So I'll Be Getting News About Maybe Being Able To Move Into A Place Specifically For Autistic People

Absolutely dumb 🤣

Gender dysphoria is so unserious like what do you mean you dont like it when like reflects your eyes because you the the light thing on your eye makes you look feminine

I still remember 13 years old me watching IT 2017 on dvd for the first time that movie changed my life. never could my parents have predicted how obsessed I'd become with IT I remember specifically going on youtube to watch clips all day long and buying the book when I was still a minor (which wasn't exactly smart of me I know but hey autism) and even watching the miniseries because my mom said it was better than IT 2017 and fuck the hype I felt when IT 2019 came out, it's strange how watching one movie when I was 13 has changed my life that much it's one of my main 5 interests now that are always there on my mind

(I still watch the movie multiple times a year, btw I'm obsessed)

such an underrated character

I LOVE HIM SM.

this was fun :3

(I feel bad for tagging people, and it makes me anxious, but if you see this, please do it it's fun)

Tag game: make yourself as a little guy

Tagged by: @thanatos-zagreus-shagreus

Tagging: @thiamsxbitch @rhyslahey @myinnerguineapig and whoever else is up for doing it 💙

rating monster flavors part 2 (apple edition)

bad apple

literally just apple juice but like a realy good apple juice, I fucking love apple juice, I'll definitely buy this one a lot 9/10

ultra paradise

not sweet enough and to sour in my opinion and has slightly chemical taste, but I don't hate it just a bit overrated in my opinion 7/10

I feel so bad for laughing at this

some of your accounts look like this

When something bad happens to you, you may feel you have to change as a person, you act out and make up a new personality that isn't you to cope, and sometimes you take it so far you don't even remember who you are anymore, I've been dealing with this for the longest time, but I think I've found a good way to explain the way I'm trying to connect to old me and hopefully find out who I am.

Imagine your image of yourself, the way you are is a mirror, and when the bad shit happens, the mirror slightly cracks after something like that happens. You may be like me and purposely chance your personality to deal with that and try not to be like the old you to stop the feelings. Now imagine that is just you breaking the mirror even more. After a few years of this behavior, you can't even recognize your reflection anymore because the mirror has gotten so small it's just shards. So you try to find one shard you can still see yourself in (one part of your past self you still connect to) and try to feel like that version of you again. Eventually, you will connect the bits of the mirror together again. And sure, it may not be perfect, but it's you, and you can stick the bits of mirror together anyway you want. use glue? sure, stickers? why not, tape? fuck yes, that represents the you you are now still being a part of the new you maybe some shards won't fit you anymore maybe the mirror will have a different shape but it's still you in the reflection looking back at yourself.

Once you fix the mirror and find out how to be the you you were before you pretended to be someone else again, you can try and live on and change naturally because of experiences Instead of obsessively making up personalities you're trying so hard to be hoping one day one will feel right, you can slowly, over time, change, mature, and become a different person, and that person would (hopefully) be you.

Sorry if this sounds dumb it's just an idea I use to try and find myself again, I'm still working through it, so I don't know if it works yet.