Someone Go Tell My Home That I'm Homesick For Her.

She needs to recharge.

I hope

Why does this feel like a goodbye.

I was too weak

Now she is gone.

50 minutes and I am already waiting for her.

It's not like I love you. I just keep fantasizing

       but our futurr life  together these past weeks.

I don't think I've ever related to a character more than I do to crowly.

And it might sound pretentious. I relate to him not cause he's cool or dress nice. And aloof and unaffected by the world around him. For the most part.

Its because like him I too try to be cool and evil.

Because like him, I am also in love with my best friend.

Because like him I too talk to God when I am at my wits end.

Because like him I too want to run away with my best friend/ love of my life.

Away from all this bullshit. And i keep dropping hints and I know she knows, at least I am hoping. But I don't feel worthy.

But I will endulge in that hubris all the same.

But unlike him. If she gave me a choice of serving as her second in command. As long as it meant staying by her side. I will abandon all I am and join her.

Not sure what that makes me.

Another scene that should be in stormlight archive book 5

There is a commotion outside the tower. Even though there are 10 days left. Both sides are going to be making moves.

Kaladin sees the early signs of conflict and is worried. Humans and singers are about to clash. They had been called to discuss a seize fire but on both sides there are those who bent on fighting.

Kaldin looses it. In a fit of cold rage he jumps into the sky.

"Windrunners!" He calls out. Tho he no longer A soldier. Every windrunner and squire joins him in the sky without question.

"There will be no more fighting" kaladin roars. His voice like the storms. Eyes ablaze with a tint of red.

"In 10 days the war will end. There are many among you who just want to life. You are free to join us. I and all of the windrunners will protect you. Humans or singer or anyone. And if you wish to fight we'll fight you too"

A regal flie out to attack kaladin but he finishes him swiftly.

Then slowly the murmmers die down.

Kaladin calms and gets back to the clinic like nothing happened.

Some time later kaladin is walking through the tower when we sees solders rushing forward. Some singers had accepted their offer to enter the tower till the war ends. Many had returned to alethkar.

He grunts as he goes to investigate. Queen is there surrounded by guards. Who are facing singers with spears who are defending somebody on the ground.

Moash.

Kaladin suppresses the surge of anger. Looking at his former, now blind friend. Surround by singers.

"The traitor needs to be punished for his crimes" navani says.

The singers object. These are the singers that kaladin had helped. They see him but say nothing. They are still bitter with him.

"We won't let you take him" the singers yell.

"He is a traitor and dangerous. We cannot let him roam free" snarls a solder.

"Leave him in our care. We will take full responsibility for him. He... he's our friend"

Kaldin is torn.

Just then an impatient solder rushes out to attack the singers. Before kaladin can interfere. The singer disarms the solder and subdues him on the floor.

A move that kaladin recognized. The same move moash used on kaladin when kaldin had tried to go after dunny.

Kaladin steps forward glowing which shuts everyone up before a fight can break out and asks, where the singer learned that move.

The singer answers that moash taught them. That he helped them and protected them when kaladin betrayed and left them so they wouldn't be helpless.

Everyone is silent before kaladin advises singers to keep a close eye on moash from now on and walks away while moash makes a snide remark but kaladin keeps walking.

You have my sword my friend. (It's here somewhere I am sure.)

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happy autism acceptance month

From oh no I love her? to oh god I love her! to

       God why do I still love her????

Love Is a curse.

Tea for everyone who is visiting.

Let's see how this goes

In the next stormlight archive book I want scenes of kaladin with his grandparents. His grandfather hating larin and being fully supportive of kaladin as a soldier and giving dalinar a much needed reality check. Pulling everyone down from his high towers. Just causing unhinged chaos throughout and syl just vibing.