Wanting To Feel Good And Everything Around You Being Bad Is Exhausting

if the cage is open why am i still trapped.

i listened to my body and it's asking for substances

manifesting a calm antisocial bf who only cares about me

Sorry I thought it was attractive when you said you'd stalk me irl and online, find out all my likes and dislikes, and threatened to find me and make all my friends disappear... do you still think I'm cute?

wow. i really haven't spoken to my fp in a whole week. after 3 years of talking every single day, all day.

they've sent me memes all week, i only actually opened our chat for the first time yesterday. all i did was like the posts they sent me. i didn't really know what else to do. i feel like this is so wrong. everything feels wrong and i feel numb.

they had made this big instagram post with their new besties during the week too, so I know exactly what they've been doing this whole time that they haven't been talking to me.

why is it impossible for me to be anyone's first choice.

why do i still bother lol

i want new friends but i hate the small talk and the getting to know each other, it takes so loooonnnngggggg . . . (╥﹏╥)

need to meet someone as unhinged and hypersexual as me with an equal capacity to be completely obsessed and romantically deluded who also likes to smoke weed, be in nature and watch violent movies...or i will pass away...

yea well im possessed and its yours