DUDE MY ACTUAAL BESTIE

I will never be gentle again;

I will be the knife's edge, the syringe's needle, the gun's bullets;

I will die in a way so that when you find my body

It will hurt just as much

As if I had plunged a knife deep into your chest

the experience of being a teenager while also having strong self-awareness: look i Know in a couple of years this is all going to feel so silly but Man it sucks

scars

the scars on my skin

are the prettiest part of me

because of the effort

it took to carve them

with a single needle

and unbridled rage

i should have expected

that when you left

you would do so with a cold glare in your eyes

and a lie balanced on your tongue

who was i to think you would change?

after all

your favorite thing to do was lie to me

The one that ranked up

ALL FANFIC UPDATES WILL BE DELAYED I AM VERY SORRY BUT I AM CURRENTLY ESCAPING A HURRICANE

do you ever just randomly think about how sirius volunteered so regulus didn't have to go into the hunger games and then regulus ended up having to go anyway or are you sane

half of my writing process is whispering to my characters, “i’m so sorry for what i’m about to do to you”

august.

august.

oh, avidulous month!

laughter abating

to make room for abashedness

and the everarching

abnormalization

of what we are permitted

to accomplish

oh august!

i ask only this

of you:

let your month not be appaling

but appeal to the addictive sense

of apathy

and leave the abrasiveness

to the approaching months

my entire fyp has become, for some reason, poetry by men writing about women .

Which i appreciate. Because i love poetry .

but i am gay and i do not know where it came from.