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So today I felt quirky and made a quick sketch

Reference (Pic 1) + thought process (Pic 2) = the result (Pic 3)

Okay, hear me out—

I gotta keep this close, preferably, on my blog, so— *reblog*

how to draw arms ? ? 

HAHA

I wrote a WIP of a certain part of the story after certain events that will happen in a certain moment of time of my story

ANGST

A lot of angst

I love angst

As I delved deeper into the pages, a sensation, foreign and heavy, draped over me. A coolness brushed against my cheek, and I reached up to find dampness lingering there. Tears? A question danced on my lips as I questioned the emotion gripping my heart. Sorrow? The word echoed in my mind, unfamiliar yet hauntingly familiar. My vision blurred, words on the page melding into an incomprehensible blur. The book, once held with casual indifference, now felt weighty in my grasp. It was as if its contents held the answers to questions I hadn't even known to ask. With each turn of the page, the tears flowed freely, tracing rivulets down my cheeks. My hand tightened around the book, as if anchoring myself to its pages in the storm of emotions raging within me. I sank to my knees, the cold floor beneath me a stark reminder of the warmth that had seeped from my soul. The text before me remained a mystery, obscured by the veil of tears. Why did these pages, these words, evoke such an ache within me? Why did I feel as though I were mourning the loss of something precious, something I couldn't even name? A hollow ache settled in my chest, a void that no amount of tears could fill. It was a longing, a yearning for something beyond my grasp. Memories, half-forgotten, danced at the edge of my consciousness, teasing me with their elusive presence. Who was I missing? What had I forgotten? In the silence of that moment, amidst the weight of unspoken sorrow, I realized that some emotions transcended language, as I sat there, lost in a sea of tears and unanswered questions.

MUAHAHAHA

My brain can't stop thinking about fyozai as twin flames (the concept, not the cult)

It doesn't help that they're constantly juxtaposed in official art (and in the story in general) in a way that highlights them being mirror images of each other.

(Nod to siglai here too yay)

(This one is my favorite because he's literally sitting over Fyodor's reflection).

The concept of twin flames is one soul inhabiting two different bodies. There is an instant recognition upon meeting one another, like if you've already met them before. According to Dazai, he's already met Fyodor before the story's events but we have yet to hear anything about it. If you look at it from a perspective of them being twin flames, then it could very well be a meeting in a past life, AND we have confirmation of Fyodor being alive for centuries, so what are the chances? Fyodor also says Dazai is his greatest foe since "that man", VERY SUSPICIOUS.

Another aspect of twin flames is how similar they are to each other. During cannibalism, Dazai was able to deduce Fyodor's escape route because "that's what he would do" in his position. When Ranpo's super deduction failed, he noted going up against Fyodor is like going up against Dazai. This doesn't mean that they are carbon copies of each other. Twin flames complement each other in the areas where they aren't similar, like yin and yang. Fyodor values perfection and harmony, Dazai prefers chaos and uncertainty. Fyodor hates humanity for being sinful and foolish, Dazai thinks that's the best part of being human.

Due to these strong similarities and differences, the relationship between twin flames actually tends to be quite tumultuous. It's like being confronted with yourself, particularly the aspects you don't like. Their deepest fears and insecurities will be amplified. They will continue to mirror each other's darkest aspects and insecurities until they force one another to level up (and isn't fyozai in a constant cycle of one upping each other?).

Twin flames are known to experience an almost psychic, telepathic bond with one another. They know what the other is thinking with just a glance. Fyozai literally made up their own secret language while imprisoned together for funsies, and played a number guessing game with each other.

Top this all off with the fact we now know Dazai is the only one who can kill Fyodor using his nullification ability, and we have a slam dunk.

Fyozai ticks all the boxes of a stereotypical twin flame dynamic. Hell, before chapter 113 I was reluctant to ship them because they were so similar I thought the author was gonna drop a bomb and reveal they were related to each other. Now that that possibility is basically zero, I'm all in. I'm floored that this isn't a more popular ship, or at least the most popular Fyodor ship. In Fyodor's campaign letter he literally says he's always alone and the only time he wasn't bored was when he played chess with Dazai. As a Fyodor stan, I love that Dazai is someone he feels he can connect with as an equal. I want that for him. I don't want him to feel alone. (I know, I'm projecting my own loneliness onto a fictional character, tragic)

And I didn't put a read more because they've been driving me insane, so I need to shove this down everyone's throat.

I showed those to my friend and they said they look like (from left to right on the first image) "a punk, sluty Hades, a greek god, and a mad max prostitute"

I dressed my team very appropriately, yes

So I sketched Chuuya

He's wearing an outfit from a BSD vampires AU I'm working on (I'll be posting info about it soon BTW, it's called Crimson Restraint AU)

So yeah, have Chuuya stepping on you POV

So I won't lose it

Yeah sex is cool but have to ever had a vampire bite you and only you exclusively

Well, I gotta do what I gotta do

Once more for those in the back.