"i Love Attention So Much I Might As Well Be An NPD Symptom Holder!! ..........wait A Minute"

polyfragmented more like polyFAGmented the way theres TOO MANY DAMN GAYS IN HERE!!!!!

plural lawyer call that a justice system

new favorite kind of guy

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

Yeah you could say I’m doing numbers on tumblr. And that numbers? One

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

TW // RAMCOA brief talk //

Hello! I apologize for popping in like this, i know its a heavy topic. I know what RAMCOA is, and i was wondering if it was okay to send in questions ( i can do it off anon if it helps you feel comfortable, just lmk if you prefer another ask, dms or comments /gen ) because i heavily wonder if i am a RAMCOA system.

Well partially at this point. I know it'll have heavy discussions, so i do truthfully understand if you wouldn't feel comfortable talking about it. If it helps i don't plan to ask anything personal, just general questions. If you know someone else who would be willing to answer or if a commenter wants to help i would appreciate anything, i am desperate. /lh

yes that is fine! i am not really comfortable saying for certain if you have / havent experienced RAMCOA... but i am a RAMCOA survivor myself and i am always happy to help others and discuss experiences! feel free to DM me, ill answer questions as well as i can :)

romeo is crazy as a guy’s name bcuz it’s famously one of the most well known love stories between a man and a woman in history but if i were to meet a dude named romeo id probably assume he’s gay

i love you if you've gone through physical trauma. i love you if you've gone through mental trauma. i love you if you've gone through psychological trauma. i love you if you've gone through sexual trauma. i love you if you've gone through religious trauma. i love you if you've gone through emotional trauma. i love you if you've gone through any sort of trauma.

your trauma does not define you as a person — you are much more than that. you are lovable. you are valuable.

Is it a headmate? Is it a fragment? Is it a facet? Is it a persona? Am I subconsciously masking? Am I subconsciously/involuntarily otherlinking/copinglinking? Is it a kinshift? Is it a ’flicker? Is it age regression? Is it a mood? Is it impulsivity? Is it an intrusive thought that I’m reacting to? Is it genderfluidity? Is it pronoun/namefluidity?

Who knows! Who cares! I don’t need to stress about this, it doesn’t matter! It’s a mode that the “I” is in, the way I feel in that moment! And I will make a pluralkit/tupperbox for it so I can express myself and decide the rest later! Or never! These labels are a construct! Personhood itself is a construct! I don’t need to box myselves! I can just live!