This Self-publishing/indie Author Thing Is A Lot Harder Than I Thought It Would Be🙂🙂🙂

“I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind.”

taylor wrote that lyric for the writers who use their work as a tool to escape the horrors of every day life.

it’s me. i’m the writer who uses their work as a tool to escape the horrors of every day life.

my characters are a lifeline at this point✨

literally me 75% of the time i write

it’s a national holiday omfg happy birthday to the woman who lives rent free in my mind😄

particularly whenever she’s writing those songs that make me question whether she does indeed live in my mind because they’re so on par with things i’ve experienced/am going through!

a true witch/mother/therapist/inspiration to all✨

i’m either filled with inspiration as i type on my keyboard at lighting speed or i’m spongebob trying to write an essay and all he has is the word: The.

there is no in between unfortunately.

Revising grammar and description in a romantic scene be like:

i’ve never trusted my heart and ~gone with the flow~ more than i do with writing.

idk if this makes me an unhinged or ~irresponsible writer~ but i have never enjoyed the idea of outlining my work. something about it makes my writing feel so caged and limited and i HATE it!!!

obviously you can always simply go off script and change whatever the hell u want, but i still refuse to completely plan out every. single. thing. in some overly detailed outline. (and that’s just me, i’m not knocking anyone who does!!!)

of course i write down important plot points and key notes to incorporate and remember but other than that, i’m a big believer in “sharing” control with my characters.

sure i have solid ideas of how i want a story to pan out, but if the story just so happens to take me elsewhere in a spur of the moment manner, i’m all for it!

shameless chaotic writer here👋🏼

cross my heart by prisila sweetheart💗🧁

yk what’s crazy is before i found my love for writing again, i used to read books (romance books specifically) and think to myself:

“wow, authors/writers are some of the most creative people out there. to create an entire ensemble of characters and give them such distinct personalities/backgrounds/upbringings, and to create an entire world of storylines for them is truly something magical.”

i used to wish i could do that. i never thought myself capable of such creativity. i used to wish i could be capable of creating an ensemble of characters i could write and have fun with. a fictional world i could create and find some escape in, and now i do.

i love the little world of characters i’ve created so much. can confirm: it is truly magical✨

oh and happy late new year💛☺️☀️

insane to think there was a time in my life where my characters didn’t reside in my head 24/7

one of my fav parts about writing is that moment in the story where everything just comes together like pieces to a puzzle.

and it’s even better when it wasn’t even PLANNED. when you didn’t even know you were putting a “puzzle” together, so to speak, and then suddenly you’re like: omg there it is! a beautiful puzzle!

when you just trust the story and your characters to take you where they’re supposed to take you and they do!

one of the most satisfying feelings ever!!!!!!!!!!!!