This Is How It Feels To Oshi Mmj And Like Szai Mnhr Sometimes (interchangeable)

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For those of you who may not be too familiar with the manga, during ch39: Portrait of a Father, Akutagawa shows up, as Dazai's informant, to give Atsushi documents about who the orphanage headmaster was and what happened to him.

At that moment, Akutagawa shows an uncharacteristic clemency towards Atsushi, saying that "Atsushi's master died today", and compares this to his own relationship with Dazai.

This was a long time ago now, and a lot has happened since. The Cannibalism arc is right after this, where they are very antagonistic towards each other, and includes this scene:

Akutagawa, despite his bitterness towards Atsushi for who he is to Dazai, has seen how similar they are in this sense. Atsushi hasn't, because his gratefulness towards Dazai prevents him from seeing that Akutagawa's experience was completely different with this same person. (he's also not given any time by the narrative to wonder about it)

but then just came along chapter 122!!!

Atsushi gets to see, 1:1, the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai. For the first time, Akutagawa is relatable to him.

And of course, at the end, Atsushi calls out the illusion as being the headmaster wearing Dazai's face because we are closing this loop! We are forcing Atsushi to see Akutagawa the same way Akutagawa has been seeing him!

Again, no matter how bad my day is, Atsushi is having a worse one

We get it, Fyodor, you're Dazai-sexual, you and like 1/4 of the cast pack it up.

my wounds are sealed with gold, because if a cup breaks, it is reassembled, filling the cracks with gold. this is how they emphasize the beauty of what was once broken. people believe that if something has experienced suffering and has a history, it becomes more beautiful and more valuable. but my wounds are so painful and deep that the gold can't stand it.

I'm sick of it.

Doodled catboy Poe because why not

sing with me🎶🎵🎶

this y'alls demon prodigy?