My Squrrily Madd Brain Is Unsure What To Do With My Appeal To Ponynatural

I haven't talked to them in a while maybe I should shoot them a message.

What if they don't wanna talk but will anyways cuz they're a nice person? you'll bother them.

What if you're just being clingy cuz they care about you? That's selfish.

They haven't messaged me.

What if they've never really WANTED to talk to you?

Maybe they don't wanna be bugged by you anymore.

Maybe they think you're ghosting them.

I'll wait for them to message me.

this might be a weird fucking question, but have you seen the x files?

I have not yet, I can only really watch one show at a time and I'm watching Supernatural rn, I'm planning on watching X Files next. Not a wierd question btw, I actually freaked when I saw something in my inbox- thank you! :]

I'm back :D

It wasn't that bad, actually met alot of fire people and the counsolers were awesome.

My mom snuck my sis her phone on the second day

APERENTLY we arent allowed to have our phones at this church camp which is bullshit cuz if theres an emergency I'm not waiting for the teacher lady to make her way over and make some calls.

I'm either bringing my phone or a fucking gun. At least a pocket knife or some shit.

I'm not even addicted to social media. Like, yes, I like watching youtube vids and yes I like scrolling tumblr and ao3.

But, I'm mainly PHONE addicted. I'm addicted to chatting w/ my friends on Discord and listening to music and stuff in samsung fucking notes. It's moments like these that I wish I asked for a walkman sooner.

I'm not trying to be "woke" about it or anything, I get that theyre trying to "reconnect us with the lord" and shit but in todays day and age and the fact we are literally on the brink of a fucking civil war I'd prefer to have my contact device in my back pocket.

It's like an instict almost

Me, writing in my notes app:

Mom: what are you doing?

Me, switching tabs discreatly: looking at the economic inpact of turtles-

is anyone else constantly afraid they’ll be “caught” doing stuff they’re obviously allowed or even supposed to do

amen

vape chick and her brother, bullfrogboy are no longer on the bus

It's drama time!

So I get on the bus with the eightish other highschoolers and vape chick starts going off on nickeldude for "stealing her seat again". She goes up to Tman[my awesome bus driver] tellin him to get nickeldude out of said seat. He says there's nothing he can do because we don't have assigned seats and it wouldn't be fair to just kick him out. Pretty reasonable, right? She sits in the seat in front of him and we're off to the middle school. End of altercation.

Or so it seemed.

We get to the middle/elementry school and right when we pull up she attempts to punch nickeldude in the face. Over the seat. Tman comes over and calmly says "this goes one of two ways, either you sit with him or you two work it out"

Should be over, right? Wrong.

Vape chick (keep in mind: she's seventeen) says "I'm going in the building" and leaves the bus. So now everyones like "are we gonna have to wait for her to stop throwing a tantrum or what?' And Tmans like "no we're gettin yall home; her mom can pick her up"

End of story? Never.

As we're leaving the assistant principal and the school police officer come onto the bus. The lady moves nickeldude into bus boy 1 and tibs seat behind me and the whole bus now has assigned seats. And you could tell the lady didn't like this but it was the least complicated choice. Vape chick then struts onto the bus, head held high, face red from crying and clames her seat.

This is the end- sike!

Im not sure what got her started but vape chick was standin up and prolly yellin to her seventh grade friends about how in the right she is idrc and terisa turtle bitch- in the right lane for once- tells her to shut up and sit down cuz no one cares. Vape chick then starts cussin her out and they go back and forth until she sits down.

It only gets worse? You guessed it!

She stands up again and starts goin of at terisa throwin as many insults she could think of callin her names and crap and then, in response to one of terisas' comebacks, says "why don't you come over here and make me sit down" and she goes "maybe i should" and she goes "pull up then" which I learned as of today means "lets throw hands".

Terisa doesn't even hesitate and stands up to plate at which point I attempt to intervene by standing up and repetativly shouting "YALL CHILLCHILLCHILLCHILL-" and Tman can see smts going on and I start waven at him like HELP COME GET THESE STUCK UP SPOILED BRATS and terisa ends up sitting up front. They're looking at the cameras tomorrow to see who cussed who out.

BUT WAIT- nah I'm kidding that's it.

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it is seven twentey two in the morning why is this girl chuggin Dr. Pepper-

friend: do you have ocd?

Me: the normal amount- no a bit above the normal amount

Friend: howso?

Me: well i get upset when im on a different seat in the bus or when seating charts change

Friend: ..that's not ocd

Me: oh..

Friend: that's more autism ocd..

Me: oh..

I can't find the gifs for the life of me but this made me think of the scene when Cas told them he had sex and Dean went

"..So. Did you have protection?"

And Cas was like,

"I had my angel blade."

one time in the middle of a hunt dean and cas had to hide and they have nowhere to hide but inside this one small space so they're pressed back to chest, dean on the front and cas behind him. and then dean felt something hard poking the back of his thigh and he got all blushy and said something like "oh cas, no need to get so excited," only to find out 5 mins later that it was the angel blade