Reblog If Ur Doomed By The Narrative

I can do better to stay out of sight. Would that be good?

Even they told me “You are just naturally good at disappearing”

I can do that again. I can disappear.

Sometimes I feel like crying and curling up and crying more but I know if I let it out it’ll worry people and I still have energy to keep going.

I’m fine everyone I’ll be alright!

I just need to find a period of time to be alone while I break down!

I can’t afford to break down in front of you right now, and if I break down at home my mom will bother me about it.

All I can do is listen to opal! “You’re strong, I know you are!”

I’ll stay strong for all of you! I have time to rest when I’m alone!

NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO WHY NOW WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME NOW "I love you, and Im so sorry these horrible things keep happening to you."

WHY D WHY

hii :D what are you up to?!

nothing really right now!

I was about to go and bed rot because I have nothing else to do but I think I'll exercise before that :D

everything is going to shit

I regret every second of it and I would never treat anyone like that again.

I've learned from my mistake, I promise I have.

You don't have to believe me.

I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.

And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.

...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.

ngl talking with my brothers brought me so much clarity about my life.

I'm lucky to have what I have now.

I won't take the easy way out, because I promised I wouldn't.

i just need to sleep properly, I'll be a little better in the morning.

I've been getting better every day, I just had a bit of a doom mindset tonight.

Won't happen again though.

first vent post/introduction i guess?

So, first things first. I'm Ticking Time Bomb, which originates from my first interaction here, about me being an explosive landmine. I'm not a great person but I'm trying to get better.

I have a bunch of things fucked up with my life.

I kinda messed up some stuff with someone I consider my best friend.

My life is on a rapid decline, but i've pulled it up from rock bottom before.

fighting for my will to live rn

on the upside I got more VA work and my grades are decent and my brothers are talking to me more

on the downside i ruined my relationship and friendships, i constantly feel like crying, i still haven't even had a chance to stop and process my recent trauma, and these fucking wings wont go away or stop hurting. At least last time they started hurting they were my normal ones. these ones feel different and idk if this is a new kintype or something since I have felt this before but I REALLY don't need this rn especially with everyone around me.

ugh maybe ill leave it up to a coinflip like the last hard decision i made

I don't need a coinflip actually I control my own fate