I Think These Piercings Would Fix Me

i need someone to pet me and tell me i'll be okay like you would do for a cat.

she's so me

Helter Skelter (2012)

Pearl (2022)

Perfect Blue (1997)

quotes from my favorite books:

"You are whoever they want you to be. You are more than enough, because you are not real. You are perfect, because you don't exist...They look at you and see whatever they want. Because they don't see you at all." -The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by VE Schwab

"I love you- I do- but I am afraid of making that love too important. Because you're always going to leave me, A. We can't deny it. You're always going to leave." - Every Day by David Levithan

"In French, there’s a phrase for the random urge to jump from high places, the irrational desire to swerve into traffic despite imminent destruction: l'appel du vide, the call of the void. Those sudden feral impulses tend to be shoved away immediately, but humans still experience them. What if you jumped? What if you touched the fire? What if?...When I looked at him, staring at me, the void called." - Her Soul to Take by Harley Laroux

"The day you stole from me was the best day of my life...Because then you became my life, and I don’t want it back. I won’t fucking take it." - Does it Hurt? by HD Carlton

"She made her choice. And now she is bound to a steel bed with a needle in her arm and a smile on her face. She is happy. But that doesn’t mean it was the right choice. It also doesn’t mean it was the wrong one...What would you abandon for happiness?" - The Bell Chime by Mona Kabbani

*gently nudges you* am I annoying?

for me personally, i've been improving my self image by focusing on things i do like despite being overly critical. like yes taking birth control for years has made me gain weight but at least my skin is clearer now. plus thick thighs are cute. and maybe i can be annoying with my habit of sending several texts at a time, but at least i'm showing people that i love that i care about them.

Instead of choosing an intensive, unrealistic, or punishing goal this New Year ask yourself: What is one simple thing that would enrich my life this new year? Maybe you can do three paintings this year. Maybe you can buy and care for a potted plant. Maybe you can learn to cook one meal exceptionally well. You don't need to push yourself to the brink. Let's stop committing to punishing goals based on insecurity and start asking what will enrich our lives.

Broke Boy Guide to Altar Offerings

Hey! Are you broke but still wanna offer something up to the gods? Don't worry! (So am i) So here's a guide of things that are either free, low cost or that you probably already own to slap onto those altars. Mind you: These are mainly modern offerings that I attribute to these different classification of gods. I'll likely update as time goes on with other classifications :)

General Offerings to Deities:

random flowers from outside

random sticks from outside

hand written letters/prayers

plushies of the animals they're connected to

raw/cooked meats as "sacrifices"

drawn symbols

Art/Creative Deities:

symbol painted bottle caps

pens/pencils/markers

old sketchbooks

stickers/prints

origami

comic books

figurines

Death Deities:

bones or meat from your meals

dirt from a dead plant

dying flowers

skull imagery

coins or other gifts for those passing

photo/belongings of your late loved ones

Familial/Household/Protector of Children Deities:

photobooth photos

jewelry gifted from family

baby teeth from your children

breast milk

old baby shoes

framed photo of family

cookies/bread

homecooked meals

Fire Deities:

birthday candles

charcoal discs

burnt herbs

alcohol

incense

tobacco

matchbox/lighter

Healing Deities:

your current medications

bandaids

water

skincare

vitamin gummies

spell jar in an empty pill bottle

Knowledge/Wisdom Deities:

old books & textbooks

pens/pencils

mini chess pieces

written down philosophical quotes

good test scores/report cards/degrees

Love/Lust Deities:

origami 3D hearts

chapsticks

unused makeup

love letters to deities

love letters about S/O or crush

current perfume/cologne

current lotions

apples

Nature Deities:

plants dedicated to them

herbal tea packets

feathers

milk

fruits/vegetables

spells using recycled materials (toilet paper rolls, etc.)

bread

acorns

Sea Deities:

beach sand

shells

sea water

tiny sea animal figurines

shared fish dinners

makeshift spell jar using a shell

Trickster Deities:

laffy taffy joke wrappers

cards against humanity packs

other comedy card games

“your designer heart still beats with common blood" is such a raw line you'd think it came from shakespeare but actually it's from repo! the genetic opera (2008)

why hasn't gods green earth given me a spooky boyfriend yet