W O W

sometimes i lock in too hard when writing that it feels like the spirits of the characters are possessing my body.

ok i’m in desperate need of advice!!!

the window is currently open for character regression for one or two or my characters but idk if should do it or not???

the only reason i’m doubting is because i’m kind of scared to😭 but the opportunity is there and i do think it could be interesting for the plot moving forward.

esp for the two characters i have in mind. god it’s hard to explain without spoiling my story but how do we feel about character regression? should i just say eff it and go for it?

to paint a picture: it’d be one of those instances where a character has reverted back to their old ways because of a “straw that breaks the camels back” moment, but deep down inside, they still care, they’re just trying to cope with all the hurt they’re feeling.

i love when i write out a scene idea (with plans to incorporate it into the storyline) and then i sit at my computer desk to do just that and my characters are just like:

“nah, we’ll take it from here tyvm.”

and i’m just like: oh ok! yes chef🫡

i can’t tell you how many “deleted scenes” i have in my notes app because my characters love to take the wheel from me🙄

over 103,000 words written and i’m still only about 60% through book 3…… that’s what i get for being a representative of the thicc book committee

it might also have something to do with the fact that i have nine main characters, tons of important side characters and plots, and lore that runs deeper than a rabbit hole but idk

Main characters meeting up be like:

that moment when everything just clicks in your writing or in a scene you’re putting together or an unexpected last minute idea pops into your mind that ends up fitting perfectly with what you wrote >>>>

the excitement that consumes my body is out of this world

I've seen a lot of posts about the stress of not knowing what comes next when you're writing, but what about the opposite? What about when everything goes exactly to plan, and you're finally forced to face it?

Not knowing what comes next is a few hours/days of brainstorming before figuring out something cool

Knowing is "I've been planning this for literal years, but now that I have to actually type 'he's dead' I feel like I'm choking on my own spine"

...and those are two very different kinds of stress

yk what’s crazy is before i found my love for writing again, i used to read books (romance books specifically) and think to myself:

“wow, authors/writers are some of the most creative people out there. to create an entire ensemble of characters and give them such distinct personalities/backgrounds/upbringings, and to create an entire world of storylines for them is truly something magical.”

i used to wish i could do that. i never thought myself capable of such creativity. i used to wish i could be capable of creating an ensemble of characters i could write and have fun with. a fictional world i could create and find some escape in, and now i do.

i love the little world of characters i’ve created so much. can confirm: it is truly magical✨

oh and happy late new year💛☺️☀️

"please picture me in the weeds before i learned civility ... are there still beautiful things?" just... yeah. yeah.

does anyone else feel like a snake shedding their skin when they’re on their period or is it just me? like i’m literally going through metamorphosis rn and i’m just supposed to be normal about it???

no let me rot in bed in peace until i am ready to be perceived again