Me Rn

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WORLWIDE HANDSOME!!!!৻(≧ᗜ≦৻)

Waiting for him like a 90s military wife.

I'm currently relearning how to be human and I'm open to any tips and tricks you professionals may have.

Looking for a Fic

You know that feeling when you find an absolute gem of a fic, so good that in your mind it's actual canon content...so good you have dreams about it and even after *years* it's ever-present at the back of your mind. But when you go looking for it, it's GONE?! Sending you spiraling for several weeks as you desperately scour the web for it. And after several weeks and cryptic dreams about the plot, you feel as if you might be slowly loosing it.

Well, that's my current situation. I'm getting desperate- so desperate that I'm on tumblr.com begging for help(not desperate enough to log into reddit tho). Please tell me I'm not crazy and I didn't dream up one of the best fics I've ever read.

The fic was a Lego Monkie Kid fic centered around Bai He (aka LBD's host) after the events of season three. Itwassowellwrittengodineeditnow.

From what I remember:

Shadowpeach was the main romantic(kinda) relationship mentioned although from the few chapters I read it focuses more on the platonic relationships at the beginning. Also PIF and DBK were briefly implied to be in a poly relationship with an original female character which was cool.

The description was something along the lines of: "Bai He is just trying to pick up the pieces of her life after the Lady Bone Demon is gone. Luckily, she has the help of MK and the others... something something- Wukong noticed the shadows of the male primate circling the island but never having the courage to come closer.." Or something like that.

Bai He my emotionally repressed princess/affectionate. You could tell the author wrote her character with a lot of love. She was an orphan who had been in the care of an orphanage in France(I believe) before she became a street kid in China. There was also this underlying subtext that her time spent in France was during the 90s(the lore bro, the *lore*). Bai He's disconnect between her ethnic background compared to the rest of the gang made her interactions with the main cast really unique.

Lady Bone Demon's relationship with Bai He was portrayed as almost like an abusive/manipulative parent that you can't seem to completely hate because they're your parent and they're doing what they think is the best for you. Chiefs kiss.

Any fic that mentions the nuances of LBD and MK's dynamic instead of watering down her character to that vile evil Witch who wanted to destroy the world>>>>>>

The subtle world building 🙇peak🙇. The story literally began outside the city where the residents were evacuated. This included the main gang who'd basically already taken Bai He in. There were passing mentions of other mythological pantheons. Plus references to the JTTW.(the author mentioned something about Wukong having descendants which was mind-boggling to me- ik it's inaccurate but whatever.)

Monkey King basically got custody of Bai He and he took her to Flower Fruit Mountain to watch over her condition.

The author detailed Bai He's struggles with her past and her present situation as she was no longer fully human.

Nahza(my goat) was there, living up to his role as protector of children.

The closest fic I've found is 'A Bone to Pick' by SmilesThroughFandoms but the vibe is off. It isn't the same.

It was incomplete with more than 20 000 words and posted somewhere between late 2022/23.(this was the general time frame I read the fic before loosing it. In my defense I (a) didn't have an ao3 account at the time and (b) I was reading it in incognito mode🤡)

If anyone has any information about it please please please please please tell me.

I have nobody to talk to about this but thisss fic:

The Grace of Gold by stilastarla

This fic is my lifeblood. My mental wellbeing is now completely dependent on this amazing piece of literature right here. Chapter 22 has me giggling and howling like a maniac I swear. RELEASE MEEEEEE FROM THESE CHAINS I BEG.

Shame in little doses

I'm having serious flashbacks of every moment in my life (that I can remember) where I feel an almost incapacitating amount of shame.

One moment i'm enjoying disconnecting from reality and then i'm on the floor genuinely tweaking because I remember that one time in school when I was VERY LOUDLY discussing the twinky-ness of victor frankenstein and this older girl made eye contact with me

Not the normal kind of eye contact- nonono, the type of eye contact where I connect with the person on the most RAW, PRIMAL subconscious level and I see every emotion, every judgment thought stirring deep behind their irises.

in conclusion: stream Shame by mitski and victor frankenstein is a selfish [abet complex] twink.

She grim on my born 'til I viggo

the person that said 'Wei Wuxian can relate' is required to hold my hand rn

Reblogging because the Russian agent on my laptop is about to clear my data history.

when she says she doesn’t send nudes

disintegrating in your arms

(abandoned pose ref study WIP)

Hozier wrote Too Sweet for me guys, trust.