"The Brothers Karamazov", Fyodor Dostoevsky (translated By Constance Garnett)

It’s weird to grow up in a family where you know you’re loved but you don’t feel loved. And then later in adulthood you understand how almost impossible it seems to cross that distance and let yourself experience closeness, how otherworldly love feels now and how love feels unbearable at times. You flinch when someone tries to wholeheartedly love you. And over and over you see so clearly how you cannot be loved unless it's from afar and love is mixed with that familiar sensation of distance and coldness.

Certain words can change your brain forever and ever so you do have to be very careful about it.

anyway. time to be weird about it

Andrea Gibson, "DEPRESSION [VERB]", Lord of the Butterflies

“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all.”

— Anne Sexton

Sylvia Plath, from a letter featured in The Letters of Sylvia Plath Vol. 1: 1940-1956

Cameron Awkward-Rich, from "Meditations in an Emergency", Dispatch

If this pops up while you’re scrolling, I wish you unconditional love and massive success.

I think it's fine to have an unacceptable view or two like no one is ever going to agree with you on everything lmaoooooooooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaoovifugjgugjjfjjuuuuuuuuuuuuu sorry started practicing throat singing oooouuuuggghhhhhhhhguuuuhhhhhhhhuhhhh

it’s small joys saturday y’all let’s get it