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synopsis: it turns out that the barista youâve had a crush on has a second job behind the lens of a camera
pairing: seokjin x reader
wc: 1.2k
genre/au/rating: 18+ | coffee shop, camboy (?) au | smut
warnings: pwp âą guided masturbation âą edging âą hand kink (lmao, whatâs new) âą mutual masturbation âą dirty talk âą name calling (slut)
authorâs note: surprise!!! happy (belated) birthday ryen @kithtaehyung! (âno, i didnât write this at 2am,â they lied)
m.list | ao3
You swallow the lump in your throat.
Youâre unable to tear your eyes away at the masked figure on your computer screen; at his parted lips and sculpted chest.
Though you donât have a clear vision of his handsome face, aside from the alluring, brown eyes and sharp jawline, you recognize his fingers immediately because they belong to the barista that serves your latte every morning from the cafĂ© down the street.
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â„ă»word count: 25.5k â„ă»genre: fluff, enemies to lovers, single dad kun, single mom reader, there is some angst but not between reader and kun, more-so around them in terms of like life events â„ă»warnings: cursing, kid on kid violence (biting lol) â„ă»extra info: people are called âmommyâ and âdaddyâ in this so if u canât be normal abt that maybe skip this one â„ă»authorâs note: omggg itâs finally here! this one has been a wip for like literally like 1.5 yrs i think? anyway im absolutely in love w single dad kun in this one, and i hope u guys fall in love w him too đ«¶
âMr. Qian, Iâm failing to see how this is any of your concern.â
âBecause youâre treating my kid like heâs a felon.â
âWell yours treated mine like a chew toy so excuse me for exercising some caution,â you finally snapped, tightening your grip around your son and cradling the back of his head.
PART I: moments turn to dreams within my mind
Woobin had always been a kid with big feelings, from big smiles to big tears, and as his mom you encouraged him to feel those big feelings when they came. Your older cousin often warned you that you were raising a âcrybaby,â but you brushed off her attempts at parenting advice. Youâd rather have your Woobin and all his softness than her kid who screamed and threw his monster trucks at the wall at the slightest provocation.
But that didnât make it any easier for you to walk in and see your son bawling by himself in the corner of his classroom when you went to pick him up from preschool that afternoon. You immediately skirted around a couple other kids and parents to kneel down beside him, feeling your heart breaking as you rubbed his back, âBinnie, Binnie, hey, hey, hey. Mommyâs here.â
You caught the three-year-old by the underarms before he could throw his arms around your neck. His face was bright red, eyes puffy from clearly how hard he had been crying, and snot and spit coated his chin.
âWait a second, Binnie, I know,â you kept your voice level and calm despite how frantic you felt. âIs it a scary cry or a boo-boo cry?â
It took him several deep inhales and sniffling exhales before he could sob out, âScary and boo-boo cry, Mommy!â
âOh, baby,â you immediately enfolded him in your arms, cradling him to your chest gently. âWhat hurts, Binnie? Can you show me the boo-boo?â
It was then that one of his teachers finally joined you, an apologetic look on her face, âMs. Y/N, I am so sorry. We would have called, but it happened right before the end of the school day.â
âWhat happened?â
âWoobin had an incident with another friend.â
âAn incident? What sort of incident?â You looked around for another crying kid, expecting that they both had gotten hurt doing something together.
Woobin had just pulled up the left sleeve of his whale patterned longsleeve shirt when his teacher explained to you, âWoobin got bit.â
And there, on your sonâs upper arm was the bright red imprint of teeth marks. In fact, it seemed to have been so recent that you could still see the indents in his skin. You were filled with such a burning, white hot rage that your skin tingled and if you werenât already holding Woobin, you think you wouldâve swung on someone. You liked to consider yourself a level-headed person, in control of your emotions, but it was practically all out the window in that moment.
âHe got bit?â You repeated her phrasing incredulously. âYou mean another kid bit him.â
âI understand that this can be upsettingââ
âHow did this happen?â You demanded, pulling Woobinâs sleeve back down and wrapping your arms around him tighter. âWhat were you doing?â
âMaâam, I think it would be best for all of us to have a discussion about this together.â
âAll of us? Including the biterâs parents? I want to know what you are going to do to make sure my child is safe at your preschool before I even think about bringing him back here, much less have some mediation like heâs at fault as much as the kid who bit him.â
The teacher paused, as if waiting to see if you were done, before speaking again, âMs. Y/N, it is our policy in such incidents to have a meeting between school personnel and the guardians of both involved children, regardless of... injury. In order for Woobin to keep his spot, you two are required to attend this meeting. We understand if you wish to seek out different accommodations for him, however, weâve found that all parties are typically satisfied with the outcome of this process. I highly encourage you try it, and if you still want to pull Woobin from our program after, that is of course your decision as his mother.â
Your chest was heaving as you took deep breaths, clenching your jaw as you stared her down. After a few moments of deliberation and listening to your sonâs continued sobs, you let out a short and bitter sigh, âWhen would this meeting be?â
âAfter school tomorrow. Will you be available then?â
âFine. Yes,â you stood up with your boy still in your arms, shifting him onto your hip. âBut Woobin will not be at school tomorrow.â
âHe will be missed,â she nodded with that same placid smile.
As you stalked out of the classroom, you passed by a father and son speaking to the other teacher.
The next day, you dropped Woobin off at your parentsâ place with a peck on his forehead and profuse âthank youâs to them. You had vented to your mother on the phone the night prior, after putting your son to bed, finally letting loose all the obscenities that you had wanted to in the preschool. Your mom gladly took her grandson for the day before shooing you off to work.
You then had to leave work a little early to pick Woobin up from your parentsâ to take him to the preschool since the meeting was to take place right after the school day ended. For some godforsaken reason that escaped you, they required the kids to be in attendance at the meeting too. As if your three-year-old was really going to be testifying about the entire situation. The most him being there could accomplish was prove that he had a bite mark, which a picture on your phone could also do.
After a âgive âem hellâ from your mom, and an offer to come along from your dad, which you contemplated for a moment, then declined, you started for the school. While your dad coming along would make you feel better, it would also make you feel like you were buying your first car again and were afraid of the salesman trying to scam you for being a woman. This was a meeting about the welfare and treatment of your son, you could do this.
Standing in the lobby with some other parents who were milling around, waiting for the respective classrooms to announce they were ready for pick-up, you found yourself tapping your foot impatiently. The 1-year-olds picked up first, then the 2-year-olds. As those families filtered out, you were left with only a few parents, as this section of the school only went up to 3-year-olds. The 4-year-olds went to a different wing of the building for VPK, and you knew that the other buildings on the rather expansive campus held an elementary, middle, and even high school.
You felt Woobin shift in your arms to get comfortable, and readjusted him to your other hip, âSorry, Binnie, I know youâre tired.â
âDo you two want to sit?â A voice spoke up from behind you.
You turned around and had to look down at a man in a suit sitting on one of the padded benches in the lobby. He was presumably some kind of businessman from the nice upkeep and fit of his suit, even as he had loosened the tie a little bit for being off of work. His handsome, friendly smile wouldâve made your heart skip a beat on any other day, if you werenât on a mission today.
All of the seating had been taken up when you got there, and you didnât even think to look around for open spots as other parents started to leave.
The man shifted to one end, gesturing towards the open spots that could fit probably three adults comfortably. You smiled at him gratefully, âOh, yes, thank you.â
You sat down, keeping your sleepy Woobin on your lap. Being at his grandparentsâ today had thrown off his usual nap schedule, and you rubbed his back soothingly. Rolling up his sleeve which was on the side opposite from the man, you inspected the bite mark. It had blossomed into a rather gnarly bruise overnight, all blue and purple, and it only made anger churn again in your chest. He hadnât given any indication that it still hurt as you fixed his sleeve, thumb tenderly swiping over the area after.
Finally, the three-year-old class was dismissed for pick-up, and the other parents gathered their children. You hung back, waiting for all of them to filter out, before you approached the classroom. You figured the parents of the biter would still be in there, but hadnât expected the man who had offered you a seat to be the one there with another little boy and the teachers.
âWonderful, everyone is here,â Mrs. Chen, the older of the two teachers, announced.
âQian Kun.â The man took it upon himself to do the introductions, bowing to you politely. He then ruffled the hair of the boy standing beside him, just above knee-height, âAnd this is my son Junyi. I am deeply sorry for Junyi biting Woobin, MissâŠ?â
âY/L/N Y/N,â you half-nodded half-bowed back to him as best you could with Woobin in your arms. âAnd before we get into all that, what I really want to know isââ You rounded on the teachers. âHow this could have even happened.â
Ms. Xu, the younger teacher with whom you had spoken yesterday, opened a door on the far side of the classroom, âOf course. Weâll be having the meeting in here.â
With a short sigh at how your question was once again brushed off, you stepped into the interior office space. It looked like it must be where the teachers took their breaks and did any sort of administrative work. A few desks were against the walls, closed laptops and bags set on a couple of them. There was a table set up in the middle, four chairs around it, and a small area with toys off to the side.
âWe have a place over there for the children to play while we discuss,â Ms. Xu smiled, gesturing to the toys youâd spotted when you walked in.
Mr. Qian nodded, gently directing his son towards them, âGo on and play for a bit, Junyi. Daddyâs going to talk right over here, okay?â
Junyi toddled over and plopped himself down on the playmat, picking up a truck and doll, easily entertaining himself. The other three adults looked to you and your son expectantly.
âThank you, but Woobin is going to be staying with me,â you informed them. All the talking had made Woobin stir, but he seemed rather content in your arms anyway, simply looking between all the adults with big, curious eyes.
âMs. Y/L/N, I assure you, I had a talk with Junyi last night and again this morning about not biting our friends. He shouldnât be doing that anymore.â
âAnd I assure you, Mr. Qian, my concerns are not about your parenting,â you told him frankly. âBut Woobin will be remaining with me for the duration of this meeting.â
âMs. Y/L/N, really, Woobin will be fine with Junyââ
âMr. Qian, Iâm failing to see how this is any of your concern.â
âBecause youâre treating my kid like heâs a felon.â
âWell yours treated mine like a chew toy so excuse me for exercising some caution,â you finally snapped, tightening your grip around your son and cradling the back of his head.
Mr. Qianâs jaw dropped, and Mrs. Chen cut in before he could say anything else.
âLetâs all sit down and try to have a more productive discussion.â The words were phrased like a suggestion, but the stern tone she said them in very much let you know that they werenât. âMs. Y/L/N, Woobin can of course be wherever you are most comfortable having him.â
You nodded to her curtly, taking a seat at the table. With Woobin more awake, you turned him in your lap to face the table, and set up a couple toys and small games on the tabletop to keep him occupied. The teachers took a seat beside each other, leaving you and Mr. Qian sitting caddy-corner.
âFirst, I want to know what happened,â you demanded, entirely focused on the two teachers.
Ms. Xu took over the explaining, âThe class had earned free play yesterday after finishing their curriculum work early. After, we were doing our end of the day clean-up activities, which all of the students help with. Junyi and Woobin were assigned to pick up toys this week. It seems there was a disagreement about who was going to be putting away a specific toy, a whale. Woobin was bit.â
You clenched your jaw at that passive phrasing again. âAnd where were you two when this was going on?â
âMrs. Chen was assisting the students who were cleaning the snack tables on the other side of the room. I was the one overseeing the students tidying that side of the room.â
âWhat do you mean when you say disagreement? Iâm trying to understand how it was allowed to escalate into biting.â
Mr. Qian finally spoke up again, âMs. Y/L/N, Junyi has never done anything like this before, I honestly donât know where this came from. Heâs not a mean kid.â
âMr. Qian, that is not what I said nor asked,â you turned to him coolly. âI want to know what exactly she was seeing and how much time she had to intervene.â
Ms. Xu recalled, âThe two of them were getting along fine. Junyi did seem to be getting a little frustrated, and Woobin was beginning to tear up, but there was no contact at that point, and we know how Woobin is.â
She glanced at the boy on your lap with a sympathetic look, and it took everything in you to hold back your revulsion at her. Yes, your son was quicker to cry than others, but that didnât mean that as the adult, she shouldnât investigate what exactly was making him cry.
âI was keeping an eye on the situation to see if they would resolve it on their own,â she tried to reassure you. âIf I had thought that it would escalate like that at all, I promise I would have intervened. The contact was entirely unexpected and very sudden.â
âThe biting.â You clarified flatly.
âWell, yes,â she nodded. âAs soon as I saw it happen, both Mrs. Chen and I went over and separated the two. It was no more than a second or two at most, Ms. Y/N.â
âIt sounds like you two did the best you couldâve,â Mr. Qian told the teachers before turning to you once more. âMs. Y/L/N, again, I am so sorry that Junyi did this, but it sounds like it really did come out of nowhere.â
You pinched the bridge of your nose, inhaling deeply to recenter yourself. Entirely ignoring Mr. Qianâs platitudes, you looked at the teacher, âIt took you just a second or two to separate them?â
âYes,â she confirmed.
âBinnie, may I?â You murmured to your son, reaching for the sleeve of his shirt.
âOkay, Mommy,â he easily let go of his toy for you.
Rolling up the longsleeve of his shirt you turned him a little to show off the deep black, blue, and purple bruise in the perfect shape of a set of little teeth to the other three adults sitting around the table with you. Ms. Xu audibly gasped, Mrs. Chen covered her mouth and looked away, and Mr. Qian had the most visceral reaction, grimacing with his whole upper body as if heâd been slapped.
âI simply find it hard to believe that it was only a mere one or two seconds when my sonâs arm looks like this now,â you stated, making firm eye contact with both teachers. âSo, I will ask again: How long did it take you to separate them?â
Mrs. Chen and Ms. Xu exchanged uncomfortable looks before the older woman took over speaking.
âMs. Y/N, Iâm not sure if youâve had experience with removing a child thatâs bitten onto another and wonât let go, but you canât simply rip them apart without causing further damage to the other childâs skin. Ms. Xu couldnât separate them on her own, she had to wait for me to get there, and as weâve already said, I was on the other side of the classroom. So yes, it did take longer than we would have liked to separate the two.â
âSo it took longer than two seconds, which is what you just told me, twice. You have lied to me twice now about how my child got injured in your classroom.â You rolled Woobinâs sleeve back down, absentmindedly patting his head. Leaning forward as much as you could with him there, you jutted your pointer finger decidedly into the tabletop outside of his toys, âSo now I want to know what you and the school are going to do to ensure my sonâs safety in your classroom.â
The father beside you suddenly jolted into action at your words, âMs. Y/L/N, Junyi wonâtââ
You rounded on him incredulously, doing your best to both be firm while not absolutely losing it on him, âMr. Qian, I have already told you that I am not here to concern myself with how you parent your child. And I think the fact that you take my concern for my own childâs wellbeing as an affront to your relationship with yours says more than I would ever think is appropriate for me to.â
Okay, maybe you lost it on him a little.
With him sufficiently dumbfounded, you were able to focus back on the school staff in front of you, âNow please, can we get back to the topic at hand? I want to know what you two plan on doing about classroom management and observing the children under your care to prevent future incidents like this from happening. And I want it written down in a formal document, with assurances from your superiors about how both that and your staff training on communication with parents will be handled, because it certainly canât include lying to them.â
Ms. Xu looked down at her lap guiltily, while Mrs. Chen simply looked disgruntled. You held the older womanâs gaze steadily, having a distinct feeling that little lie youâd been told was her doing, and the junior teacher was following her own superiorâs lead.
âOf course, Ms. Y/N. I will call the principal right now to aid in drawing up the document youâve requested,â Mrs. Chen acquiesced, standing up and moving over to one of the desks, picking up the landline phone sitting there.
You nodded to her, finally letting your eyes drop down to your kid in your lap. You were unable to fight off the smile that spread across your lips as you looked at your son, picking up one of his hands and bringing it up to your mouth to kiss his little fingers.
âMy turn Mommy!â He squealed, grabbing one of your fingers and giving it a comically loud smooch.
You could feel Mr. Qianâs gobsmacked stare on you still, but ignored him. Youâd done what you came here to do, none of which involved making nice with the biterâs parents. While what youâd said about not wanting to comment on his parenting was true, that didnât mean that you hadnât formed a silent opinion or two about it, especially with how defensive he was. Needless to say, with how heâd attempted to handle this, you didnât really think very highly of Mr. Qian.
After leaving the mediation with your own copy of the formal plan on how the three-year-old classroomâs management and safety procedures were going to be tweakedâwith specific policies about biting and inter-student de-escalationâand a form that you and Mr. Qian had signed attesting that you participated in and were satisfied with the mediation process, you paused in the lobby of the school. You were juggling too many things: the papers, some of Woobinâs toys, Woobin, your purse, all while trying to get your car keys.
âHey, you need some help?â
You turned to Mr. Qian with a strained smile, âNo, thank you, weâre okay.â
Considering the conversation over, you went to set Woobin down on the ground, âHere, Binnie, wait right here next to Mommy.â
âOh, glad to see his legs do work.â The man was apparently still there.
âYes, they do.â You pressed your lips into a flat line, not very amused. âAnd I donât appreciate the passive-aggressive comment on my parenting, Mr. Qian.â
âI didnât meanââ
âYour joke was referencing the fact that the entire time youâve seen Woobin and me this afternoon, Iâve been either carrying him or holding him in my lap, despite the fact that he can stand on his own. Youâve been letting your son walk on his own all afternoon and havenât picked him up once. Thus, implying that Iâm coddling my son and raising him to be dependent on me, while youâre raising yours to be independent.â You tossed Woobinâs toys into your purse, then folded the papers in half to tuck in as well. âTrust me, Iâve dealt with lots of people thinking they can give me unwarranted advice on parenting. Especially men who think Iâm going to give him one too many hugs and heâll develop an Oedipus complex. They also presumably think that my uterus is roaming around my body causing me to become hysterical while Iâm telling them off, too.â
Having finally fished your car keys out from the bottom of your purse, you hoisted Woobin back up into your arms, defiantly making eye contact with the father, âGoodbye, Mr. Qian.â
A couple weeks of uneventfully picking up Woobin from preschool passed by. You saw Mr. Qian in the lobby, or passed by him in the classroom, of course. But you made no moves to talk to or even acknowledge him, nor he you. Ms. Xu seemed genuinely apologetic about what happened, doing everything possible to ingratiate herself to you at every opportunity, chatting you up at pick-up, asking about your day at work, or telling you about how well Woobin did at curriculum or art or such during the day. Mrs. Chen was cordial, and did your requested weekly check-ins on how the implementation of the new procedures were coming along. You sincerely engaged with and thanked her after each update. After all, you wanted your relationship with your sonâs teachers to be productive, not adversarial. As long as they were done lying to you.
Today when you went to pick up Woobin, he was contently sitting in his chair at a table, swinging his feet under him. You squatted down beside him, mussing up his hair a bit, âHey, Binnie. Have a good day?â
âYes,â he nodded, reaching out towards you, and you grabbed his hand. âMissed Mommy.â
âAnd I missed Binnie!â You replied, squeezing his little tummy, delighting in the bright little giggle he let out. âNow come on, bubbles, letâs go home.â
âOh, Ms. Y/N!â Ms. Xu was suddenly at your side before you could stand up.
âAh, hello, Ms. Xu, how are you?â
âIâm very excited, actually. But first, Woobin had a fantastic day at school today. He went down so easy for naptime, and he finished the curriculum so fast that we brought out a 4-year-old worksheet for him just to see, and he did that one too! It was some counting, and he did great!â
You turned to your son with a grin, âDid you have fun doing all that counting, Binnie?â
He nodded enthusiastically.
âAnd are you proud of yourself, bubbles?â
âYes, Mommy. Can I have a high five?â
âYou can have two high fives,â you held out both your palms for him to smack his little hands into.
Turning back to the teacher, you indulged her in the question she very clearly wanted you to ask, âAnd why are you so excited, Ms. Xu?â
She handed you the piece of paper in her hands, âWell, the Fall Festival is coming up. The entire campus pitches in to put it on, and this year the preschool is running the Bake Sale table. Weâre asking parents to volunteer to either bring treats, set up, break down, or do a shift running the table. If youâre able.â
It looked like you were the first parent Ms. Xu had given the sign-up sheet to, all the slots were empty. Eight slots to bring different baked goods, and two slots for each hour-long shift. While you werenât exactly feeling charitable to the schoolâWoobinâs bruise still hadnât fully healedâyou noticed the text at the top of the sign-up sheet advertising that any parent who volunteered would get two free ride tickets. Woobin hadnât gone on his first Ferris Wheel yet, and that was a memory you were looking forward to making with him.
âThe ride ticketsââ You tapped that part of the paper to draw Ms. Xuâs attention to it. âWill there be a Ferris Wheel?â
Her face immediately lit up and she nodded fervently, âYes! And Woobin should be just big enough as long as he sits in your lap.â
Well, you could kill an hour running a Bake Sale table with another random preschoolerâs parent then take Woobin on the Ferris Wheel. You quickly scribbled down your name for the first hour after the set-up shift, then handed the paper back to Ms. Xu.
The day of the Fall Festival was upon you, and you were holding Woobinâs hand as you walked across the expansive campus grounds. The booth where the preschoolâs Bake Sale was set up was near the other food and carnival games towards the front of the grassy clearing, and you could see the Ferris Wheel at the very back. You were about fifteen minutes early, and most vendors were still finishing setting up. Since you were doing the first shift, you wanted to make sure you werenât late, as well as see if there was anything from set up that you could help with if needed.
The Bake Sale booth was easy to find, and you saw two men there carrying in large tubs filled with containers of various baked goods.
âGood morning!â You greeted them brightly. âAre you the set-up crew?â
âJohnny Suh,â the taller of the two gestured to himself, then to his companion, âJeong Jaehyun.â
âNice to meet you two, Iâm Y/L/N Y/N, and this is Woobin. Iâm on the first shift. Your kids are in the three-year-old class as well, right?â
âYes, Sungchan,â Mr. Jeong confirmed with a smile. âI think Iâve seen you around the classroom at drop off and pick up before.â
âAnd Mark is my boy,â Mr. Suh nodded, then looked around the property. âWell, these are the last of it. Now, he should be around here somewhereâŠâ
You followed Mr. Suhâs gaze, and your stomach dropped as you recognized two familiar figures approaching the table from the direction of the school. Qian Kun was holding a metal box in one hand, and his sonâs hand with the other. He set the metal box down on the table.
âSorry, had to get the money box from Mrs. Chen in the classroom,â he explained, then looked to the two men with you. âThank you, Mr. Suh, Mr. Jeong. Ms. Y/L/N and I have got it from here.â
âAlright, weâll see you at the end for break-down, then,â Mr. Suh slapped Mr. Qianâs shoulder in a friendly gesture.
âGoodbye, Ms. Y/L/N, Mr. Qian. You too, Woobin and Junyi!â Mr. Jeong gave waves to all four of you before taking off after the other man who was already several long strides away from the table. âHey, Johnny!â
Two pop-up chairs were set up behind the table, and Mr. Qian grabbed a bag that was beside one, unfurling a playmat from the inside and laying it down on the ground beside the table. He poured out a bunch of toys too, then squatted down beside his son.
âAlright, Junyi, I need you to look at me. Daddy needs you to play on this blanket today, okay? If you need to go off the blanket, you have to tell Daddy first. Itâs so we can stay safe. You cannot leave the blanket without telling Daddy. All your favorite toys are there, youâre going to play with them and have fun. Iâve got snacks and stuff, too. But you need to stay on it. Do you understand, Junyi?â
âYes, Daddy.â
âOkay, can you please tell me what youâre going to do then?â
âIâm going to play on the blanket.â
âAnd what if you want to leave?â
âI ask Daddy.â
âWhy?â
Junyiâs face screwed into a pout as he tried to remember. âI forgot, âm sorryâŠâ
âThatâs okay, buddy. Itâs so we can be safe,â Mr. Qian repeated it for him. âNow, why are we going to stay on the blanket?â
âSo we can be safe.â
âGood, buddy,â He ruffled his sonâs hair. âNow go play, Iâll be right here at this table.â
The man stood up straight again, his eyes flicking over you briefly as he began organizing the sweets on the table.
âGood morning, Ms. Y/L/N. Woobin is welcome to play on the mat with Junyi during the shift, if youâre comfortable with that, of course.â
âOh, thank you.â You led Woobin over to the mat as well. âBinnie, Mommy is going to be working for a while at this table. Your job is to stay on the playmat with Junyi, so that you two can stay safe, okay? You cannot leave the playmat without Mommy.â
âOkay, Mommy.â
âSo tell me, what are you going to do?â
âPlay with Junyi.â
âWhere?â
âOn the playmat.â
âCan you show Mommy what all the playmat is?â
He pointed to the edges of the yellow and blue blanket for you.
âAnd are you going to leave it without Mommy?â
âNo.â
âWhy?â
âSo I can be safe.â
You grinned at him, âThank you, bubbles. Go play, baby. Call for Mommy if you need me, okay?â
âOkay.â
After depositing a few more toys that you had brought along for Woobin on the mat, you returned to where Mr. Qian was setting out the food.
âHere,â he held a tray of brownies out to you. âThese will go there, right in front of you.â
âOh, got it.â You set them down exactly where he gestured. âSo, you signed up for set up and the first shift?â
âIâm actually helping to run the Bake Sale, so Iâm setting up, breaking down, and filling in for whichever slots nobody signed up for.â
âWait, did you bake these, too?â
âOnly the ones in containers with the green lids. Other parents contributed too.â
You looked over the baked goods he had indicated. All the ones in the green containers looked the best, you had considered in the back of your mind that one of the richer parents might have just bought them from a bakery and brought them in instead of baking themselves.
Sneaking a glance at the man beside you, you then panicked when you realized that he was already looking at you, expectantly holding out a plate of frosted sugar cookies.
âHere, next to the brownies.â
âRight, on it.â
Mr. Qian cleared his throat, âI am surprised, Ms. Y/L/N⊠that youâre allowing Woobin to play with Junyi.â
âIâve also allowed him back at school for the past month, Mr. Qian.â You pointed out. âAs I said, my issue has never been with Junyi, but with how the school handled the entire situation.â
âHm.â
You let out a short sigh, âThough, I am sorry for some of the things I said at that meeting, they were out of line.â
âSome? May I inquire about which ones?â
âThe chew toy thingâŠâ
âOh, yes.â
âAnd the whole âmy concern over my childâs safety not being an affront to your relationship with yours.â That was seriously⊠awful of me. Just so pretentious,â you breathed out, feeling ashamed as you relived your words. But if you were to ever expect to teach your son humility and owning up to his mistakes, you had to practice it yourself. âI said I wasnât there to comment on your parenting and then I did exactly that in the exact same breath. Iâm sorry, Mr. Qian, and I hope you can believe me when I say that.â
He held your gaze steadily, âI forgive you, Ms. Y/L/N.â
âEverything else I said, though, I stand by,â you reaffirmed pointedly.
âI understand,â he nodded.
You were pretty sure the festival had officially opened, as families had begun filtering in. Some were slowing down as they passed by your table to skim their eyes over your offerings, but none had stopped so far. So you were still just stuck there with Qian Kun and the overwhelming silence that felt like it was damn near suffocating you.
âSo, what do you do for a living?â You finally decided to ask. If you werenât going to be holding a grudge against the guy, you might as well make small talk.
âIâm in sales.â
Okay, small talk was not his forte. This was going to be like pulling teeth.
âWell it seems like they put the Bake Sale table in good hands, then.â
âWhat about you?â At least he understood reciprocity.
âPublishing.â Yeah, you werenât any better than him. You stumbled to add on more information, âUh, Iâm a copy editor.â
âIs that like a proof reader?â
âPretty much, yeah.â
And at that moment, your blessed first customers walked up to your booth, a group of high school students, and you leapt at the opportunity to get out of that awkward conversation.
When your hour shift was finally over, you gleefully picked Woobin and his toys up from the playmat, took your two free ride tickets from Mr. Qian, and waved goodbye to him and the new volunteer parent who had shown up to take over your slot.
âAlright, Binnie, the Fall Festival is our oyster,â you looked it over with shining eyes. âWhat should we do first?â
Two hours later, and you were just finishing up your slightly late lunch. You scrolled through the delightful pictures that youâd taken of you and Woobin on the Ferris Wheel, sending a couple to your parents before tucking your phone away.
âDessert sounds good, donât you think?â You suggested to Woobin, and the Bake Sale popped into your mind. Those desserts that Mr. Qian made had looked really good, and you werenât able to try any when you were working the table this morningâŠ
âPlease, Mommy?â
âYou didnât even need to ask, bubbles, Mommy wants some dessert too,â you admitted, taking his hand in yours. âI think we should go get some of those sweets that Junyiâs dad made. How does that sound? Did you see them earlier?â
There was a short line that you bumped up against at the Bake Sale table, just a couple families ahead of you. When you finally got to the front, your greeting to Mr. Qian stopped in your throat as you took in the empty spot beside him.
âAre you all by yourself, Mr. Qian?â You craned your neck to look around for signs of another parent.
He let out a tired sigh very clearly from deep within, eyes conveying a harrowed, ominous kind of exhaustion, âIt seems as though the parent who signed up for the last four slots has skipped out on me. Been by myself for the past thirty minutes or so. I gave up on him about fifteen minutes ago.â
With a resolute nod, you hoisted your son up onto your hip and slid around to the other side of the table to stand beside Mr. Qian, âBinnie and I will finish the day out with you two then.â
âNo, Ms. Y/L/N, you really donât have to. Iâm sure you have things to do, and I can run a preschool Bake Sale by myself.â
âJunyi! Come play with Woobin over here please!â You called after the little boy that youâd spotted toddling a little too far away from the playmat for comfort.
The man whipped around as his son came waddling back over at the sound of his name, clearly unaware that he had just wandered off. He squatted down to chastise the boy, reminding him to stay on the blanket. Junyi nodded, plopping down with his toys.
âIâm not leaving you out to dry, Kun,â you told the father frankly, sitting Woobin and his toys back down on the playmat too.
He gave you a frazzled smile, âThanks, Y/N.â
Another couple hours passed by of you and Kun jointly running the Bake Sale table. Word had apparently spread since the first hour that youâd done with him in the morning, and the treats were extremely popular. Your line was never empty for more than a minute or two, and often times wrapped past other booths. Now you could see why Kun was so out of it when you had gotten there, he had been doing this by himself, even for just thirty minutes, with Junyi there.
The two of you fell into a symbiotic rhythm of taking orders, payment, handing out food, and keeping an eye on the two boys with you.
In a rare, brief lull between customers, you were caught off-guard when it was also quiet behind you. The telltale giggles, babbling, and nonsense conversation of Woobin and Junyi had faded out. You frowned thoughtfully as you finished rearranging the brownies in front of you, about to turn around to investigate anyway when a heart-wrenching wail pierced the still air. Immediately, you went to jerk around to comfort your crying Woobin, but were stopped in your tracks, so caught off-guard to see that it wasnât your son sobbing. He was standing in front of Junyi, who was sat on the playmat, half-crying and half-screaming his head off.
Kun couldnât get the cash in his hand into the register fast enough, and you rushed over to try to get Woobin to at least back up. Crowding Junyi definitely wasnât going to help.
But you stopped as you realized that Woobin was talking to the other boy.
âJunyi, scary or boo-boo?â Woobin quietly asked him. After he didnât get a reply, he asked again, âScary or boo-boo?â
Junyi managed to blubber out, âScary!â
Kun had finally arrived on the playmat while you watched on with wide, bewildered, and awestruck eyes as Woobin gave Junyi a big hug. The dad looked even more confused than you.
âWhatâs going on?â
You held up a finger for him to wait a moment, then turned to your son, âBinnie, do you know what happened to Junyi? Why is he having a scary cry?â
âJunyi fell down, Mommy,â he answered you dutifully.
âOkay, thank you,â you nodded to him. Looking at Kun, you explained, âSeems like Junyi just fell down. I donât think heâs hurt, it just gave him a scare.â
âDaddy!â Junyi whimpered, and Kun gently extracted him from the other toddlerâs arms to bring him into his own. Cradling his son, Kun murmured soft reassurances to him as the boy clung to his neck.
âUh, thank you, Woobin,â he nodded to your son. âIâve got Junyi from here.â
âYouâre welcome,â Woobin replied, but you could see the moistness gathering in his eyes too. Oh, your big-hearted kid.
Both you and Kun brought your respective kids back to the table with you, sitting in the pop-up chairs with them in your laps. The two of you were quiet until Junyiâs sobs had simmered down into little hiccups, and you could feel that Woobinâs breathing had evened out into a nap.
âOkay, how did you do that?â Kun whispered at you.
âDo what?â You replied just as quietly.
âGet Woobin to do what he just did.â
âBy asking him the exact same question pretty much every single time heâs cried for the past three years,â you answered honestly. âAnd he didnât use to even answer me, much less ask other people that. Thatâs the first time heâs ever done that, actually.â
âHuhâŠâ
Mr. Suh and Mr. Jeong came back an hour and a half later to help break down the table. It had been a pretty successful endeavor, if you did say so yourself, as there were only a handful of treats left, which you and Kun offered to a group of high schoolers who came by after break-down.
With everything packed up except the cash drawer, Kun turned to you with finality, âIâve just got to drop this off with the front office and thatâll be it. Thanks, Y/N. You and Woobin were a big help today.â
âOf course. Sorry about that parent who skipped out on you. Who was it, anyway?â
âA⊠Mr. Nakamoto?â Kun read off the paper. âIâve never heard of him.â
âI think Iâve chatted with him in the lobby a couple times. His sonâs in the two-year-old class if I remember correctly?â You strained your memory, then gave up. âOh, whatever. Maybe he just had an emergency or something.â
âThatâs one way to look at it.â
âAnyway, have a goodnight, Kun, Junyi,â you nodded to the two of them, then squeezed your sonâs hand. âBinnie, weâre leaving, do you want to say something to Junyi and Mr. Qian?â
Your son perked up, giving the two of them a bright smile and big wave, âGoodbye!â
âJunyi?â Kun prompted his son from where he was tucked into the fatherâs chest. âTell Ms. Y/L/N and Woobin goodbye, you wonât see Woobin until Monday.â
âBye, Woobin. Bye⊠Ms. Y/L/N.â Junyi said in between yawns, rubbing at his eyes. Poor guy seemed absolutely tuckered out.
âGoodnight,â Kun gave you one last nod before heading towards the school, and you and Woobin took off towards your car.
Monday morning you released Woobinâs hand to let him scamper into his classroom, giving Ms. Xu a wave of acknowledgement as you signed the morning drop-off sheet by the door. You were about to take off for work when a hand grabbed your elbow, and you hadnât even realized that Ms. Xu had approached you, all too focused on heading to work.
âMs. Y/N!â
âAh, Ms. Xu, good morning,â you greeted her. âIs something the matter?â
âNo, I just wanted to thank you for pitching in with the Bake Sale on Saturday. Mr. Qian informed us that he wouldnât have been able to pull it off without your help.â
You looked around for Kun. You were only able to spot Junyi, however, coloring with Woobin at a table. Seems like heâd already come and gone. Great, now you had a reputation for being a helpful mom.
You shook off both her hand and her praise, âOh, really Mr. Qian is exaggerating. He works in sales, did you know? Honestly didnât need my help.â
âWell, whatever you two did, it was our most successful Bake Saleâwell, any kind of fundraising eventâfor the preschool ever! And, we were wondering if the two of you would consider getting more involved in some parent leadership positions at the school? The preschool PTA have been trying to get a fundraising committee off the ground, and we really think that you two would do a fantastic job spearheadingââ
You must have had some kind of look on your face, as Ms. Xu suddenly stopped dead in the middle of her sentence, entirely switching trains of thought. Keeping her same peppy tone and bright, hopeful smile, she said, âI am so sorry to have thrown so much at you. You must have to be getting to work. Why donât we talk about it later when you come pick Woobin up? All of us, Mr. Qian, too. Goodbye, Ms. Y/N!â
And with that you were ushered out of the door, utterly dumbfounded at what had just happened.
That afternoon, you squared your shoulders and steeled your nerves as you approached the preschool doors. You had to keep your resolution firm: you were absolutely not going to be joining any sort of PTA, fundraising committee, or parent leadership position. The only thing that you were going to be spearheading was cracking open the bottle of wine that was waiting for you at your apartment tonight.
You were a little earlier than you usually were for pick-up, which you had done on purpose, needing to clear the air with a certain Mr. Qian Kun. Immediately homing in on the man, you made a beeline for him. He noticed you, his friendly hand falling as he seemed to notice the set of your brow.
âGood afternoon, Yââ
âQian Kun,â you cut him off sternly. âDo you care to tell me why I was voluntold for a position spearheading a fundraising committee this morning?â
âOh, that. Look, it came as a surprise to me too,â he tried to assuage you.
âWhy the hell did my name even come out of your mouth in such a discussion in the first place?â
âBecause they were praising me on how well the Bake Sale went, and I was making sure you got the credit that you deserved too. Are you upset about that? If so, Iâm sorry? I guess?â
âYou listen to the words coming out of my mouth: I will be a PTA mom over your dead body,â you hissed, scooching in to take the spot on the bench beside him and free up more standing space for the parents coming in.
âOkay, letâs take a step back from the threats, maybe, Y/N,â Kun suggested, holding his hands up in both a defensive and âare you kidding me?â gesture. âWhatâs so awful about being a PTA parent in the first place?â
âFree labor for so little reward, and I donât have the time for that. Do you?â
âWe havenât even heard their proposal; we donât know what theyâd be wanting us to do.â
ââSpearheading a committeeâ sounds like a part-time job at least.â
âAlright, well, didnât Ms. Xu tell you that you and I held the most successful fundraising event the preschoolâs ever had? And that wasnât even with us making a concerted effort, either, that was just some random mid-grade effort Bake Sale. Imagine what we could do if we really go for it.â
âYou work in sales, huh?â You deadpanned after his little pitch was finished. The one-year-old class opened for dismissal, and you leaned in towards him to continue your fervent conversation in a more hushed voice, âAnd canât even realize when youâre the one being sold to! You do know that this campus has a bunch of filthy rich donors, right? Theyâre not hard pressed for cash, they just give the high school priority, then the middle school, primary, and the preschool gets the leftoversâif thereâs even anyâforcing it to have to fundraise for itself.â
âIsnât that all the more reason to do this, then?â Kun pushed back.
âWe could do a hundred Bake Sales and it wouldnât make up the difference between the scraps the preschool gets and the millions that the high school does. No, it would be all the more reason for us to go find our own filthy rich donor who would put a stipulation on their donation for it to be used exclusively for the preschool.â
âOh.â
âYouâve got to think bigger about this, Kun,â you knocked on his forehead with two of your knuckles as best you could in the narrow space between the two of you. âGod. You said you work in sales, what do you even do?â
He rubbed at the back of his neck sheepishly, red tinging the tips of his ears, âWould you believe me if I said Iâm a Director of Sales?â
âNo,â you snorted.
âThatâs fair.â
âSo anyway, glad weâre on the same page about saying no to this.â You went to lean away from him and put some pep back into your tone, watching as the two-year-old class was dismissed next.
âWhat? Iââ he looked around, it was only the three-year-old parents left in the lobby now. You sighed, scooting back over to sit shoulder-to-shoulder again for him to be able to continue in a hushed voice, âI thought we were going to find a donor for the preschool.â
âYou want us to go in there, and say yes to leading the preschool PTAâs fundraising committee on the condition that its sole mission is to stage a coup within the financial hierarchy of the campus?â
âOkay well when you say it like thatââ
âIâm in.â You grinned at him. âAs long as you were being serious about the Director of Sales thing.â
âI was,â he fished out a business card from his wallet to hand to you.
Qian Kun, Director of Sales, WeiShen, Inc.
And below that was his email, office phone line, and fax number. You gave it back to him.
âPerfect. Those connections will come in handy.â
The door to the three-year-old classroom swung open just then, and you got to your feet.
âAlright, Mr. Qian, ready to go start the cutest coup the world has ever seen?â You offered your hand to him.
He stood up alongside you, giving your hand a firm shake, âYes, absolutely, Ms. Y/L/N. Theyâll never know what hit them.â
While Mrs. Chen and Ms. Xu were definitely caught off-guard by your idea, after getting over their initial shock, they were surprisingly on-board with it. They requested that you two bring in a more formal proposal to the next preschool PTA meetingâ next Wednesday. That gave you nine days.
âSo how did you know all that, about the donors and distribution structure of the funds?â Kun asked as you walked out into the empty preschool lobby.
âI did my research before picking a preschool for Woobin. Itâs all there on the Internet if you dig deep enough, and are somewhat adept at reading through the legal bullââ You cut yourself off, looking down at the two toddlers with you. Kun pushed the front door open for you, and you quietly thanked him as you led Woobin through it before resuming your train of thought, âItâs obviously not in any of the advertising stuff for prospective parents, but for prospective donors, investors; the corporate materials.â
The four of you stopped in front of the building, where the small parking lot was.
âSo then why did you enroll him here, even knowing about how they treat the preschool with the donations?â
âThe high school is the best in the area, and the easiest way to guarantee admission is to graduate in from their middle school. Easiest way to get into the middle school is to graduate in from the primary school.â
âAnd the easiest way into the primary school is through the preschool,â the dad surmised.
âBingo. Iâm keeping Binnieâs options open,â you squeezed your sonâs hand affectionately. âHe doesnât have to go there, but Iâm making sure he can if he wants.â
Kunâs eyebrows shot up, âWow. Thatâs some really forward thinking.â
You tilted your head curiously, âSo whyâd you choose to send Junyi here?â
âIt was the closest to my place.â
âPractical, thatâs more than fair.â
âSpeaking of, Junyi and I should get going, we have to pick up a couple things from the store for dinner tonight and buddy already looks like heâs not going to last the two block walk there.â He looked down at his son, who was very quiet, glassy eyes fixed on his feet.
You nodded in understanding, âOf course, Binnie and I have a wine night planned.â
âIâm sorry, a what?â
âOh, Binnie gets grape juice and I have red wine in matching cups. He likes to feel included.â
âDoes he get a matching kiddie charcuterie board too?â Kun chuckled to himself as he hoisted Junyi up onto his hip.
âNo, he just takes what he wants off of mine.â
He gave you a blank stare, âI canât tell if youâre pulling my leg or not.â
âLook, he insists on trying whatever I have, and he ends up liking a lot of it,â you shrugged. âHeâs the only 3-year-old I know who asks for tapenade as a snack.â
âYouâre being serious?â He checked again.
âYes,â you laughed. Then, before you knew it, the next words coming out of your mouth were, âYou know, you and Junyi should join Binnie and I for a charcuterie night. Iâll prepare actual kid-friendly stuff, too, for Junyi.â
Kunâs head jerked back just the slightest, and he blinked a couple times before asking, âUh, just you and Woobin?â
âYeah, isâ Would that, uh, be a problem?â The offer had felt perfectly normal and natural for you to make in the moment, but his reaction was making you second guess and stammer. You rushed to tack on, âWe canâ Itâll be for the fundraising committee, you know.â
âRight, right, of course.â His voice was filled with shaky relief.
âOf course,â you echoed, offering a strained smile.
âAs long as thatâs not a problem forâfor you.â
âWhy would it be a problem for me? I invited you.â
âI donâtâ That sounds great, thank you, Y/N.â
Desperately wanting to get out of the plane crash that you had inadvertently taken this conversation into, you readjusted your purse on your shoulder decidedly, âOf course. Uhm, well, we wonât hold you two up from the store anymore, it looks like Junyiâs about to fall asleep on you right now. Weâll see you tomorrow.â
Kun looked down at Junyiâs head that had been resting against his chest, the boyâs eyes beginning to flutter shut, âOh, God, there he goes. Bye, Y/N, Woobin!â
And the man was around the corner before Woobin could even lift his little hand to wave.
âSo whatâs the big deal, Y/N?â
âWell because I feel stupid now, Sooyoung,â you ranted to your friend over the phone that night as you washed up the dishes from dinner. âIt felt like I was maybe finally getting my first like, parent friend, you know? And then he got all weird as soon as I invited him to hang out. I wasnât being weird, was I? It was practically a playdate invite!â
Woobin had been put to bed a few minutes ago, and you were recounting the horrible nosedive that your conversation with Kun had taken, needing to know that you werenât crazy.
âY/NâŠâ Sooyoungâs voice was patient as it came through your speakers. âNow, I can only guess, because I am, as we know, not a parent friend. But⊠is he married?â
 âHuh?â The plate in your hand nearly slipped out of your soapy grip.
âWedding ring, seen one?â
You wracked your brain, trying to remember if youâd ever really looked at Kunâs hands that closely, âUh, not that I can remember?â
âOkay. You ever met the mom?â
âNo, itâs always Kun who picks Junyi up.â
âHas a mom or another parent or partner ever been mentioned at all?â
âSooyoung, the point,â you requested sternly, having a sneaking suspicion as to what it was.
âIâm just saying, maybe he got all weird because he thought you were flirting.â
âOh my God,â you sighed and ran a hand through your hair before realizing that it was still soapy. âGod damn it!â
âY/N?â
You grabbed some paper towels to clean the suds off your head, âYeah, still here, sorry.â
âAnyway⊠is he cute?â
âSooSoo, I donât even think I could flirt on purpose at this point,â you chuckled cynically, going back to your chore. âThat muscleâs long shriveled up. I just need to time skip to being married with two kids, I think.â
Your friend laughed along with you, âFair. But, that doesnât sound like a no. Kinda sounds like avoiding the question, actually.â
âSooyoung.â
âOoh, you gonna send me to my room?â She taunted you, and you could hear her pout through the phone. âPut me in time out?â
âYouâd like that, you little freak,â you snickered, picking up your next dish.
That Saturday afternoon you and Woobin had welcomed Kun and Junyi into your apartment with giddy nerves. Woobin was excited, and you were excited for him. This would be pretty much his first playdate with a kid that he wasnât related to. And you had all the nerves, as this was your first time having a parent friend over, too. Not to mention that Sooyoungâs words were still bouncing around in the back of your head. When Kun held out a bottle of red wine to you with his left hand, you looked extra hard at his fingersâ yep, no ring.
âOh, Kun, you didnât have to,â you took it from him gladly, ushering the two of them further into your home.
âYouâre hosting and making us a charcuterie board. I figured wine was appropriate,â he explained.
âWell, thank you. This is perfect.â
Woobin was right where youâd left him in the living room on his playmat among his toys.
âBinnie,â you said, waiting until he looked up at you before continuing, âMr. Qian and Junyi are here, so weâre going to eat now, remember?â
He nodded, immediately standing up and beginning to shovel toys off to one side of his mat. You helped him slide the mat to the corner of the room.
âUh, weâre just going to eat around the coffee table, if thatâs alright,â you explained, gesturing to the cleared table in the middle of the living room.
âYeah, of course,â Kun nodded.
âGreat, great. Dining table kind of has a partially built LEGO set on it right now,â you chuckled as you set the wine bottle down. âIâm going to grab everything from the kitchen, be back in a second.â
âOh, Iâll help.â
âNo, thatâs okay, Iâve already got a little helper,â you held a hand out expectantly towards your son. Woobin immediately grabbed your hand, looking up at you. You gave Kun a quick smile, âBe back in a sec.â
In the kitchen, you handed Woobin his spill-proof cup, then another for Junyi. You fit two wine glasses by the stems and a corkscrew in one hand, and grabbed the charcuterie board with the other. Gently nudging your toddler ahead of you, the two of you headed back out to the living room, where your guests were waiting.
Kun and Junyi had sat down on one side of the table, and you gently placed the food down in front of them, then one wine glass in front of Kun. You looked to your son, who handed the correct cup to Junyi.
âItâs just water,â you informed the dad. âWe have juice too, if he can have it. I never know about allergies and the like so I didnât want to assume.â
âJuice?â Woobin looked up at you with wide eyes.
âYours is already grape juice, Binnie,â you informed him with a head pat.
Kun rubbed his sonâs back, âWaterâs fine for him, he had a juice box this morning. Thanks.â
You and Woobin sat opposite from the father and son, Woobin immediately clambering into your lap. As you went to uncork the wine, Kun looked over the board in front of you all. You had made sure to prepare some kid-friendly options in one corner in addition to your usual refined spread.
âThis all looks fantastic, Y/N. Thank you, seriously,â Kun smiled, and you swore that was the first time youâd noticed a deep dimple appear on both of his cheeks.
You poured first for him, then yourself, âOf course. Thank you two for coming over, Woobin and I were both excited to host for someone. Right, Binnie?â
âWhat, Mommy?â Woobin looked up at you with a scrunched nose.
ââHost.ââ You repeated the unfamiliar word for him, then clarified your question, âAre you excited to have Junyi and Mr. Qian over?â
âOh! Yes!â He nodded his head so fast you could feel the rest of his little body shake in your lap. âCan I show Junyi my room, Mommy?â
âAfter you two eat some, okay?â
âOkay!â
âDid you hear that, Junyi? After you eat, you and Woobin can play.â Kun gently prodded his son, then looked up at you apologetically when all the child did was yawn. âSorry, he just woke up from a nap before coming over.â
âThatâs okay,â you giggled, cutting off a piece of cheese and pressing it onto a cracker, then making another serving of the same cheese and cracker. You handed one to Woobin, keeping the other for yourself.
Woobin eagerly took a bite of the cheese and cracker youâd given him, washing it down with his grape juice.
Kun offered a bear-shaped cookie out to Junyi, who shook his head. The dad sighed, and pointed at a banana slice, then blueberry, then cheddar cheese slice that youâd cut into small star shapes. They all got head shakes.
âAre you hungry at all, buddy?â
âYes!â
âThen what do you want? Ms. Y/L/N made sure to put out all that food just for you. I donât think you want what Daddy is eating, buddy. Itâs grown-up food.â
You chewed on the inside of your cheek, unsure of if you should speak up. It seemed like they both needed help, but you werenât one to try to interject your own parenting if it wasnât asked for.
Junyi squirmed in his dadâs arms for a moment before mumbling, âBut Woobinâs eating itâŠâ
Meanwhile Woobin had in fact helped himself to a kalamata olive, pre-pitted, happily munching away.
Kun seemed at a loss, rubbing at his brow, and you finally decided to jump in.
âJunyi, you can try some, too,â you told him encouragingly, leaning forward and reaching over the board. âDo you want to try the cheese Woobin was eating or the olive he just had? Or both?â
âCheese, please.â
You cut off a small piece of the gouda, âHere you go.â
He took it in his small hands, âThank you!â
âYouâre welcome.â
You watched in amusement as Junyi ate the cheese, his features lighting up.
âDid you like it?â
âYes! Can I try the olive?â
âHeyâŠâ Kunâs voice held a slight warning as he pinched his sonâs side.
âCan I try the olive please?â
âThank you.â The dad patted the boyâs head before reaching around him for the glass of wine on the table.
You handed him an olive, both you and Kun watching with interest as he popped it into his mouth whole. Junyiâs face immediately screwed up in disgust. Without missing a beat, Kun held up a cupped palm with another short sigh, letting his son spit the food back out. Trying to hold back your giggles, you handed the dad a napkin.
âThanks,â he accepted it, depositing the olive into the paper, and wiping his hand off.
After some more broadening of Junyiâs horizonsâto mixed resultsâthe board was mostly clear, and the kids had declared themselves full.
âCan I show Junyi my room now?â Woobin asked excitedly.
âSure, Binnie. You two can go play,â you nodded, and he immediately scrambled off your lap. You held out a hand for him to use to balance himself as you kept talking, âMr. Qian and I have some work to do, so weâll be in here if you need us, okay?â
âOkay!â Both toddlers said in unison.
âHey, look here,â Kun stopped his son before he could leave the room. The father waited until the boy was looking him in the eye before continuing, âRemember what we talked about before coming over? All week?â
Junyi nodded fervently.
âGood. Go have fun, buddy,â he ruffled his son's hair.
You watched the two of them speedwalk out excitedly, Woobin explaining the house rule of not being allowed to run because itâs not safe as they went.
Then it was just you and Kun. Sooyoungâs words echoed in the back of your mind.
âAlright, let me grab my laptop, then we can get to work,â you declared, getting to your feet.
A few hours later and the two of you had made good progress, only interrupted by the kids a few times here and there, mostly them wanting to show off toys or coloring pages, or Junyi had wandered in at one point seemingly just to make sure Kun was still there.
You had been adding something to your word document of notes when you realized that your house had been eerily quiet for too long. Fingertips hovering over the keys, you exchanged a suspicious look with Kun.
âToo quiet?â He asked knowingly.
âYeahâŠâ You frowned, setting your computer aside to get up.
Both of you treaded through your home until you got to Woobinâs bedroom. The door was open, and you were alarmed for a moment when you didnât see either boy anywhere on the floor playing. Until you recognized two lumps under the covers of his toddler bed, Woobin and Junyi looking like they were going to sleep for the next hundred years or so.
âOh, god, I am so sorry,â Kun shook his head, seeming about to go in there and grab his son.
You were between him and the room, however, and quickly turned the lights off and shut the door. âItâs okay, Kun. They just tuckered themselves out. Thatâs good.â
Latching onto his elbow, you pulled him back towards the living room, catching a glance at the time on the microwave as you went through the kitchen.
âDamn, itâs not even Binnieâs normal bedtime yet,â you chuckled.
You didnât let go of Kun until you had pulled him back down onto the couch, and then held his (second) glass of wine back out to him pointedly. He had a fond smile as he took it from you, and you happily accepted your victory as you picked yours back up too. You left your laptop on the coffee table, shifting to entirely face Kun as you raised your glass to your lips.
Kun took a sip.
You took a sip.
âDo you want to ask me something, Y/N?â Kun scratched the back of his neck.
âMm, sorry,â you apologized with a chuckle. âI zoned out on your face there, didnât I?â
âYeah, a bit,â he laughed.
âI was thinking, though.â
âWhat about?â
âYouâre a Director of SalesâŠâ
âSupposedly.â
âSupposedly,â you repeatedly humorously before moving on with your question. âDo you think weâve got a good chance at getting a donor for the preschool? If our proposal is approved by the PTA on Wednesday, of course.â
You had expected some kind of business musings, or serious answer from Kun, but instead you watched with concern as his brow furrowed, his fingers drummed along his knee, and he suddenly became fidgety, shifting around in his seat. He stayed quiet, once again scratching at the back of his neck, squinting one eye closed, then the other.
âKun?â You said his name hesitantly.
âSorry,â he shot you a familiar, frazzled smile that reminded you of when he was getting overwhelmed at the Bake Sale booth by himself. âI uhm, I donât know.â
âThatâs okay,â you reassured him. âI was just curious, itâs not life or death that you know everything all the time.â
He didnât even seem to hear you as he stood up, setting his wine glass down on the table. The dad began pacing back and forth in front of your couch, his hands laced together behind his neck.
âIâm good at my job.â
You wouldâve sworn he wasnât talking to you, except his wide, stressed eyes snapped up to you after he said that.
âIâm not your boss. You donât need to convince me, Kun,â you said slowly.
âI know, justâ with all this, itâs stuff that I should be good at, itâs right up my alley. But itâs for Junyi, and I want to be the best dad I can be for him that I just end up jumping into doing things without actually thinking about them first because other people are telling me thatâs what I need to do to be a good dad. I know how to be a good Director of Sales. I donât know how to be a good dad.â
âYou donât need to know everything,â you reiterated strongly, hoping he actually listened this time. âI donât know all the secrets for being a good mom. I just know how to be Woobinâs mom. You donât need to know all the secrets to being the best dad ever. The only thing you need to worry about is being Junyiâs dad. Does that seem a bit more manageable?â
Kunâs pacing slowed to a stop in front of you, âWell, I guess.â
âSo, the next time somebody is trying to sell you on some âDad Thing,â stop, breathe, and think: Is this what I, Qian Kun, as Junyiâs dad, need to do, to be?â
âOkayâŠâ he looked at you skeptically, closing his eyes for a moment. You watched as his shoulders rose and fell with a deep breath.
ââŠAre you doing it right now?â
âWell how else am I supposed to decide if this is a good thing to do or not?â
You let out a hearty laugh, âNo, thatâs perfect, Kun, go ahead.â
He closed his eyes again, and you watched with fond amusement as his eyebrows quirked up and down with his thoughts. You took another sip of your wine before he had finished, and he opened his eyes once more, giving you a firm nod, âOkay, yes, I think thatâs a thing that Junyi would need me to do.â
âGreat,â you smiled at him, tilting your wine glass out to him.
He picked his back up and clinked it to yours in a little cheers. You tipped the remainder of your drink back in one go.
âOh, that was good,â you declared. âThanks, Kun.â
âOf course, Y/N. Thank you for inviting us.â
âLike I said, Binnie and I were both really excited to host,â you took your empty glass into the kitchen to start cleaning up. âI donât know if this is bad, but he hasnât really had a lot of play dates that werenât like his cousins or something.â
âJunyi neither,â Kun admitted.
âItâs hard, isnât it?â You asked, starting to stack the plates. âKid, and work, and family, and friends, and everything else. And then youâre supposed to be in charge of your kidâs social life too?â
Youâd turned your back on him to bring the plates into the kitchen, expecting to hear his response to your question, but you were just met with silence. After depositing the dishes in the kitchen, you walked back out to the living room, alarmed to see that Kun had taken to pacing again.
Keeping a calm demeanor yourself, you kept going about your task, grabbing the charcuterie board, the last thing that needed to be tidied up. You had just started back towards the kitchen when Kun broke his silence.
âJunyiâs mother left us.â
You were so glad you had your back to Kun so he couldnât see your rueful wince. Oh, you were so going to regret this.
Relaxing your features into a more sympathetic frown, you turned around to face him, âIâm very sorry to hear that, Kun.â
This was going to be a lot, you could sense it, so you set the charcuterie board back down on your breakfast bar.
âSo just know that however hard it is for you and Woobinâs dad, itâs like ten times harder for me, and thatâs why Iâm alwaysââ
You had stopped listening to him, however, your brain turning to white noise after the phrase âWoobinâs dad.â
âWait, do you think Iâm married?â You blurted out over him.
âWell, no, I can see that you donât have a ring,â Kun gestured down to your hands. âBut a boyfriend or another significant other. Iâm doing this solo andââ
âIâm a single parent too!â
âWhat?â He seemed dumbfounded.
You couldnât tell if you wanted to laugh or cry more at how ridiculous this was.
âWoobinâs dad was a one-night stand! I canât remember the guyâs name, or what he looks like. Couldnât find him if I wanted to. I donât have a partner now, either. What on Earth made you think I was anything other than a single mom? Youâre in my home!â You gestured around wildly to where there were multiple pictures of your family, of you and Woobin, but none of you, Woobin, and any man that could reasonably be considered his father.
âWell youâre justâ youâve gotâ at the meetingâ youâre so put together,â Kun stammered out, his voice getting smaller and smaller. He ran a hand through his hair, âYouâre not falling apart at the seams like I am.â
âKun.â You grabbed him by the shoulders, stopping his frenzied pacing. âLook me in the eye.â
It wasnât really like he had a choice, you were now holding his face just a couple inches from yours, but he still followed your command.
âGood,â you praised him, keeping your voice soothing. âI want you to take three deep breaths with me.â
He followed along as you inhaled, exhaled, inhaled, exhaled, inhaled, and finally exhaled again together.
âAlright, thank you,â your voice was still sweet and calm as you ran your hands back down to his shoulders. âNow⊠why the fuck do you think I am more put together than you, Qian Kun?â
âEverything,â he breathed out, hanging his head.
âGod, Kun,â you sighed, seizing him by the wrist. âCome on.â
You led him into your dining room, where there was in fact a half-built LEGO set on your dining room table. But that wasnât your goal. On the bookshelf in there, you grabbed a specific picture frame, and took it and Kun back to the living room.
Sitting down side-by-side with Kun on the couch, you held the picture out in front of the two of you. It was of you and Woobin just over three years ago now, the first night you came home from the hospital. Your mother had taken it. He was swaddled in his baby blue blanket, all chubby cheeks, and you looked dead tired, but an excited sparkle was still in your eyes as you grinned down at your son.
âLook, Kun. I used to feel like that too. All the time. Almost every day when I was pregnant,â you relayed to him.
âBut not anymore?â He questioned hesitantly.
âSometimes. But not like before. Because I realized that Iâm not doing this by myself.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âI may be a single mom, but Iâm not alone, I have Binnie. And isnât that the whole point? To be there for them? To make sure they know theyâre not doing it alone either?â
Kun was quiet, his eyes still focused on the picture.
You continued, âIâm lucky enough to have my parents as a good support system, and some friends I can call up in case of emergency too. But I remember when I found out I was going to have Woobin, and I decided to keep him, I was scared of doing it by myself. Terrified, might be a better word.â
âWhen I came home from the hospital with him, my mom stayed with us for the first couple weeks.â You tapped the frame. âAnd the first night after she left, when it really was just the two of us, I was expecting this overwhelming sense of loneliness, and instead I just felt⊠full. I know I had all those birthing hormones in me, oxytocin and whatnot, but I looked down at him and I realized I wasnât alone, and I wasnât ever going to be in all this because I have Binnie.â
âIâve never thought about it like that,â Kun finally spoke again.
Thinking about your cousinâs approach to parenting, you guessed, âYouâve always thought about him as the adversary?â
âNot exactly. Junyiâs more like a tiny roommate that I have to dress and feed and keep from accidentally dying.â
âIâd love to see pizza and beer night at your place.â You joked, laughing when you managed to get a small smile out of Kun again. âDoes Junyi get his in a sippy?â
âYou jest, but I have poured myself two fingers of whiskey into a Winnie the Pooh sippy cup before because it was the only clean drinking vessel we had.â He rubbed at his temples, then clarified, âWith the lid off.â
âDesperate times call for desperate measures.â You patted his back, reaching across him to set the frame down on the side table by another one that was displayed there.
âThanks, Y/N.â Kunâs eyes followed you as you sat back down, suddenly much closer than you remembered being before. Or were you just more aware of your proximity?
He patted your knee. âSeriously, that made me feel a lot better.â
âOfââ You cleared your throat to get rid of the squeak that was now in your voice. âOf course.â
Your skin tingled. Holy shit, youâd only had two glasses of wine spread across several hours, there was no way you should even be remotely buzzed. Kun was still looking at you. Were his eyes always this dark, this inviting?
God, he really was handsome. Youâd always known that, thought that, since the moment you saw him in the lobby of the preschool. But something about now, having him in your home, so close, alone, you felt like you couldnât take your eyes off of him. He wet his lips seemingly instinctually, and for a moment your brain short-circuited.
âDaddy?â A small voice made both you and Kun jump in your seats. You bit your tongue in surprise, hissing in pain as you and the dad simultaneously scooted away from each other. Junyi was standing at the threshold of the living room, rubbing one of his eyes sleepily.
âHey, buddy.â Kun waved his son over with a smile. âIs everything okay?â
Junyi walked over, stopping in front of his dad, a small pout on his face. âI woke up and didnât see you...â
âOh, buddy,â Kun rubbed the toddlerâs back. âSounds like itâs about time for us to go home, huh?â
You smiled at the both of them, hoping they couldnât see how frazzled you felt through it. âOf course, itâs late. I think weâre uh, weâre all tired. Junyi, is Woobin awake?â
The boy shook his head no.
âOkay, thank you.â You stood up, grabbing the wine glasses as Kun picked his son up.
You sent them off with a quick goodbye at your front door, and let out a deep sigh of relief once youâd closed it behind them. There werenât many dishes to take care of in the kitchen, but you still took your time scrubbing at them, then tiptoed down the hall to check in on your son. He was in fact sound asleep, and you quietly went to retire in your own room for the night.
Except once you were in your own bed, sleep didnât find you easy. You still saw Kun whether your eyes were open or closed, and you could feel the ghost of his warm hand on your skin. You rolled over into the center of the empty expanse of your bed, burying your face in your pillow, and let out a groan. You so needed to get laid. Thatâs all this was, you had set aside your own needs for your familyâs and as soon as you saw one attractive guy, you couldnât function. There were more important things to focus on with Kun, like the fundraising.
And so you went to sleep with thoughts of spreadsheets, Kunâs dark eyes, numbers, Kunâs warm hands on you, fundraising pitches, and Qian Kun running through your mind.
The fundraising pitch was a hit. Yours and Kunâs PTA committee was approved at the very same meeting, and you two were made co-directors effective immediately.
Afterwards, you, Kun, Woobin, and Junyi all walked out together, and while Kun seemed to be basking in the exhilaration of success, you were shell-shocked with a harrowing realization.
âY/N?â Kun gently touched your arm, voice tinged with concern.
You looked up at him, horrified. âIâm a PTA mom now, arenât I?â
He seemed to be holding back his laughter as he patted your shoulder. âI think you are. My condolences. Please donât kill me.â
âUnfortunately, I donât think I can dispose of my co-director so easily now.â
He was grinning at you. âAh, didnât realize that title came with such high protections.â
You rolled your eyes, but found your mood lifting anyway. âYeah, yeah. Anyway, you mentioned that you had something exciting, but only if we got approval?â
âRight!â Kun let go of Junyiâs hand to reach into the interior pocket of his suit jacket. He retrieved a crisp cream envelope, about the size of his hand. His name was embossed on the front of it in gold lettering.
You looked at him with an eyebrow raised. âYou got a wedding invite?â
âClose.â He opened the envelope, holding out the contents to you. You set Woobin down, murmuring a quiet request for him to stay by you all so you could take the card in both your hands. The front of the card had an unfamiliar crest on it, and you opened it to read the inside.
âThe United Publishing Society is honored to invite Mr. Qian Kun and a guest to their 89th Annual Benefactor Galaâ
And below that was the date, time, location, and dress code. Black tie formal.
âA fancy networking event?â You questioned, handing it back to him.
âNo,â he shook his head very seriously. âThese are all the old industry bigwigs who want to get together without all that schmoozy networking and ladder-climbing stuff going on. You and I are probably going to be the youngest ones there by a couple decades.â
âWait you and me?â
âYep. âMr. Qian Kun and a guest.ââ He recited off the invite. âYouâre my guest.â
âUhm...â
âI happen to know that one of the guys attending is also on the board of a non-profit that donates exclusively to childrenâs causes. Building pediatric cancer centers, juvenile intervention centers, the whole nine. I think heâll be our best bet for a donor.â
You narrowed your eyes suspiciously. âBut you just said they want to get together without networking and all that kind of stuff. Why would we be any different?â
âItâs a charity gala, theyâre already there to write checks anyway. Weâre not going to be asking him for a job.â
Itâs not you were exactly overflowing with any options. âWhen was that again?â
âWhat do we think?â You did a spin for your small audience of Woobin and Sooyoung. âGood enough for black tie formal?â
Tonight was the night of the gala Kun was taking you along to, and you sort of felt like you were going to throw up. And pass out. In that order. First of all, you had never been to a gala, you couldnât remember if you had ever gone to something with a black tie formal dress code (you literally had to go out and buy this outfit), not to mention that you felt awful for having to ask your friend to babysit. But unfortunately your parents were out of town and all of your normal babysitters were busy. Sooyoung had already let you (jokingly) know that this was under duress, and that you owed herâdespite turning down the money you offered her.
Sooyoung wolf-whistled at you, and you gave her a pointed look. Not the example you wanted to set for your son. Woobin looked up from his toys at the sound, and clapped for you.
âYou look great, Y/N!â Your friend reassured you, and you were thankful that she reigned her mouth in around your kid. Typically, you wouldâve gotten a much more explicit compliment from her. âShould be good for black tie. I mean, itâs not like you have any other option, right?â
âRight...â You groaned, turning back towards your room. âHold on, let me put the shoes on so you can see those.â
You were sitting on your bed pulling your shoes on when you heard your doorbell ring. Your stomach dropped as you looked over at the time on your bedside clock. Shit, Kun was early. You shouldâve anticipated that from the last time he was here.
âSoo! Can you get the door? Iâm still putting my shoes on!â You yelled out through the apartment.
âYep!â She called back.
You could vaguely hear the muffled voices of Sooyoung and Kunâand even Woobin at one pointâbut you were too focused on tugging your goddamn shoes on to care much about what they were saying. Just as you were finally standing up and straightening out your outfit, Sooyoung speedwalked into your bedroom, Woobin in her arms.
She had a smile filled with devilish delight on her face as she leaned in to whisper conspiratorially to you, âThat is Kun?â
âHuh? Yeah? Unless you let some strange man into my home that I donât know,â you replied, bewildered. âShould I have asked you to ID him?â
âI take back everything I said, you stay out as long as you want tonight. All night even,â she suggested, gesturing wildly with one hand as the other kept your toddler propped up on her hip. She pinched his cheek fondly. âBinBin and I can have a sleepover, right, buddy?â
Your sonâs face lit up with delight at the prospect. âSleepover?!â
Well aware of what your friend was implying, you did your best to regulate your outer emotions and intonation as you addressed your kid. You kept your tone kind but firm, âNo, Binnie, Iâm sorry.â Focusing your gaze on your friend, you added pointedly, âNobodyâs having a sleepover tonight.â
âY/N, come on. Youâve never denied yourself the finer things in life since becoming a mom. Why are you insisting on starting now?â Sooyoung sighed.
âIf youâll excuse me, I have a gala to attend. For the fundraising committee Iâm on.â
Walking through your apartment, you grabbed your purse from your dining room and finally found Kun in the foyer just a few steps from the front door. He was looking at a photo you had up on the wall, his back to you, so all you could see was his brown hair and dark suit.
âHi, Kun!â You hoped you didnât sound out of breath as you entered the room. Judging by the sound of footsteps behind you, Sooyoung had followed you in to see you off for the night.
Kun turned around at his name, hands clasped behind his back. He was dressed rather handsomely for the night in a tux with his hair neatly parted away from his face. But it was the starstruck smile on his face that made your skin warm up as he stopped in his tracks, just looking at you.
âKun? You good?â You coughed awkwardly, well aware of your spectators.
âSorry, sorry. Hello, Y/N.â He blinked and shook his head, stepping forward all the way to stand in front of you.
âYouâve already met my friend Sooyoung. Sheâs watching Woobin tonight for me.â You gestured to the two of them.
âSo you two can take as long as you need!â She piped up oh-so-helpfully.
You turned to look at her with wide, pointed eyes.
 âYou know, chatting people up for your fundraising, or whatever,â she tacked on innocently.
âThank you, SooSoo. Iâll see you later.â You pecked your son on the forehead. âGoodnight, Binnie. Remember, Mommy will be back late so Aunt SooSoo is going to put you to bed, and you and me are going to eat breakfast together, okay?â
âBut Aunt SooSoo said I was having a sleepover with her?â
âAunt SooSoo was just joking, baby. Iâm sorry, no sleepovers tonight,â you informed him with a heavy heart. Sooyoung set him down, and he toddled off towards the living room. Your friend went to follow him, and you grabbed her elbow to lean in to hiss in her ear, âI hope youâre happy, you owe Binnie a sleepover now.â
âAnd heâll get one,â she whispered back. âAs soon as you have one of your own.â
You shot her one final glare that she just retaliated with a wink, before letting her go and striding back over to Kun, who was waiting patiently by the front door.
âEverything okay?â He asked, concern on his features.
âYeah, just making sure she knows Binnie's bedtime and to not give him any more juice.â You offered him a reassuring smile. âAll good.â
âGood. You ready, then?â
âAs Iâll ever be, I guess.â
You so were not ready, it turned out. Just a few minutes after arriving, milling around and taking in the grandeur of the ballroom with Kun, you were starting to feel dizzy. Kun had already seen a couple of people that he must have known, flashing them a charismatic smile and exchanging passing greetings. You, meanwhile, felt like a weight was pressing on your chest, and inhaled deeply through your nose to try to calm down.
âWoah, are you okay, Y/N?â Kun leaned in to ask you quietly.
âYeah, fine,â you lied through your teeth. âWhy?â
âYouâve got a death grip on my arm that you didnât have thirty seconds ago.â He patted your hand that was on his upper arm.
Looking down, you saw that his suit jacket was crumpled in your fingers, and you consciously tried to loosen your grip, but couldnât make yourself do it. Instead, you just stared at your locked hand.
âIâm a copy editor, Kun, I donât really go to galas on the daily, so pardon me for being a little out of my element here,â you retorted, the words cutting through the air much harsher than you had intended. Taking another deep inhale and exhale, you added a whispered, âSorry, sorry.â
âCome on, letâs get some air, hm?â
The gala had an outdoor area devoid of other guests, presumably due to the chilly nighttime air. Kun sat you down on a stone bench outside of the main courtyard area, out of sight from the large windows of the ballroom.
The pressure on your chest was gone, and with you breathing easier, the cynical, nervous thoughts could finally take center stage in your brain.
âGod, this isnât going to work! Why did we even come out here?â You cracked your knuckles anxiously. âHow do we even ask for money without just sounding like children? âItâs not fair!ââ
âIf we find the right donorâand donât use that tone of voiceâthat argument is actually going to be what resonates with them,â Kun responded calmly, standing in front of you with his hands in the pockets of his slacks. âSomeone that cares about the kids, not about investing in an institution or whatever, will be moved by the fact that the preschool is being neglected financially.â
You chewed on the bottom of your lip. âWell damn, when you put it like that, I may just believe that youâre a Director of Sales, Qian Kun.â
âI thought the business card had convinced you.â
âAnybody can order a business card that says whatever they want.â
âThat wouldâve been extensive planning on my part.â
âHey, you couldâve had it on hand to pick up women. Thereâs guys that do that.â
He seemed genuinely put-off and bewildered. âWait really? Thatâs⊠That is just⊠loser behavior.â
âThough the fax number did point to it being real,â you continued, finally cracking a smile. âDudes doing pick-up probably think it makes them look dorky.â
âWhat? People arenât sexting via fax these days?â Kun joked, a grin tugging at his lips.
You were laughing too hardâand thus trying to quiet down your laughterâto respond to him, giving him the perfect leeway to continue. âWhat would you even call that? Saxing? Sexing?â
You were dizzy again, but this time it was light-headedness from laughing too hard, quite literally slapping your knee as you tried to calm yourself down.
Kun was chuckling as well, sliding in to sit next to you. âI take offense at the sentiment that fax machines are lame, by the way. Iâll have you know thatâs my personal fax line on my business card. Not everyone gets their own.â
Finally having enough wits about you to form sentences again, you sat up straight to look him in the eye as you clarified, âHey, I was saying that loser dudes who make fake business cards think that fax machines are lame. I think men with fax machines are sexy, especially personal fax lines.â
You went to nudge his shoulder teasingly, caught off-guard as you realized just how close he was to you. Even closer than the night on your couch, his dark eyes settling on your face, unabashedly drinking you in. Your breath hitched in your throat as you were suddenly surrounded by the intoxicating smell of his cologne. The cold air made the hair on your bare arms stand upâor maybe it was something elseâand you found yourself pressing forward even closer towards Kunâs warmth.
âY/N,â he murmured your name quietly. âAre you cold? We can go back inside.â
âNo, justâŠâ you took a deep breath, scooting in even closer to him, until you were pressed up side-to-side. âStay right here? Youâre warm.â
He uncertainly wrapped his arm around you. âSure, sure. Of course.â
âAnd⊠Can I ask you something?â
âAnything, yeah.â
âI wasnât crazy, right? On the couch the other night⊠Did you want to kiss me, too?â
âYou-You wanted to kiss me?â
âIâm uh, a bit rusty at this kind of thing,â you admitted, your skin burning. âBut Iâm not completely imagining that thereâs⊠something here, right, Kun?â
âYou wanted to kiss me?â He repeated like a broken record.
You lightly snapped your fingers in front of his face. âKun? My question? Or have I officially lost it, and this is like⊠going to make everything awkward for the fundraising committee?â
âNo, no, I-I doâdid want to kiss you. I thought I was making you uncomfortable,â he stumbled over his words sheepishly. âIâm uhm⊠also pretty rusty with this stuff.â
âYou do want to kiss me? Or you did want to kiss me, past tense?â You clarified.
âBoth! Uhm, I did, that night on the couch, and I still do, nowâŠâ He confessed weakly.
âIs there any reason that you shouldnât? Like, is there somebodyâŠ?â
âNo, there isnât. Not at all.â Kun gulped. âWhat about you?â
âNope, nobody, and Qian Kun, if you continue to talk about kissing me without actually doing anything, I might actually lose my mind,â you whispered, feeling hot, embarrassed, desperate tears pricking at the edges of your eyes.
âGod, sorry.â He cupped your cheek, turning your head and tilting your chin to be able to perfectly slot his lips with yours. The arm that was already wrapped around you just pulled you closer to him, as one of your hands grabbed the lapel of his suit jacket. You let out an embarrassing whimper as soon as his mouth meshed with yours, and he murmured another hushed âsorryâ against your lips. If he hadnât just told you that he was rusty, you wouldnât have had any idea as your head spun, your heart beat out of your chest wildly like a cartoon, and you were definitely crying tears of relief into what you were seriously considering quite possibly your best kiss ever.
It was your turn to mutter an apology as your tears turned the kiss salty, but as you pulled back to do just that, you saw the glistening of Kunâs eyes in the champagne tinted light filtering out from the ballroom, turning his tears golden as they slipped down his cheeks. Instead, you just pressed your forehead to his in silent understanding, looping your arm around his neck to hold him even closer, if that was possible.
PART II: you got my heartbeat to play to your time
Spotting Kun in the lobby of the preschool, you immediately lit up and rushed to sit down beside him on one of the benches. He offered you a tired smile and peck on the cheek in greeting, scooting to make room for you.
âBrr, itâs fucking freezing out there,â you shuddered, grabbing his hand to press it against the cold tip of your nose. âThatâs just from the 30-second walk from the parking lot to here! Are you two going to survive the walk home? You sure you donât want me to drive you? Well, I donât have another carseat for Junyi, but he could sit on your lap in the backseat, I think? Better than freezing to death, right?â
âWeâll be okay, Y/N,â Kun reassured you, patting your leg before resting his hand there. âThank you though, love.â
The subject of the cold suddenly made you remember something else, and you perked up, âOh, Woobin and I were at the store yesterday and he needed new gloves, and I saw that bunâs were getting a little worn out when we went out last weekend tooââ
âWhose?â Kun asked, furrowing his brows.
âJunyiâs. Look.â You held up the pair that matched Woobinâs, save for the pattern, which had little bunnies on them instead of whales. âArenât they adorable? God, I just love their tiny hands. Iâll return them if this is weird and I overstepped a line though. I tried to call you to see if this was okay, but the store was just a dead zone, and I couldnât get a signal.â
A sheepish smile punctuated the end of your nervous rambling. You and Kun hadnât been dating for very long, just a few months, and you were still getting a feel for boundaries when it came to your relationship with each other and each otherâs kids. Youâd just started spending the night at each otherâs houses with both kids thereâalready a big step, in your opinion. Taking the initiative on buying Junyi a new pair of gloves had seemed perfectly natural when the thought came to you, but you didnât want it to feel like you were rushing things to Kun, or taking a place that wasnât yours to takeâand hadnât been offered to youâin Junyiâs life.
âOh, no, Y/N, these are perfect, thank you.â He accepted them, a genuine, grateful smile on his face as he tucked them away in his jacket pocket, then squeezed both of your hands. âJunyi will love them. He did need new gloves; I just hadnât made it out to the store yet.â
âThen what is making you make that face?â
âSince when has Junyi been a bunny?â
âWere you not intentionally buying him a bunch of bunny-patterned stuff?â You questioned, tilting your head.
âHuh?â
âHis backpack, his stuffie that he brings to school, his pajamas that he wore at my place last weekend, and Iâve seen him in like at least three different bunny t-shirts. I thought the theming was intentional.â
Kun took a long, slow blink. âOh⊠it was not.â
âKun⊠are bunnies your favorite animal?â You teased.
âNo! I thinkâŠ?â
âGod, long day at work?â You surmised, stroking the back of his head soothingly.
He leaned into your touch, letting out a disgruntled groan, âLong week. Scratch that, long month.â
âMm, anything I can do to help?â
âUnless you can clone me, or stop timeâŠâ
âOkay, new question: Anything I can do to make you more comfortable? Even just something small?â
âCan you and Woobin come over tonight? I know we werenât planning on it, butââ
âYes, Kun, we can come over tonight,â you agreed, using your free hand to grab one of his.
âThank you,â he sighed, squeezing your hand back.
The door to the boysâ classroom opened then, and you nudged Kunâs shoulder with yours. He nodded, the two of you standing up together. As soon as you stepped foot into the classroom, your shins were knocked into by one small body, then another.
âOh, hey bun! Hey bubbles!â You greeted the kids, wobbling a bit as they had each latched onto one of your legs.
Kun, who had caught you by the elbow to steady you, was looking at the three of you with that same tired but heartfelt smile, âGuys, am I just chopped liver?â
Junyi squinted up at his dad curiously, âWhatâs liver?â
âYeah, whatâs liver, Mr. Kun?â Woobin echoed.
âHe means he wants a hug too, boys,â you explained. âAnd heâs been working really hard, so I think he should get a really big one.â
They immediately detached themselves from you to throw their little arms around Kunâs legs instead.
âYou should ask for one next time, Mr. Kun!â
âYeah, Daddy! Instead of talkinâ about liver and stuff.â
âYeah, Mr. Kun, just ask for one next time,â you repeated teasingly.
Kun looked at the two kids with that same fond, resigned smile. âRight, my bad, boys. I will just ask for one when I need one next time.â
As the kids hug-attacked Kun, you went over to their forgotten cubbies to pick up their respective whale and bunny backpacks, giving Ms. Xu and Mrs. Chen friendly waves of acknowledgement. When you returned, Kun had managed to get a kid under each arm, both toddlers giggling as they were held like sacks of potatoes.
âAre you carrying them out like that?â You asked with a tilted head.
âMaybe,â Kun joked. âItâs a good arm workout.â
âYeah, for all three of you,â you referred to how the boys were clinging onto his forearms against gravity as well.
âMm, the idea of buff three-year-olds terrifies me,â he declared, lowering the kids. âAlright, time to let go, guys.â
You reached into Junyiâs backpack to secure the little tiny puffer jacket that was inside, âItâs a bit chilly out, bun-bun, and you and your dad are walking home, so come on, youâre putting your coat on.â
âOkay,â he stuck his arms out for you to help put it on him.
âOh,â Kun pulled the new pair of gloves out of his own pocket, showing them off to his son. âLook, buddy. Ms. Y/N got you a new pair of gloves.â
âOh wow, thank you!â He beamed up at you.
âYouâre welcome,â you grinned back, kneeling down in front of him to zip up the jacket for him. âWoobin has a pair just like it but with whales, so you two can match next time he wears his.â
Woobin looked down at his bare hands with a thoughtful frown. âWhere are my gloves, Mommy?â
âTheyâre probably in your backpack, baby. You and I are driving home so you donât have to put them on if you donât want to, because your hands wonât be getting cold outside like Junyiâs.â
âOh. I want to put them on, please.â
âHere, Iâll get them,â Kun unzipped the backpack that was on your shoulder and began rooting through it.
âThank you.â You murmured. As he got the gloves and helped Woobin put them on, you went over the plans for the rest of the night with your son, âWeâre going to go home and get a few things, and then weâre going to Mr. Kun and Junyiâs house for a sleepover, okay?â
âOkay!â
Kun had finished tugging on the gloves then, âThere you go, Bin.â
âThank you, Mr. Kun!â Woobin chirped, then reached out for the other toddler. âJunyi, we match!â
âWe match!â Junyi giggled back, grabbing Woobin's whale-patterned hand with his own bunny-patterned one.
You stood up, covering your mouth in delight as you whispered to Kun, âIâm literally going to cry.â
âWay ahead of you,â he whispered back, and when you looked over, you did in fact see a single tear rolling down one of his cheeks.
âOh, oh my God, Kun.â You wiped it away with your thumb. âWhatâsââ
âTalk later?â
âOkay, yeah,â you nodded, looking around at the fact that you were still very much in the boysâ classroom, and had other things to do. âRight, of course. Talk later.â
Kun reached up to grab your hand that had wiped the tear away, squeezing it and offering you a smile. He dried his eyes with the sleeve of his other hand, then called for the kids, âCome on, boys. Weâve got to go. Youâll see each other in just a bit.â
Getting Woobin packed up to spend the night at Kun and Junyiâs was easy, and so was getting the two of them fed once you were there. The difficult part was getting even a single second of semi-private time with Kun to actually talk. The two boys wanted to include both of you in every single thing they did tonight, which was typically endearing, but the exhaustion that plagued Kunâs features the while time still concerned you. It wasnât until they were finally asleep in Junyiâs room, and you and Kun had cleaned up from dinner, that you finally had an opportunity.
He pulled you over to the couch, and you sat down, expecting one of your normal grown-up, mature, face-to-face talks to happen now. Youâd had a few already, about your expectations when you started dating, about the first time you spent the night at the otherâs house like this, whenever there was any need to clear the air. Both you and Kun agreed that you were both at the point in your life where you couldnât deal with the kind of tip-toeing uncertainty of young relationships, you needed something serious, with open, honest communication, especially around the kids.
But instead, Kun practically collapsed on top of you, wrapping his arms around your waist and burying his face in your middle. You cradled his head close to you, running a hand through his hair and stroking a thumb over his cheekbone.
âWhatâs wrong, Kun?â You murmured. âYou seem⊠drained.â
âI am,â he admitted plainly, defeat in his tone. âJust absolutely⊠fucking dead.â
âIâm sorry to hear that, love,â you replied quietly.
âBut you were such a big help today, thank you.â
âI donât know how bringing another toddler into your home helped with that, but okay,â you said skeptically, still playing with his hair.
âHaving a second set of hands to help with dinnertime, and play time, and bathtime, and bedtimeâŠâ His chest heaved with another big sigh. âAnd just having you around⊠makes everything easier.â
He reached up to grab one of your hands, lacing his fingers with yours. The grip he had made you think he wasnât planning on letting go anytime soon. âI donât want you to leave, Y/N.â
âKun, Iâll stay for as long as you need me to,â you promised. âA couple nights, a week, whatever you need. Life is hard, especially trying to do everything on your own. Tomorrowâs Saturday, so how about you take the boys out and Iâll tidy up around here, okay?â
âForever?â
âWhat?â
âWill you stay forever?â
You stared down at your interlocked hands, the one in his hair stilling. âAre you askingâŠâ
âYou said youâd stay however long I need you to. I always need you with me, Y/N. Will you two move in with us?â Kun asked, placing a couple of long kisses to your hand. âOr we can get a new place. I just⊠canât imagine having to do this without you. Both of you. All four of us.â
You hummed, your hand resuming its ministrations in his locks. âWeâll probably need a new place⊠but yes, Kun. Weâll move in with you.â
He quickly kissed his way up your arm to your neck and face, until he was hovering above you, a breathless smile on his features. âReally?â
âIâll need to talk to BinnieâŠâ You warned. âAnd like I just said, weâll probably need to look for a new place, since the boys are used to having their own rooms and we can afford it combined. It wonât be instantaneous, but yes⊠we can start planning it.â
Then Kun was showering your face in kisses, and you giggled, cupping his face fondly.
âI love you, I love you, I love you.â
âI love you too, Kun,â you pulled him into a soft peck, before his raining kisses started going even lower, below your jaw, your neck, your collarbones. When his hand slipped under your shirt, you looked at him suspiciously. âHey⊠I thought you were absolutely fucking dead?â
âMysterious second wind,â his words were muffled against your skin, but you could feel the sly smirk on his lips.
âAlright, well do you think this second wind can at least be moved into your bedroom?â
âY/N, five weeks?!â Kun exclaimed, making you immediately slap a hand over his mouth and look over your shoulder at the two freshly-washed four-year-old boys sitting down to enjoy their post-bathtime show.
âKeep your voice down!â You chastised him in a harsh whisper. The living room was open to the kitchen in your new place, where you and Kun were huddled having your fervent back and forth at the moment. Youâd just so very casually dropped the fact that your period had been five weeks late, at perhaps not the most opportune time, washing the dishes, but really you hadnât meant for it to be a huge deal.
After you took your hand off his mouth, he replied back much more quietly, âSorry, Iâm not upset with you, love, Iâm surprised. Why havenât you taken a test?â
âWith work and both the boysâ birthdays, then them starting VPK, I just havenât had time to go get one.â
âLetâs go get one now then.â
âWhat, a family trip to the corner store to buy a pregnancy test?â You snorted at the idea, holding a dry plate out to Kun to put away.
He didnât take the plate, staring at you as he repeated, âFamily?â
âYou know what I meantâŠâ You whined, putting the dish down on the counter and covering your face in embarrassment. That was the first time either of you had referred to the four of you as one family unit.
He wrapped his arms around you, letting you bury your face in his chest. âI donât think you even know what you meant, lovey.â
âUgh, youâre right.â Your brain was way too scrambled at the moment, preoccupied with trying extremely hard to not think about what being late could possibly mean, what a test could possibly say.
âIâm serious, come on. Weâll buy the boys some ice cream, theyâll be none the wiser.â
âFine, I need to put some real pants on,â you pushed off his chest, gesturing to the dingy sleep shorts were you in. âCan youââ
âGet the boysâ shoes on. On it.â He nodded firmly.
âThank you, my love.â
âKun, I canât pee with you grinning at me like that. Itâs weird.â
With Woobin and Junyi preoccupied with their character popsicles and a movie in the living room, you and Kun were in the small hallway bathroom closest to the living room. It also happened to be the boysâ shared bathroom, the walls covered in vinyl, removable stickers of cartoon characters smiling down at you as unnervingly as Kun was currently. It was far too many eyes for what you were doing, peeing on a drugstore pregnancy test.
âSorry, sorry,â your boyfriend apologized, diverting his eyes and covering his mouth, though he was clearly still beaming into his hand.
Finally done with that part of the test, you set it atop the box that was sitting on the bathroom counter, washing your hands and dropping back down onto the toilet seat.
âAnd now we wait,â you declared with a heavy chest.
âOkay.â Kun nodded resolutely, allowing his eyes to return to you now that youâd spoken again, still absolutely glittering in the harsh fluorescents.
âNow would be a good time to talk, about if thatâs a plus. Youâre still grinning like a maniac, so I have a guess as to what youâre about to say.â
He sighed almost dreamily as he looked up at you, resting his cheek in his hand. âYouâre just⊠the most beautiful woman in the world to me, right now. And I love you, so much.â
âThis, me sitting on the toilet in our tiny hallway bathroom, having just peed on a stick in front of you,â you pointed between the two of you, âis one of the least romantic situations I think weâve ever been in. But, I love you too, you weirdo.â
âThat wasnât my answer, by the way. You go first, youâd be the one carrying any baby of ours, after all.â
âAfter Woobin, I told myself that if I had another, Iâd do itâŠâ You trailed off as you fumbled around for the right word.
âRight?â Kun supplemented hesitantly.
âNo, no, I donât think Woobin was wrong. Thatâs one thesaurus entry away from âmistake,â as cheesy as that might sound. But, I told myself that Iâd do my next one different. Iâd be married to someone, weâd have planned the pregnancy over multiple conversations, talked about kids before we even got married in the first place, Iâd have talked to Binnie about it, made sure he had the emotional space for a little sibling, too.â
âAnd we havenât even talked about getting marriedâŠâ He breathed out in realization.
You narrowed your eyes. âQian Kun, do you think for even a second, that I would be with you if I didnât think that I could marry you one day? After everything youâve learned about me? After that whole toilet bowl confessional I just gave literally ten seconds ago? Consider this the marriage talk warning. Itâs coming, and when it does, I expect you to bring notes.â
âGood point, Iâm sorry for doubting you, lovey. I eagerly await the marriage talks, and Iâll make sure to do my research ahead of time.â
âGood.â
âSo thatâs how you want to do it. What about if that test is positive? Right now?â He returned you to the present, his voice gentle, as you were reminded of the very real, very possible, tangible now that you were being faced with.
You let your head drop forward into your hands as you tried to pick apart the tangled ball that was your thoughts and feelings. Thinking back to when you were doing this by yourself the first time in your workplace bathroom, when you found out you were pregnant with Binnie⊠you distantly remembered how you felt when you saw that double line, that positive result. There was definitely anxiety, yes, but more than that you remembered an excitement bubbling up and overflowing on top of that the longer that it registered.
This time, you werenât feeling any of that. Not because you didnât love the idea of having a child with Kun, but⊠it just wouldnât be the right time. The two of you had only recently moved in together, you were still getting used to enmeshing your twoâor, fourâseparate lives into one, you hadnât even been together for a year, Woobin and Junyi hadnât been consulted whatsoever, not to mention they had just started VPK and would be going into primary school next year; Kun had just gotten a promotion at work, yes, but you had your eye on your own possible promotion, too. It just⊠wasnât right. Swallowing the lump in your throat, you finally looked up at Kun sitting across from you in the narrow space of the hallway bathroom. You could feel the tears gathering in your eyes, his image immediately swimming in your vision.
âOh, hey, come here, lovey,â he gently ushered you down from your perch on the toilet seat cover onto the ground with him. He settled you in between his legs, wrapping his arms around you, âSad cry or scary cry?â
You had the urge to smack his arm for treating you like one of the kids, but unfortunately, it was a really good communication tool.
âGoddamn,â you wept against his shirt, clinging onto him. âI donât know, Kun. I donât fucking know. Itâs not a happy cry, though. And I donât think that any kid should be brought into the world if their mom isnât happy at the thought of them.â
He rubbed a hand up and down your back, not faltering for a moment as you spoke. When you were done, he started, âLook, Y/N. Iâll admit, the idea of having a baby with you kind of sent me to the stratosphere there for a second. But, I think that a baby is something that needs to be two enthusiastic yeses, or itâs a no. And youâŠâ he pulled your face out of the crook of his neck to be able to look you in the eye. âAre clearly not enthusiastic nor a yes. So Iâm not either. Okay?â
You sniffled, âOkay.â
âOkay,â he repeated, wiping at your tears. âNow, I think itâs been plenty of time. Are you ready to look at the test?â
âYeah, yeah.â
Kun stretched his arm out, fumbling along the top of the bathroom counter until he had secured the test in his hand. You turned in his arms, fully leaned against him, your back to his chest as he flipped the stick over for you two to read the results together.
Negative.
And you were crying again, but this time you knew that they were tears of relief.
âOh, thank God,â you whispered, holding a hand over your mouth. âOh⊠oh my God.â
âThere we go,â Kun murmured, holding you to him by an arm slung over your waist. âNow, call me crazy, but I think we just manifested that negative pregnancy test result.â
You let out a choked laugh, âWould it be manifesting a negative or un-manifesting a positive?â
âGood question.â
He held a foot out until he could reach the step opener of the trash can, tossing the test into it. You sat there with him for who knows how much longer, until the cold of the tile finally seeped through your clothes, and your joints were aching from being curled up on your bathroom floor for so long.
âOh shit, the boys are all by themselves in the living room,â you mumbled, beginning to detangle yourself from Kun.
âIâll clean up in here. You get into some pajamas and then go see them, okay? Theyâve been the normal amount of quiet, I think the movieâs got them sufficiently occupied, so take your time. Iâll be right behind you.â He reassured you, standing up after you did, and keeping a hand on the small of your back as you went to wash your hands again.
The remnants of the pregnancy test packaging were on the counter, not to mention the general disarray from your breakdown, and the fact that you hadnât tidied up from the boysâ bathtime earlier that night either. When you looked at yourself in the mirror, you could see that you werenât in much better shape than the bathroom.
âOkay, yeah. Thank you, Kun.â Your voice wasnât any louder than a whisper, and it didnât need to be in the small, quiet space.
He pressed a long kiss to your temple before you left for your bedroom to change out of the clothes that youâd gone to the convenience store in. Putting on the comfiest pajamas you could find, you then shuffled out to the living room, which you were glad to see was in one piece. Tension you didnât even realize you were carrying released from your shoulders when your eyes fell on the two kids sat on the couch, their attention glued to the screen.
You werenât sure how long you had been standing there before Woobin finally turned his head to look at you. âOh hi Mommy!â
âHi, Ms. Y/N!â
âHi, boys, can I join you?â You asked.
âWell, yeah!â Junyi said in the most âduh!â tone youâd ever heard a four-year-old imitate. He patted the open space between the two of them. âWe saved you a spot here.â
âOh, thank you.â You sat down exactly where he had gestured, tucking your feet underneath you. Woobin immediately clambered onto your lap, and Junyi scooted in to snuggle into your other side.
âAnd when Daddy gets here, his spot is over here,â Junyi pointed to the remaining space between him and the arm of the couch. âAnd he can put the blanket on all of us.â
âRight, of course, bun,â you nodded, wrapping your arms around the two boys to hold them even closer to you.
Woobin touched a hand to your cheek, âMommy, youâre crying. Sad cry, scary cry, or boo-boo cry?â
âOh, no, baby, it's a happy cry,â you assured him, wiping at the couple of tears that had eked out again with your sleeve. âItâs because I love you all so much.â
âHappy cry,â he repeated, as if committing the term to memory.
Kun joined the three of you a few minutes later, sliding into his assigned seat and pulling a blanket over the four of you. Mindful of the child in between you two, you rested your head on his shoulder.
Against your instincts, you shut the front door quietly behind you as you came home that night. Youâd gotten caught up at work with a deadline suddenly being moved up. You plopped your purse onto the kitchen table next to the huge LEGO set that youâd started with the boys last weekend as Kun got up from the couch to greet you. He was already in his pajamas, a stark contrast to the office wear you were still in.
âHey, lovey,â he pecked your cheek, letting you snake both your arms around his waist and hold him closer. âHow was work?â
You let out a low, exhausted groan into his shoulder. âLong. If I ever have to read another word again in my life, itâll be too soon.â
âThen youâll be very happy to hear that I already read the boys a bedtime story.â
âShit, am I that late?â You sighed. âI know I told you Iâd probably miss dinner but I didnât mean for you to do bedtime all by yourself, too.â
âItâs okay, I know you wouldâve been here if you could. The three of us managed for one night.â
âHow was everything? Were they good for you?â
âAbsolute angels.â
You lifted your head up to shoot him a disbelieving look. âOur sons? Are you sure youâve got the right kids in there?â
Kun chuckled, planting a kiss on your lips this time. âYou know us too well. Only convinced them to get in bed with bribery.â
âGreat, what did you promise them? Extra hour of TV this weekend? Kun, please do not tell me you promised a new toy orââ
âWoah, woah, who do you think I am?â He snorted, clearly offended. âI just had to promise that youâd give them their goodnight kiss when you got home. They were very concerned about going to sleep without one.â
Relief immediately flooded your system, along with a warm fondness. âOh, good. Iâll go hold up our end, then.â
âBefore you do,â Kun held you by the waist to keep you from walking away yet. He lowered his voice, tone turning serious. âWoobin was asking for you before lights-out. Not just for his goodnight kiss, but he wouldnât tell me what was going on. I have a feeling he might still be up when you go in.â
You nodded thoughtfully. âOkay, Iâll pop into his room second. Thanks for the heads-up.â
With a final pat on the cheek, you left Kunâs warm embrace and treaded down the hall that contained the boysâ bedrooms and shared bathroom. You slowly opened the door to Junyiâs room first. The room was pitch black save for the dwindling light from his glow-in-the-dark ceiling stars, and you crept up to his bedside. Just able to see the faint outline of him under his covers, you gently brushed away some of his hair and laid a soft kiss on his forehead.
âNight, bun-bun,â you murmured, then kissed his pudgy little cheek one more time before standing up. He didnât stir, his breathing remained peaceful and as you ducked back out you closed the door even more quietly than you had opened it.
As soon as you pushed the door to Woobinâs room open, you knew he was awake. He was in a phase of sleeping with a night-light on, meaning that you could immediately see his eyes staring at you.
âHi, Mommy,â he deadpanned, hands folded together over his stomach.
You entered the room, shutting the door behind you. âHi, baby. What are you still doing up?â
He squirmed a little under the covers, refusing to meet your eyes as you came to sit on his mattress next to him. âWaiting for my goodnight kiss.â
âOh, you couldâve gone to sleep,â you reassured him, moving his bangs out of the way of his forehead. âMommy wouldâve still come and given you your goodnight kiss.â
He was silent as you leaned down to smooch his forehead. Pulling back, you asked, âIs that all, Binnie?â
Woobin mumbled something that you couldnât quite make out.
âIâm sorry, could you say that again for me? I couldnât hear you.â
âI want to say something, but itâs after my bedtimeâŠâ
âDonât worry, baby. I want to hear what you have to say. You can say it now.â
âI donât want Junyi to be mad at me.â
âWhy do you think Junyi would be mad at you?â
âYou canât tell them!â He suddenly exclaimed, pleading and desperate.
âTell who? Junyi and Mr. Kun?â You asked, brow furrowing with confusion.
He nodded fervently, panic on his features.
âYou remember our rules about sharing things?â
âIf itâs about safety or respect, we all have to know,â he recited mournfully. âItâs not! I promise! I thinkâŠâ
âHow about you tell me, and Iâll tell you if itâs something we should tell everyone. I wonât get mad, and you and me can talk about it for as long as you want first. Does that sound okay?â
âOkayâŠâ
âWhenever youâre ready,â you said soothingly, watching him take a few deep breaths to calm himself down.
âI-I want to call Mr. Kun âDaddy.ââ
You couldnât help but smile widely at him, taking your sonâs hand in yours. âThatâs wonderful, baby. I think it would make Mr. Kun really happy that you want to.â
âBut thatâs what Junyi calls himâŠâ
âAnd you think it would upset Junyi if you called him the same thing?â
âYeah,â he sniffled.
âThatâs very considerate, Binnie,â you told him proudly.
âAre you going to tell them?â
âNo, not if you donât want me to,â you shook your head. âBut I think that it would be a good idea for you, Junyi, and Mr. Kun to all talk about this together. When youâre ready.â
Woobin sniffled again, and you leaned over to hug your boy. He immediately threw his arms around your neck, burying his wet face in the collar of your blouse.
When you finally left his room after watching him fall asleep with your own two eyes, you found Kun reclined in your bed, bedside lamp on as he read a book.
âIs Woobin alright?â Kun flipped his book shut and set it aside.
You shimmied out of your work clothes. âYeah, heâs okay. Just⊠needed Mom before bed.â
He nodded, watching as you pulled sleep clothes on and shuffled over to the bathroom. âMm, of course. Mr. Kun wasnât enoughâŠâ He sighed dramatically, making you lean your head back out to glare at him, toothbrush hanging out of your mouth.
âShut up,â you grumbled after spitting your toothpaste out and flicking the bathroom light off. You plopped into bed, snuggling up to your pillow and closing your eyes. âHe loves you, you know that.â
The sound of the bedside lamp clicking off rang through your room before you felt the sheets shift around and Kun scoot closer to you.
âI know, Iâm just not âMom,ââ he mused, grabbing your hands to tug you toward him.
You obliged, rolling over to face him and rest your head on his shoulder. He kissed your forehead, still holding your hands against his chest.
âGoodnight, my love,â you breathed out, âThank you again for handling them alone tonight.â
âGoodnight, lovey.â He rubbed soothing circles into the palm of your hand with his thumb.
As you watched Kun alternate between pushing Woobin and Junyi on the swingset, you couldnât help but smile to yourself. It was peaceful afternoons like these that you treasured the most. You recognized a few more figures that were approaching the playground, waving to Johnny and Jaehyun in the distance as Mark and Sungchan immediately ran up to your two boys. The three dads all chatted as the four kids took off from the swingset at full speed towards the slides. You were on a bench a little further from the playset, and had no qualms about sitting and resting when you got the chance.
The playground was within walking distance of yours and Kunâs house, and right by the school, so it wasnât a total shock to see some of your kidsâ classmates there. You watched with amusement as all three of the adults perked up like meerkats towards the kids, who were now lined up at the monkey bars. Mark was first up, and must have been asking for help, as Johnny yelled out a âjust a sec, champ!â before gesturing between the three dads and all the kids clambering for their turn.
Apparently, Johnny and Jaehyun had decided it was their turn to help all four kids with the bars, as Kun lumbered over to plop down next to you at the picnic table.
âThank God they showed up, I donât know if I have it left in me to carry them back and forth across the monkey bars for the next hour,â Kun grunted, dropping his head down to rest on your shoulder.
You snickered, wrapping an arm around his shoulders as you watched all the children play. Woobin was the littlest, needing Jaehyunâs help all the way across the bars. The dad still gave him as enthusiastic of a double high-five as he gave Junyi after him, who was able to do a couple by himself after getting hoisted up there.
âWoobin wants to call you Dad, you know,â you blurted out in the quietness that had fallen between you and Kun.
Kun lifted his head up to look at you with wide eyes. âHe does?â
âYeah, he told me the other day. But he thinks Junyi will be mad at him.â
âOhhâŠâ He breathed out, nodding slowly.
âI wouldâve said something to you, but he asked me not to tell you and Junyi at first. We had another conversation about it this morning, and he finally agreed that I could talk to you about it at least,â you explained. âI told him that you three should all talk. I think heâs really, really scared of making Junyi upset. Theyâre such good friends, you know?â
You looked on with fondness as the gaggle of kids around the monkey bars took off at a run away from Johnny and Jaehyun, apparently playing some kind of tag or hide and seek now. Woobin and Junyi were running off together hand-in-hand, giggling and cackling with laughter as Johnny mimicked chasing after them.
Kun ran a knuckle up and down your arm, trailing his hand down until he could lace his fingers with yours. âI know, sometimes I look at them and I think itâs like theyâre⊠brothers.â
âMm, yeah,â you hummed noncommittally. Finally taking your eyes off the playground, you turned to face him fully, covering his hand with both of yours. âKun, with all this⊠it makes me really happy, you and Junyi make me really happy, and all four of us being together. But, I donâtâ Iâm not trying to replace Junyiâs mom. Despite what she did, heâs already had one, whatever memories heâs got of her. I want to be whatever he wants me to be. So, Iâm perfectly content to be âMs. Y/Nâ for the rest of my life.â
âI asked him the other day, if he remembered his mom at all,â he admitted quietly.
âW-Why?â
âMorbid curiosity, I guess. He was so young, I wasnât sure if he would. Funny thing was, he told me yes. So I asked what he remembered about her. And he just looked at me with the most confused expression I think Iâve ever seen him have and he goes âShe picked me up from school today.ââ
âOh, oh my God,â you let out a choked chuckle, a lump growing in your throat.
âYou picked him up from school that day, Y/N,â Kun said pointedly, poking you in the arm for emphasis.
âYeah, I had guessed that,â you spluttered out, a wide, beaming smile on your face as you replayed those words in your mind over and over again.
âSo it seems like, to me, youâre the only one with hang-ups about this, lovey.â
âIâm gonna fucking cryâ no, scratch that, I already am,â you sniffled, wiping at your eyes with one of your hands.
âSad cry, scary cry, boo-boo cry, or happy cry?â Kun asked teasingly, thumb wiping away one of your tears.
âHappy cry,â you answered, despite the fact that he definitely already knew. âSo happy. I love you so much, both of you.â
âJunyi!â The distant voice of Johnny called out, chastising.
Both you and Kun snapped your heads up to look, only to see said child running at you full-speed.
âWoobin! Let your parentsâŠâ Jaehyun trailed off in defeat as a second small body hurtled towards you. âSorry! We tried to let you guys have a momentâŠâ
âItâs alright!â Kun called back to them as the two boys finally made it to you.
You lifted Junyi up onto the bench next to you with no hesitation, and Kun plopped Woobin onto his lap, his little legs reaching into yours. Junyi sat himself down on one of your legs, facing you with the most worried, intense gaze on his face.
âAre you okay, Ms. Y/N?!â He wiped at your wet cheeks. âWhat happened?â
âNothing, hunny-bun,â you promised, holding both of his little hands and dropping loud smooches to them. âHappy tears, theyâre happy tears. Iâm sorry for worrying you.â
âBecause you love us so much?â Woobin asked, supplying the last reason youâd given him for your happy tears.
âYeah, always, bubbles,â you grabbed his head to be able to press a kiss to his forehead. âAlways love you guys so much.â
âWhy does it make you cry?â
âBecause I have so much love inside me for all of you that sometimes it feels like I could just⊠burst!â You said with enough of a sing-song-y inflection that it made the two kids giggle, especially when you mimicked an explosion with your hands. âSo instead of spontaneously exploding, it comes out as tears sometimes. Tears arenât bad, Binnie, remember?â
âI know, Mommy,â he nodded dutifully.
Kun spoke up then, âI think we should all talk about what was making your mom so happy this time, boys.â
Junyi looked at his dad with alarm. âWhat? Bin and I didnât do anything! Weâre not in trouble, right?â
âI didnât do anything!â Woobin pouted. âJunyiââ
âNo, youâre not in trouble,â Kun hushed them gently. âI just said it was making your mom happy. What about you two getting in trouble would make your mom happy?â
âOh.â
âI mean, itâs about what you two want to call us.â
You were still cradling Woobinâs head, and stroked over his hair reassuringly. âItâs okay, Binnie. Tell them what you told me.â
âI-I want to call Mr. Kun âDaddy,ââ he mumbled, looking down intently at his lap. âBut I donât have to if itâs going to make you sad, Junyi!â
Junyi listened to Woobin, face turning entirely confused. âBut he is your dad! Why wouldnât you call him that?â He turned his bewildered look to you next. âAnd youâre our mom, right?!â
âOf course I am, bun-bun,â you smiled at him. âBinnie just needs to know if itâs going to make you upset for both of you to call your dad the same thing.â
âNo, Bin, sânot gonna make me sad,â Junyi said strongly. âWill it make you sad if we call her the same thing?â
Woobin sniffled and looked up, finally displaying his teary eyes to everybody. He shook his head, and you felt relief blossom out through every part of you. Kun squeezed him tightly.
âBub, sad cry, scary cry, or happy cry?â Kun asked him.
The child took several deep breaths before he finally answered. âI-I think it was scary first, but now itâs a happy cry, Daddy. Like Mommy does.â
Kun let out a strangled chuckle as he hugged Woobin even tighter to him, planting a kiss to his temple. âThatâs okay, bub. Look at you, big kid with big feelings.â
âDaddyâs crying too!â Junyi gasped. âIs it happy crying, Daddy?â
âYeah, buddy, it is,â he confirmed, cheeks noticeably damp.
Junyi felt at his own dry eyes. âWhy am I not happy crying? Mommy, why am I not happy crying? âM happy! I am!â
âOh, bunny, itâs okay,â you couldnât help but laugh, rubbing his back affectionately. âYou donât have to cry to be really happy. Sometimes youâll be really, really happy, the happiest youâve ever been, and you wonât cry. Everybodyâs different.â
âI do.â
âI do!â Sooyoung squealed.
The officiantâs remaining words were drowned out by the crowd erupting into cheers as Sooyoung was dipped into a kiss by her now-wife. You clapped from your place behind her as her maid-of-honor, your cheeks already hurting from all the smiling youâd been doing that day.
As they practically ran back down the aisle together, giddy, you were left standing at the arch, holding SooSooâs wedding bouquet that sheâd forgotten in her excitement. The music swelled again, your cue for the wedding party to file out as well. You fell in beside Ahrinâs best man, taking a more reasonable pace down the walkway. Looking into the guests that had stood up, you caught Kunâs eye from one of the middle rows, a familiar wide, overjoyed grin on his face. He was in the stratosphere again.
You met up with Kun at your table at the reception, the wedding party table. While he wasnât in the party, he was your plus one, and your friend of course made sure he was seated with you. After the obligatory speechesâincluding one that you had to giveâeveryone could start eating. Kids were allowed at the wedding, but you wanted to make sure that you could put all your focus on making this the best day ever for your friend and didnât want to have the boys out too late either, so they were at home with a babysitter. After the food was the coupleâs first dance, and you watched fondly from your table as Sooyoung and Ahrin swayed together, clearly in their own world, exchanging words and giggles and laughs that you couldnât hear.
Kunâs hand and yours were entwined on your lap, and when the DJ asked for the wedding party and their plus-ones to join the newlyweds, you pulled him to floor by that hand. As Kunâs other hand settled on your hip, you affectionately smoothed down the lapel of his suit jacket before resting yours on the curve where his neck met his shoulder.
âHi, gorgeous,â he beamed at you.
âHi, handsome,â you replied back humorously. âSo, whatâs on your mind?â
âYou mean there could possibly be anything on my mind other than the fact that Iâm dancing with the love of my life?â
âYouâve got that look on your face.â
âWhat look?â
âThe âIâve been launched into the stratosphere picturing our future togetherâ look,â you said frankly, but still with the same fond smirk on your lips. âSo? What are you thinking about?â
His eyes widened minutely before he chuckled. âIâm having a good time with you, lovey. Is a guy not allowed to smile about that?â
âYou areâŠâ
âThatâs all I was thinking about.â He pulled you closer, pressing a kiss to your cheek. âAlways in the stratosphere when Iâm with you.â
Despite his sweet words, you felt a twinge of disappointment in your chest, resting your cheek on his shoulder so he couldnât see the contemplative frown on your face. The two of you were living together before Sooyoung and Ahrin had even met, you were raising two kids together right now, and had already discussed getting marriedâbinders, spreadsheets, all your joint expectations for what you wanted out of a hypothetical future partnership like that. Why was he shying away from the subject now? Was seeing you actually at a wedding making him have second thoughts? Did it suddenly all seem too real? As if the binders and spreadsheets werenât real enough?
Those werenât questions to ask him now at your best friendâs wedding, so you bit your tongue, continuing to let him sway the two of you across the dance floor.
Later in the night, after your feet had gotten tired, Kun excused himself to use the restroom. You took the opportunity to catch your breath at the wedding partyâs table. Youâd been darting around the venue the whole time, either greeting friends of friends, dancing with people you knew, or stopping mishaps before they mis-happened. Some guests had started going home, so you felt somewhat comfortable taking a short rest.
You werenât expecting one of the brides herself to sit down beside you, however.
âWhatâs wrong, Y/N?â Sooyoung asked knowingly.
You tried to perk up, slapping on a smile. âItâs nothing, SooSoo. My feet are tired. Why arenât you with Ahrin?â
âWeâre about to be together for the rest of our lives. I think she can piss by herself right now,â she replied.
âOh, right.â
âAnd, itâs also my wedding, and I donât want my best friend all sad and alone at my wedding. I know youâve been fixing all my problems all day and all night. So will you let me help you with one of yours?â
You looked around to see if you could spot Kun anywhere, then leaned in towards her with a sigh. âKunâs been acting weird today.â
âHow?â
âWe always talk about getting married pretty openly. But like, now that weâre at a wedding, it feels like heâs avoiding the topic.â
âWhy havenât you guys gotten married? You practically act like it anyway.â
âHe still wants to surprise me with the proposal,â you said. âI told him no public proposals, no proposing on birthdays or holidays, and no proposing at other peopleâs weddings. But other than thatâŠâ
âWhen was that conversation? About getting married and engaged?â
You took a sip of your drink as you thought. âMm⊠almost a year ago? Maybe ten months? It was a few conversations.â
âSo Ahrin proposed like right after that,â she surmised. âHeâs probably waiting for the right time. Making sure you werenât too stressed with the kids, then the holidays, and being my maid-of-honor. Both of you are very thoughtful and also over-plan everything.â
âThatâs true,â you sighed. âAnd also a bit less salient of a point coming from the poster child of U-Haul lesbians.â
Sooyoung wrapped an arm around your shoulders and rubbed your upper arm. âWeâre different people in different relationships in different places in life, Y/N. Youâve got a really good guy who is head over heels for you and loves your kid as much as he loves you. Donât forget all that in one night.â
âYouâre right, SooSoo,â you leaned your head against hers. âThank you.â
âAnytime.â She pecked your hair.
âIs everything okay?â Kunâs voice came from behind you, sounding very concerned.
âOh, yeah, Y/Nâs getting a little warm in here,â SooSoo informed him brightly, letting you go and standing back up. âWhy donât you take her outside, Kun? Thereâs a nice little garden walkway, I think thereâs some benches out there.â
âYeah, of course. Thanks, Sooyoung.â
Your friend gave you one last squeeze of your arm before taking back off into the crowd. Kun ushered you to your feet and guided you out of the main reception hall and into the much cooler nighttime air. Sooyoung was right, it was way less hot and stuffy out here, and there was a short walkway leading to a garden with some benches. Kun sat you down again there, rubbing your back as you stared listlessly out at the fountain in front of you. The fountain wasnât on, the water inside of it still, and the air around you quiet and empty. In the distance, you could hear the music from the wedding venue, the thumping bass, and above you, a few stars dotted the sky next to a silver crescent moon.
âIs this better?â Kun asked you quietly.
âYeah, thanks, Kun,â you replied shortly, still unable to shake the discomfort you felt from earlier. Despite your conversation with Sooyoung making sense in the moment, now that you were back with Kun, that uncertainty crept back into your mind.
âIt was a lovely ceremony.â
âYeah. SooSooâs dress is beautiful on her.â
âDo you want to go home? If youâre not feelingââ
You suddenly straightened up to look Kun in the eye. âWeâre going to get married, right? You do want to marry me, right, Kun?â
âWhââ He scrambled to grab your hands in his, holding them tight. âOf course, love. Yes, of course I want to marry you, Y/N. Why would you think I didnât?â
âI know we talk about it but⊠you havenât proposed. And youâve been acting weird tonight. And by weird, I mean normal. Like, not talking about marriage. Weâll be buying groceries, and youâll somehow bring up us getting married, but now weâre at an actual wedding and you havenât talked about us having one of our own at allâŠâ The dam broke, all of your anxious rambles coming forth at once. âNothing about if we should do this or that at ours, what flowers you might want, or evenâ You saw me at an altar holding a bouquet and are acting like itâs no big deal! You see our future in everything, but not today, and itâs been making me think that maybe you donât see a future anymore.â
Oh god, you were fucking crying now. This was not how you wanted this conversation to go. Tears spilled down your cheeks, and you pushed them away with the back of your hand as you sniffled and tried to calm yourself down.
âY/N, lovey, I am so sorry,â Kunâs voice was wavering too, and you knew he was holding back his own tears. âI do want to marry you, and I never wanted to make you think that I didnât. You were right earlier, Iâve been in the fucking stratosphere all day, and Iâve been going crazy trying not to say every single thing that pops into my head about marrying you because Iâve got your ring and everything planned out for the proposal and it was going to be soon, I just wanted it to be a surprise for you and I didnât want to accidentally spoil anything for you. But I never meant to hurt you, and I am so, so sorry that I did. God, I love you so much, it felt like my heart was going to give out when I saw you at the altar with a wedding bouquet, and then dancing after the first danceââ
You crushed your lips against his, letting go of one of his hands to wrap a hand around the back of his neck. He cupped your cheek softly, even as you kissed him like you hadnât seen him in decades, and like you might never again, feverishly, past the point where you were out of oxygen and your head started spinning. Kun pulled back to pick up your left hand, bringing it up to his lips and pressing a kiss on your ring finger.
âIf I had it with me, Iâd put your ring on you right now,â he promised, pressing another kiss to the empty knuckle. âHell, we could elope tonight, find a drive-thru chapel.â
âThe boys might feel left out,â you chuckled, pulling his mouth back to yours.
He hummed appreciatively against your lips, adding in between kisses, âGoodâ point. Pick them up on the way?â
âItâs past their bedtime.â You kissed him again. âTheyâd be cranky if we woke them up now.â
âFoiled again by two five-year-oldsâ bedtime,â he sighed dramatically, leaning his forehead against yours.
âSo how were you going to do it?â
âDo what?â
âPropose to me.â
âIâm still going to?â
âWell, I feel like I just ruined your surprise.â
âMe telling you what itâs going to be, would be ruining the surprise,â he scoffed and pulled back to let you see his indignant features. âWhich Iâm not going to do.â
You laughed, pecking his cheek. âIâm looking forward to it, my love.â
âAnd Iâm looking forward to marrying you, and spending the rest of my life with you,â Kun sighed dreamily, pulling you in closer and resting his head against yours again. âI meant it when I said Iâm always in the stratosphere with you, you know.â
âMe too, Kun.â You looped an arm around his back and under his suit jacket.
A few beats of peaceful silence went by, neither you nor Kun speaking, just the distant sounds of the music from the wedding, your own synchronized breathing, and a far-off train horn. You looked from the fountain up at the glowing half-moon above you.
âThank you, lovey,â Kun broke the quiet, and you shifted your gaze to him, raising a curious eyebrow.
âYouâre welcome?â You replied with slight amusement. âFor what, love?â
âSomebody once told me that the whole point of being a parent was letting our kids know that theyâre not alone in all this,â he began, rubbing his thumb over your shoulder where his hand rested.
âWho said that?â
âYou did, lovey.â
âI did? Ooh, Iâm smart,â you chuckled, patting his thigh. âYou picked well, Qian Kun.â
He smiled at you fondly. âI know.â
âWhen did I say that?â
âBefore we were even dating, you had invited Junyi and me to your apartment for a charcuterie night. When we were making that pitch for the preschool fundraising committee.â
âOh, oh, oh, right.â You nodded quickly as the memories of that came flooding back to you. âYou remember me saying that?â
âOf course. You completely changed my view on parenting that night.â
âGlad it was so life-changing for you.â
âIt was also the moment I knew I was going to fall in love with you.â
You couldnât help but laugh maybe a little too hard, âOh, Kun.â
âWhatâs that laugh for?â He chuckled lightly despite his obvious confusion.
âIâm just remembering how I was totally going to jump your bones that night and then Junyi walked in. Meanwhile you are just⊠so sweet, as always,â you admitted, stroking his cheek with the back of your fingers.
Kunâs eyes crinkled as he laughed and keeled forward a little. You let him laugh into your neck, cradling the back of his head as his shoulders continued to shake.
âIââ He coughed into his elbow as he righted himself and tried to compose himself again. His eyes were sparkling with tears from how hard heâd laughed as he looked at you now, and you affectionately touched the crinkles around his eye as a couple more giggles escaped him. Once heâd finally sobered up enough, he tried again, âYouâve also helped me realize thatâs not just what being a parent is about, though. Thatâs what being a partner is, too. Making sure your person knows theyâre not doing it alone. And I hope thatâs how I make you feel, too.â
âQian Kun, love of my life that you areââ you shook your head and grabbed his face with two hands. âOf course you do, and itâs taking everything in me not to squish your head right now because of how much I love you.â
Kun just laughed again, covering your hands with his and slotting your lips together.
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â pairing: Jungkook x female reader
â genre: fluff, kinda secret relation
â summary: your boyfriend finally comes back from his work trip. (With a surprise at the end)
â wordcount: 1.9 k
â warning: sleepy fluffy koo, too many pecks, slight mentions of sex nothing too smutty.
â a/n: a little drabble because bf!kook has been hittin different lately. Some hardcore fluff. I hope you like it, I was really excited about posting this one. Send me your thoughts in my inboxâ here. I really love and appreciate your views and feedbackđ€
â song: Blush by Taba Chake
âMhmm,â you purr, twisting your body when you feel a giant arm wrapped around your waist restricting your movements. Heat radiating from the body next to yours tempts you to nuzzle your face in the crook of the neck of the source. A deep sigh escapes your lips once the familiar woody scent infiltrates your nostrils.
 âMorning sleepyhead,â Jungkookâs raspy morning voice greets you. The tip of your finger skims over his Adamâs apple to feel the vibrations induced by his voice. You pull your head away craning your neck to get a better view of your boyfriend. His hair messed up in the sexiest way possibleâ a total contrast to the bunny smile heâs flashing your way.Â
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author's note. i saw those pics and howled how is he so husband coded..... also decided to post this on his e word day to cheer up us all:(
summary. you feel a little down when your husband seems interested in another woman... but maybe that's your pregnancy causing unnecessary drama in your head
warnings. reader is pregnant<3 slight angst bc reader is hard on herself regarding her looks:( jealousy + mentioned drinking (not reader!!!! never drink while pregnant!!!!), haechan being a lil mean but he doesnt mean it lmao
word count. 1582
jaehyun was helping in the kitchen and laughter was booming from the room whereas you and the others sat in the living room, waiting.Â
âthe food was so goodâ you sighed dreamily, rubbing your tummy in a satisfied motion and a huge smile.Â
âi bet she liked it too, huh?â jungwoo snickered, pointing at your stomach.
âoh yes she did. sheâs a meat lover after daddyâ you giggled and patted your baby bump gently.Â
âyou inhaled that bbq, we thought thereâd be nothing leftâ haechan giggled and mark nudged his elbow.
âdude!â he hissed, sending you an apologetic smile.Â
you just scoffed, shaking your head.Â
âno, no, heâs right. itâs the baby you know. sorryâ you mumbled and yuta plopped down next to you.Â
âdonât apologize, heâs just not too much of a thinkerâ he teased and rubbed his own stomach too âman, iâm fullâ
âdrinks!â doyoung waltzed into the room, balancing a platter. the ice in the elegant glasses clinked, colorful beverages shining in the sun falling through the huge window.Â
johnny put down a bowl of chips.Â
âah, iâve been waiting for thatâ yuta hummed like a purring cat and snatched the drink the second doyoung placed them down.Â
âand an orange juice for a special ladyâ jaehyun appeared in front of you and handed you the glass. it had ice and a paper umbrella in it, a slice of lemon adorning the edge.Â
you sent him a soft smile, puckering your lips in a pout. thatâs a habit you developed ever since your pregnant belly started being too restrictive. it was a sign for âi wanna kiss you but i canât moveâ
he leaned closer and planted a sweet kiss on your lips, knowing what you meant.Â
âi wanna drink tooâŠâ you joked, pouting like a kicked puppy.Â
âone more month babyâ jaehyun said softly, sending you a reassuring smile.Â
the evening went on, chatting and joking accompanied by the football match they were watching.Â
you were slowly dozing off, partly paying attention to what they were saying.Â
ây/n is almost as round as the ball now, look!â donghyuck giggled and your eyes snapped open at the mention of your name.Â
âi wonder if your belly if bigger than a ball⊠iâd say itâs rather a basketball size, huh?â jungwoo pondered.Â
a bitter pang overtook your heart. you know they didnât mean it to sound rude but you couldnât help but wonder if youâre really that⊠big⊠and round⊠and apparently so easy to target, too.Â
jaehyun caught your unfazed expression and clicked his tongue.Â
âyou remind me of a ball too. your fuckass big headââ he joked at haechan and everyone laughed, including you.Â
and when you went to the bathroom, you missed jaehyun taking the youngest to the side.Â
âdo we have everything, baby?â your husband asked, pushing the cart. you looked at your notes, not even halfway checked.Â
âwe barely entered the martâ you grunted and looked up at him. his dimples poked in a boyish smile.Â
âanything youâre craving right now, missesâ he teased and you rolled your eyes.Â
you may or may have not sneaked some of your pregnancy cravings into the cart but you didnât think heâd notice.Â
âshut up. itâs our girl, not meâ you huffed dramatically and wrapped your hands around his arm.Â
suddenly, a pretty girl appeared in the aisle. she had long, silky blonde hair and was wearing a really cute outfit. it displayed her long legs and the crop top she was wearing exposed her flat stomach. her face was perfect, makeup glowing like a model.Â
you sulked upon seeing her figure. you missed your old body. you missed being able to walk around in outfits like these. hell, even fitting in jeans was out of your reach now.Â
you realized that when she passed you by, jaehyun turned his head to look at her.Â
wave of sadness washed over you, slowly letting go of his arm. you didnât blame him, though. you were nothing compared to her. big belly, no makeup, hair in a normal ponytail. you havenât dressed up in a while â and even if you did, you wouldnât look like you would before.Â
âi donât feel too good. iâll go back to the carâ you mumbled, feeling like crying. you wanted to hide from the world⊠from your own husband.Â
jaehyunâs features dropped in instant worry, turning to you.
âare you okay? iâll drive you home. do you need to see a doctor?â he asked, panic in his voice.Â
âiâm⊠no, iâm fine! just finish the shopping, ill wait in the carâ you grunted and gave him your phone with the list, turning around on your heel.Â
he has never ran enough a grocery shop so fast in his entire life.Â
after almost sprinting to the car and loading the bags, he hopped in and scanned your face in search of pain. there was always a risk of you giving birth sooner than expected so he was just extremely cautious.Â
he noticed your swollen eyes and wet tears. maybe it was just the hormones, itâs not like you havenât cried before because he just killed a fly. (âwhat if that fly was pregnant too? what if it was a working father? what ifââ)Â
he started the car and reached out to grab your hand. you just played with his fingers to ease your nerves, a silent drive home.Â
for the past two days jaehyun had a feeling that you were avoiding him. youâve been either sleeping all day or hiding away in your bedroom.Â
at the end of the day jaehyun decided to talk to you. but upon walking into the room, he saw you sitting at the edge of the bed. your loose shirt was slightly up, your fingers tracking red stretch marks on the side of your stomach.Â
âhey baby, whatâs up?â he hummed, walking up to you âwe havenât talked in a while, hm? everything okay?âÂ
you sighed and just pulled the shirt down, covering your belly completely.Â
âlook at me pretty, come onâ he was starting to get worried. kneeling down to settle between your looks, he noticed your teary eyes. Â
âi just feel so gross, you know?â you mumbled, gently rubbing your tummy. jaehyun sighed softly, relieved to hear that youâre not in physical pain. he put one of his hands on your knee, rubbing it in a soothing motion âlike i know itâs inevitable but everyone keeps making comments and⊠and i just miss my old body. it may never be the same⊠and⊠itâs just dumbâ
âdonât listen to haechan, heâs still a kid. he doesnât know what heâs talking aboutâ jaehyun said, trying to ease the tensionÂ
âi saw the way you looked at the girl, in the storeâ you mumbled, lips quivering. he furrowed his brows and realization hit him like a ton of bricks. but before he could explain, you went on âand i get it, iâm so ugly now, i donât even dress up. i canât even put anything else than sweatpants⊠and donât even mention heels. i get you.â
âoh honey⊠she had a cute outfit, thatâs why i looked. i think you have a similar top, by the way. but also, i agree, i turned my head but⊠her face seemed familiar. you know that it was johnnyâs ex?â
âwhat?â you asked, finally looking at him. the cute dimple smile painted his cheeks as he nodded.
âyeah. i just, i donât know, was so shocked it was her so i just turned around. but not to check her out or anything. because you areââ he started.
âwait, the one with a foot fetish?!â you asked suddenly.Â
jaehyun snorted loudly, hanging his head low. and here he was about to be romantic.
âyeah, herâ he snickered and looked back up âbut my point is, i only have my eyes on you. we both knew that pregnancy will change your body and i admire you so much. youâre so strong. and just know that, whether or not you will go back to your shape⊠the stretch marks will stay⊠will grow old and wrinkled⊠i will love you. those things donât matter to meâ
you shook your head and pulled the shirt over your face, something you did when too embarrassed to cry. and you did, small sobs choking out from under the material.
âyou look beautiful to me. youâre carrying our baby girl and you really glow, to meâ jaehyun said and stood up, hands going to rest on your shoulders.
âi love youâ you cried and put your shirt down only to wrap your hands around his waist and sob into his shirt. he rubbed your skin in a calming way.Â
âi love you more, pretty girlâ he whispered into your hair.
after youâve calmed down he helped you lay down and tucked you in. jaehyun laid down next to you and rested his head on his hand, adoring you with a soft smile.
âgot it? youâre the prettiestâ he hummed and placed a soft kiss on your lips. then, his hand sneaked to lift your shirt a bit.
he traced the red stretch marks with a feather-light touch and then put his hand gently on your belly. he felt small movements and warm feeling spilled over his heart.
âand i bet sheâll be equally beautiful, my little dandelionâ your husband whispered softly. and you couldnât help but grin, looking at his whipped state.
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đżnow playing: juno by sabrina carpenter
⯠summary: Kids were never really something you thought about. But then you saw your sexy as fuck boyfriend playing uncle and now you can't stop thinking about giving him a baby of his own. What can you say...your hormones are high.
⯠pairings: haechan x fem!reader
⯠genre: smut, established relationship
⯠words: 2.7k
⯠tags: 18+ minors dni!, unprotected sex (don't do this!), swearing, breeding and pregnancy kink, possessiveness, dirty talk, begging, praise, creampie, slight angst not really idk, fluff, reader uses she/her pronouns, literally just the reader getting baby fever from seeing hyuck with kids (very real el oh el.)
an: i know this is like my third haechan post in a week, but i literally donât care. sue me x
You didnât want kids. Well, thatâs not true. You were indifferent to kids.Â
That was until you saw your boyfriend with them. You didnât think you could be more attracted to him, but then he had to go and check off the "great with kids" box. Maybe itâs just his playful side, but Lee Donghyuck is just so good with them.
And being forced to attend his nieceâs first birthday party made you realise it. Honestly, youâd never given much thought to the idea of kidsâcute yes, ready to give up endless nights of sleep, no.Â
But the minute after you walked through his childhood family home and were done greeting his parents and siblings, a swarm of kids ran at him, hugging his legs and stomach. And he just melted into them, so gentle and excited. It was cute and made you smile.Â
From then it was him letting his oldest niece cover his tanned cheeks in blush and stickers, to tossing a ball with his nephew after he announced he made the basketball teamâand donât even get started on him poking the chubby cheeks of his youngest niece, her soft giggles filling the backyard of the party.Â
It was like he was in his elementâsoft, loving, and completely at ease. And even though his nieces and nephews had other uncles and aunts, theyâd always say Uncle Hyuck was their favouriteâeven if they werenât supposed to.
You watch him from the patio door in the kitchen, overhearing him tell his dad heâs âtoo young to be having the adult conversations,â which was really code for âlet me play with the kids.âÂ
Running around, telling jokes, creating games. It had your stomach turning andâwere your heart strings being pulled? Seeing this absolute perfect man, so caring and playful, living just to make those little ones laugh and smile, had you seriously considering the sleepless nights that might come with having some of your own.
Wait.Â
âHeâs good with them, huh?â
You jolt, turning to see Hyuckâs sister standing behind you.
âUh... yeah, I guess so,â you shrug. She steps beside you, and the two of you stand there, watching your boyfriend bounce his niece in his arms, soothing her gently.
She giggles, and you glance over at Hyuckâs sister again. âWhat?â
âNothing,â she shrugs. âJust... youâre looking at him like youâre ready to add to the Lee family name.â
You gasp. âI am not!â
She gives you a knowing look, and you bite your lip, eyes shifting back to Hyuck. This time, heâs handing his niece a sippy cup, tapping her nose. Your chest tightens.
âOkay... I suppose he is good with them.â
Hyuckâs sister nods, humming in agreement. âHe always has been. With every younger sibling, every cousinâeven when I had my first daughter, Hyuck was the most excited.â
Heâs sitting on the grass now, all his nieces and nephews swarming him, tickling him. Heâs being extra dramatic, letting the younger ones tug at his hair just to make them laugh. You stare, warmth and wholesomeness filling you.
âHeâd make a great dad, Y/N.â
The statement is completely sobering.
âUh,â you stammer, running a hand through your hair. âI donât know. We havenât really talked about it.â
Thatâs not entirely true. You had spoken about itâonce. Youâd told him it wasnât something you had planned for but werenât necessarily opposed to, and the conversation had never come up again.
Hyuckâs sister blinks at you, clearly confused. âThatâs crazy. Hyuckâs always said he wants to be a dad.â
Clearly.Â
Thereâs no denying that. Itâs so obviousâevery second heâs cupping up the kids, tickling them, teasing them. He looks so profoundly happy, so perfect. And it suddenly clicks for you.
This could be yours. Forever. He wants it. And now... youâre starting to think you want it, too. Him, this, forever. His kids. Your kids.
âY/N! Y/N!â one of the younger kids calls, waving you over from across the backyard. âCan you play with us? We need more people to play the monsters. Uncle Hyuckie canât do it on his own.â
And just like that, youâre being pulled away from the baby fever conversation and coaxed into joining themânot that it took much convincing. Your thoughts were starting to scare you a little. Youâd never seriously thought about kidsâuntil now.
Because youâd never seen Hyuck look more attractive than when he was playing dad.
âI canât believe sheâs one already,â Hyuck beams from where heâs stretched out on your bed. Heâs been talking about the party nonstop since you got home. âDid you see the little bows in her hair? So fucking cute.â
You glance at him through the vanity mirror where youâre sitting, watching the way his face lights up, animated and so full of joy. Thereâs a warmth in your eyes, your lips curved into a soft smile as you take him in. He notices, raising an eyebrow.
âWhatâs that look for?âÂ
You stand and walk over to him, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to his lips. His eyebrows knit together, more confused now.
âY/N, whatâs going on?â
You smile, sidestepping his question with one of your own. âDid you have fun today?â
âYessâŠ?â he replies, but thereâs a trace of suspicion in his voice.
âYour familyâs really nice.â
âOh, are they now?â He squints playfully. âI saw you talking to my sister. I hope she wasnât embarrassing meâshe loves doing that.â
You shake your head with a giggle. âShe wasnât.â
âOkayâŠâ he draws out. âThen what was she saying?âÂ
âThat youâd be a good dad. That you want to be a dad.âÂ
Hyuckâs eyes widen and you mentally add this moment to the short list of times your boyfriend has been rendered completely speechlessâstill countable on one hand.
He coughs, his cheeks turning pink. âS-She said that?â
You nod, biting your lip to keep from laughing.
âAndâŠwhat did you say back?â
You spread his legs out on the bed so you can slide between them, sitting there and looking up at him as he waits, eager for your response. Heâs so cute like thisâadorable, evenâclearly dying to hear what you thought.
âI didnât respond,â you admit honestly.
You catch the flicker of hurt in his eyes, but he covers it with a laughâthough itâs not genuine. You can tell heâs trying to brush it off, trying to pretend that heâd be okay with the possibility that you might not want that kind of future with him.
âShe shouldnât have said that,â he mumbles, embarrassed. âI used to talk about it a lot as a kid. I donât really think like that now. I canât, you know⊠because of my job.â
âSo you donât want kids because of your job?â You ask. The tone in your voice takes him by surprise because now youâre the one sounding hurt.Â
âBaby... is this a trick question?â He laughs nervously.
You shake your head, crossing your arms across your chest. âNo Hyuck. But I want you to answer it truthfully.âÂ
He shrugs, looking unsure. âI donât know. I havenât really thought about it.â
âYouâre lying.â
He lets out a frustrated sigh, running a hand through his hair. âBaby, I donât know what you want me to sayââ
âThe truth,â you insist.Â
He pauses, his gaze softening. âI love you, Y/N. You said kids werenât really part of your plan, and thatâs okay,â he begins, his voice steady but sincere. âAnd yeah, maybe I always kind of thought kids would be in mine, but then I met you. And you became my plan.â
You grab a hold of his hand and squeeze. It draws a genuine smile from him before he speaks again.Â
âI know weâve never talked about it since. But Iâm fine with anythingâas long as itâs with you.â
You smile, his comment pulling at your heartstrings because you feel the exact same way.Â
âThose kids absolutely adore you, Hyuck,â you say and he gives a half smile.Â
âWell, I am their favourite Uncle.âÂ
You trail a soft finger up and down the naked skin of his arm. His eyes follow your touch and that furrowed expression is on his face again.Â
âY/N whatâs going on with you? Youâre confusing meââ
âYou knowââ you cut him off. âI think youâd be a great dad.âÂ
He stares at you, properly taking you in. Heâs never seen this side of you before, and youâve never given him a compliment quite like that before. The thought of you being into the idea of him as a dad⊠well, he didnât expect it to turn him on this much. Maybe itâs the way your fingers brush his arm? Yeah no, itâs not.
âToday made me realise something,â you say, shifting to straddle his hips, your arms wrapping around his neck now. He raises a curious brow, waiting. âYou look so hot with kids. The thought of you being a dad is so fucking hot, Hyuck.â
Hyuck smiles at the confession, and his hands move to grip your ass as he ground your hips forward on himself. You let out a small gasp of surprise as you feel him.Â
âPlease donât joke like that, Y/N,â he whines, eyes squeezing shut. âBecause Iâve been thinking about you being the mother of my kids since the day I met you.â
You giggle, biting your lip to stifle the soft moans escaping you as he grinds you slowly against his growing bulge.
âWell, why donât you do something about it then,â you tease breathlessly, feeling the hardness of him through his sweatpants.
Hyuckâs mouth parts, caught somewhere between awe and shock, but before he can question how serious you are, your lips capture his, and your tongue is slipping inside his mouth to deepen the kiss.
The groan you both share is synchronised, and itâs all the encouragement he needs to flip you over, hovering above you with a renewed sense of urgency to make promise of your teasing.Â
His fingers hook into your panties, sliding them off as you shift upward against your pillows, tossing your nightgown aside. Hyuck strips out of his own clothes, desperate to press his bare skin against yours, his need overwhelming any sense of patience.
He kisses you back roughly, passionately. Fuelled by your impossible hotness and readiness to be fuckedâfucked by him. Your tongue dips deeper and deeper into his mouth, never satisfied, craving more of him. You cling to him, your hands and legs moving over his skin, desperate to feel every inch. Your hips roll up, slickness coating his shaft, causing a rippling gasp to leave his mouth.Â
Hyuck pulls back with dark eyes. Youâhis girlânaked and desperate under him, begging him to do something about his baby feverâyour baby fever. Itâs the hottest shit heâs ever seen. His new favourite thing. His obsession. He loves seeing you like this, he decidesâso willing, so desperate for him, for his cock. Needing him to bring you the pleasure only he can give. And heâll make sure you remember that once you're carrying his child.
The image floods his mindâyour stomach growing, swelling with his baby, the glow in your smile as you hold his child. A family, all with him. Only him. Because you want his kids.
The last thought pushes him over the edge, and with a low growl, he bites down on your neck, lips and teeth claiming your skin. He wants you marked by himâlike alwaysâbut this time itâs different. Itâs possessive. Primal. Feral. His saliva wet on your neck, dark bruises blooming over your breasts, his fingers burning prints into your hips, and his seed buried deep inside your soaking wet cunt.
His cock jumps when you roll your hips again, your whimpers causing him to groan and eyes roll back. You sound so desperate. Desperate to make him your forever.Â
âHyuckââ you sob as his teeth graze your nipple, sending it hardening under his touch. âPlease, I need to feel you.â
His eyes sparkle with lust as he drapes your legs over his waist and leans down, capturing your mouth in a long, needy kiss. He aligns himself with your slick pussy, your fingers clawing at his back as he slowly eases into you. He fills you completely, lifting your hips to bury himself deeper.
âSo fucking pretty like this,â he mumbles, pulling away to admire the way you take his thick cock. âTaking me so well, always so good for me, arenât you, baby?â
You moan as his cock hits every spot inside youâso deep, so hard, so good. Each thrust drags along your walls in a way that feels divine.
âCanât wait until youâre mine, so full of me,â he whispers, kissing your neck. You whimper, your walls clenching at his words, urging him to quicken his pace. âDo you want that, baby? Want my cum inside this pretty pussy?â
âYesâfuck yesâplease.â
âSay it for me,â he requests softly, a gentle yet desperate edge in his voice. âPlease tell me.â
âI want to be yours; make me yours,â you breathe out.
Hyuck's gaze drops to your lips, entranced by the words spilling from them. He thrusts harder, your nails digging into his skin as you pull him closer. Your cunt swallows his cock whole, turning his thrusts sloppy, and he groans.
Youâre practically sobbing with how fast heâs driving into you, so close to seeing stars.
âYouâre so good at taking me,â he praises, his breath ragged. âGonna make me fill you.â
You squeeze around him, and the thought of cumming inside you sends a shiver through his thighs, making his breathing stutter.
âYes! Fuck, please keep going,â You pant.Â
âWant you so full of me that itâs dripping down your leg. And then Iâll push it back in when I fuck you again.â
Your breaths grow louder and quicker, matching his as you both teeter on the edge. He kisses you deeply, your mouths suffocating each other as you grip his soft brown hair. His fingers dig into your hips, holding you tight.
âHyuckâIâm gonna cum.â
âSo fucking good, baby,â he moans in awe. âIâm going to fill you with my cum. I want you overflowing with my seedâfuck!â He grunts hoarsely, his body tightening with tension.
Your walls shatter around him, tightening and fluttering on his cock as you cum. Hyuck holds you close, so intimately, holding himself deep inside you as he feels the first spurts of his cum shooting from his cock.Â
He doesnât stop, his hips still moving gently, making sure you take everything, softening each thrust with tender kisses along your bare shoulders. You sigh dreamily, fingers threading through his hair, and he smiles, still half-hard inside you. Youâre exhausted, and the sight of your sleepy expression makes his heart twist. Leaning down, he presses a soft kiss to your lips, and for a moment, you stay like thatâso close, so intimate.
But as the post-orgasm bliss begins to fade, a flicker of panic flashes in his eyes.
âFuckââ he mutters, pulling himself off of you quickly. Thereâs a gnawing feeling in his chest, a sudden guilt. âY/N, Iâm really sorry, I got caught up in the moment. Do you want me to run to the storeââ
âNo.â You shake your head and grab his arm, keeping him close. âI donât want you to. If thatâs okayâŠâ
His eyes darken with lust before a slow smile spreads across his face.
âY-yeah⊠thatâs more than okay with me,â he says, nodding eagerly.
âWho knows?â You shrug with a teasing grin. âI might not even get pregnant this time.â
His eyebrows shoot up. âThis time?â
You nod confidently. âYeah, this time. Because weâre going to keep doing this until I am pregnant, Hyuck.â
His grin widens as he climbs back into bed, pulling you into his arms.
âI never thought Iâd hear you say that, especially not when I woke up this morning,â he laughs, pressing soft kisses along your neck.
You giggle, leaning into his touch. âWhat can I say? Seeing you in dad mode made me so fucking horny.â
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a/n:Â For my lovely @rkivedfilesâ, and all the rest of you as well <3 This is simply Kid watching the That That mv with Yoongi for the first time. Sheâs whipped, weâre all whipped, the song is a bop, I mean what else is there to say? I hope you all enjoy and thanks for reading! :))Â
p.s. I wrote this very quickly and I wasnât planning on writing anything so ignore the fact that it may be poorly written xoÂ
Sitting on your sofa, you impatiently tapped your foot as you glared at the empty hallway that led from the bedroom to the living space. You had less than two minutes. The countdown was ticking away, and your boyfriend was taking his sweet ass time. Huffing, you threw yourself against the back of the sofa in a dramatic fashion, despite no one being there to see your performance.
âMin!â You shouted in annoyance, accompanied by a groan.
âIâm coming, practice some patience for once,â he called back, a smile obvious in his tone. Rolling your eyes to no one, you bit back a grin of your own. You were briefly distracted from your boyfriendâs looming tardiness by your phone buzzing against the couch cushion. Looking down at the device, you were surprised to see your dadâs contact ID on the screen.
Pulling your eyebrows together in confusion, you unlocked the message to find: Watching this countdown thing, Yoongi and Psy fighting!
âWhat are you smiling at?â Yoongiâs voice sounded above you, making you look up at him, your grin only growing bigger. Turning the phone towards your boyfriend, you watched as he leaned forward to read the message. âOh my god,â he said in shock before a gummy smile stretched across his features.
âWho knew my dad was a Psy stan,â you giggled, Yoongiâs shoulders shaking in laughter as he took a seat next to you.
âHey, maybe heâs a Suga stan,â Yoongi suggested teasingly.
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âą word count: 6.9k âą genre: fluff, established relationship, secret relationship, office workers!jisung & reader, holiday themed, a bit of a crackfic (everyone in this is slightly unhinged and you should NOT act like them in your actual workplace PLEASE), appearances from absolute nuisances nohyuck (mainly hyuck being a nuisance and jeno being a desk candy bowl thief) and chill boss johnny (heâs actually the only normal one around this office fr), part of my 2024 hallmark movie marathon âą warnings: lots of discussions of sex/sleeping together (nohyuck have an absolutely unhinged plot to have reader hook up w jisung w/o realizing that theyâre already dating, shenanigans ensue) âą extra info: this was originally going to be part of want from me, but i felt like i was losing the plot a bit, so i tweaked some stuff and made it its own fic instead this is part of my 2024 hallmark movie marathon, three short, unrelated fics starring jisung all with cheesy hallmark christmas movie-esque premises. thereâs no continuing plotline between fics in this series, theyâre all standalone fics âą authorâs note: ok i may be stretching the concept of a âcheesy hallmark movieâ in this one, but thereâs a holiday party. sue me. âą 2024 hallmark movie marathon
âYou need to fuck Jisung.â Donghyuck sat on your desk the following Monday, nearly knocking your cup of pens over.
âWhat happened to hello? How are you?â
âI get why you didnât want to tell anybody when I was interviewing,â Jisung sighed as you adjusted his tie for him. âBut donât you think everyoneâs formed their own opinions about me by now?â
âYou told me Mr. Kang called you Joosung yesterday,â you pointed out. âWe agreed after your three-month evaluation, remember?â
âThatâs next month!â
âTwo weeks. December tenth, to be exact, will be three months since you started.â
âI know, I know.â He pulled you closer by your hips, burying his face in your neck. âThank you.â
You rested one hand on the nape of his neck, the other stroking his hair. âI hate it too. I was in the bathroom yesterday and overheard a couple of the women from budgeting talking about you. Apparently one of them wants to ask you to the holiday party.â
He lifted his head up, squinting with confusion. âWait, was it Song Minji from budgeting?â
âYesâŠâ
âYesterday she asked me if I was going, I said yes, then she asked if I had a date, and I said no, and she said she didnât either. Then she just stared at me. It was really awkward, so I told her I had to get back to my spreadsheets and walked away.â
You burst out laughing, covering your mouth as your boyfriend continued looking down at you with absolutely endearing confusion. Patting his cheek, you informed him gently, âShe was waiting for you to ask her to the party, baby.â
âWell, even if I knew that, I wouldnât have,â he huffed.
âI know, Sungie,â you kissed his cheek. âI know.â
âGood.â
You glanced at the time on your bedside clock, tapping his arm indicatively. âWeâve got to go.â
âY/N, someone from bookkeeping will be over to pick these receipts up today,â Mr. Suh, your boss, informed you, setting a large banker box down on the ledge behind your computer monitor.
You nodded. âYou sure you donât want me to just take them over there now?â
Bookkeeping was on the same floor as your team, just on the opposite side of the large office building.
âNo, Iâve got six more boxes in my office. They should be coming with a dolly. Iâve got a lunch meeting, then Iâm on-site at a build. Can you make sure they get them all?â
âOf course. See you tomorrow, then.â
âThank you. See you tomorrow.â He smiled and reached into your candy bowl, securing a chocolate for himself before heading off towards the elevator.
As you continued working up your reports, another figure approached your desk.
âHi.â Jisung smiled down at you from over the banker box.
âAnd what is a bookkeeping gremlin doing over here?â You teased, having already spotted the bright orange dolly next to him. âThey let you guys out of your cages?â
âJust me, because Iâm on a mission.â He did a little mock salute, making you giggle. He then looked between the dolly and the box. âBut I donât really think this was necessaryâŠâ
âThereâs six more boxes in Mr. Suhâs office,â you informed him happily, pointing to your bossâ door.
âOh.â
Two of your team members, Donghyuck and Jeno, congregated around your desk then as well, Jeno zeroing in on your candy bowl as always, and Donghyuck snooping at what you were doing on your screen.
âBoring!â Hyuck declared, hitting CTRL + S on your keyboard to save it for you before exiting out of the program. âLunchtime!â
âHey, I was working on that, you know,â you protested, keeping up your usual banter with your work friend.
âNow youâre not,â he shrugged.
âActually, you were chatting withâŠâ Jeno trailed off, looking at Jisung expectantly.
âJisung,â your boyfriend filled in.
ââYou were chatting with Jisung when we got here,â Jeno finished, popping another chocolate in his mouth and tucking it in his cheek to talk around it. âSo you werenât really working.â
âShe was telling me where the other boxes of receipts were,â Jisung explained quickly, gesturing to the dolly. âIâm supposed to pick them up. Iâm from bookkeeping.â
Hyuck scanned him from head to toe. âYouâre new, right?â
He nodded.
âCome to lunch with us.â
âNo, Hyuck,â you snorted, cutting up your food as your coworker attempted to show you a picture of another one of his friends over lunch. âThe last asshole you set me up with stood me up, remember?â
âI told you, Jaemin got a stomach bug!â Hyuck insisted. âAnd that was like, over a year ago!â
You looked at him pointedly. âAnd he could text you but not me? Think about it.â
âOkay, so he was a flake, but Mark is like, a really good guy!â He elbowed your other coworker next to him. âJeno, back me up!â
Jeno shrugged. âEh, he seems like the kind of guy to call you âbroâ in bed.â
âNot the kind of back-up I meant!â
âAm I wrong?â
âWhy are you thinking about what Mark would call you in bed, Jeno?â You snickered.
He stuck his tongue out at you, and you mimicked him.
Hyuck pushed on in his seemingly never-ending pursuit to set you up with his also never-ending pool of single friends. âIgnore him, Y/N. Will you at least consider? For me? Your bestest friend?â
âI never see you outside of work functions,â you pointed out.
âPlease? Pretty please? Pretty pretty please?â
âWhatever. Send me his CV,â you said noncommittally, taking a bite of your food.
âOn it!â
âWait, heâs applying for a job?â Jisung finally spoke from his seat beside you, his confusion apparent.
âNo, thatâs just what they call whatever information Hyuck sends her about the guys he tries to set her up with,â Jeno explained for him. âIt ends up being pretty much the same stuff thatâs on a rĂ©sumĂ©, though.â
Hyuck then focused in on a new target. âJisung, what about you?â
He froze. âWhat?â
âAre you single?â
âUhmââ
âLie if you have to,â you advised. âOnce he smells blood, youâre done for.â
âIâm not a shark!â Hyuck took great offense to this comparison. âIâm-Iâm like Cupid!â
You let out a derisive laugh at that, stabbing your fork into your food and lifting your next bite to your mouth.
âIâve got a girlfriend,â Jisung answered hurriedly.
Hyuck narrowed his eyes suspiciously. âSo youâre bringing her to the Christmas party.â
âI-I donât know, we uhmâwe just started seeing each other.â
âYouâll bring her to the next monthly mixer, then?â
âIâm pretty sure this is workplace harassment,â you stepped in on Jisungâs behalf, giving Hyuck a disapproving look. âWe had a seminar, remember?â
âYouâre not curious?â
âNo, I donât care to see you bother poor Jisung for the rest of our fleeting lunch break.â
âFine, I wonât disturb Y/Nâs precious lunch break,â he gave in melodramatically. âBut I want to hear about her when we get back to the office, Jisung.â
When you and Jisung got home that evening, you waited until the two of you had gotten out of your work clothes to address the pout on his lips that had been present ever since lunch.
âWhatâs wrong?â You asked, sitting at your dining table with him.
He started unpacking the to-go food. âWhy did you tell Donghyuck to send you that guyâs info?â
âTo get him to shut up about it. He wouldâve done that for our whole lunch break, Sungie.â You shook your head, watching as he avoided your eyes. âAre you jealous? Itâs not like Iâm actually going to do anything with it.â
âI know, but I still donât like that heâs sending you dating rĂ©sumĂ©s, and itâs apparently been a regular thing?â
âOkay, I know we made it sound like it happens all the time,â you agreed. âThis is like the third time, including the guy who stood me up last year. When you and I started dating, I told Hyuck not to bother anymore. But then he heard that I wasnât bringing a date to the holiday party, and he started his little matchmaking thing again. Thatâs why I never told you, because there never was anything to tell.â
âIâm sorry if it sounded like I was accusing you of something, baby,â Jisung murmured, reaching for your hand over the table.
âDo you want me to block him or something?â
He sighed. âNo, of course not.â
âDamn it, I was hoping youâd say yes. Iâve been looking for an excuse for years.â
He finally chuckled at that, a small smile pulling at the corners of his mouth.
âHere.â You brought out your phone and stood behind him, maneuvering your arms around his shoulders so he could see your screen as you opened your texts with Hyuck and started deleting the most recent ones debriefing you on his newest eligible bachelor for you.
âWait a second.â Jisung stopped you before you could delete all the pictures that Hyuck had sent.
âWhat?â
To your surprise, your boyfriend actually opened one of the pictures of the guy.
âJeno was right,â he snorted, closing out of the picture.
âWhâOh,â you started laughing. âYeah, absolutely.â
You finished deleting everything about the guy, then shut your phone off. âAll gone. Canât even remember his name.â
Jisung pressed a kiss to your cheek. âThanks, baby.â
âAnd Iâll tell Hyuck no more in the future. Sound good?â
âNo, maybe itâs for the best. I donât think you need to be subjected to the interrogation I went through today.â He leaned his head against yours affectionately.
âAre you sure?â
âYeah. I trust you.â
âAw, thank you, Sungie.â You kissed his hair then hugged him properly. âI knew that. It was cute to see you get jealous, though.â
âYou need to fuck Jisung.â Donghyuck sat on your desk the following Monday, nearly knocking your cup of pens over.
âWhat happened to hello? How are you?â You blinked up at him incredulously, rescuing your writing utensils and pushing them to a far corner.
âNo time, we need to save our new favorite little bookkeeping gremlin.â He quickly saved your project and closed the window on your computer.
âAnd you think having sex with me is the cure for cancer or something?â You snorted. âThey really wasted their money on your slot in that workplace harassment seminar.â
âNo, look, heâs in an awful, awful situationship. I know he said sheâs his girlfriend at lunch the other day, but he doesnât have any pictures of her, he didnât want to show me her social media. He said she probably wouldnât be able to come to the mixer because of her âwork scheduleâââ Hyuck used finger quotes around the words âwork scheduleâ ââbut the way he said, it sounded like he was just preemptively making excuses because he knew she would turn him down. I asked him about their first date, and you want to know his answer?â
âWhat?â You asked dryly.
âThat they donât really do âthat stuff!ââ More air quotes.
âOkay?â
âThen I asked what stuff they do do, and he turned bright red!â
âSo heâs lying about having a girlfriend to get you off his back.â
âMm, she sounded pretty real.â
âOkay, maybe heâs twisting the truth and heâs got a fuckbuddy and he still doesnât want you playing matchmaker,â you suggested another alternative. âEither way, you should leave him alone.â
âNo, look, Iâve got this all figured out. He needs to be reminded that thereâs women other than this girlââ
You narrowed your eyes at him. âHow do you have a rotating roster of men to throw at me, but somehow the only woman that comes to mind for your braindead plan is the one in your immediate line of sight? This is confirming my suspicions that you get no bitches, Lee Donghyuck. Have you talked to a single woman other than me and your mother?â
âListen, it has to be you so nobody catches feelings!â
âSo youâre saying Iâm unlovable?â
His eyes widened comically as he went to backpedal. âNo, of course not! I meantâJeno, back me up!â
Jeno, who had been silently leaning against the ledge behind your computer monitor this whole time, happily snacking on the red and green Hersheyâs kisses in your candy bowl, slowly finished off the one in his mouth before speaking. âHereâs the thingââ
âYou condone this?â You scoffed.
He shrugged. âItâs like, his second-worst idea. Marginally better than setting you up with Na Jaemin.â
âWhy do I bother asking for your back-up?â Hyuck muttered.
âBut he doesnât think youâre unlovable. He just knows that youâre a professional, and Jisung is still a newbie and works in a different department. So obviously, thereâs like no risk of catching feelings if you guys do⊠Because work, you know?â
You sat back in your chair, glancing between the two of them dubiously. âDo you two think these are normal things to say to people? At work? To your coworker?â
They looked at each other with wide, horrified eyes, beginning to stutter apologetically.
âIâm in,â you declared abruptly, watching their jaws drop. You then focused your next sentence at Hyuck specifically. âIf youâll stop trying to set me up.â
âDone,â he agreed immediately.
Jisung had excitedly told you about the results of his three-month evaluation to you over dinner that evening, and as you two cleaned up after, you relayed your conversation with your coworkers to him.
âI finally got Hyuck to stop setting me up. Permanently,â you announced in a sing-songy voice, drying the last dish Jisung had just handed you before putting it up in the cabinet.
âReally? Did you find out he killed someone or something?â He asked, shaking the water off his hands over the sink before grabbing the towel hanging in front of it to start drying his hands.
âNope, he just asked me to do something.â
âOh, and who do you have to kill?â
âNobody.â You wrapped your arms around his waist from behind him. âYou see, heâs very concerned that this âgirlfriendâ of yours doesnât like you as much as you like her.â
âI know weâre literally coworkers, but he needs to get a job,â Jisung retorted.
âWhy did you say we didnât go dates when he asked about our first date?â
âI was afraid you mightâve mentioned it before and I didnât want him to connect the dots if I told the same story.â
âYou couldnât come up with a fake first date? Carnival? Arcade? Dinner?â
âI was panicking!â
âAnyway, he thinks youâre in a toxic situationship, and that the only solution is for me to sleep with you.â
âWait what?!â His muscles flexed and contracted under your hands with his words, and he seemed almost oblivious as you continued roaming them over his front.
âBecause we would never catch feelings for each other, obviously,â you informed him with mocking seriousness, making him scoff.
âI assume you told him to fuck off and stop setting you up anyway?â
âNope.â
âHuh?â
You finally put a hand under his shirt to touch his bare skin, and he shivered and jerked away instinctively.
âAh! Cold hands, baby,â he whined, but made no further moves to get away.
âThen let me warm them up, Sungie,â you giggled, pressing your fingers more intentionally against his skin. âAnyway, why would I pass up the perfect opportunity to fuck with Hyuck and fuck my hot boyfriend at the same time?â
âI donât think I like how similar that phrasing was.â
âSungie,â you dragged out the last vowel pleadingly.
âSo youâve got a scheme?â He asked knowingly.
âA fun one,â you promised, kissing his neck. âIn multiple senses of the word. But it means everyone finding out weâre together a few days later than we planned. Is that okay?â
He let out a deep sigh. âAlright. Whatâs first?â
âIâve got to hold up my end of the deal, of course.â
Donghyuck and Jeno were quick to swarm you first thing in the morning. They at least brought you a coffee this time. There was no work up on your computer yet for Hyuck to close out of, so he just made himself at home on top of your papers that were on your desk instead.
âOkay, we need to brainstorm,â Hyuck got right to business as Jeno dug into your candy bowl. Well, not the business you were actually sitting inside of, but his plot. âThe holiday party is on Friday. Iâm thinking if you start being a little flirty leading up to it, like casual, you know, not too much, that should warm him up.â
âThe more planning you put into this, the creepier it gets,â you informed him, taking a sip of your coffee.
The elevator dinged then, and Jisung stepped off, eyes focused on his feet as he hurried off towards the break room. The elevator opened towards your side of the floor, while bookkeeping was on the other side, and the breakroom, storage closet, and copy room were situated at the midpoints on the floor.
âJisungâs late?â Jeno commented, bewildered. âDidnât he say he always gets here ten minutes early to make his coffee before everyone else?â
Hyuck looked at this as well, eyes narrowing. He turned back to you and Jeno. âDid you guys see that big hickey on his neck? Now heâs running late and wearing the same tie as yesterday? This is why we need to help him. Anywayââ
You shifted in your seat then, readjusting your blazer so that it âaccidentallyâ pulled your blouse just enough to show off a love bite situated on your collarbone.
Hyuck actually froze in place, staring at you as he short-circuited. Jeno gave you a quiet, short round of applause.
âDamn, you work fast,â he commented.
You looked down at where Hyuck was staring, as if belatedly realizing your mistake, moving your neckline back up to cover it again.
âYou reallyâŠâ Donghyuck trailed off, blinking rapidly as he began rebooting.
You shrugged. âDidnât want to announce it like we were in a locker room.â
âHeâs walking over here,â Jeno coughed under his breath.
And sure enough, Jisung approached your desk. He looked uncertainly at Donghyuck sitting next to you, and ended up standing by Jeno behind the ledge, finally looking you in the eye.
âH-Hi, Y/N,â he stuttered nervously.
âMorning, Jisung,â you greeted him brightly. âKiss?â
âHuh?!â He squeaked.
âHershey kiss?â You pointed to the bowl that Jeno was grabbing another candy from. âTheyâre caramel filled.â
âO-Oh. Sure, thanks.â He took a green one. âS-See you later.â
âBye.â
With that, Jisung skittered away, back off towards bookkeeping. Hyuck and Jeno both turned to you with wide eyes.
âIâve made a grave miscalculation,â Hyuck whispered.
âThat boy is pussy whipped,â Jeno whistled lowly.
You rolled your eyes at them. âOr maybe you guys were looking at the two of us with flashing âI KNOW YOU HAD SEXâ signs over your heads.â
âOh, did I forget to leave that at home again?â Hyuck replied snidely, mockingly swatting just above his head. He then leaned in to whisper-yell at you, âDo you actually have the cure for cancer in there because what the hell was that?!â
âGood morning, Mr. Suh!â You chirped at your boss as he walked by.
Hyuck sat up straight, saluting to your boss. âGood morning, Mr. Suh!â
âMorninâ, Mr. Suh,â Jeno said through a mouthful of candy.
âMorning, morning, morning,â Mr. Suh greeted each of you in turn, then yawned. âUgh, is it Friday yet?â
âNot quite, unfortunately,â you chuckled.
At home that night, you were keeled over with laughter on your couch, clutching your stomach as you and Jisung recalled the looks on your coworkersâ faces this morning.
âWho knew you were such a good actor, Sungie?â You choked out through laughter, wiping at your tears.
âI just had to act like I was madly in love with you, that wasnât acting, baby,â he smiled fondly, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you closer. âIâve had to act every day at work except today.â
âSo smooth, Park Jisung,â you giggled, kissing him.
âItâs the truth.â
âI know. Youâve never been smooth, just honest. And I love that about you.â
âOuch, and also thanks?â
You snickered and kissed his pout. âReady for tomorrow?â
Stepping off the elevator in the morning, you didnât spare another glance to Jisung, who had ridden up with you. Typically, you would take separate elevators, one of you waiting for the next one, but today, you broke that rule. You dropped off your purse at your desk before going to the break room and making your usual cup of coffee.
Jeno and Donghyuck were already waiting for you at your desk. You rolled your eyes at them. âYou two have your own desks, you know?â
âYou and Jisung got here at the same time,â Jeno stated.
âIs there a question in there?â You raised an eyebrow at him, taking a sip of your coffee.
âDid you get a new shampoo?â Donghyuck asked, leaning forward to sniff the air around your head.
You swatted at him. âPersonal space?â
âThat doesnât smell like a womanâs shampooâŠâ He went back in for another sniff.
âQuit it, freak!â You rolled away from him.
âWhatâs happening?â A third voice had joined you all, right on time. Jisung was at your desk, cup of coffee in hand.
âNothing, Jisung.â You threw on a bright smile, scooting back up to your desk. âWhat can I do for you?â
âI-I just uhm, I wanted to say good morning. And I brought you some coffee.â He offered the cup out to you.
âAw, thanks,â you said sincerely, then looked down at your own cup on your desk regretfully. âBut I already got some.â
His face fell. âO-Oh. I guess Iâllââ
âHold on, Jisung!â Donghyuck stopped him from leaving, hopping off your desk. Jisung froze in place as your coworker grabbed his arm. First, he took the coffee from his hand and set it on the ledge behind your monitor, then he grabbed your boyfriendâs collar and yanked him down to take a deep whiff of his hair. Jisung yelped at the rough treatment, arms flailing until Hyuck let him go, giving him a loud slap on the shoulder. âThatâs all. Thanks for the coffee.â
âLunch later?â Jeno offered to him. âAll four of us.â
âS-Sure,â he looked at you and blushed before hurrying away.
You crossed your arms as you glared at Hyuck. âYou literally just assaulted him.â
âAnd youââ He pointed at you dramatically, ââslept with him again. Thatâs his shampoo that I was smelling on you.â
âI think my extracurriculars are none of your business.â
âMm, Jisungâs more of a co-curricular, donât you think?â
Jeno snickered.
âI think itâs still none of your business.â
âThis wasnât the plan, Y/N.â
âI did your stupid plan, Hyuck. Why are you so obsessed with Jisungâs sex life? Is it because youâre not getting any?â You taunted.
âNice attempt to deflect, but the plan was to get him to stop being strung along by that other girl. Not for you to start stringing him along.â
âYou make me sound like an evil witch.â
âSo youâre serious about Jisung then?â Hyuck gasped mockingly. âAdorable. Gonna be each otherâs date to the holiday party? When are you meeting the parents? Have you picked a ring yet?â
You bit down on your lip and looked at your lap to avoid laughing, which he thankfully seemed to interpret as guilt on your part.
âExactly as I thought,â he said smugly.
âThe puppy love thing is cute now, but itâs probably best for working together in the long run to just let him down easy sooner,â Jeno gave some surprisingly wise advice through a half-eaten Hersheyâs kiss.
Having composed yourself, you finally let out a contemplative, resigned sigh. âYeah, you guys are probably right.â
âAlways are,â Hyuck tsked.
Lunch was honestly kind of funâIt felt like being a kid with a crush again, sneaking glances at Jisung, trying not to be too obvious about your flirting, and playing innocent when your coworkers would shoot you pointed looks every time Jisung did something totally head-over-heels for you.
Mid-afternoon, and Jisung was back at your desk. He had a few papers in his hand, some flimsy excuse of questions about the receipts heâd picked up last week, but really, you two were just talking. Discussing what to make for dinner, additions to the grocery list, what you were working on, little things.
The sound of a door opening caught your attention, and you looked over to see Mr. Suh coming out of his office. Heâd just been on a phone conference, and had his empty coffee mug in his hand.
âHi, Mr. Suh.â You sat up a little straighter. âAfternoon decaf?â
âYep.â He lifted the mug in greeting as he walked by, heading for the breakroom.
âIâm going back to my cage with the other bookkeeping gremlins,â Jisung murmured. âDonât want him to catch me still here when he gets back.â
âLaser beams arenât going to come out of his eyes and incinerate you on the spot if he does, you know,â you giggled.
âHow do you know?â He tapped your desk rhythmically, then mouthed, âSee you later.â
You mouthed it back, contentedly watching him walk away. You were back to working on your reports when Mr. Suh returned from the break room. He drifted over to your desk, however, standing against the ledge conspiratorially.
âWas that the new kid in bookkeeping?â He asked lightly, taking a sip of his coffee.
âYeah, Park Jisung,â you informed him. At your bossâ inquisitive lean forward, you gave a little more context, âHe picked up those receipts last week and Hyuck ended up inviting him out for lunch with us.â
âHe seems to be over here quite a bit recently.â
âWe chitchat sometimes.â You paused, then widened your eyes. âIs that a problem? Nothingâs been late or anything, has it?â
He gave you his usual easy-going smile. âItâs fine, Y/N. Your work has been great as usual.â
âOkay, good.â
âHi, baby,â Jisung greeted you brightly that evening from your usual meet-up place after work. If neither of you had to stay late, or had an errand to run after work, you would meet up outside a cornerstore a couple blocks away from the office.
âHi, co-curricular,â you beamed back, leaning into the kiss he was pressing to your cheek.
He pulled away with an adorably confused pout on his face. You laughed, taking his arm in yours as you started down the sidewalks together, relaying your conversation with Hyuck and Jeno this morning.
âI donât know whatâs funnier, the idea of me genuinely âstringing you alongâ or your new nickname,â you giggled, squeezing his arm.
âYou already changed my phone contact, didnât you?â
âI put a heart next to it!â
âThe rumor has spread to bookkeeping, by the way.â
You blinked at him in mock surprise. âYou guys have office gossip over there?â
âYeah, we finally invented the wheel and have time to gossip now,â he snorted, rolling his eyes. âHuang Renjun told me he heard Song Minji and Park Chaeyeon talking about it in the copy room.â
âThatâs how it breached containment,â you tutted. Chaeyeon was from your department, but you knew she and Minji were office friends. She must have overheard it from your areaâHyuck wasnât exactly the quietest man you knew, and there was no way your other coworkers hadnât noticed Jisungâs frequent trips to your desk if Mr. Suh had.
âUh-huh.â
âWhat exactly were they saying? Did Renjun tell you?â
âSome stuff he didnât want to repeat about youââ He cleared his throat. âBut mostly, he wanted to ask me what, if anything was true. I felt bad lying, I like Renjun.â
âYeah, he was my favorite bookkeeping gremlin before you started.â
Jisung elbowed you, obviously offended. âI still did bookkeeping before I worked here! I just did it somewhere else!â
âHe was my favorite at this company before you started. Better?â
âMuch.â He smiled as you leaned in to kiss his nose. âI told him the rumors werenât true.â
âThat wasnât a lie!â You reminded him emphatically. âWeâre not just coworkers with benefits, or co-curriculars, or recently started secretly dating, or whatever!â
âIâm just glad we only have two more days of this.â He laced his fingers with yours. âI want to be able to have a picture of us on my desk, and talk about you to everyone, and show up and leave together.â
âMe too,â you agreed, fond smile on your lips as you approached your front door. âItâs been fun, but the best part will be when everyone knows youâre mine. For real.â
This was weird. You had been at work for thirty minutes and hadnât seen nor heard Hyuck or Jeno. Maybe today would be normal for once. As soon as that idea had crossed your mind, they came beelining for your desk, and you knew that would be impossible.
âGoodââ You couldnât even get a friendly greeting out of your mouth, Donghyuck fully sitting on top of your keyboard, entering a bunch of random characters into the email you had been writing. âUhm, you know, that email to Mr. Suh wasnât important, actuallyâŠâ
Yanking your keyboard out from under Hyuck, you deleted the gibberish and saved the draft email before setting it aside to deal with whatever was going on. You looked at your coworkers expectantly.
âY/NâŠâ Jeno surprisingly took the lead. âHow did you go about letting Jisung down easy?â
You blinked in surprise. âWhat are you talking about? I just told him we should keep it professional and not see each other anymoreâŠ? And that was it.â
âAnd how did he take it?â
âFine?â You glanced between their extremely serious demeanors with increasing worry. âWhy? Whatâs going on?â
âWe just had to comfort a crying Jisung in the menâs room for the past thirty minutes, thatâs whatâs going on!â Hyuck finally hissed. âI donât think your easy is very easy!â
You leaned away from him in utter shock. That was definitely not part of the plan today, and now you were genuinely worried about why your boyfriend was apparently crying in the menâs roomâhe definitely wasnât a good enough actor to do that on the spot.
âWoah, I didnâtââ
âWell, you did.â
âYou donât get to pin all the blame on me here,â you shot back immediately. âWhose stupid fucking plan was it for me to sleep with him in the first place anyway? If I recall, you never found him crying in the bathroom with his last girl that you were so concerned over.â
âYou diverted from the plan and he got attached!â
âOkay, itâs everyoneâs fault!â Jeno cut in decisively.
âWhatâs everyoneâs fault?â Mr. Suh stopped by your desk, briefcase in hand as he had just gotten into the office. âThereâs been an awful lot of whispering going on over here. Something I should know about?â
âNo, Mr. Suh!â Hyuck chirped brightly. âLunch plans fell through, weâre just rescheduling.â
Your boss looked at you skeptically, waiting for confirmation. You nodded hurriedly. âYeah, lunch plans.â
âAlright.â He shrugged. âThereâs a good sandwich place a block over. If youâre looking for recommendations.â
And with that, he went into his office.
Turning back to Hyuck and Jeno, you whispered, âI swear to God, I wasnât expecting him to be crying. Okay?â
âWeâre being a little harsh on you,â Jeno admitted quietly. âWe should all just leave Jisung alone, I think.â
He took a candy out of your bowl and departed your desk without another word. Hyuck followed, still shaking his head. You quickly brought your phone out, immediately texting Jisung.
[you: BABY SOS]
He texted back immediately
[co-curricular đ©·: IM HERE]
[co-curricular đ©·: WHATâS WRONG????]
[you: im fine but are YOU okay?!]
[you: jeno and hyuck told me they found you crying in the bathroom]
[co-curricular đ©·: oh nonono im okay baby i promise]
[co-curricular đ©·: im in the copy room, can you come so i can explain?]
[you: omw]
You hurried from your desk to the copy room, relieved to find it devoid of any coworkers except Jisung, who was attending to a copy machine, placing documents on the glass, closing the lid, and copying them in a steady rhythm.
âSungie,â you breathed out in relief, darting over to him, needing to see his face for yourself.
âHey, baby, hey,â he said soothingly, letting you wrap an arm around his waist and lean into him affectionately. âIâm okay, Iâm okay.â
You stepped back, cognizant of the fact that any of your coworkers could enter at any moment. âSo what were Hyuck and Jeno talking about then?â
âWhen we got in this morning, the temperature change from the cold air outside to the heat inside the building was making my eyes water and my nose run,â he explained, gesturing to his face. âI went to take care of it in the bathroom. Donghyuck and Jeno ran into me while I was cleaning myself up and assumed I had been crying. Nothing I said could convince them otherwise, and they of course also assumed it was connected to their advice to you to let me down easy. So I played along. I know it wasnât part of the plan, but I couldnât get them to let it go.â
âI was almost feeling bad about lying to them, but they do this to themselves.â You crossed your arms, leaning against the wall next to his copy machine. Your tone softened as you added, âIâm really happy youâre okay, Sungie.â
âIâm happy you checked on me so quick, baby.â He smiled, taking a step closer to peck your forehead. He lowered his voice to say, âI love you.â
âI love you too,â you murmured, looking up at him, fighting the urge to just grab his suit jacket and kiss him. âLunch later?â
His nose wrinkled with distaste. âAre Hyuck and Jeno coming too?â
âJust us? At home?â
âOh?â
âI miss you.â
He nodded. âI miss you too.â
It was finally Friday, finally the day of the office holiday party. You just had to survive work and lay the last couple breadcrumbs, then it would all be over tonight.
You were making your morning cup of coffee in the breakroom with Hyuck and Jeno, and went to engage them in conversation. âAre you guys bringing anyone to the party tonight?â
âNah.â Hyuck poured his own cup.
âYouâre not beating the âno bitchesâ allegations.â You clicked your tongue.
âI think itâs a bit weird to bring someone youâre not like⊠properly dating to a work event and introduce them to your coworkers,â Jeno answered, rooting through the employee fridge.
âSo thatâs a no?â
âCorrect,â he mimicked your taunting tone of voice.
Jisung, who had been quietly measuring out sugar into his own cup of coffee at a far counter, apart from your conversation physically but definitely within earshot, inserted himself then, âIâm bringing a date.â
Jeno hit his head on a shelf in the fridge. âShitâ! Huh?â
âYou are?!â Hyuck blinked at him, utterly shocked.
You slowly turned around to face Jisung, cocking your head. âOh, me too.â
âSince when?!â Hyuck snorted.
âJust because I didnât tell you about it doesnât mean I havenât had one,â you hissed.
He rolled his eyes. âWhatever.â
Jisung nodded, and you saw the corner of his lips twitch, ever-so-slightly, too small for anybody who didnât know him as well as you to catch. âGuess Iâll see you and your date tonight, then.â
âSame. You, as well.â You nodded curtly, watching him pivot on his heel and stride out of the breakroom.
âYou donât have a fucking date,â Hyuck stated dryly as soon as he was no longer in eyesight.
âThat was hard to watch,â Jeno said, opening a Tupperware of food that definitely had somebody elseâs name on it.
âAnd neither does he,â Hyuck continued, pointing to the doorway that Jisung had disappeared through. âNo way heâs found somebody in a day. UnlessâŠâ He looked at Jeno with alarm. âOh no. You donât thinkâŠ?â
Jeno squinted. âWhat?â
âWhat if he brings his toxic situationship to get back at Y/N?â Hyuck gasped. He then turned to you, âLook, I guess I can see if Markâs free tonightââ
âNo,â you cut him off firmly. âIâve already got someone in mind.â
âSo beautiful, baby,â Jisung murmured, taking one of your hands and kissing your knuckles.
âHey, Iâm trying to fix your tie clip,â you laughed, pulling your hand back from him to continue adjusting his tie clip that had gone askew thanks to his seatbelt.
The two of you were standing outside the venue of the office holiday party. You were fashionably late, as part of the plan. You had to make sure Hyuck and Jeno were already there, so they could see you arrive together, wearing your coordinated outfits. Jisungâs tie was of course a complimentary shade of the color of your dressânot too matchy-matchy like kids at a grade school formal, but clearly together, not accidental.
âThere.â You smoothed out the lapels of his suit jacket, smiling up at him. âSo handsome.â
He kissed your cheek. âThank you.â
âAre you ready?â
âMore than.â He grinned, lacing his fingers with yours.
Walking in, instrumental Christmas music was playing over the speakers and a steady hum of conversation filled the room. There were a few familiar faces near the front, but nobody you were overly friendly with. You grabbed Jisungâs shoulder for support as you went to talk to him over the din of the crowd. He hunched over slightly to listen to you better, holding you steady with a hand on your hip.
âWant to get a drink first?â You suggested.
âSure,â he agreed, keeping his hand on your lower back as you moved through the sea of people.
There was a special cocktail for the night, âMistletoe While You Work,â which you ordered out of curiosity. Once it was in your hand, you took a sip, and you were pleasantly surprised. Not too sweet, and you couldnât taste the liquor at all.
âHey, baby,â you smirked, holding your glass up between yours and Jisungâs faces. âUh-oh, weâre under mistletoe⊠kinda.â
Jisung laughed, and you put the glass down to watch his face crinkle up and his nose scrunch in all its adorable glory. âMm, hard to argue with that.â
You were still smiling as you pressed your lips to his in a short but sweet kiss. He kept you close when you broke apart, an arm still wound around your waist.
âUhm, Merry fucking Christmas to you guys, too,â Hyuck announced himself, standing off to the side, his own drink in hand and Jeno of course with him.
âOh, hey guys,â you greeted them nonchalantly. âMerry Christmas.â
âWhat happened to your dates?â Jeno cut right to the chase.
You and Jisung pointed to each other, making nearly identical faces as if you were oblivious to why Jeno and Hyuck were confused.
Hyuck started buffering as he tried to process the situation. âWhatâŠ?â
âWeâve been together this whole time,â you finally put them out of their misery, watching as their jaws dropped simultaneously.
âSince before I interviewed, actually,â your boyfriend added.
âOver a year, to be exact.â
âYou guys are sick in the head,â Hyuck jabbed an accusatory finger at you both.
âWho was making a whole convoluted plan for me to sleep with one of our coworkers that you barely knew?â You immediately fired back. âYouâre lucky we did this instead of reporting you to HR.â
Jeno quickly threw on a wide smile, clapping Jisung on the shoulder. âYou fit in great here, Jisung.â
âGlad to have you on the team.â Hyuck went to hug Jisung, making him stiffen up at the unexpected affection. Your coworker then gestured to both of you, putting a hand over his chest. âYou two are so adorable together. What a great couple. Iâve said that from the beginning, right, Jeno?â
âYou thought they wouldâve had awful chemistry.â
âWould it kill you to back me up for once?â Hyuck turned his ire on your other coworker.
Mr. Suh walked up to the bar then, putting his order in with the bartender before greeting you all. âAh, hello, everyone. Merry Christmas.â
A chorus of hellos and Merry Christmases rang out in response.
âWas Mr. Suh in on it?â Jeno asked you.
âWhatever âitâ was, no, but now I wish I was,â Mr. Suh answered, clearly intrigued by this conversation.
âY/N and Jisung are dating!â Hyuck immediately tattled, and you rolled your eyes at his childish tone.
âThereâs nothing against the rules,â your boss said calmly. Then, he added with a mischievous twinkle in his eye, âEspecially if the relationship predates one of you working here.â
You and Jisung exchanged a surprised look, making Mr. Suh laugh.
âOkay, I had a hunch, but that was the confirmation I needed,â he chuckled. âWhen Iâd see Jisung at Y/Nâs desk alone, I donât knowâyou two seemed way more comfortable around each other than two people who had only talked for the first time a week ago. No matter how much you liked each other.â
âWhy didnât you say anything?â Hyuck gawped.
âIt didnât seem like any of my business.â
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