December 25th,

Rewatching AoT and just finished S4 Ep 8: Assassin's Bullet. Gabi Braun can go straight to hell. Like, directly to hell.

Lego Star Wars fans: "You know what would be cool? A new set. For instance, a big Invisible Hand set, or a separatist command ship set, or a cool new Clone Wars set."

Lego: "Hah, fuck you. We're gonna remake the X-Wing again, and you're gonna like it."

Just as some background, I'm a senior in high school and I'm on the cross country team. My brother's friends live relatively close to me and him so we end up carpooling to and from practice (although with school, it's more carpooling from practice). Our one idiot friend's dad sometimes gets us from practice. Now, this guy annoys me. When we had practice in the summer, he'd occasionally take us there and when he did, he'd get us there late. Anyway, homecoming is coming up and a couple days ago, the dad was talking us home from practice and he was talking to all of us and he's saying something like, "I know this guy and he has some girls that I can set you guys up with as dates for homecoming". Now, I'm gay. However, I'm not admitting that to everyone in the car (there were four of us kids and besides me, everyone is a junior). And the LAST person I'm telling my secret to is this kid's dad. And he started talking to me for a bit, saying "@cadawan, you're not saying anything. You up for a date?" and I was caught off guard so I just go "Hm? Oh...uh, nah". I was sitting in the very back of his car, btw. And I know that he isn't really gonna set us up with dates but istg if he actually did I'd be friggin pissed. That would just be really awkward for me and I'm sure whoever the girls is, she wouldn't like me. I wouldn't want her asking me something like "What's wrong? Do you not like me or something?". Like, what do I say to that?

"Sorry darling, girls just don't do it for me"?

"Sorry, I prefer dudes"?

"Sorry, I'm gay, tho"?

Like, that's all I can think of saying.

Side note, there's actually this cute boy on the cross country team that I totally have a crush on and I'm pretty sure he's gay too but I dunno know if he has a bf and I'm too chicken shit to ask. I personally wouldn't go with a date to homecoming but if he asked me, I wouldn't be able to refuse. He is SUCH a sweet kid and I feel really awkward about fantasizing about kissing him but I can't help it. He is legit the only reason I like going to practice.

I'm hoping some of you out there who see this have watched Angels of Death so you know what I'm talking about. I'm rewatching the series and I'm almost done the first episode and Gawd Damn! Dr. Danny is such a fuckin creep. Like, were the creators going for the pedophile act with him. I mean, srsly. In future episodes, we see him as an annoying obstacle with a gun but in the first episode, my dude be putting his hands on Rachel and talking all creepy and before Zack steps in, he looks like he was boutta r@pe her. Like I said, he's such a fuckin creep.

I keep seeing people saying stuff like, "I'm so excited for this spring. A new season of [insert anime] is coming out."

That's great and all, but who else is looking forward to "Tadaima, okaeri" 🙋‍♂️?

It looks so cute!!!

The dude who is laughing is Mr. Gibbs.

He's a funny guy.

As of right now, if I had 3 wished, one of them would be for BL anime to be more mainstream so that studios would be more likely to dub them. I hate seeing really good-looking BL animes and finding out they won't be dubbed because BL isn't as marketable/has a smaller audience. I want a dub of Cherry Magic, and Dakaichi, and Doukyuusei, and so many other BLs.

Have you ever been doing your homework then you fall out of your chair and accidentally fuck you sister's dad?

That's what it's like to drive a Ford F-150

Who remembers S4 Ep 5 of Rick and Morty, Rattlestar Ricklactica? I remember it so well. It came out in my sophomore year of high school a few years ago. I remember it so well because I had to rewatch it so many damn times due to the long-ass fuckin hiatus that the R&M team took.

That's it. That's all this post was. Just a reminder of R&M's annoyingly long hiatus in the midst of S4 a few years ago.

Okay, if you feel comfortable with doing so, comment and tell me how you came out (if ur gay/bi/lesbian). If you don't feel comfortable, then don't. I just wanna know what it was like since I don't have the guts to come out directly.

Any words of inspiration or wisdom so I can be more swayed to?