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The parallels in Adrianne Lenker’s album Songs never fails to destroy me. For example,

“I don’t want to be the owner of your fantasy, so just want to be a part of your family” (anything)

“And your dearest fantasy, is to grow a baby in me. I could be a good mother, and I want to be your wife” (not a lot, just forever)

The first song, anything, is gentle, it’s intimate. It shows the quiet parts of Adrianne’s relationship, her longing to stay and belong with her lover. Throughout the whole song she speaks of the intimacy of relationships and how this is what she was craving. She wasn’t this version of herself that her lover fantasizes about, and she never really will be. She just wants to be a part of her family, to be her wife.

The second song, seems to take place during or after the breakup. Adrianne has gone past the soft, quiet grieving that we see in the other song. Instead, she is taken over by desperation. She misses Indigo and what they had. She is willing to do anything to get it back. She mentions again this fantasy of Indigo’s that we see in anything. Adrianne doesn’t necessarily want a family or to be a mother, but Indigo does and perhaps this is the only way to get her back. We see her offer up a bargain. Let us go back to what we had, and i’ll be this version you wanted. I could be a good mother. She doesn’t want to be, but she will because she wants to be Indigo’s wife.

There is something just so inately sad about the use of the word could in this instance, the depths of her grief and desperation.

This Kid by Levi Robinheart [lyrics]

‘nd someday I’ll fall asleep, ‘nd I’ll wake up flyin’ ‘nd maybe you will get to see what I look like these days, I don’t get too far on prayin’ on a shootin’ star that I might be ‘nd maybe I won’t dream when I fall asleep, ‘nd I won’t think of the kid I oughta be layin’ on the floor you get closer to the end it’s sure ‘nd I don’t forget how I made you feel wrong, how I gave you all that grief, and how I made you leave take my blood ‘nd take my brains, you know what to do, I just need a little bit o’ space you said “it’s alright”, is it though? ‘cause the heart don’t lie ‘nd mine gets a little bit cold

I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore

You’ve got a silver necklace ‘nd I wanna know, do you see me or do you see the hair on my bones? How do I show ‘nd make up for the kid in the club who didn’t know they was better off alone Each day I eat my weight in self-hate, ‘nd each night I curse myself to sleep ‘Nd if we ever meet, I hope you see that I wanna die with my heart empty

I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore

I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore

No, no more

Faceplant Child by Levi Robinheart [lyrics]

It’s over I know God won’t forgive me I don’t want to apologize even though I do I gave I gave and then I gave it up It’s not worth the looks ‘n the dirty grins I’m first And you said “don’t forget who you are, boy” but I’m not gonna save you I don’t even know how it feels I don’t even know how I feel

[PRE-CHORUS: Don’t. say. that you’re proud of me I ain’t about to  come. back. cause this house is already burnin’ drop. that. gun. I am not your broken bone I just don’t want to be there when you pull the trigger

Not. One. more time, even your heaven knows it I’m. done. and you can’t wrap your arms around the Black. Sun. Dear Krypton has left my heart and nothing could be further for now ]

I’m grievin’ hunched along the table I’m sick from the touch of your big hands I’m not your friend I’m cruel there’s no way of givin it to you I know you loved the U.S.A. better than me “Oh, you got some nerve” I know and I’ll take it with me It’s my fault just say it, it’s my fault and I’ve got no love Well I got no, I got no love and I

I half wished I would crash my car on the way back, it woulda just pushed it farther, the pain and the stress in a long dress but you wouldn’t give it a rest on the cryptid in my chest And I been thinkin’ ‘bout the way that you compliment I don’t consent, you never said what you meant but that’s fine ‘cause I’m out the line with the blood on my knuckles goin’ down the pipeline

(It’s been uplifting, to say the least, that our sources have become final We regret to inform you that there is no waking hour, we are alone here I don’t know what I would do if I was dead)

Oh, but [PRE-CHORUS]

Oh, here I am, I’m a Faceplant Child! I’m Grendel crawlin’ for the ghosts in the wild I’m the Adam’s apple who’s fallen from the line of Cain and I’m dermurin’ Burnham and I’m murderin’ time with your signet on the left and the door on the right and I’ll kick up who I am when I’m runnin’ as fast as I can

(You said “don’t forget who you are” You said “don’t forget who you are”) But I’m not who you are (You said “don’t forget who you are”) But I’m not who, I’m not who you are (You said “don’t forget who you are”) I’m not who you are I’m not who you are

(I half wished I would crash my car on the way back, it woulda just pushed it farther, the pain and the stress in a long dress but you wouldn’t give it a rest on the cryptid in my chest And I been thinkin’ ‘bout the way that you compliment I don’t consent, you never said what you meant but that’s fine ‘cause I’m out the line with the blood on my knuckles goin’ down the pipeline I half wished I would crash my car on the way back, it woulda just pushed it farther, the pain and the stress in a long dress but you wouldn’t give it a rest on the cryptid in my chest And I been thinkin’ ‘bout the way that you compliment I don’t consent, you never said what you meant but that’s fine ‘cause I’m out the line with the blood on my knuckles goin’ down the pipeline)

I’ll Be With You Soon by Levi Robinheart [lyrics]

Well I been wastin’ here for weeks just simply thinkin bout the calories I know I’ve had it all before so what’s one more While you been sleepin’ on your car and dreamin’ bout the touch that broke your heart Your diner’s flickerin’ with light I hope you haven’t changed your mind about missin’ me

[CHORUS: And I’ll be with you soon Do you think it’s true then the kids come pourin’ in to the sink It’s my fault Kick it along and share the pain with me and I’ll be runnin’ along the fence Do your thing I know I missed the night so pois’nously with the tea It’s their fault K-keep it cold for me and I know I’ll be with you soon ]

Well you been floodin’ all the tubs and losin’ money on your reccin’ clubs I’m wearin’ sunscreen for the fun I ate a gun We can talk about your dad I missed the way your music makes me sad We’ll string our LEDs around a movie with no sound This building sounds like love

[CHORUS]

Another harbinger to go I swear your slapstick never let me go I’ll take your em’nate vertigo I want to go go go go go! You’ve got a cycle on your phone An’ your Manga Carta’s gonna take you home You feel the pavement on the lawn but you’ve brought the drinks in on and on and they disintegrate my bones

We’re tossin’ boulders on the shore Your clothes are kickin’ down the door And I love your belly button more Don’t tell me what your friends are for We’ll lose the bats in the sky You’ve met the perfect guy Don’t mind the way that you lie in the car with your head pointed out to the wind We’re drivin’ out into the wind

[CHORUS] x 2

I’ll be with you soon Yeah, keep it cold for me and I know I’ll be with you soon

Microwave (What Else(Poor Yorick)?)  by Levi Robinheart [lyrics]

The only time I lie at peace is when I’m swimmin’ in my lay You kiss me gentle and my heart feels nice she’s got nothing to say I must remiss myself for what the world has given me today Romantic Hamlet for my skull’s become a Microwave

[CHORUS: What else am I supposed to think? Show me what else I can think What else am I supposed to think? Show me what else I can think ]

Hope I don’t lose myself because of how these fists pound on my head We woke up coughin took a walk around the morgue and paid the rent Study-compose and theorize but shoot ‘em out? I don’t see why ‘cause she’ll condole and you’ll say “fine” but you’re still stuck with this guy

[CHORUS]

You keep my quietus my bones are fine my bod-can take a few I know you care-an all but no one needs so I’ll carry-on with you A cigarette without the taste If I can’t digest I just chew A radon test A flashing light Don’t tell me we’re just like you?

[CHORUS]

I kick it over all the time Well I can train it if I try An early bed but still no sign of progressing past the web-foot line Department expiration lights They see me staring at the tide And Paris baby wants a ride I know she can’t be far behind

Musical Lips by Levi Robinheart

Feels like I just woke up Where's that music comin from? I don't remember drivin' over but somethin' just told me I should get less comf'table 'Nd I never seem to say what I mean but I swear I mean it now Keep an eye on your friends Drink up your insecurities with me if you haven't got a number

Well you sang (you sang) your heart out, Miss Yesterday (Miss, Miss, Miss Yesterday) But you'll come back some other way And we'll blame all the rain on the door and the frame 'Cause life just happens anyway

It's almost New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by (yiay-yiay-yaiy-yiay-yiay-yiay-yiay)

Been watchin' him all night Oh, you gotta be quicker than that I pictured there'd be fewer bodies n' voices that I could save it and just talk to him He cannonballs on all my bills And I spent too much of my year just starin' at the dreams of livin' things I think my watch is broken

'Nd if I'm alone ('Nd if I'm alone) when it plays (when it plays) I get the privilege of my own face (my own face) 'Nd I'll save my hoorays for the mornin' bidet Hell, I'll just send it anyway

It's almost New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by I know it's okay I just hate to hear you say it once again Can't shake the question: "Will it ever be?" Babe, it's almost New Year's Day So here I'll stay

(sick kazoo solo)

I don't remember (don't remember) All the yesterdays (all the yester, all the yesterdays) What did I want?  Honey, what did I say? Give me a moment while I pick up my pace with the truck that's been comin' up the highway

It's New Year's Day Champagne has found its wings They're cryin' out for one more heartache One round of musical lips is passing by I know it's okay I just hate to hear you say it once again Can't shake the question: "Will it ever be?" Baby, it's New Year's Day And nothing's changed

Crossbreed Winter Flower & Lonely Autumn Breeze ❄️🏔️ Yuma & XuanYu [ Sad ballad SynthV Original ]

📚[Story]📚YatYin was his lordship's beloved confidant serving his royal prince 200 years ago before the republic revolution against the imperial government....

YatYin was his lordship's beloved confidant serving his royal prince 200 years ago before the republic revolution against the imperial government.  He saved his lordship's life during an assassination attempt and survived with severe wounds. However, unconscious and apart from his lordship,  YatYin was wrongly tossed on the cart of corpses during the chaos and was sealed hastily with a talisman alongside other corpsesto be taken away for a mass burial.  On a rocky road across the mountains at the border of the neighbouring country, YatYin fell down the cliff and continued drifting with the strong current of the mountain river, all the way into a deep underground cave, where he quickly froze to death. Having so many mortal regrets and having had absorbed so much negative energy from the dead and the cold, YatYin turned into a jiangshi.  There he lied, sealed dormant for the next 200 years until a hermit exorcist moved to the nearby mountain...   ~ I hope you'll be here to unseal YatYin with us and let the story unfold when the time's ripe for it ~

Red and White in Harmony 🦊🐑 AnXiao ❄️🔔A Disturbing winter holiday song

⚠️CW⚠️ anxious melody, disturbing themes, rel!g!on mentioned, g0re and drugs implied.This is a work of horror/disturbing/morbid FICTION. NEVER EVER use my co...

It’s a disturbing winter holiday song. Please check description before watching.  Warm winters everyone!

MAZE RUNNER - Yuma, Anxiao & Kevin (SynthV original) CW: spiders, censored g0r3, dark imagery and lyrics This was my spooky season release this year.  If you like it consider subscribing for my youtube, I post spooky songs there. Have you ever felt like it's always a "Hang in there" - situation without ever getting anywhere? The run just goes on and on and you have no idea when you'll actually be safe or get rest. And then there are also enemies lurking in the shadows watching you. Even the friendly people you meet on the way can turn out to be predatory monsters in human skins. You wonder how long have they been on the run to turn into such monsters and you wonder when will it be your turn. 

gore implied!

Hi I published an original spooky waltz song because everyday is Halloween to me.  Please check it out, and if you like it, give this post a boost, it would mean the world to me. Thank you for enjoying my art.  

Listen/purchase: Endless Treadmill by Fenêtre

On the year of 2002, I lost my mother. There's an empty room shaped inside of whatever is left of my ugly heart. Time passed and furnished that empty space with words and tunes. Slowly, I embodied those melody and lyrics into a few songs. I have knitted every songs into stories, stories about two headed boy namely Ethan and Dylan from The Chartens Family. This Album is a piece of my sorrow that I put back together into a medium that you can see, listen and feel. I've put my heart into this and if you enjoy it and like it i want you to have it with any price that you want. Love, Randy Chandradinata PS: by downloading this album, you also got a PDF file of the booklet This is the link for download the album: http://music.fenetre.band/

Listen/download: Half Empty Bottle by Fenetre

Music Shoutout: Unique Sounds Worth Checking Out Vol. 1

There are good bands, and there are bands that makes you go, "Whoa, this is something that I've never heard before."

In no particular order and with no particular reason, these are somewhat unique sounds worth checking out. A few of these bands are actually already quite well-known in the indie world, but as with any alternative genre, fame is always relative.

1. Alt-J ( @altjband on tumblr ) In the sea of indie rock, Alt-J is really something else. I won't even try to describe their sound because I'll just fail miserably, but the mix of their nasally voice, weird lyrics, and layered arrangements really pulled everything together in the most distinct way. Their debut album "An Awesome Wave" reached quite the critical and commercial success. Their follow-up album, "This Is All Yours" has a more introspective approach, but is every bit as unique as the single-friendly Wave.

Honorable mention: Glass Animals. I heard Glass Animals being compared to Alt-J a lot by fans, for some reason. I tend to disagree because they don't sound remotely alike and I'm not even sure they belong to the same subgenre, but they do have similar spirit--at the very least, in their refusal to be ordinary. At any rate, they're worth checking out too. Click here to listen to Glass Animal’s “Black Mambo”.

2. Twenty One Pilots ( @twentyonepilots on tumblr ) Rap + indie rock. Their debut album, "Vessel", was cute enough. It was new, it was different, and basically it was a proof-of-concept that such odd pairing can work. "Blurryface" album though, was a piece of art.

3. The Cat Empire Okay, maybe I'm biased because they have "Cat" in their name. I'll also admit that I don't know much of their discography besides of their self-titled album which was released in 2003 (I also heard their newer albums aren't as good, at least a bit different). But with its fusion of ska, jazz, and Latin, damn if "The Cat Empire" isn't one of the most fun albums I've heard in a long time.

4. Wild Belle ( @wildbellemusic on tumblr ) If reggae is your jam, Wild Belle might be for you. Wild Belle is composed of siblings Natalie and Elliot Bergman. Natalie's beautiful thinly voice, along with reggae influences is the focus of their debut album, "Isles". But based on their newest single, it seems like their to-be-released sophomore album will be much different--I guess we'll just see. Recently they also had a collaboration with Major Lazer in "Be Together".

5. Milky Chance 'Stoner song' might be the best way to describe Milky Chance's sound. But don't let that description fool you, Milky Chance's songs aren't stupid nor simple--they're just damn delectable.

I hope you’ll like these bands! If you have any suggestions, I’m open to it. Meanwhile, visit a few of my curated music collection, and follow me for Unique Sounds Worth Checking Out Vol. 2!

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An update of sorts

Hello followers of my blog (New people welcome!),

For those following Chill Co., I am sorry to say that that moniker is now no more. I have decided to rebrand my entire blog. New name, new pictures, and new well...everything. 

I have gone through and deleted the majority of my posts. This is mostly due to how almost all of them perpetuated this false notion of the indie lifestyle. After going through these posts (and cringing at the majority of them), I’ve realized that I tried so hard to push this since it was the title of my blog. I advocated for the hipster-indie lifestyle that I thought was for me. I realize now that this was pretty dumb of me, as I tried to be somebody I wasn’t.

I also went ahead and deleted pretty much of all of the Spotify link posts as I realized that that is only one medium for listening to music and it will in turn not be nearly as far reaching. This doesn’t mean that I won’t post about music -- quite the opposite in fact. Expect music still, but now much more than just that.

The goal I have now set for my blog is to catalogue my life; I want to show this site who I can be by posting all of my creative content in this one place. Sounds selfish yes, but I don’t want to limit myself content wise. I want this to be about me and if you’re interested in what I have to offer, I welcome you with open arms. 

So what can you expect from me? First, I’m going to start a daily posting series called “Daily Routine” which will be a similar to diary/journal update, but not super personal. Basically just something significant that happened in my day and my thoughts behind it. I want to do it as a way to connect to my audience further and in turn, use it as a way for you all to get to know. My other hope is that Daily Routine will spawn many thoughtful discussion and conversation between users. As a side note, if you can guess what Daily Routine is in reference to you will get a shoutout.

Next, you can expect pretty much more of what I’ve already been posting about but at a higher frequency. However, I will also post about my short prose/poems on the occasion. Music appreciation, daily activities, and nature (LOTS of nature). Seldom will I reblog something unless it pertains to the aesthetic or lifestyle of my blog. 

I’ll wrap it up now as this post is getting quite long. Thank you if you got this far and thank you to anyone who has actually been loyally following my blog. It means a lot to me. Expect the first Daily Routine later tonight.