A big thank you to Morgan S, who created this collage!!
I saved this for a while and just noticed Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs in the bottom left corner. I have been so focused on channeling my masculine energy this whole week that I didn't realize I was crushing myself from outside in. My anxiety has been at an all-time high (kind of a symptom toward the end of each semester). Not fun! I'm still working on doing better each semester, but it's hard when the ADHD and anxiety get mixed together, and I become terrified and frozen in place.
Had a long conversation with my best friend last night about how it's time to relax into ourselves and live in peace, regardless of how chaotic life might seem at times. I allowed myself to sleep and wake up later today, and I felt the difference immediately. My anxious thoughts quieted down, and I was able to live a little more carefree.
I mean, life is not the best right now, but I am making each day a little better, a little gentler to myself.
Feels like it is time to slow down a bit in order to walk further down this journey. It sounds counter intuitive, but I know it works because it has before. I just need to trust the journey and trust the Universe to provide me the support and safety I need right now.
Sending healing vibes to everybody reading this ๐ฉต
Starting my studying at home at 10:32pm... It's ok, I'm just going to do my best until I let myself start getting ready to go to bed in an hour. I will need the sleep, and I cannot wait to rest because I have worked hard lately =)
โ School โ Staff meeting (1.5 hours...) โ Part-time job โ Nap (2 hours ๐ฎโ๐จ) โ Dinner/snack โ Clinic document (so proud! I've been procrastinating on this since Feb lol)
โน๏ธ Clinic report results 1 โน๏ธ Clinic report results 2 โน๏ธ Shower (I'll consider this in the morning ๐ )
Kinda still feeling frustrated that my professor docked points because I have been getting to class late, but I literally have accommodations for that. I hope it's just that he forgot. I'll need to talk to him about it, and I'm not enthusiastic about it...
[End of study: 12:08am] Ok, I'm calling it a day because I don't want to push my sleep back any further. Good night, lovely humans ๐ฉต
Ngl manifestation and vision boards are real. I feel more content and at peace these days because I fill my days up with hope and compassion. I know that not having a great day one day is not going to completely destroy my progress. All I have to do is stand up and start walking again when I am ready ๐ฉต
I've never been a person who studies or works on her couch, but I finally understand why people love it. It feels so wonderful and heartwarming to be cozied up next to my dog who is having his little dreams while I try to finish my assignments close to midnight. I feel so much like a doting mom enjoying the simple presence of her kids. After everything that has happened in the past week, I cannot be more grateful to be relaxing on the couch with my dog by my side =)
โ First day back to school (the anxiety and anticipation almost killed me the night before lol)
โ Completed work tasks at my part-time job
โ Organized my work desk
โ Cleaned up the mess my dog made at home while I was at school
โ Randomly called my parents to say hi =)
โ Revised 2 client notes based on feedback
โ Finished writing 2 client notes
I am finally wrapping up my schoolwork at 1:17am! Now I just need to pack my lunch for tomorrow and then wake up at 6:30am for school at 8am =") Wish me luck ๐
Have a restful night, lovely humans ๐ฉต
I feel like yesterday wasn't that bad, so today should start pretty well too... Guess I was wrong / not as accurate as thought about my own behaviors.
I ended up waking up and checking social media, and it sent me down a spiral of starting this new online novel about werewolves and fated mates. They know me too well lol.
Now it's past 3pm and I have a long list of to-dos, combined with what I didn't get to yesterday. Will this kind of life ever end? Will I ever decide to not push away what I need to do right now and enjoy the instant gratification that causes me long-term despair?
Some laughs for today ๐
The Productive One: refilling a drink, crossing a task off your to do list, the comfort of knowing that you're exactly on track.
The I-can't-fucking-take-this-any-longer: flinging yourself dramatically onto the couch or bed because this subject is turning your brain into mulch. snacking on something unhealthy but so delicious. texting friends who are suffering alongside you just to cry or scream together.
The "Just five more minutes" : Scrolling through tumblr or instagram. trying to pull your thoughts together on a bad day. convincing yourself that viewing motivational posts online is almost the same as actually doing that homework, really!
The Leg Cramp: No idea how long you've been sitting motionless but you gotta MOVE. Dancing badly and singing along to your favourite song. The joy of realising you've accomplished more than you hoped.
Another super cool post for keepsake ๐ฉต
Iโm always getting stressed out by things happening so here are some resources I find helpful
Music
I donโt know about you but I find piano music are really relaxing and soothing
Piano music playlist
Peaceful piano Spotify playlist by @spotify
Piano background music Spotify playlist
Rainy sounds
Burning fireplace sounds
Wave sounds
Videos, movies, dramas
Buzzfeed Celeb
Food
Buzzfeed Worth It Season [1/2/3/4/5]
Movies
Free movies/tv
Marvel movies masterpost by @girlintoomanyfandoms
Classic chick flicks by @jamescookjr
Cinemasins
Studytubes
Studytubes by @memorisu
AmandaRachLee
Cheyenne Barton (@studyrose )
Music
The Voice Kids [Australia/Germany]
Video games
Buzzfeed Multiplayer (eg. Until Dawn, Dead by daylight, Cooking Mama)
True crimes and supernatural
Buzzfeed unsolved
Comedies (old but gold)
Friends
Mind your language
Bewitched
Dr Ken suggested by @akydemics
Exercise
Fitness & health for student by @abby-studies-art
Deep breathing exercises
Sleep
Guide to sleep by @educatier
Tips for balancing sleep & education by @brbimstudying
The perfect night sleep by @paintitbright
How to go to bed early and actually fall asleep
Night routine and sleeping tips
Tips and tricks for getting enough sleep by @candydsgn
Meditation
Meditation and focus by @studyquill
Put a thought in the star
Treat yourself
Simple ways to treat yourself by @anitastudy
Guide to treating yourself by @pennyfynotes
25 No/Low cost self care acts by @gaygirlhustle
Water
How to drink more water ft printables
Hydration masterpost
Breaks
Use the pomodoro method where you study for 25 minutes and rest for 5 minutes to allow your brain to re-energise itself.
Take a break
Types of study breaks by @samsstudygram
Tips for getting better rest by @overstudies
9 things to do on a study break by @studyzine
Study break ideas by @gomedorgohome
What to do during a study break by @emmastudies
Things i do when taking a study break by @produitivity
Meals
Study break snacks by @gentlysoft
15 food to ease your study life by @studybowie
Easy recipes for students by @aestudier
Broke college kid masterpost by @dumplinghead-usagi
Bullet journal
Start a bullet journal
Apps
Apps that help me destress by @gracelearns
Forest
Overdrive
Positivity
My positivity tag
@chibird
@cwote
@lovelysuggestions
A website that compliments you
Who is the cutest
Quizzes
Buzzfeed quizzes
Pottermore quizzes
Others
Learn coding
All you need for high school
Math help and advice
How to take notes
Mental health masterpost
Ace your essays
Ace your exams
How to be productive
Free printables masterpost
Stationery masterlist by @architstudy
Other masterposts
Selfcare masterpost
I have been overwhelmed lately with everything I realize I need to finish by the end of the semester, which is in 7 weeks. Sadly, my birthday is within the next 7 weeks, and I would hate to be stressed out on my birthday weekend. I was in a similar spot last year having to finish preparing for a presentation the night before my birthday. I wish it would've been different. And I so do not wish this fate upon myself again this year.
Another year, a better me.
It's time to change how I handle my schoolwork and life in general. No more hiding away or being frozen in place. I have to keep my eyes open no matter what comes my way and see it for what it is - a challenge I have been trained to overcome. It just gets a little scary when everything gets thrown at you at the same time.
Some good, relaxing vibes to keep me sane in the next 7 weeks ๐ฉต
I need a vacation. I need an escape. I need a fantasy that keeps me looking forward to each new day.
๐ด๐๐ซ๐ก๐ข๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ซ๐ค ๐๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ซ๐ก ๐ฑ๐ฅ๐ข ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ซ๐ถ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฐ๐ฑ๐๐ฉ ๐ฑ๐ฌ๐ด๐ซ
This is my first time using Tumblr... I already feel pressured to write my first post in a certain way. But tbh I just wanted a space where no one really knows who I am besides the words I write.
At the moment, I see this as a place where I get inspired to study and work on my PhD stuff. Yes, I'm in a PhD program in Counseling Psychology in the US. It is a lot of hard work. It's been rough lately so I hope that this will be a place to can bring some light into my monotonous days.
Depending on how things go, maybe I'll be more active here. Who knows \\/ ^.^\//
Started the day with a nice breakfast and an episode of Earl and Fairy =). Now, let's get down to business ~
Anime atm ๐: Earl and Fairy
โ Breakfast
โ Watch anime
โ Check school emails
โ Pay bills
โ Buy A Little to The Left bundle ๐
โ Rewatch Kaichou wa Maid-sama!
โ Group project 1 paper (2 hours)
โ Dinner
โ Thesis (2 hours) - I did it ๐ญ
โ Play A Little to The Left
โ Group project 2 paper (30 mins)
NONE!
[Ended at 1:30am] I can't believe I actually worked on everything I said I would do today. This is the first time this has ever happened ๐ญ. I am so proud of myself! Even though not everything got finished, I think this is a good start. I am building trust in myself to be able to work consistently.
Thank you for y'all's support. Thank you for reading about my progress. This has been the most helpful thing I've done so far to get myself back on track. Thank you x100000000000 ๐ฉต
realizing life is a constant progress to be the version of me I choose to begrowthblr | phd | psychology | โ | overthinker
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