Worried That Thing You Put In Your Art Or Writing Or Game Or Music Is Too Self-indulgent, Too Self-referential,

Idk if this applies to neurotypicals as well or even other autistics but I think I figured out why I hate talking on the phone:

I can’t multitask and am understimulated.

An in-person conversation demands you pay attention to where someone is in the room, their expressions and body language, even if you’re distracted while talking to them *your* body language can make it clear that you’re still listening.

Text, on the other hand, does not need an immediate real-time response so I can be doing 3 different things and not have to worry about mishearing or not hearing something someone says because it’s in text right there.

But a phone conversation? I have no one to look at and have no expressions and body language to rely on for the “I’m listening I promise” cues, and I can’t see what they’re saying so it’s really easy to miss words unless I’m solely focused on the phone conversation. Which means I can’t do anything else that requires split focus and have to stop everything else that I’m doing to devote entirely to this call.

Text has its own problems lacking tone and inflection, but in terms of “why I hate phone calls” this awkward middle ground of focus is like an itch I can’t scratch.

C A N E N D A R

YOU play video games to feel powerful. I play video games to feel new, previously undiscovered shades of grief and sadness. we are NOT the same.

I think one of the dumbest things people do is complain about video games not being “Hard Enough” for other people.

Can’t stand someone having fun? Having a good time? A good fun time playing a game?

Baldwin is a cool name. It is the opposite of Hairloss

sexymen and trisha dont discriminate between the sinners and the saints ig

I! *flips table* LOVE! *kicks wall* VIDEO GAMES! *chugs carton of orange juice* THAT! *throws lamp* EXPERIMENT! *sets couch on fire* WITH! *dumps whole bag of jelly beans into mouth* DIFFERENT! *stabs knife into coffee table* STYLES! *does backflip* OF! *gently moves potted plant* GAMEPLAY! *knocks over bookshelf* TO! *rips stuffing out of pillow* TELL! *topples trash can* THEIR! *breaks window* STORIES!!!! *explodes*

If you see me randomly start smiling out of nowhere, know it's not because I have a crush on whatever; it's because I'm thinking about The Characters

"Delectable" is such a weird word. Like what's delect? What does it mean to delect something?

I just love starting off a new video game by wandering around a small, open, flat area for thirty minutes because I received the first fetch quest and immediately forgot what the character asked for. Just... in one ear, out the other. And it took me way too long to find where the quest log was, despite it literally being on the first page of the pause menu. And also despite almost immediately receiving a tutorial for collecting the resource I needed because it's right there when you first enter the area. Nope, I just... ran around... for thirty minutes...

Off to a great start! :)