Mind Swimming With Thoughts

Mind swimming with thoughts

What if...

What if, instead of a "you guys have an adorable son" 2.0, we have the opposite of it?

What if someone comes up to Eddie to tell him that "Chris uncle is so good with him!" or that "Chris could never find a better godfather!", or some heteronormative shit like that?

What if Eddie blanches, freezes, because that should be what Buck is, right? An uncle, a godfather, a friend of the family?

But, then, why does all that sounds so little in face of who Buck really is?

Buck is his best friend, the best he's ever had. He's also Chris' best friend, and while he is slightly envious of the title, it's not bad. He isn't Chris godfather, though, much less his uncle, even though they do look alike, with the curls and all, almost like they're...

Like they're father and son.

Oh.

When he put Buck on his will, so long ago (a lifetime, really), he was... Listen, both Adriana and Sophia are lovely to Chris. They never treat him like he's breakable, incapable of doing things on his own, they never prive him from his agency. When he still lived in El Paso, he was overjoyed whenever they stopped by to look after Chris. They knew his son was amazing and shouldn't be put down for doing his own thing.

Adriana had a degree in pedagogy and Sophia was a physiotherapist. If the worst came to happen, they'd look after Christopher, and they'd do it well.

But...

But.

Whenever he thought about Buck's place in his life, he never put him in a "friend" category. Not since he stepped up and helped Eddie get back to his son after the earthquake, or when he saw Eddie struggling and introduced him to Carla, or when saved him from a tsunami.

After that first year, with its highs and lows, Buck became family. He slotted into their dynamic incredibly well, helped juggle the duties when Eddie was getting overwhelmed, learned to take cues for when to take a little more than usual. They learned how to communicate from a single look, and, yes, for their incredibly dangerous job but also for things like "did he put sunscreen on?" or "just five more minutes of videogames and he needs to do his schoolwork" or "this movie is not appropriate for his age".

Buck looked at their little family and asked "is there anyone taking that spouse spot?" and didn't wait for an answer.

And, fuck, Eddie wasn't mad that he hadn't waited for it. Before now, before therapy, he didn't know if he'd accept it.

But right now? When he has his head coming into a good place, a place where he could see that he deserved help, he deserved good things, he deserved to be loved?

By all the gods and saints, Eddie was ready to accept everything Buck had to offer and strive to return it tenfold.

Buck was theirs, his and Chris', just as much as their were Buck's. He only needed to know how to say it out loud.

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