Since I Was Very Young, I’ve Been Terrified Of My Own Potential To Do Evil. No Vision Or Dream Taught

i need to get addicted to completing tasks

Soft speak with a mean streak nearly brought me to my knees

faith existed before religion. like how communication existed before language.

anyone wanna take me out back and shoot me like an old dog

TransSisters: Transsexual Feminist Journal | misc. covers

The opposite of anxiety is not calmness, it is desire. Anxiety and desire are two, often conflicting, orientations to the unknown. Both are tilted toward the future. Desire implies a willingness, or a need, to engage this unknown, while anxiety suggests a fear of it. Desire takes one out of oneself, into the possibility of relationship, but it also takes one deeper into oneself. Anxiety turns one back on oneself, but only onto the self that is already known. There is nothing mysterious about the anxious state; it leaves one teetering in an untenable and all too familiar isolation. There is rarely desire without some associated anxiety: We seem to be wired to have apprehension about that which we cannot control, so in this way, the two are not really complete opposites. But desire gives one a reason to tolerate anxiety and a willingness to push through it.

Open to Desire

Mark Epstein

I'm somewhere between an I'm-going-to-die ecstasy and I'm-never-gonna-die paralysis at each bare moment. This whole thing is such a laugh, you know? Especially once you put your head through the surface and let the water in. Call it autoerotic asphyxiation or call it drowning, either way you have to open your mouth!

No one wants to talk about how intimate jump starting someones car is.

the secret history by donna tartt.

TIMOTHEE CHALAMET and TAYLOR RUSSELL BONES AND ALL — 2022, dir. Luca Guadagnino