Man WHY THE FUCK ARE BOTS FOLLOWING ME!? Pissed Rn

vampire chuuya got me thinking...what if... feral?

I'm reading Kino's route and I'm falling love with him. He really really loves Yui. Such a baby boy 😭.

(THE BOOK OF BILL SPOILERS!!)

Thinking about Bill’s appearance at the end of the book…

[ID: BIll when confronting the Axolotl. He is shown in white silhouette, hovering in space, hovering neutrally. Notably, he has a massive crack running through his body, splitting him into multiple pieces, some of which are coming apart. /end ID]

When confronting the Axolotl, Bill is broken. The Axolotl even notes this: "Shattered, broken, not yet dead."

(Which, side note, makes me think Bill might have been lying about having been "kicked out of Hell," if he didn't actually die in Stan's head.)

[ID: Three pictures of Bill in the Theraprism. The first one shows him holding his hand against the side of his head in a dazed expression, sitting in a chair in a white padded room between a wizard with a clock for a face and Saturn (taken directly from the painting Saturn Devouring His Son). The second is a camera recording of him wearing an orange jumpsuit and kneeling in a cell, surrounded by arts and crafts tools, holding a pair of scissors, and beaming his thoughts frantically into a book. The third shows a mugshot of him staring blankly into the camera, his own name written on coded text below him. In all three images, he has a glowing scar where the cracks were, and is in one piece. /end ID]

When he's shown in the Theraprism, we see a glowing, static-y scar where the cracks were. The scar crosses his entire body (and even crosses to the other side of his eye without affecting it!), but he's actually whole, keeping himself together.

But then...

[ID: Two pictures of Bill from the last pages of the book. In the first one he is facing forward and holding up one finger, his eye reddened, his entire form glitching, and his crack is notably worse than prior, cracking through his eye, multiple smaller pieces drifting away. In the second one he is staring blankly at the viewer, his arms hanging limply, his eye wide and blank, the crack worse than the previous image, with more pieces floating away. /end ID]

In the last few pages, we see the scar is gone and the cracks are back, and even more of him is breaking away, including parts of his eye. It's especially bad in the last image, with even more pieces of him breaking away.

Also noteworthy is that the static texture behind him seems to be the same as the blood sample the US government took from him in the 1940s. He's bleeding.

We know from context that these images are meant to be taken somewhat chronologically. After dying (or nearly dying), Bill seeks out the Axolotl, who sends him to the Theraprism. While there, he writes the journal that he's beaming to us. The staff at the Theraprism catch onto this, and allow him to write out the last few pages, meaning those last few pages are chronologically the last of Bill we see.

This means that, after the events of the show, Bill was shattered... and then, upon entering the Theraprism, started to heal, his body coming together and scars forming... but at some point afterward, he started breaking apart again.

I'd made a post previously about Bill's development, how he views himself as a monster after the Euclidian Disaster, and how he continues to act monstrous afterward (and winds up agonizingly lonely as a result). I didn't really touch on this in the post, but I feel like after inadvertently destroying his home dimension...

Bill never left the denial phase of grief.

I could be wrong on this, but I get the feeling that part of his reason for acting monstrous toward just about everybody is because he sees himself as a monster, because "this is just how I am" is easier to accept than "I really really screwed up."

Bringing this back to his shattering... It's interesting to me that after entering the Theraprism, his body is scarring, which means it is healing. But then, at the end, as he's signing off the book, he's shattered again, and looking even worse than he did when talking to the Axolotl. When talking this over with a friend, they pointed out something that struck me:

Bill does not want to heal.

Healing means having to actually think through what happened. It means having to confront his past, confront destroying his home dimension, confront the harm he caused to others, confront the fact that he did not have to be this way.

And he refuses to do that.

He refuses to heal.

i just saw a new batch of characters for a mobile otome game and when we say “ayato is the blueprint” we mean it. the red hair + sharp green eyes + edgy look ayato introduced is so popular even years later, people still use him as the standard for ML’s in games. it’s just… such a good design and so recognizable too. i just love him so much and his influence is everywhere!! ayato is the IT boy.

// Sometimes I feel like Western fandom really underestimates Ayato, when his visuals were literally revolutionary.

I doubt he was the first character with those features, yet he was the trendsetter. A bunch of otoge boys are designed to resemble him, but with different eye or hair colors, and when people see them, they'll immediately think of Ayato.

Another thing to mention is that Ayato is visually perfect. He has the most desirable features, and I’ve even seen people getting insecure for not looking as pretty as him. Of course, they shouldn’t do that but that’s inevitable to happen when the character represents the ideal of beauty. Even his body is confirmed the ideal one.

Ayato has always been popular in terms of design but in recent years, his appearance and personality have made him HUGE. He’s so famous that people don’t even care about polls anymore, for the mere reason that whether he wins or not, he’s impact, visuals and sales remain unmatched.

Last but not least, I really advise people not to compare themselves to fictional characters. I know Ayato is gorgeous but his visuals are realistically impossible to achieve. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, after all.

Yui komori Eva

17 years old 21 years old

Human Vampire

sacrificial bride Queen of demons

I love the ugliness of love. Removing love from its socially accepted roots. Love as not a mere source of tragedy and sadness, but as an active corruptive power over those it mystifies. Love as the addiction without cure and the wound forever bleeding. I love seeing the beauty of something so coveted spun on its head.

Dabi/Touya Todoroki Meta Posts

(All these posts are written by several different writers/bloggers, not by me…)

When did Endeavor give up on Touya?

Dabi’s Found Heart

Touya & Tenko’s tears

Touya’s scarred heart

The Todoroki Legacy

Touya’s self-suicide

Was it ooc for Touya to not care about Natsuo?

Touya in PL war arc

Touya VS Shoto parallel

Touya VS Hawks parallel

Touya VS Tenko parallel

Touya’s fears of feelings and connections

Touya’s quote on Hero society

Touya VS Shoto parallel - 2

Touya’s sad expression

Villains - The Origin

The reason behind Touya’s tears

The Todorokis & the Shimuras

Endeavor for Touya’s sake

Touya earned Enji’s respect & fear

Touya’s emotions

Touya: A deeply hurt child

Touya VS Shoto parallel - 3

Touya to Shoto: “A Half-Baked Puppet”

Touya’s cat behavior

Touya VS Hawks parallel - 2

Touya, Society & Empathy

Touya VS Joker parallel

Touya exposing Enji to the public VS real-life Asian culture

What type of murderer is Touya?

Touya, Tenko & Hawks parallel

Deku to Touya in PL war arc

Effects of Emotional abuse

Enji to Touya: What went wrong?

Is Touya really abusing Shoto?

The Todoroki Family discourse

Touya VS Bakugo parallel

Touya VS Deku parallel

Touya’s accidental death

No one should be called a ‘villain’ for the rest of their lives

Heroes: Their crimes & punishment

Touya Todoroki: A good & caring person?

What exactly is Dabi’s ideology/philosophy?

The Todoroki family was never okay from the very start

Touya & his 3 years of comatose

Deku to Touya in PL war arc - 2

Touya, Enji, Shoto & Bakugo: Their metabolism

Understanding Little Touya’s behavior

Touya & his hair in various colors: The symbolism

Touya is a POWERHOUSE

Meaning of Touya - Touya & Arrows

Meaning of Touya - Touya & Lanterns

Enji naming his 1st son 'Touya’ VS the symbolism behind his super moves

Shoto to Touya VS Enji to Touya - The parallel

Touya Todoroki - The Dancer in The Dark

A daily reminder of abuse and trauma ft. Touya & Tenko

Enji to Touya VS All Might to Deku - The parallel

“Being different is scary”

Shoto to Touya: Hot udon & family grief

Touya, Tenko & Toga - “The house that denied me”

Touya & his friendship

Dabi meta compilation by dreamersleeps

Touya’s trolley problem

Touya & his siblings

Touya VS Aoyama - A Disposable life

Touya’s tears - Now VS Then

“A hero to whom?”

Touya & The Todorokis - Lost in darkness & distance

Touya, Tenko & Toga - “What does it mean to save?”

Touya & Hawks - Actions VS Justification

Toga to Touya - “Maybe you’re just bad at judging others”

Touya VS Stain: Their body count

Touya and the age gap between his siblings

Touya becoming Dabi: Endeavor’s reality check

Touya VS Shoto parallel - 4 

Touya to Rei - A Complicated Love 

Dabi, Gojo & Eren - Fuckboys Or Not?  

The Todoroki bros & their soba noodles 

Dabi just won’t die 

Shoto’s “Touya-Nii” 

The Sacrificial Lamb: Analyzing Touya’s quirk reveal 

Dabi: On Twice’s Death 

Dabi VS JJK’s Maki Zenin 

Todoroki Family Abuse Analysis  

Dabi VS JJK’s Maki Zenin: Part-2  

Endeavor’s Behavior Towards Touya: Mental & Emotional Abuse 

Understanding little Touya Todoroki’s behavior 

Touya and Rei’s complex relationship    

Little Touya Todoroki’s Trauma 

Kid Touya’s age and it’s significance  

League of Villains: Redemption Discourse 

Touya VS Deku parallel - 2 

Rei and Touya: A mother and son 

Touya to Toga: “Let’s smile, Himiko Toga.” 

Touya and Toga: The Villain Siblings 

Touya to Endeavor: “You lit the fire in me, Dad” 

The Tragedy of Touya Todoroki: Being Lied to and Discarded vs Just being neglected  

Touya-Nii-San: MHA’s Fuji Shikimori 

Dabi/Touya Todoroki: A Virgin, The Purest  

The Tragedy of Touya Todoroki 

Dazai and Odasaku have a fascinating connection I never noticed before, their views on killing for justice.

Dazai Osamu's entrance exam

He looked far off into the distance. “The phrase ‘seeking justice’ is a weapon. Once it hurts the weak, it can no longer be a force of good. This justice the Azure King sought was what killed Sasaki.”

The untold origins of the armed detective agency

“Justice,” said the hit man. “I can understand killing for money or because you hated someone, but they’re killing for justice. I don’t want to get involved with a group like that. After they’re done killing for their justice, they’ll only continue to kill. They’ll just stop caring who they’re killing.”

It's very interesting that two characters who both have no issue with killing people and have killed hundreds themselves see the incredible danger of "killing for justice"

Killing for greed, killing for revenge, killing for boredom... all of these are personal things, they stay focused on the person who's doing the killing, but if you kill because you think it's right, then you will seek out more people to kill unendingly "Their religion is heresy", "Their whole country is evil", "They don't respect my authority" and soon even people who have done nothing wrong are killed because "they could be a threat later"

The moment you justify killing, you can never stop, there will always be more criminals who deserve to die, and soon it won't matter if they deserved it or not.

guys i NEED sebaciel fanfic recommedations

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START

i have no regrets