Introvert - Blog Posts

I swear I don't lack skills to communicate, I'm simply too tired to engage..

Life would be so much easier if I didn’t have social anxiety

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"if you see someone shoplifting, no you didn't" no but like. i really didn't. i have never in my life seen someone shoplifting because i'm not watching anyone else in the grocery store..? how are y'all noticing things like that. my only goals are enter the store, survive, exit the store

The Diaries of Franz Kafka, 1914-1923

Me

Biggest failing of the internet is that in order to be vibing with my friends I have to actually be talking to them. I socialize like a cat I just show affection by sitting next to you. Ily but sometimes I have Nothing to say. Not a damn thing going on in my head

I'm just really quite and shy.

Ravenclaw Introvert 

Shiftblr Introduction °ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

𓏵 Towa || Angel || Silent 𓏵 𓊆ྀི❤︎𓊇ྀི 6teen ⤷ INFP 𓍼 All pronouns 𓍼 Genderless ⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ I’m everywhere and nowhere at once

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Hey there! I go by Towa, Angel or Silent. I have a few more other names I go by, but that would be too much, wouldn’t it?

I enjoy consuming anything art, anime, fashion, or shifting related. I have shifted one time, but it wasn’t for long. Still, a shift is a shift, and I’m happy I got to experience it even if it was just for a moment in time. I don’t really like writing, as I always cringe or just have a terrible time in general whenever re-reading some stuff. Though, I do like reading whenever it comes to hyperfixations I have! I’m mostly here to just consume and practice shifting, I’ll try to update if I have the motivation + time to. ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ

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𓏵 My interests 𓏵

⤷ Slow Damage, Dramatical Murder, Prescription: LOVE, Tokyo Debunker, Obey Me!, visual novels in general… Needy streamer Overload! Cult of the Lamb, Homicipher, Honkai: Star Rail, Zenless Zone Zero, Cookie Run: Kingdom, and so much more!! I’m usually playing Identity V, Dandy’s World, Horror games, and some other things with my friends. That or I’m voice acting visual novel characters with someone for the fun of it. I love kig masks so much, and hope to make my own!!

𓏵 Do Not Interact 𓏵

⤷ 𓍼 Anti-Shifters

𓍼 Homophobes

𓍼 Racists

𓍼 Pro-shippers

𓍼 Basic DNI criteria

໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

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𓊆ྀི❤︎𓊇ྀི Some of My Desired Realities 𓊆ྀི❤︎𓊇ྀི

⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ Slow Damage {{S/O - Towa}}

⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ Dramatical Murder {{S/O - Koujaku}}

⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ Tokyo Debunker {{S/O - Towa Otonashi}}

⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ Ensemble Stars {{S/O - Tsumugi Aoba}}

⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ Dandy’s World {{S/O - none}}

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𓏵 That’s all for now! :3 𓏵

Me fr 🙃

Thinking about the time there were a lot of people in the public pool and I asked my friend if they wanted to go in and they said:

"I don't like it when there's more boba than tea"

Do you also feel like you always make a complete fool of yourself causing everyone who knows you to hate you or are you normal?

Sometimes I feel like I'm not being authentic in how I present myself online.

Like I'll try to look at my profile from a different perspective and it never seems like the real me fr fr.

I be thinking "Wow, I seem so friendly and upbeat! If only that were the truth haha!"

Cuz in my mind, I'm not that friendly and open. I'm the total opposite. Reserved, closed off, and very low energy.

But then I think hey wait a minute, I can be pretty friendly and upbeat-- when I feel like it.

My social battery gets drained fast and it takes a long ass time to recharge. I am NOT a consistently social person. I need many breaks and some time to myself, yk?

I'm no social butterfly, I'm more like an asocial moth.

People be like: oh hey, let's have a talk

Me being an introvert: *go away, fuck off, go* hEy

“That’s the thing about introverts; we wear our chaos on the inside where no one can see it.”

— Michaela Chung | The Irresistible I️ntrovert

Get To Know Me

So I guess this is a thing I’m gonna do. Um, hello *waves*

I actually wasn’t tagged or anything (shocking I know) but I thought I might as well do it anyways. So here we go:

Nicknames: Wellllll it’s kinda hard to have a nickname when your full first name is “Allie” which is already a nickname in and of itself. But I digress. 

Gender: Female

Zodiac: Sagittarius

Age: 16

Time: 10:41 PM

Favorite Groups/ Solo Artists: geeze okay... Panic! at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, All Time Low, Harbor and Home, Dua Lipa, Dodie Clark, Bastille, Alabama Shakes, Judah & the Lion, Imagine Dragons, MisterWives, AC/DC, Jack White.

Song Stuck In My Head: The entire A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out album by Panic!. Like literally just all of it.

Last Movie I Saw: Avengers Infinity War *sobs in a corner*

Last Thing I Googled: “does dq have frozen yogurt?” (the answer is yes)

Other Blogs:  https://alliecookinsidehead.tumblr.com/

Do I Get Asks: hahaha no

Why I Chose My Username: It’s just my first name with my other two initials and my favorite number. Because I’m creative.

Following: wait like my followers? 15

Lucky Number: 8

What I Am Wearing: My Dad’s old Mountain Dew T-Shirt and a pair of old volleyball shorts. It’s a lewk

Dream Job: Animator for Pixar/Disney

Dream Trip: Europe, but not the really tourist-y places. Like the cool ,odd, chill places.

Favorite Foods: pasta, any kind really but especially lasagna; Pizza Rolls; anything that my mom makes because she is an amazing cook

Play Instruments: this sounds demanding. But yes, Guitar, Ukulele, and Piano

Played Sports: oh geeze, okay so I have done volleyball, tennis, and am currently playing golf on my high school team. I did ballet, tap, and jazz for nine years, now only dancing in theater.

Hair and Eye Color: like a gold, dark blond hair and green/blue ocean eyes

Most Iconic Song: Back In Black by AC/DC

Languages I Can Speak: English is my first language and I am currently learning Spanish and can hold a slight “conversation”.

Random Fact: Anatidaephobia is the fear that somehow, somewhere, there is a duck watching you. (no, I do not personally have this, sorry to disappoint) 

Describe Yourself As Aesthetic Things: The Hufflepuff wallflower that thinks she’s a badass but really just reads and doodles and protects those she loves.

I am patiently waiting for Michael Shannon to crawl out of hiding for the Bikeriders press. Please and thank you Michael, much appreciated 🙏🏼

trying to be nonchalant in class but start tweaking out and end up attracting more unwanted attention to myself

The anonymous button is not for hate messages and death threats! It’s for confessing your love and asking stupid questions!

When u overhear someone talk about a topic you're disgustingly overeducated at, and they get a fact wrong, so you just stand there like 🧍‍♀️👓☝️

their gaze makes me blind

omnipresent in my mind

wasting my time, stealing whats mine

even the color of the sky influences the mood -

lisa told me that its not possible to live in a world with no influence at all -

i knew she was right the second she finished her sentence

the mood took me to this conflict of mine & today i know i shouldnt be surprised about peoples power - people talk & influence other people that will also influence other people etc etc etc

why did this confuse me back then?

when even the sound of the wind makes us feel things?

why did it confuse me when even the sound of the rain is heard?

it confused me although the white skies could change my whole mood-

today i know how i act in this world influences others

i say things and they get repeated

i have silent admirers because admirers are always silent

just like i am when i admire someone

the question that remains is whether it is lack of courage, shyness, jealousy or pride that makes us stay silent

lack of courage often is rewritten as pride - just to make it easier for the ego to understand

how come i hate myself, yet i love u for being so much like me?

can we take a long ride?

& never arrive anywhere

my meditation is in not having a destination.

just an infp crustacean, tryna get a harder shell

the hate in his heart is just an indication for how loving he can be

rainy autumn day, hot chocolate & a philosophic book while sitting in a cafe

we live in a society where obnoxiousnes is covered in smiles, rudeness in less rude words, bad intentions in the usage of nice words and lies

talking is a waste of air if u dont have anything interesting to say

me: it might be nice to be an Internet personality

[remembers I’m an introvert]

me: actually definitely not