and he pulled you down, quickly grabbing a hold of you to place you on the back of his ilu. His hand braced your thigh as he sped off into the crowd of Tulkun. You watched in amazement, the creatures circling far below and bonding with the Metkayina.Â
A Tulkun jumped out of the water, twisting as it fell back in, the children watching laughing and trying to copy the movement.Â
âThere he is!â He exclaimed âMy spirit brother!â He quickened his pace until a Tulkun broke the surface, stopping you both. Â
âOmui!â Aoânung grinned âHow are youâ he placed his hand next to the Tulkunâs front eye. Omui responded with a noise that you couldnât understand and Aoânung laughed. âI have been fine, mother and father think I have caused too much trouble thoughâ He signed as he spoke. Â
The Tulkun made another noise before itâs eyes shifted to you, you tensed up. Â
Aoânung patted your thigh, âI want to introduce you to Y/n, she is a girl I have met...â His shy grin explaining more than his words, you blushed equally as hard. Â
Another noise was made, and you leaned closer to Aoânung. âI have no idea what he is sayingâ you admitted Â
He grins at Omui before looking back at you âHe says you are beautiful, that I have fine tasteâ you feel as if a volcano erupted in your face, a hand coming up to hide your shy smile. Â
Nervously you signed back âThank you, you are just as beautifulâ He cried out again with what you can only guess was amusement.Â
You laughed as Omui and Aoânung shared stories with each other, slowly you started to understand the Tulkun. Tsireya and Loâak swam by to greet Omui, briefly talking about you and Aoânung right in front of you.Â
You reached over an smacked Loâak every time he or Tsireya made a comment about it, ignoring his complaints of getting punished for what Tsireya says.Â
 The rest of the day was spent celebrating, telling stories, and dancing. The music was played from the beach, many Naâvi joining in with their instruments and singing. Many danced atop the Tulkun, there were obviously more experienced dancers, as the seemed to be the focus, but plenty simply danced with each other song to song.Â
Tsireya and Rotxo insisted on you and your siblings joining them in a group dance. You werenât completely clueless, as many of the songs and dances had been performed at feasts and other small celebrations, but you and Loâak still stumbled and ran into each other continuously, bickering about whoâs fault it was.Â
Often you and Neteyam took turns dancing with Tuk, she jumped around with no regard to the beat or rhythm, until Kiri swept her up in her arms once she was tired out. This left you and Neteyam together, he clearly found amusement in how uncoordinated you were, but he always caught you and was patient when helping you stay with the beat when you fumbled.Â
Neteyam laughed as he watched the the dismay on your face when Aoânung and Rotxo pulled you all along in a dance the required hopping from Tulkun to Tulkun, and many seemingly advanced steps. You screeched as you fell an embarrassing amount of times, but Teyam always covered for you, âfallingâ far less gracefully more than a few times or catching you.Â
You were dizzy and tired out by the time you made it back to Omui, falling into the water when Loâak and Rotxo made an abrupt stop. You groaned and stated you wouldnât dance anymore, they picked at you for a bit but eventually dispersed, leaving only you and Aoânung who sat on his ilu with you while you regained your energy. Â
As it got closer to night, more mellow, soothing songs were played. Aoânung grinned and held out his hand as he stood on top of Omui, recognizing which song would come next.Â
âWhat if we are seen?â You whispered, hesitating to take his hand. Â
He glanced around before turning back to you, reaching his hand out further âThen we are seen.â Â
(Play the song now I think?)Â Â
And with that you placed your hand in his and he pulls you up, you glance around and realize youâre now farther to the back of the reef. He wraps his arm around your waist and holds your hand in his, slowly swaying you both to the music. Â
You kept glancing around as people started whistling to the song, instruments playing in the background, but your attention snapped to Aoânung when he started softly singing the lyrics. Â
Wasnât really thinking, wasnât looking, wasnât searching for an answer Â
You stared at him, he continued to grin as he swayed you to the music. Â
In the moonlight. When I saw your face... Â
You bit back a smile as he leaned in closer Â
Saw you looking at me, saw you peeking out from under moon beams Â
There were plenty of actual performers on the beach singing, but it felt like all you could hear was him. His eyes were completely fixated on you.Â
Through the palm trees, swaying in the breeze. Â
He dipped you, moving your hand to his chest as your head fell back, a laugh escaping your lips. Â
I know I'm feeling so much more than ever before Â
You held your head up but he kept you in the dipped position, his face now only inches away from yours. Â
And so I'm giving more to you than I thought I could do~Â Â
He pulled you so you were now standing up, he stepped back, now engulfing both your hands in his. Â
Donât know how it happened donât know why but you donât really need a reason Â
He leaned closer, he brought one of your hands up to his lips and pressed a kiss to it, a grin spreading across his face. You giggle shyly, not wanting to look away. Â
When the stars shine Â
His fingers now intertwined with yours, your arms extended outwards in a slow fall to your sides,Â
Made to love each other, made to be together for a lifetime Â
He twirled you, not letting go of each other of your hands, so you were now locked in an embrace with his holding you from the back. Â
In the sunshine Â
His breath tickled your ear, causing you to giggle Â
Flying in the sky Â
He held you tighter and shook you gently, you laughed, your head falling back to rest on his shoulder Â
I know I'm feeling so much more than ever before Â
He slowly released you; he planted a hand on your waist as you turned around to face him again Â
And so I'm giving more to you than I thought I could do Â
He closed his eyes, getting into the song, leaning in closer. Â
He wrapped his arm around your waist again, taking your hand in his, swaying to the music. You stared at each other. His forehead rested against yours, as he twirled you, he placed a chaste kiss on it. You giggled as he continued to sway with you. Â
Now I know love Is real Â
You tilted you head so that your foreheads no longer touched, instead your noses didÂ
You had heard this song once before; you could only remember the last few lines, so you softly sang back to him. Â
So when sky high as the angels try, leaving you and I, Â
Your lips were only inches apart as you whispered the last words to each other Â
Fly love... Â
You stared at each other for a few moments before Omui sprayed water out of his blow hole, interrupting the moment. Â
âOmui! Gross!â Aoânung yelled, but you could only laugh, he turned to look at you, his frown softening as he watched you. Â
You swam back to the docks on his ilu when it got dark, your cheek pressed against his back, arms wrapped around his waist, his hand over yours. You could faintly hear his heartbeat, strong and steady.Â
âAoânung.â You jumped at the cold voice. You peaked from behind his shoulder to see both your parents standing on the dock, your parents looking at you disappointed, Ronal and Tonowari angry. Â
âBoth of you.â The Tsahik pointed in the direction of her Marui âNow.â Â