I feel bad for the non-cult friends I have sometimes because they always ask "How are you :) ?" so innocently. They say they genuinely want to know cause I hold back, and it's nice to have that support. Still, it feels bad to always have a new horrible thing happen that's shaken you.
Sure I'm growing so much as a person and I love that, but I'm also dealing with my parents increasingly abusive behavior and struggling to organize my escape plan. All anyone can really do is say "It will get better!" Truely I believe that too, yet I still have to suffer now and I cant make myself ignore it anymore. I'm tired of being miserable no matter what I do. Everything that can be done has been, so now I helplessly flounder.
Even to this blog, it feels bad to not offer any insight or clear hope. I've seen so many people in similar situations who aren't lucky enough to know they should be done with this in less than a year. I just wish it would stop hurting...
I know I go on fuck terf rampages every couple of months, but it's really alarming how many people in the ex cath and Christian tags have "terfs dni" in their bio and yet interact with and reblog posts from terfs!!
it can be hard to spot dogwhistles, but if you consider yourself an ally to trans women you have to make the effort. here are my tips for spotting terfs:
(disclaimer: i am a white, transmisogyny exempt trans lesbian, from a very white part of the united states. i was raised catholic, clearly am not anymore.)
If on desktop, download shinigami eyes. This is a browser extension that shows transphobic people in red, and trans allies in green.
Block the tags "radical feminism", "gender critical", and "terf safe". when these posts pop up on your feed, you can usually find a whole chain of terfs to block.
red flags in bios: excessive use of the word female; the word goddess; most mentions of vagina, vulva, or womb; the phrase "gender critical"; mentions of pagan goddesses (more on this below)
i have less than 100 followers on this blog, so i understand that this is not viable for people with larger followings, but if you take 30 seconds to search the word "trans" on a new follower's blog, you see either positive or negative posts about trans people.
another common red flag i see a lot is defensiveness over whiteness. i saw a post recently in the ex christian tag that said "well i am white and live in a predominantly white area but i am still oppressed by the patriarchy!!" and when i went to her blog she ticked off every point on this list.
i specifically mentioned pagan deities earlier. i know that a lot of people, once they have left christianity, jump into pagan religions and they find a lot of solace in them. most of these people are fine. but there is so much rampant transmisogyny, misognoir, and antisemitism in the pagan and witchcraft community, that anyone who advertises this on their blog instantly becomes a red flag to me (and I'm usually right).
I really implore everyone in the ex christian and ex catholic community here on tumblr to start taking action, and start blocking terfs. don't engage, don't argue with them, DO NOT GIVE THEM A PLATFORM, just block them, tell your friends to block them, and move on.
A Genie offers you one wish, and you modestly wish to have a very productive 2017. The genie misunderstands, and for the rest of your life, every 20:17 you become impossibly productive for just 60 seconds.
i really do wish there was more support in place for ex-muslim women, online or elsewhere. it feels like most of us hesitate to speak too publicly about this because we're scared it will just feed into the islamophobic and racist sentiments many people already have, i know i do.
but alot of the major ex-muslim orgs and spaces i've come across are full of men who might have left the religion but not the misogyny lmao. hell even on here most ex-muslims have just decided to trade one bigotry for another and go full blown t//rf. like there really isnt a space we can talk about and criticize our experiences without people using it as fuel for their own personal bigoted beliefs, whether its racism or misogyny or transphobia.
I just watched infinity train season two, and the main character is amazing! When you leave you a cult you don't just have to rebuild how you view the world, but also yourself. You have to stop trying to change yourself. You have unlearn the teachings that condemned individualality. You have to loudly scream that "I exist!" The character's whole arc revolves around these ideas making her extremely relatable.
Characters that I hold close to my heart as an ex-cult kid
The entire cast of The Path (Hulu) • Venus, Jupiter and Neptune of We Know The Devil (PC game) • Rapunzel (fairy tale) • Lapis Lazuli of Steven Universe • Aziraphale and Crowley of Good Omens (Gaiman & Prachett) • Lake of Infinity Train • Bucky Barnes of Marvel • Mark Grayson of Invincible (Kirkman) • Abigail Hobbs of Hannibal (NBC)
Yes I am aware he has committed atrocities but have you considered that he’s my special guy
i always thought i might be bad now i’m sure that it’s true cause i think you’re so good and i’m nothing like you
look at you go i just adore you i wish that i knew what makes you think i’m so special
Made this with a picrew that was cute and great for pride month! I like how customizable it is. Makes me wish I had a button maker tho.
I'm a queer nerd with religous trauma, let's be friends! Icon by @haxxydraws
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