Poppunkpie - I Went To Sleep A Poet And I Woke Up A Fraud

sleight of mind

AHHHHH!! I so love your scaraether fic! I love how you melded canon stuff with your auuu!! I screeched it was so fun to read and i loved your characterizations of everyonee! You’re awesome!

thank you so much omg i had so much fun brainrotting that into fruition lol modern aus are so fun like how insanely deranged can i make them get in this fic while still clearly being a play on various canon elements sksksks this is probably the most chaotic fic i've written and im just very glad to share the chaos with fellow scaraethers... i was actually kind of afraid i might have been going overboard/borderline ooc with my aether characterization there but i'm glad people have been enjoying it! thank you so much for reading and the feedback :) i always love conversing with other scaraether shippers ksksks

think about myself, i think about myself

care about myself, i care about myself

i only care about myself

and other fears too stupid too mention

eruri high school au

i'll love you forever (hell, i've loved you all along)

(I'm doing the anon because it's a lil embarrassing)

So my friend is a huge fob fan and it was her birthday recently and as one does I stalked her blog for present ideas. Well she reblogged your kintsugi kid comic and the line "and it feels like I'm fighting for something I've long forgotten how to believe in" stuck out to me. So I sketched up a broken teacup, plopped the lyrics on it and turned it into a sticker. I had /assumed/ that the lyrics were in the song (I listen to fob but haven't gotten around to listening to the entirety of the new album yet) but since she's already received a sticker pack I decided to post the final drawing online but I thought I should actually listen to the song before I post it, and the lyrics aren't there?! Like if you came up with that yourself good on ya. It sounds like something Patrick would sing.

But yeah I spent the last 45 minutes stress searching online for those exact lyrics and came up with nothing

(also I haven't posted the picture yet, I don't want to take credit for lyrics/poetry that you wrote)

hello anon!

i think it's very thoughtful of you to customize an fob sticker for your friend as a gift!! it's also very cool! i would have loved to receive something like that !!

also yeah omg the comic i made is basically me just filling in the blanks of kintsugi kid with my own brainrot and feelings lmao i'm very much in love with fob's lyricism so i guess that kinda seeps into my writing a lot. although i do have a lot of other writing influences,, fall out boy along with a bunch of other emo lyricists is probably among my biggest artistic influences,, so i suppose what you said would make sense-- that the thing i wrote kinda sounded like a convincing fob lyric lmao thats very nice to hear actually lol it validates me so much as an emo kid sksksk

feel free to post the sticker pic btw! i would love to see what you made !! you can just mention my username in the hashtags or in the caption either way is fine :)

Mosab Abu Toha, from Things You May Find Hidden in My Ear

The endless carousel in space

hii hello hiii can you tell more about your writing process? :3c what are the stages? are there any writing principles for your process? what's the most enjoyable thing? :3c

hello eldritch!! omg im so sorry for the delay in answering... lol i didn't expect work to suddenly be so busy lol but anyway!!

so there are two main ways that a fic idea comes together for me: a) it's the theme/thesis statement that comes to me first. this comes to me in a lot of different ways... it could be a line from a song or an excerpt from a poem or a similar adjacent theme i take from a different piece of media that i feel i can apply to a certain ship/character that i am brainrotting about at the moment. ex. my favorite and most recent example of this would be scaramouche x from under the cork tree by fall out boy (lol) the theme i put together there was rly just... that desperation of so badly wanting something to be completely about yourself for once (and almost narcissistically/unhealthily so) because you've never had anything at all. i just thought it's a very specific... almost manic feeling that i can definitely picture scara experiencing.

b) it's one very specific scene that comes to me, and from there, i try to fill in the blanks/puzzle pieces in the plot (with other scenes) of how everything builds up to that one scene. when i have all of that down, it becomes a little easier for me to fill in the blanks of what exactly happens/how the fic ends after that one scene.

most of the time, it's a combination of these two ways of idea-gathering for me... mostly it's the theme that comes first, but there are other times that it's the specific scenes that come first and when it's the latter, they don't really come together /thematically/ until i'm already somewhere in the middle of writing. this ideation process is what i consider most important because honestly... i really only have two stages in writing (lol) which are: ideation and then the writing itself. bc basically, the ideation is what gets the fic plot points down... and the writing is really just... me connecting those points/weaving those ideas together...

to put things more concretely, my ideation process is really just... a lot of listing things down and it is admittedly chaotic... it could be scene ideas (or a sequence of them) as simple as 'scara spots aether in the crowd' but bc im a mess it usually becomes a long bullet that also includes the unsaid implications in that said scene like so:

scara spots aether in the crowd looking back at him and he fixates on it bc it feels like for the first time, someone actually /sees/ and wants to look at him

ideas i list down could also be specific lines that i imagine a specific character saying or even a few dialogues of script between characters. there's also just lots of random stuff related to how i want to describe dynamics and characters i list down like 'heiscara friendship with lots of annoying smart banter' or 'scara is a skater in this one' or 'aether listens to taylor swift but lumine doesn't' (lol)' or 'scara is like [insert fall out boy song here]'

~ as for writing principles... ig i only rly have this in mind at the moment: balance out poetry and prose - uhh i dont think i ever write anything that doesn't end up with a motif that ties in with the theme... i like metaphors a lot bc i feel they help describe feelings more accurately... but i also try to make sure that these metaphors are just simple but clever enough?? uhh... i kinda think of writing metaphors as cracking a joke... if it's too cerebral, the punchline might not /punch/ lol but if it's too straightforward... it might not work in capturing a certain idea or feeling... as for my personal preference in my own writing... i like to phrase things bluntly while still making metaphors in that tone so its not cerebrally intimidating... err im not sure how to explain that more elaborately here lol uhh but heres one of my favorite more recent examples from something i wrote abt scara talking about ei:

She has acknowledged me in a way that she believes it's her sister who should be alive instead of me, as if I had taken the life of someone else simply by being born into the world. (I'm not a killer— or at least I wasn't born one, and as far as I know, the blood on my hands is usually my own.)

~ as for the most enjoyable thing about it... well i would say it's definitely writing metaphors lol and then making sure how that ties coherently and cleverly with the theme and the vibe of the ship dynamic/character i'm centering the fic on... i dont think i ever write without an overarching theme or a metaphor for this reason... even when i just want the characters to kiss... its corny but i always need the kiss to feel like its situated in the grander scheme of things and feelings skksks

Took me until about halfway through college before I realized “study” means “play with the material in a variety of ways until you understand it” and not just “read the assigned chapters and do the homework” and I think that probably should have been discussed at some point prior to that.