Spectrespeaks - 🥀

pushing people away just because i want them to chase and make me feel wanted.

Can we normalize disabled people experiencing human emotions?

So often ableds expect me to act like a perfect little inspirational angel, when in reality I’m a human with emotions like the rest of y’all.

I don’t want to have to smile after you tell me you’d kill yourself if you were in my situation.

I don’t want to grin and nod while you treat me like a child and pet my hair.

I don’t want to laugh it off when you tell me about your friend who had my condition and died.

I don’t want to generously share my deeply personal medical history with a stranger I just met on the street.

I want to cuss and call you out on your BS, not sit compliantly in my wheelchair like a sweet little angel.

Hey so um do you want to have a really fucked up dynamic with me or not

"Stop for me" "don't cut for me" "don't starve it hurts me too"

Shut it I literally hate you...

"Let's cut together!" "Wanna fast together??" "Let's pull all night like a sleepover!"

YES YESSSS!!! (ᗒ⩊ᗕ) pleaaaassseee

"Can mutuals DM you?" moots can kick me, punch me in the throat, spit on my face, saw me in half, kiss me, obsess over me, stalk me idgaf

Nothing makes me feel more valid than anonymous strangers on the Internet validating my feelings.

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

It’s dumb and toxic and not okay at all but I want to be 19 again in a friend group of fucked up people who encouraged eachothers destructive behaviors. I miss someone telling me not to eat, sharing low calorie recipes and reminding eachother what we were working towards.

I miss that bond. Of giving somebody else control. Having somebody who controlled my eating and helped me pick outfits and what to do with my hair.

is anyone else's mother a passive aggressive cunt for no reason or is it just mine

chat should i actually block every single one of my friends from my hometown and completely isolate myself in another province