“We chose the term “asexual” to describe ourselves because both “celibate” and “anti-sexual” have connotations we wished to avoid: the first implies that one has sacrificed sexuality for some higher good, the second that sexuality is degrading or somehow inherently bad. “Asexual”, as we use it, does not mean “without sex” but “relating sexually to no one”. This does not, of course, exclude masturbation but implies that if one has sexual feelings they do not require another person for their expression. Asexuality is, simply, self-contained sexuality.”
— The Asexual Manifesto, Lisa Orlando and Barbara Getz, 1972
Everyone told me testosterone would make me angrier. My family has a habit of attributing any anger I feel these days to the testosterone. I didn't feel any angrier, but my mother would still tell me that no, I am angrier now, and testosterone did make me angrier and *she* could tell.
A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.
I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.
And then I thought.
Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.
And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.
And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.
All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.
I feel like I should be angrier about this than I am. I know how angry I used to get. About everything. I just felt it again for the first time in a while. For once, it would feel justified to be that angry. But I'm not. I'm not mad. I'm just... disappointed, I guess.
Finally, a place to post my Evil Evil Thoughts and no one can stop me
my friend nader, like many of us, has dreams of what he wants to do with his life. he wants to go to university — first, though, he has to survive the terrible conditions he’s been subject to by the zionist occupation.
we’ve hit €51,403, but that’s still only barely halfway to the final goal. donations have slowed down IMMENSELY.
nader’s father is recovering from surgery. there’s a 1 year old child in the family, along with multiple other children (including nader himself, who is only 17). please don’t forget about them!
@mavigator @thatsonehellofabird @sharkjumpers @mysterypuppy
if you donate money to ao3 but refuse to bother with gazans' gfms you should be aware of the fact that you're a walking talking piece of shit
My friend Abdul is an African LGBTQ+ refugee who needs more help than I can give him to survive at his camp.
$6,000 seems like a lot, and it is, but he would really be grateful for anything. If you have $1 to spare he would absolutely appreciate that. this is not a circumstance where not reaching the goal means it was pointless. I don't get paid much because I'm a full time student but he always appreciates and needs what I can give him.
If you can't use GoFundMe for any reason I also take donations through these other money transfer services.
Ko-fi: Nervesnebula, Cashapp: nervesN, and Venmo: @nervesnebbin
I'll try to update this post with how much I've raised through these apps at the end of every day. I'll also try to post updates I get from him tagged as #Abdulfund on this blog, if he has anything he wants to say. Thank you.
raised via ko-fi, venmo, and cashapp
"its not safe for me to transition right now" girl have you read the news its not safe to drink milk or eat medium rare cheeseburgers or go in public without a respirator anymore stop making excuses lets get you some estrogen
Target has helped so many save money since they want to kiss the ass of Trump. Costco is better anyway.
Here’s a real boycott list
P.s: obviously everyone can’t boycott everything but one also didn’t need that Tito’s Vodka or Wendy’s 😉
tiktok stunt haha funny. please talk about the ice raids
buying microsoft products funds genocide
i will never be against piracy ever but i also need physical media to remain
He/Him, Transmasc Dyke, 19yo A personal blog of mine to document my journey on testosterone, plus other shenanigans:))
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