I Feel This 😭

I know that the skinny in me hates my fat decisions.

Some thlnspo

For a depressed person with social anxiety, I am for sure really extroverted.

Next time you think about your life struggles just know, that I grew up queer in a country, which kills queer people.

At the same time growing up both muslim and an atheist, then in my teens I was introduced to christianity and went to church.

Definetly the second one but I keep it clean no need to be stinky 🐈‍⬛✨

there’s two separate vibes when it comes to ana people

there’s “clean🛁, healthy eating🍓, pilates & ballet🩰, angel 🪽, float like a butterfly🦋” beautiful aesthetic that’s like enriched and glamorized by things like “clean girl, coquette, slavic doll” internet culture

then there’s “alternative, bedrot, unclean, gross” vibe where it’s like “hey this is a disorder and i’m sick and I want the outside to match the inside”. I think “to the bone” fits this vibe. idk how to explain this one as well but I think it was basically invented in the 2010’s during that special time during tumblr’s ana prime with the internet becoming more widespread and accessible to young teens.

Today wasn’t very anorexic of me.

I got a little frustrated today since I wasn’t loosing any weight for the past days and ate a normal calorie and didn’t p/urge afterward, but went to a short walk. Hopefully when I restrict again from tomorrow I’ll see some changes 🤞

Still stuck on my lw :/

I guess I am just not gonna eat till the scale changes numbers.

„I’ll ⭐️ve tommorow”.

Someone does today. Did yesterday. Will do tomorrow.