Ah Yes, My Favorite Anime Character, Martyn Littlewood.

Low quality doodles from my sketchbook

please don’t judge me. *disappears back to the pit of insanity from wence I came*

Hello! You asked for characters and numbers so, uh, here's some :D

Characters: Scott, Gem, Martyn, Joel, Pearl

Numbers: 5, 3, 6, 4, 10

Oh my gosh Rain thank you sm!!! I got a drawing ask from deityoftherain I feel so famous lol. Unfortunately I don’t have the time to get to all of them right now, but I’ve got one done, and hopefully in the future when I have more time I can do more of them (I'm particularly excited by the one I have planned for Scott, flower husbands my beloved they were literally my first fandom love, so I neeeed to do a piece with them)

but yeah here is my piece for my number 4 song: Sleep, by My Chemical Romance, with Pearlescent Moon

I wanted it to feel like a glitchy and vaguely haunted old cassette tape, because that’s always what I picture when I hear the recording in the beginning of the song. I didn’t quite manage to capture the vibe I was going for, but I’m proud of the drawing overall. Also I messed up the lyrics slightly- it’s good night not good bye -and it’s driving me insane but I don’t have time to fix it lol. Also 4:42 is the length of the song. Ramble about why I chose red pearl for this piece under the cut (I will admit it was something of a coin flip between whether this song would go to Pearl or Joel, but in the end there was another song on the list that I really wanted to use Joel for. Also Joel would never feel bad about the murder lol /silly) vvvvvvvvv

This song feels so Pearl to me because it’s talking all about how haunted the person feels (technically The Patient from the black parade but I just tried to go off of what the individual song is about rather than the album lore) by all of the bad things they’ve done in the past, claiming not to feel bad and saying their irredeemable, while simultaneously condemning themselves and torturing themselves with guilt. They don’t think they’re worthy of being saved because of “the monsters that [they’ve] been” and sort of switching back and forth between a sort of morbid joy at the freedom of giving in to being unforgivable because they don’t have to search for forgiveness and a terrible sorrow and regret and fear at the destruction in their past, the loss that they caused themselves and are now suffering for, the guilt over the people they’ve hurt. They see no redemption for themselves, and feel both pain at the horrors that set them on this path and peace at letting their worst natures consume them, no longer having to try to walk backwards and instead marching forwards on the path of darkness and, if we tie it back to the album lore, the parade of death. If you have to be there, why not take the lead?

a redraw of my very first mcyt fanart!

I’m not gonna show the og because it was truly terrible, but I tried to keep mostly the same elements. It was from when I was deep into my flower husbands brainrot arc.

it’s day threeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is probably my favorite piece out of all the ones I’ve prepared so far, although I’m a little nervous to share given that I put a poem on it and I’m not much of a writer, but I’m really proud how it came out in the end regardless. I wanted to go for a style reminiscent of a dark fairytale, and tried to challenge myself by going out of my comfort zone for pretty much every aspect of this piece lol. Also I signed my name all fancy because idk I wanted too.

The sketch I did which I’m also pretty proud of below the cut, I made it at like 3 am so excuse some of the weirdness lol vvvv

The poem ended up being a lot longer in the actual thing.

Day 173 is unfinished Joel Smallishbeans design list!

I tried to do traditional and cyber punk kind of Japanese style but I don't really like how both of them turned out ;-;

We got Ariana Griande. Now we get Joelina Carpenter. Look out hermits in drag club you’ve got a new member!! (By the way this whole post in not serious. I’m making a silly pun because that’s kind of my branding)

Assorted low quality doodles:

Because I’m back in the building again (never left lol) I will probably make some Joelina related boat boys posts.

A new champion takes the stage,

A celestial wonder we shall now engage.

We ponder what it may be,

Another cosmic body to join our gle—

what the fuck

lurv ur art it is butter and sprinkles and hot chocolate and other nice things. A smallishbeans, perhaps, for the Jeremys? Jere..Jeremies? Jere…you know what I’m trying to say spell. Joel fans. Fans of Joel. Even smaller beans, if you will (or if you won’t). In any case, love ur art!!!!!

2 for the price of one!

smalletho demolition lovers au?

//CW: Blood

I mean it’s too perfect. Psychopathic bisexual demonic serial killer x depressed emo angelic weapons dealer? I couldn’t resist lol. if you want story context and/or to have a good cry, look up the lore to three cheers for sweet revenge by my chemical romance it’s beautiful and very very sad, which for MCR is also very very on brand. Anyway internet please validate me and my efforts I spent a really long time on this.

what if I drew the bad boys as that one photo of three out of four of the killjoys?

Bigb and Pearl voices because I think collectively they would be dr. Death defying : “Look alive sun shine! 109 in the sky…

I’m could write out the whole monologue but I’m not going to for you guys sake.

The photo vvv

*resisting the temptation to make a danger days au*