Studying Spanish Prior To An Exam > Being Fortunate Enough To Visit Barcelona This Summer

chaotic study sessions and pretty campus walks <3

just finished yet another statistics test and now im preparing for social psych 💪

AND THE FACT that this isn't even finals szn😔🤧

I JUST GOT THIS MAIL

slayed a little too hard🤭

not letting this get to my head tho, because there's still a long long way to go ofcourse

but the fact that i was amongst the top 10% in a batch of 750 students is so academically validating😭

One day all those late. nights and early mornings will pay off.

pic: endofthelifee

Music makes anything easier, even writing pieces in a different language

the grind never stops unfortunately

making a to-do list for tomorrow because genuinely worried im gonna forget what all I have to do

Social Psychology Class - 8. a.m. to 10 a.m.

Working on a Instagram reel for a friend's blog account

Working on Personality Psych assignment

Making an application form for the secretary position of Socio Club

Socio Club General Body Meeting at 7 p.m.

Zumba Crew Audition at 8:15 p.m.

so grateful for everything, good night everyone <3

i have an assignment due today at 11:59 and im so scared im not going to make it

hoping for the best because i plan on staying in my academic weapon era

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edit: IM DONE WITH THE ASSIGNMENT?????? ONG

tried cleaning up my study space hoping it gives me motivation to get work done ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

let's see if that works out lololol

took a class on the sociology of gender in my last term of first year, it was intimidating because everyone was so knowledgeable but i became more confident towards the end ୧⁠(⁠﹒︠⁠ᴗ⁠﹒︡⁠)⁠୨

these notes are from one of the last units - Gender, Science and Technology

rant coming up because why not

so i feel like im sucking at the whole "college experience" thing

i haven't hit rock bottom in terms of my academics but im so SO scared that i might. istg college level assignments are no joke and I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS LACKING UGH

i haven't participated in any clubs or committees or any student activities. either because whenever there's smtg, im tired or because im undermining/second guessing my skills.

LMAO recently ive also been thinking that im just plain talentless like everyone has their 'thing'. what's my thing? nothing. there's nothing that i can confidently say is my thing.

yeah my self esteem has taken a hit after coming here.

i keep comparing myself to one of my friends and honestly im envious of how she's actually experiencing college and how involved in the clubs/activities she is. and she's so funny, bubbly and smart and everyone likes her.

okay that's it for the rant, ill be fine eventually (atleast that's how i pacify myself). maybe others also feel the way i do, maybe my friend feels this way too and i just don't know it🤷

🌹🌻🌈