Haven't updated the transition timeline in quite a while. No huge changes or anything really. Nothing that screams at me to write. So let's update some small things I guess.
My tits are way bigger than they used to be! Like it's hard for me to boymode! Significantly harder!
I wore a "bra" for the first time and it felt great. A purple strappy lingerie piece I put on for my husband. First time wearing feminine under-wear that made me feel euphoric. I wore it again to a friend's place just to see how it'd feel and I tell you what that shit was uncomfy and I was happy to take it off despite how euphoric it made me.
I've been keeping my nails painted pretty regularly. I like blue. Pink or feminine colours make me panic and feel dysphoric, reason as of yet unknown.
Similarly, my hand/nail dysphoria has pushed me to continue growing my nails. They're getting long enough that I can probably cut them to shape and start taking care of them nicely. My husband LOVES how well I scritch and scratch every inch of him now. Though he wants me to shorten two in particular...
I'm gonna move in with my husband soon. Very excited!
He took me to a "fill-a-bag" event at a thrift shop today, we got a few new skirts, a purse, a wallet, two dresses, n some other stuff! Very excited.
I've never worn a dress before. For some reason they make me uneasy. Maybe because so many of them are shoulderless. My shoulders are wide and not something I wanna draw attention to. Idk. Whatever.
I havent come out to anybody new yet. Fucking annoying. I really wanted to before Christmas. But. Idk how. I'm struggling really hard to do it. It's such a good time. I need to.
I've found a cute hairstyle I like. It's literally just a ponytail tied at my neck. It let's loose hairs fall and frame my face. I like it when they do that. Makes me look like a disheveled mom if I let it go unkept for too long. But I enjoy looking like a mom.
Next appointment is in February. A ways away. It'll be 6 months on hrt. Fuckin crazy. I hope I get to up my dose. I love being like this. Sometimes makes me a lil crazy but it's okay because I have a human that loves me and understands. Very excited that we are transitioning together. He's the best.
Anyways. Night night friends.
Seemingly following some purpose, the Moon Vagrant wanders the North mostly peacefully. However, should anything interrupt its path in any way, the Moon Varant will react less than peacefully.
My Custodians are coming for you.
Dennis is back, and he has a secret technique for when a greater threat arises
Readings
Decolonization is not a metaphor (Eve Tuck & K. Wayne Yang)
Everyday decolonization: Living a decolonizing queer politics (Sarah Hunt & Cindy Holmes)
Refusal to forgive: Indigenous women’s love and rage (Rachel Flowers)
A Glossary of Haunting: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 (Eve Tuck, C. Ree, Angie Morrill, Kathryn Recollet, and the Super Futures Haunt Collective)
The end of (the capitalist white supremacist heteropatriarchal hate-full order of) the world, a survival guide (Zoe Todd)
Land as pedagogy: Nishnaabeg intelligence and rebellious transformation (Leanne Betasamosake Simpson)
Can the Other of Native Studies speak? (Billy-Ray Belcourt)
These are stories of resilience. Or, emblems of resistance. (Naomi Sayers)
Not Nowhere: Collaborating on Selfsame Land (Eve Tuck, Allison Guess, Hannah Sultan)
Of Dogma and Ceremony (Tara Williamson)
Ahkii: A Woman is a Sovereign Land (Gwen Benaway)
Video & audio
Embodying Self-Determination: resisting violence beyond the gender binary (Sarah Hunt)
Indigenous Feminist Resurgence, Love and Resistance in Indigenous Women’s Contemporary Storytelling (Dory Nason)
Making Love and Relations Beyond Settler Sexuality (Kim Tallbear)
Coming In: Indigenous Resurgence, Body Sovereignty and Gender Self-Determination (Alex Wilson)
Our Bodies and Lands are Not Your Property (Erica Violet Lee)
Leanne Betasamosake Simpson’s 2016 NWSA keynote address
I'm already 3 months on hrt but I need more friends to forcefem me in like. Mundane ways.
Learning how to use a round hairbrush to give my hair volume. how to dress cute/flatteringly for my body shape (tho its probably gonna change soon). I've never worn makeup before and that needs to change. Forcefeed me my estradiol/anti-androgen medications (don't forget my vitaminD). Please help me figure out the products I need for a proper skincare routine.
I'm dying out here. Being a first time girl on her own requires so much research. Though it is so rewarding
I’ve been on HRT for over five years now, and while my life may not be perfect, it brings me immense happiness that I’ve been experiencing the joy of being a girl for so long.
So the moral thing to do is find others to grant that joy to, right? They’ll thank me eventually!
Yeah!! Exactly!
dungeon crawl
… and the Imperium of Man are not the good guys.
These guys, with the iron crosses and the scary face-masks, surprisingly not very nice.
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The Rust Disciples.
worn axes left to rust and rot in the forest sometimes become these strange creatures when fungi colonizes their handles. if you meet them in the woods, mind your business. if you are cruel they'll hunt you until you either leave their territory or are caught and chopped to bits. if you linger near them too long you might feel compelled to follow them deeper into the woods. you'll hike deeper and deeper with a growing group of the creatures until you get to a small pile of ancient burnt wood and crumbled stone in a clearing so off the beaten path that whatever was there before has almost completely returned to the earth. you will kneel down on soft mossy ground beside the beasts and mourn and laugh and cry and sing until you grow too tired to move. you will then wake up alone, feeling disoriented but content.
you will never find out what god you were grieving.
over on patreon Sean Dehoff wanted conjoined disciples, Kyle Weiss wanted forgotten gods, and Trip Space-Parasite wanted mushroom cyborgs (I'm counting a mushroom with an ax melted into it that's probably full of ghosts as a cyborg. fight me.).
Recently been struggling with very poor mood, sudden upsetedness (feels like a tantrum to me), etc.
Husband noted that all this started immediately after I doubled my dose of Estradiol. Good information to record.
Puberty was kinda okay for me the first time, this second ones gonna be a bitch.