I'd Cut My Hands On A Paring Knife If It Meant He'd Be Happy And Full Of Sliced Persimmons. I'd Happily

“But if the story's over, why am I still writing pages?” 

Taylor Swift

I’d write you ninety nine reasons as to why you should leave me and in the hundredth i’d write ‘STAY’

“And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.”

~Jane Austen

I think efforts are way more attractive and reassuring in a relationship than promises. You never know if you're gonna be able to keep the promises in future or not, but the efforts you make in the present are a lot more worthwhile.

Much needed! Each day, everyday.

tips on feeling like yourself again ? ily ♡

🌼 go somewhere beautiful and quiet where you can see the clouds and trees and gain perspective on your current life and figure out what’s making you happy and what’s making you sad and what makes you feel most alive. sometimes we get too caught up in distractions that we feel like we’ve lost ourselves. engaging in a calming activity like drawing or riding a bike or focusing on your surroundings can really help clear your head. distance gives you perspective.

🌻dream a lot. wherever you find your mind wanders, that says a lot about who you are and what you want.

🍰 let go of past labels if they imprison you. if you labelled yourself as the shy person and recently you’ve becoming more confident, it’s ok to let go of that identity trait that you’ve always been known for. let yourself encourage growth and going out of your comfort zone instead of remaining who you are forever. change can be a good thing.

🌸 think about what you want. not what your parents want, or what you feel like you’re supposed to want. forget all the pressures surrounding you. think about the people you admire, what qualities they have and your deepest dreams that haven’t been filtered by other people’s opinions. write these down and look at your reasons often. simultaneously remove anything that makes you feel unworthy, whether it’s people who don’t appreciate you, toxic social media, habits that make you loathe yourself or common inner thoughts that make you want to dim your radiance. if you suffer from negative thinking or a mental illness, the real you is hidden beneath it and that version of you is still alive and bright as ever. do whatever it takes to recover even if it’s talking to someone or finding medication or self care activities like eating right or getting enough sun. if you’re numbing your pain constantly either by addiction or avoidance it’s time to be completely honest with yourself because the real you wants to be healthy and happy instead of self punishing, and it’s true that confronting the problem is hard but if you accept it and forgive yourself and treat yourself with kindness and compassion it will make your life a whole lot lighter on your shoulders. unhealthy coping mechanisms can make you feel like you’ve lost yourself but don’t worry because once you make small changes to your life you will feel complete and genuinely nice again. so it’s really important that you treat yourself as a friend would; maybe after years of feeling down or unworthy your inner conversation has become that of a bully so of course you won’t feel like yourself unless that changes.

🌷start a new hobby. stagnancy can feel comfortable but in the end it’s what can cause you to feel lost and hopeless. small senses of accomplishment can really lift your mood and create meaning in your life. so start a hobby and make small goals to enrich your life with what you think would make you happy. even better would be to meet new people because there’s nothing better than finding new people to connect with and inspire you.

💫 don’t isolate yourself. isolation causes you to lose yourself into endless ruminations and negative mindsets. you’ll start to listen to the voice that tells you that you’re never going to be good enough or that no one loves you. once you surround yourself with positivity and say yes to meeting friends you’ll realize that you are worthy and loved and you are loved for being you and nothing else.

I hope this helps!!

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To have someone who understands your mind and matches your vibe is a whole different level of intimacy.

Hands are unbearably beautiful, they hold on to things they let things go.

What should i do with these hands if they can’t hold you?

Give me your hands

My soul will sleep inside of them

Inside of them my soul will sleep for eternity

Her hand in mine and in my chest a garden.

But i still don’t know how to hold your hand without reading the ugliness of my own, but i can’t contain my soul from enveloping yours!

I clung to your hands so that something human might exist in the chaos.

I don’t know what to do without you, i don’t know where to put my hands.

“A bond between souls is ancient - older than the planet.”

— Dianna Hardy 

" ...there are rare moments when another soul dips near yours, as stars once a year brush the earth. Such a constellation was he to me."

Madelline Miller , Circe

I either urge to over explain myself or be left misunderstood. There is no in-between.