Alright-y Time For My Thoughts On DAY 1 Of The TWO-WEEK LONG PURGATORY EVENT

completely random headcanon but whenever philza goes into "lore mode" stream (no facecam, black bars) i always imagine it as his character closing the "drapes" on his wide-brimmed, veiled hat. generally only happens when he's super upset (like today and the last time the eggs were kidnapped). a form of suppression? denial? emotional distancing from reality? instinctual need to hide weakness or vulnerability from potential onlooking enemies? all of those? take your pick.

something about whenever phil's embarrassed-amused he throws himself with such force irl that he shoves his mouse over and his cubito turns away from the action

i'm SO so invested in q!phil and q!forever's dynamic btw!!!!

i'm loving the idea that phil is used to death. several thousands died at his own hands. kristin is his wife, bad is a dear friend, and missa is his husband. everyone around him is dripping in their own blood and it's awful

but he meets forever, full of life, for the first time, and is thrown off by how he shines!!! he's bold and loud and beautiful, never backs down from a challenge, tries to make people smile, and is loved by all

he's enamored with phil, who reminds him of an old friend, but phil doesn't know what to do with someone out of the death alignment so he pushes forever away

they grew closer as time went on, yes, but the federation drug crisis pushed them to the brink

phil saw how forever was losing himself, how close he was to the precipice between life and death, and decided that he wasn't going to let that fucking happen- not to someone as bright as forever, who showed him how beautiful life could be

and now with the nether portal... phil was the first one forever called in a moment of crisis, and now forever is gone.

qsmp philza minecraft would shake the world if it meant forever would be okay. he's going to drag forever out of the depths of hell to get his sunshine back, axe in hand and eyes ablaze

idk i just think about them often

I have feelings about

"The Bolas way is we go with you."

Cuz like this team started as chaotic group but it took about two days before they started calling the person they chose as a leader dad. It's the team i believe survived purely on spite and bits with each other the first day, the team that said "do you just want to build houses" and somehow after that managed to pull through, together, to the finale. An honourable finale.

And now, there's Phil on the boat. But not entirety of team bolas.

team Bolas/red team is aptly named, as they are the living definition of "Fuck it, we ball"

Against all odds, teams stacked against them, points so low their bar initially could barely be seen, and varying levels of crazy amount the characters, they pulled through and WON. and the best part about it, they had fun while doing it. It wasn't serious feeling pvp and roleplay, it was "hey what if I take their guy so they can't do missions", do it, and laugh at el q's utter confusion and gaslighr him on multiple levels. It's "hey wouldn't it be funny if I chased down el q naked, covered in mud and grime, while making demonic noises". It's hey, let's go explore this cave together and get utterly lost, but reunite eventually with much more than we entered with.

Team friendship fr fr, the one braincell they have Phil and Carrie split, the rest have resorted to crime

*Taps Mic*

When Phil goes into Lore Mode he cuts off his camera and fully jumps into character. He uses his voice to its full potential and I LOVE it.

You can hear the wonder in his voice when he first saw the shrine Rose made. The desperation when he was begging for his eggs back in the birdhouse is brutal. The sadness is clear as day in his tone when he came back and couldn't find his children. And don't get me started on the uneven laughs and sighs that happen when he tries to steal himself. Or tries to get himself happy again.

But when he's angry?

Unless he's already in lore mode, there's no need to turn off his camera. No no no my friends. The Angel of Death can slip into anger quite easily.

You hear the quiver in his voice clear as day. Be mindful that it's not from fright. It's purely from him holding back. His tone is sharper and cuts right to the point. You see him lean closer to the mic at times to make his point known. He takes big breaths to calm is nerves or release some of the anger.

Listen, I can go on and on, but I won't. Just know i love his acting, planned or not. Even if the anger he usually feels when dealing with loved ones is NOT USUALLY ACTING AT ALL!

also, something that's super interesting to see when you look at the 1v1 between the leaders is that, like tubbo explained, his pvp skills come with his confidence. and meanwhile phil genuinely thought that tubbo was going to win, he knows how good toby is at pvp and was more than ready to take that loss.

and in the end it's not that it came to confidence. it came to who could handle pressure the best of the two. because they both had TONS put uppon their shoulder in an instant: all the responsability that they had had as leaders in the past two weeks and more. it all came down to this.

and the thing is that, in the end, tubbo is a kid. when put under that ammount of pressure, faced with his friend and mentor to the other side of the battlefield, he could not handle the pressure and he crumbled over it.

but phil? phil is a veteran at this. to him, every single battle always feel like it could be the last. every time he fights something or someone, it's with the knowledge that -as much as people praise him- he is not the best. so all he's left to do is to do his best.

in this case, the nerves of steel that come with being a player in a world in which if you die you lose it all, definetly helped phil come victorious in the battle.

Phil's very appropriate reaction to the "love potion"

Why is cucurucho so clingy with Philza at this event? Haven't been watching other povs but, behavior is a bit odd. i don't trust it

(ahaha totes don't have trust issues from the last times that happened)