Teodoesntbelonghere - Teo

can Oliver fucking die

my ear is eating me

girls and their desperate desire to push everyone away

I hate hate hate when I'm so overloaded that I stop seeing people as complex beings and can only process them as sensory hell machines or something I hate thinking about people that way

So I can now add Arthur from five survive onto my list of fictional killers I love

I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.

I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.

art by jimin. for @avizou ♡ by mona & ems.

i think the worst part about bpd no one talks about is being self aware. being aware of it doesnt make it any better, if anything it makes it worse because of how frustrating it is. like i know that what im doing is a symptom, but i still cannot stop myself from doing it. yes, it does make me feel absolutely ridiculous that my entire mood and well-being depends on whether you say 'ok' or 'okay', but i literally do not have a choice.