Sapphire-od - :)

"Hold it together, hold it together for the kids"

IM GOING TO DIE PHIL, YOU ARE GOING TO KILL ME

Imagine you're Bagi

Imagine you know this man, he lives across the river.

You've known him to be nothing but kind when he offers you advice, help and items. You see him be praised as an amazing father confidently taking care of 2 eggs, never asking or needing help to keep them fed.

His house is comforting and he always keeps his doors open to your and your friends antics.

Then suddenly you're confronted with his suffering, seeing his body split apart and a substance that looks like the void itself pouring from him, he doesn't mention it. Moves like it's not even there, there's no fear in his eyes.

But his kids look at you with tears prickling at the corners of theirs, begging for help or something.

Then, then you hear them argue, this man you've known by nothing but laughter and warmth and kindness and smiles sounds broken as he apologizes to his daughter, who you know loves him, for yelling at her.

You can't even imagine the sound of his voice yelling.

There's silence for a bit and suddenly those kids return. Scratched, bruised, tear stained faces staring at you looking guilty for even attempting to find someone to talk to.

And they tell you a lot, they're confused themselves about most of it.

They tell you how this man who you've only seen hug raised his sword at them with a purpose, tell you how the man who's voice rings with laughter spat venom at them through words he decided to lace with poison.

Tell you they've been haunted and hunted for so long that they don't even bother saying a time frame.

And you stare at these 2 kids, and the currently empty home of the man across the river who's been Nothing but joy and kindness and warmth and comfort and you wonder.

How long has he been suffering under it all

something about Phil staying strong the entire time he knew the eggs disappeared.

he hugs Bad and tells him it'll be alright.

he makes sure that Tubbo calms down when he's panicking and tells him it wasn't his fault.

he helps Cellbit get forever back.

through all of it, he stays strong. he stays calm. even as he does the lava cast - if he's angry (and he is angry, his fucking kids are gone), that rage is quiet.

until the birdhouse. until he realises that he was tricked, that he is oh so alone - again. he screams and cries and begs Cucurucho to give him his eggs back.

something about Phil staying strong for everyone else, only to break when he is the most alone he has ever been

I have feelings about

"The Bolas way is we go with you."

Cuz like this team started as chaotic group but it took about two days before they started calling the person they chose as a leader dad. It's the team i believe survived purely on spite and bits with each other the first day, the team that said "do you just want to build houses" and somehow after that managed to pull through, together, to the finale. An honourable finale.

And now, there's Phil on the boat. But not entirety of team bolas.

Phil showing off his wings to Foolish without question, without hesitation, when they finally reunite, going through the effort of taking off his backpack and letting them out to share them. Wearing the gas masks, a reminder that they’re united, trustworthy, always on the same side. Something about how he did so when Foolish was showing his newly grown fins, like a hybrid to hybrid ‘here are my traits. I trust you and want you to know this’. Reassuring Tallulah that he trusts Foolish implicitly - they went through a lot together, after all.

When watching back through some older qsmp vods, I noticed a small thing I found funny.

Philza was the person who gave Baghera her first chainsaw, he just causally handed it over to her and laughed.

Fun Bolas facts.

Purgatory gave him wings....(literally ha)

i am being so skeptical rn, first the photos of phil's eggs in places that are personal to him and his kids, now codeflippa is only interested in phil being her uncle???

like it feels like the codes suddenly have their eyes on phil or maybe since he did try to contact them directly by the chest they somewhat got a liking of him???? he somehow has some connection to the codes cuz like there's something not adding up here

also as i wrote this phil showed codeflippa the pictures of a cage for a cage and she loved it lmao, he's her coolest uncle actually <3

BAGHERA GOT A NORMAL TICKET

THIS IS THE END FOR Q!PHIL

The Red Team is killing themselves. The Mods are spawning swordfish on top of pirate ships Philza finds. Charlie is only half joking. Cellbit hates fish. Foolish doesn't wanna be happy. Bagheera has offered her cat as a sacrifice. Jaiden as proposed they call cuddle together for the next 30 minutes on the island.

We really are the cursed team.