Ben Paul Aesthetic Board

Because the Truman Show had products and brands wanting to collaborate, do you think there have been some brands that failed? Like what if a big brand went through all the effort to get the product onto the Truman Show, just for Truman to hate it?

That had to be some type of gamble for the brand, right?

Like yeah you can get the brand advertised by the actors and across the town of SeaHaven, but there's also a risk that Truman will express disgust or hate towards it.

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Shauna Shipman - The true evil.

SEASON 3 SPOILERS

Before you keep reading, please do not try and rebuttal this post with, "You just don't understand a complex character."

I can understand the complexity of a character, and still dislike them.

During season 3, I became a Shauna Shipman hater and began wishing on her down fall, and it was genuinely infuriating to me watching her fall from my top 3 down to the very bottom. I went into season 3 loving teen Shauna AND adult Shauna (Melanie Lynskey stan btw).

I understood Shauna's anger and resentment towards the group in the beginning of the season. Shauna has arguably been through the most trauma out in the wilderness, with her going through a teen pregnancy, only for it to result in a stillborn (especially after having such vivid dreams of the baby being alive and her nursing him) and losing her bestfriend who she both loved and resented and having to eat her, with their last words shared with one another being an argument.

So when I found out that the others were literally praying to the spirit of her deceased baby (and Jackie), I was gob smacked. I stayed on the Shauna Ship because if that was me, I would've been pissed too. And Akilah trying to give Shauna a "special crown" because she's the mother was so disrespectful. I love Akilah, but I have to side with Shauna on this one. It was messed up, and I do not blame Shauna for moving the burial site without telling anyone.

But then the beef with Mari happened. I do get it, Mari was being a huge bitch, which wasn't really a huge surprise if you've watched the past two seasons. But literally spitting in Mari's food and then lying about it was crazy disrespectful, especially because food is a rarity for them. And then showing literally no care when Mari went missing. Someone pointed out that they think that Mari and Shauna beef originated in season 1 because Jackie used Mari to make Shauna jealous when they first went to the lake, and I believe it.

At this point in the season, I'm like, "Okay, Shauna's really derailing, but I can understand where her anger is coming from."

But then we have the trial of Coach Benjamin Scott. The way that Shauna resorted to intimidation to get the majority to vote to execute Ben was so frustrating. Everyone was conflicted and the vote was 50/50, UNTIL Shauna scared them. Which to be fair, if I was there, I probably would've voted to kill Ben, not because I believe that he was guilty, but because Shauna is literally terrifying. Especially the Achilles heel scene. Vile. Disgusting and disturbing.

Then Shauna gets crowned as leader, and my first thought was, "That is literally the worst choice you could've ever made, Lottie." Shauna is clearly not all their mentally right now and they've all been a first hand witness to her anger. Shauna is a terrible leader because she doesn't give a shit about the others, she hates all of them, which means she doesn't care about their safety and wellbeing, which is what a leader is supposed to do.

Don't even get me fucking started on Melissa being a devil on her shoulder at the start; "You feel that? That's power." Melissa pissed me off in the beginning, because she was literally throwing a whole forest onto the fire brewing inside of Shauna.

At this point in the show, I'm thinking, "Shauna is the worst, and it sucks that no one is saying anything about it."

But at that point, Shauna hasn't really done anything TOO crazy for anyone to be like, "This bitch is fucking crazy, she has to go."

Then the frog researchers show up. The way Shauna laughed and smiled her ass off when she witnessed the guy getting axed by Lottie, was genuinely pissing me off and disturbing. Also, I do not believe Shauna cared about Melissa's wellbeing when she got shot. The way she was so nonchalant about it did not seem genuine. Keeping Hannah's hair as a little fidget toy was a little weird, but not the weirdest thing they've done, so that gets a little pass.

Shauna choosing to stay infuriated me, but I could understand WHY she didn't want to leave. She's become accustomed to the wilderness. Her whole life revolved around Jackie, so what is her life going to look like without Jackie if she goes back to the real world? I believe her reason to stay was both fear and control. Shauna has all the power now. She's the leader. And she uses that to force the others to stay. And Natalie just letting her take the gun was so frustrating.

But the whole showdown between Shauna and Melissa was actually so fucked. I felt so bad for Melissa, because Shauna verbally berated her in front of everyone, shot at her and then smiled when Melissa wet herself.

At this point, Shauna has become irredeemable. She is thriving on violence and chaos, no matter where it is coming from and who it's directed at. You cannot convince me or tell me anything that could ever excuse that type of behavior, especially towards someone who Shauna is supposed to be in a relationship with (I used the word relationship loosely, btw). It's abuse.

At this point, I'm waiting for someone to humble her ass. Slap her back to reality or something.

And then, the finale happens. Mari gets the Queen, and Shauna shows no remorse or sadness. Mocking her by saying, "Tough break, Mar." and then laughing when Lottie starts counting. And if you notice, Shauna is literally the only person hunting Mari (which I made a whole separate post about). Watching the realisation on Shauna's face that 'Natalie' was actually Hannah, was so satisfying. It's almost as if the iron grip of control Shauna currently holds on the group begins to weaken before her eyes, especially when she turns and sees the others staring at her, fully aware of what has happened.

I loved Shauna Shipman in season 1 and 2, but she become a dictator in season 3. I could see where her anger and resentment towards the group originated from and even supported some of the actions she made BECAUSE of that resentment, but there are a lot of her actions that I cannot see reason to, other than doing malicious things without any real motive behind her actions, besides to enjoy watching people suffer.

(I am also aware of the racial discussion of cutting Mari's hair after her death. Not just that, but also how the show treats their POC characters in general. I've seen a lot of debates about this (Mari) and I do believe that there were some racist implications with choosing to use the hair of an indigenous person. I do think there is a difference between intent and how something is perceived. Just because the writers didn't intend for the scene to be offensive or racist, doesn't mean that it doesn't come off that way to their audience.)

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When the hyperfixation gets so bad you start building locations in roblox bloxburg

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A different AU

In this AU, Duck lives, Sarah lives and Mariana and Gabriel live. 

Let's imagine that Ben died with his classmates in the forest (along with his teacher and Travis).

That would mean the raid didn't happen and Duck never got bit

After completely running out of food and supplies, Lilly agrees to move on

(In this playthrough, Lee chooses Carly, leaving Doug to die)

(Sorry all you Doug fans, but I'm going with Carly cause I've seen most play throughs where the player saves Carly and personally I would save Carly myself)

After packing up everything, they all get in the van and leave the motel

Clementine and Duck talk about cartoons as the rest of them sits in silence

Tension continues to grow as Kenny continues to drive

Lilly and Carly argue (Lilly is growing paranoid that someone is stealing)

Kenny hits the walker and they all get out of the van to settle this argument

They all argue and Carly tears into Lilly

Carly is shot dead on the side of the road shocking everyone

Kenny tells Katjaa to keep Duck away from the windows but Clementine and Duck saw everything already

Lee leaves Lilly on the side of the road and they all get back in the van

Kenny calls Lee up to the front where he finds out Katjaa is bitten

(I don't really know what would happen if Katjaa lived instead of Duck)

(Alot of the Duck lives aus I've read kill of Katjaa, but they don't explain how she was killed off and when)

Lee sits with Clem on the couch and informs her of Katjaa's predicament.

Lee has the dream, fearing if Clementine was in the same situation as Katjaa

Lee wakes up and Kenny announces there's a derailed train in their way. They all get out to sit on some logs near the train. Kenny asks Lee if he can find some water for Katjaa as Duck sits with her quietly.

Lee takes care of the dead walker in one of the compartments and finds a bottle of water and a map. He also finds some tools. Lee presses a blinking light hesitanting.

He goes outside and gives Katjaa the water before figuring out how to start the train.

Lee soon meets Chuck who gives both Clem and Duck candy

Everyone gets on the train and begin to leave

Katjaa, whose becoming weaker and weaker every second, tells Lee to stop the train after a couple of hours on the train.

After convincing Kenny to stop the train, everyone gets off.

Kenny tries to tell Duck to stay, but being as stubborn, Duck becomes angry and tells his dad off

Hesitantly, they all walk into the woods. They reach a certain part and Kenny gently places Katjaa against a tree. Lee watches as they all say their final goodbyes. Kenny aims the gun towards Katjaa and Duck looks away, not bearing to see the sight of his mother being shot by his own father.

Kenny is too scared to pull the trigger and Lee offers to do it. Kenny and Duck cry together as Lee puts Katjaa to rest. They then begin going back to the train.

Chuck then gives Lee advice which Lee follows, giving Clem and a hair cut and teaching Clem to the shoot.

(In the game, Ben would come forward after Lee gives Clem a haircut)

The train comes to a stop shocking everyone. They all get out as Kenny screams at the hanging truck.

They meet Omid and Christa on top of the bridge

Duck stays with his dad as Clem and Lee go to the train station where they work to together to kill some walkers and find a blowtorch

Omid and Lee cut the tanker down, Chuck notices the massive herd coming towards them.

Omid not wanting to jump, Lee pushes him off and jumps off with him. Omid hurts his leg and helps Christa and Omid on the train

They escape the herd and Lee finds out someone has been talking to a man on her radio

The arrive at Savannah and the bell rings, Lee sees a figure on the church roof. The radio turns on and the man speaks to them. Christa gives Lee a nasty look after they find out the radio works.

A large herd appears forcing the group to move from the streets.

(Instead of Ben running away from Clem, Chuck is already there to save Clem from the walkers)

They reach a manor and Lee tries to find a way inside

Lee notices a dog flap which requires a chip, Lee digs up the dead dog for its collar which saddens Duck.

Clementine takes the dog collar from Lee before crawling inside, Lee praises Clem after.

Lee finds Kenny up in the attic seeing the boy like Duck, Kenny says he wouldn't know what to do if Duck turned into a walker

After burying the boy he sees someone watching.

Kenny and Lee go to the docks and meet Molly, where they discover Clem has followed them

Lee escapes through the sewers and discovers that Chuck killed himself and the walkers have devoured him

Lee finds a propped up sign to find an entrance to an underground bunker. Lee manages to calm down the group.

Vernon and Lee return to the manor with Vernon seeing Kenny drunk off his skunk and Christa tells him how Omid is getting worse by the minute

Lee then goes outside to find Clem then hears banging from the shed, Clem bursts out of the door knocking Lee over.

They see the boat and Kenny says they need gas and a battery

They all agree to leave Crawford and find the truth

Kenny goes to find gas as Vernon and Christa attempt to open the medical room as Brie stays with Clementine and Duck

Lee heads out to find the battery and meets up with Molly and they are able to get a batery

After watching the videos they confront Molly and she tells the truth

Since Ben is not alive, the hatchet stays in the door, but their are so many walkers they manage to break through anyway

Brie holds the door as Kenny tries to break through the armoury door (Ben isn't there which means they don't fight)

Brie is killed by the walkers forcing the group into the armoury

They run up the stairs to the bell tower and Lee kills the walkers slowly making his way up.

Lee climbs out of the window and they make their way back to the manor where Omid wakes up

After arguing with Vernon, Lee says goodbye to Molly and heads up to the study

After Clementine cries about not finding her parents, Lee leaves

The next day Lee can't find Clem and asks Duck who says she went outside earlier and continues to talk to Christa and Omid

Lee goes outside where he finds her hat and her walkie

When he grabbed her walkie, a walker reached out and bit him, Lee kills it and reaches for her hat, only to see the bite mark.

They all run out hearing Lee shout, he shows the bite mark and he decides it's more important to find Clementine, Lee thinks it's Vernon who took her

They all leave, Duck stays close to Kenny as he's told

They enter the sewer system

The stranger tells Lee that Clem is fine, saying that he isn't Vernon and to choose his words carefully, he tells Lee she's safer with him, they have a city of walkers between them, Lee figures out he has to be in the city

Duck talks to Omid as Lee searches the morgue to find a way out

He finds some tools in a closet before he passes out

Lee wakes up to find Kenny about to chop his arm off, Lee agrees, Lee faints again and wakes up with his stump bandaged

Walkers begin breaking in and Lee finishes opening the elevator shaft and the group hurries in

After climbing the ladder to the roof, they figure out a way to the mansion

Kenny tells Duck to not look at all the walkers through the streets

Duck glances at them quickly before looking up at his dad nodding

Lee uses the ladder to go to the bell tower and rings it, managing to jump from the tower to the roof

Duck tells him he's awesome as the rest congratulate him

They climb down teh fire and escape to the street to reach the manor

Duck sits silently as Omid opens the shed to find the boat missing and a note from Vernon

Kenny shouts in rage, leading walkers to froce them into the manor

The group run upstairs, Kenny shouting at Duck to go upstairs

They are then pushed up to the attic

As Lee figures out the wall is rotten as Kenny shows Duck how to shoot at random things in the attic

Omid breaks through the wall and find a couple who killed themselves

Duck stares sadly at them before Kenny makes him look away

They all get to the marsh house from the balcony, Christa is the last to jump but the balcony collapses. She manages to grab a pipe on her way down and holds on tightly

Kenny and Lee goes down to save her, Christa gets to the ground safely with the help of Kenny and Lee

Walkers corner them and Kenny closes the gate where Christa and Lee ran.

Kenny tells Lee to look after Duck before he shoots at the walkers

They climb back up and tell Omid and Duck their dead

Duck breaks down and Omid and Christa comfort him

After a few minutes, Duck becomes silent and seems calmer

He looked down at the herd before saying one last goodbye to his dad before they left

Lee tells Duck he's strong as they continue along the rooftops

Duck nods silently

Lee leaves the three and makes it to the Marsh house

Lee is then held at gunpoint by the stranger

They talk about all the choices Lee has made since the drugstore, not saving Doug, taking Clem to the farm, killing Larry, leaving Lilly on the side of the road and stealing from his family

Clem breaks out and Lee and the stranger fight, Clem kills the stranger and they escape cutting the walker open and covering Clem with blood and guts

Clem takes her hat back and sees her parents, Lee faints and drags Lee to a jewellery store for safety

Lee tells her he's not gonna make it and tells Clem a final lesson (If I played I would choose keep your hair short, because it's smart but it's also really sweet)

Clementine says one last goodbye to Lee and shoots him, not wanting him to become a walker

She leaves the store and walks through Savannah to the area near the train

She meets up with Omid, Christa and Duck who managed to make it out of Savannah and were looking for her

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They’re the same picture. 

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Watching S10 EP4 of TWD and I love the small interaction between Eugene and Luke at like 33:10. They’re with a small group discussing about the whisperers and that Rachel had called for some backup. And Eugene normally references shit that no one actually knows or pays attention to his extended responses. So I absolutely loved Eugene’s reaction to Luke acknowledging his reference to the “illustrious cockroach family.”

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I’m rewatching the office and I’ve picked up the habit of saying how much I love Andy out loud when he does something hilarious and then immediately start grieving after being instantly reminded of how the writers did him dirty and ruined his character :(

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Is Ben queasy around blood or not?

In Season 1, Episode 2, when Lee, Mark and Kenny encounter David, Travis and Ben in the woods, Lee can cut off David’s leg or Mark shoots Travis by accident. When David loses his leg, Mark and Travis approach to look at him and Travis turns away to puke and then Ben has a look and just looks uncomfortable. But in Episode 4, if Ben is the only one to go with Lee, he’ll faint whilst Lee cuts off his arm.

Which is it?

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Yesterday while watching a youtuber play The Walking Dead Game season 1, I noticed a really cool detail that I absolutely love. In the drugstore, Kenny basically takes the role of leadership after Larry’s heart stunt. He gives orders to everyone and when he reaches Carley, he tells her to keep watch with Doug and she replies with,

“Yes boss”

And the camera changes to Lilly with her dad and you can SEE how much Carley’s choice of words affects Lilly. The amount of change in her facial expression is incredible. Lilly’s expression just shows how much she strived to be the leader of the group.

Aaaaand that’s it. 

idk :)

Recently I’ve been playing Animal Crossing New Horizons. I got it for Christmas and took a long pause before I started again last month and I’ve been hunting for my dream villagers. And right now I’m hunting for Benjamin, a lazy dog villager. I’m trying to find him because of the name, his appearance and I haven’t had a dog villager, ever. Also he reminds me of Ben Paul.

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