TW: Venting, Emotional Abuse

TW: Venting, Emotional Abuse

This time next year I should finally be able to escape my abusive parents and this cult. I'm doing well with my internship and it even got extended, so maybe it will lead to a job. My mom is the main abuser and so my dad and I would always vent to each other, we both wished we could leave. That's why what he said to me yesterday has made me unbelievably angry.

So if you get the job and they let you work remote, do you want to get a bigger place with the family?

Ever since I actually made it clear i would eventually move out he has struggled to accept it. Asking "are you sure you and your mom can never get along?" or "are you going to leave me all alone?" It was manipulative but I knew he was scared and in the past I always indulged their fantasy of me helping support them financially and living together. But for him to say that now, after me sharing my feelings to him frequently and knowing the pain living here brings me. For him to say that knowing we were outside simply because being in those 4 walls with her makes me panic...

I knew he was going to abandon me when I finally left Watchtower, but I still believed he was just my misguided dad. I felt pity, still kinda do. But after this I just can't excuse his behavior anymore. He really fucking sucks if he looks at all the trauma this family has caused me and goes "but is stealing your money still in the cards?"

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3 years ago

Xtianity fucked me up so much that even the idea of being straight felt awful to me.

You teach a child that attraction is evil but men will be attracted to her and sometimes show it in undesirable ways because that's how God made them... and tell her that her body hurts and bleeds every month because God cursed her for a sin she didn't commit and also tell her a man will take over her surname and life because God granted him an authority he didn't earn.

Despite the threat of hellfire for being gay, I was more averse to the idea of attraction to men than women because men were supposed to strip me of my autonomy, safety, humanity. Because 'husband' was a synonym for tyrant. At least, this is what I was taught, as if it was the right and only thing.

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2 years ago

Reminders for the angry apostates

💥 You are allowed to be furious with your abusers   💥 You are not obligated to forgive anyone to be a good person. 

💥 Cutting someone abusive out of your life is self care. 

💥 Wishing someone who hurt you would die so they can’t hurt you anymore is not an evil thought. You are allowed to wish for relief.

💥 Just because someone is related to you doesn’t give them the right to hurt you, nor the right to be in your life. This goes for parents and siblings as well. 

💥 Only you get to decide if what happened to you was abuse. They do not get to tell you it wasn’t “bad enough”.

💥 You are allowed to ghost people who make you feel shitty. You are not obligated to be the bigger person and explain why you are leaving. 

💥 You are not required to fix anyone, to explain why their actions have hurt you or give anyone another chance. 

💥 You are not evil or corrupted for being angry. 

💥 Your anger is there to protect you. Make sure it doesn’t end up hurting yourself or your actual loved ones, but don’t be afraid to let it out when you need it. 

Before anyone tries to clown around on this post because it doesn’t align with your personal morals, please note: make your own post. 

2 years ago
A Moment Of Light During The Siege

A moment of light during the siege

3 years ago

Not sure who needs to see this, but if a Service Dog starts backing into you, pushing you away from their handler, or they sit down at a leash distance from their handler

You Should Move Away.

They are performing a task known as "spacing" or "blocking" that helps reduce or prevent anxiety in their handler.

They are NOT "asking for pets" or being disobedient or asking to be spoken to. All you have to do is stay back from the dog and handler.

This is not a capslock PSA because I'm not sure how many people that don't have a SD actually know this is a trained task.

4 years ago

This and the fic based on it are just art bro

Lmao I Did This For The Angst, But Yeah Fuck It, In My Au Bakugou Slaps Kirishima And Drinks The Poison
Lmao I Did This For The Angst, But Yeah Fuck It, In My Au Bakugou Slaps Kirishima And Drinks The Poison

lmao i did this for the angst, but yeah fuck it, in my au bakugou slaps kirishima and drinks the poison anyway while glaring at kirishima and they get married. the end

3 years ago

Yo anyone else developing a phobia of asking for help since all the people who are willing to help you require your allegiance to an abusive cult to acknowledge your existence 😎


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4 years ago

If I had actually read the post I would have known this is a knowledge test, but I saw uquiz and immediately thought "lol which pasta am I?" Needless to say I was disappointed when I received a grade instead of my pastasona.

HEY TAKE MY PASTA UQUIZ AND SEE HOW MANY TYPES OF PASTA YOU KNOW

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I worked so hard on it I even added descriptions to the answers


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3 years ago

Petition to refer to TERFs as FARTs, which stands for Feminist Appropiating Reactionary Tranaphobe

3 years ago

It's honestly really sad to see what Pixar has to say about the possibility of queer characters or themes in Luca. Of course they never say anything especially problematic (Mickey Rat has got to keep making that pride merch money), but it hurts to see it directly dismissed. That there is nothing relating romance at all and it's just about "misfits".

Seeing companies like Disney control animation is depressing when it feels like minorities will always be sidelined so they can be edited out overseas. I want stories that acknowledge my existence, even in subtle ways, instead of being a dirty secret that fans gather crumbs online to prove.

This isn't to say that I still don't love the queer themes in Luca, or that the director's intention for the film isn't valid. I just want more.


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