Nope Nope Nope Nope Nope Nope

She wants a date.

She wants to share rent.

WHY RIGHT NOW D WHY RIGHT NOW

WHY DO YOU DECIDE TO BECOME MY GUARDIAN ANGEL RIGHT NOW

I APPRECIATE IT BUT THE CONFESSION IS REALLY BADLY TIMED

Bleeding into unbroken shoes feels like a crime. Scraping arms against ledges I shouldn't climb. These are things I should have hidden too. Because all they did was get to you.

...I'm sorry.

yeah im a jirai, the ladies (and gentlemen) call me the bomb 😔

you're a real fuckin jirai boy, aren't you

you're gonna be okay.

stay safe.

I know, I know I'll be okay. I know everything will be alright. I'll hold on with every last slice of energy I have to my name.

I've been beaten down before.

I just have to remember how to get back up.

Thank you anon.

This jirai wishes to be a child again but with a different/better childhood

I would never have done this again.

I despise the person I was and the way i treated you.

and yet i would have shoved it at you and ran away because regardless i want you to be alright

ill be fine, i already found ways to be okay.

focus on yourself right now. please.

you're the one who needs support, and i hope you're getting enough from everyone.

the reason i've been running away from you is because i hate seeing how you look at me these days.

i hope that soon, you'll be able to look at me normally again.

i made a joke about devil may cry and my friends didnt get it cuz they dk what i am so now im being roped into watching it during designated crashout time

maybe if D paid attention to ANYTHING i've said, she would know that im not interested in her

You've done enough damage, D. Leave my life once again

Taking time away is the only way for progress to be made at this point. My emotions are numbed for now but I know I’ll have a few breakdowns. That’s okay though. I have my brothers and I have my distant friends. This is the way I will grow. I don’t need to recover to progress with growth. The recovery can happen at the same time. I have lots of time, I don’t need to rush it.

As for my plans for school in the meantime, I think I’ll start hanging out with my classmates for once. There’s a few of them who interact with me on a normal basis.

I left some people waiting for me but I won’t rush to them. I need some time.

I will probably be posting some terrible stuff soon but I can almost guarantee I won’t act on any of my urges.