Living Together With The UL / LL LIs

Thank you @myfallenangel04 for tagging me!

I think this is the first time I speak about the kids I imagined for Cindy and Nath so here we go:

I tag: @jockallensworld, @momiyi-chan, @amrrygae and @sammyjomcl​ (I know that the latest episode with Nath wasn’t exactly “child-friendly” but canon is non-existing here)

I also know that not everybody is interested in the kids I made up, so a few things about them are under the cut

First we have Eileen who is also my SE OC because why not

she is an absolute daddy’s girl, and being their first child she helped Nath a lot with overcoming his fear about kids

she’s overall joyful and optimist, and very outgoing not relatable

she is learning to be a pharmacist

and you can read a bunch of useless info about her here

Then the twins, Reed and Fae: ah yes traditional French names

Reed is also interested in science, but rather than alchemy he likes physics

he’s the most “rebellious” meaning he stayed up until 9 when he was told to got to sleep at 8 (all of the kids are pretty chill)

his best friend and regular partner-in-crime is his cousin, they spend most of their time together. Fae often joins in but it’s usually just the boys

Fae is very quiet and introverted, she likes to observe things from outside

she spends most of her time either playing videogames with his boyfriend or drawing on her tablet

she started practicing digital drawing when she saw her mom draw a lot, but now she imagines her future with it too

And then the smallest one, Kayla (original post here) who I only imagined because a little cutie like her joined our family in July and since then I’m in baby mood 🥰

she’s the only kid who finally has Nath’s eyes and skin colour

but other than this she’s totally like her mom (meaning she’s kind of histerical sometimes)

she’s very cuddly and even as she gets older she prefers her parents carry her in their arms rather than baby carriage or even later walking

aaaaand that’s all because as I said I don’t really have a detailed personality imagined for her

since we are making the children of our Candys, why not make your adult versions too?

well, first of all, i wanted to talk a little bit about your adult versions.

Havi:

he/him | gay | Rowenna and Priya’s son,

Havi is a very kind and friendly vegetarian boy and loves to help everyone. he is currently studying to become a police officer. he’s dating Rafael. likes: make friends, be useful, animals, japanese food, affection, travels,books,silence,his boyfriend. dislike: making enemies, prejudice, arrogant people, fights.

Rafael:

he/him | bissexual | Hana and Castiel ’s son .

Rafael is a fun and charismatic person, loves to joke and get everyone excited. Currently, he intends to follow in the footsteps of his mother and father. he’s dating Havi. likes: show affection, dogs, make music, your boyfriend, make jokes, parties. dislike: arrogant and selfish people, queuing, staying at home, being alone.

Marilia (or May):

she/her he/him they/them | genderfluid/assexual | Charlotte and Rayan’s daughter.

Marilia is a very quiet and reserved person, she never talks much. Currently, she intends to be a stylist. she does not intend to date or marry anyone. likes: silence, being alone, your few friends, reading while listening to music, making clothes, meditating, rabbits. dislike: getting stressed or overloaded, letting your hair grow, prejudice, dogs (they make a lot of noise), not understanding about a certain subject, crowd, parties.

about the pricrew:

for the boys (haru and Rafael) I used this pricrew: https://picrew.me/image_maker/13338 (I edited the background)

and to make marilia I used this: https://picrew.me/image_maker/163761 (I edited your eyes)

as marilia is genderfluid , I chose a pricrew that fit more with her appearance and personality. But to make Candy’s daughters, you can use this pricrew: https://picrew.me/image_maker/400653

i tagging: @candysweetposts @satansfaery @melodyalanaroster @aloy97 @myfallenangel04 @marylusaoficial @marycecilyy

Pls go follow my twitter, I’ll try to post a lot of updates there!

Especially this post, it’s important so…

https://twitter.com/marycecilyy/status/1346578047764471810?s=20

I didn't know that you were going through so much, I'm really sorry for you and I hope things will turn out for the better 😔

I don't know how much my words count, but I don't think you were annoying at all (I'm not in your server, but I'm fairly sure they didn’t think that either). having meltdowns is not enjoyable but it happens, and no one can judge you or think lowly of you because of that

again, I hope you will get better soon ❤️ I would also say “don’t stress yourself too much”, but I actually know it’s easier said than done 🤭 good luck with moving out and getting a new job though!

My Apologies

So, the other day, I was acting erratic and super needy…. Here’s what went on. My real life is stressing me out like crazy…. If you’re in my discord, there are full details about what’s going on…. I hyper-fixated on Alana’s Canon, and focused too much on the one thing I have the most control over… I went over the edge and had a full blown anxiety attack. The fandom only saw the tip of the iceberg… My meltdown in real life was so bad that I went to work on Wednesday with my chest hurting and my eyes still moist from tears. If I annoyed you guys, I am really sorry. Here’s how I’m trying to fix things: 1. I’m gonna look for a new job. 2. I’ll be moving out of my grandparents’ house and going low contact with my family this year. 3. If I have to, I’ll tell my bf’s best friend off. I will not coddle this fool. 4. I’m going to calm down and take my writing slowly. 5. When COVID dies down in Texas, I fully intend on getting therapy. 6. I’m going on my vacation time from work in March. I know, I’m posting this to my MCL blog… But, I feel like I annoyed the hell out of you guys and I cannot stress enough how sorry I am for that….

Fighting; undressing; what turns him on (Guardian x Nevra)

“8,17 and 18 with Nevra” for @adasha-galatine I hope you will like these 😇

8. fighting

as we have seen it many times, Nevra is both a womaniser and can easily get jealous. he moved on, but he can’t bear to see Guardian with someone else, which causes many arguments in the beginning

their figths are usually serious, neither of them being afraid to use harsh words. afterwards, they clear things, but the circle soon starts again

it will take some time for them to get into a proper relationship, but when it happens, their petty arguments are replaced, and they rather sit down and talk things through when something is up

17. undressing

Nevra can easily make Guardian’s clothes magically fall down, he considers clothes an awful barrier between the two of them

if Guardian strips herself in front of him, that’s heaven and hell for him at the same time. oh, how he wishes to be the one doing it, while observing it from afar is also enjoyable...

with all those accessories on, undressing takes quite a time for him, making him even more glad when he can finally join Guardian

18. what turns him on

he does like to see Guardian in clothes though, but more in fitting ones, that show the curves of her body

he also likes to watch Guardian please herself what a creep, but he can’t usually stand it for long and “helps” her out

also, seeing Guardian be protective of him... that fills him with such pride, he’s sure to return it later 😉

send me headcanon prompts!

a kind of update about my writing & Other Stuff:

I finally have an AO3 account! you can find it here. I already uploaded some stuff I've written here originally, though I won't upload everything

the only way this affects my account here is that there will be some writings (=fanfictions) that I will write there, and I'll only post a kind of teaser and the link here. I made this decision because writing fanfiction on Tumblr isn't really comfortable, AO3 is a better platform for writings with more chapters

about my fanfictions... I started "Drive away" in January, and no, I didn't forget about it, I just kept postponing the second part until I have AO3. sadly, I have a new fanfic idea 🙃 which is more "urgent" than DA, so I'll put that on hold for some time, then continue when I'm done with the new fanfic

for anyone wondering, the new fanfic will be about Candy and Nath reconciliating after Candy cheating with Eric 🤭 but you will see 😉

my answer will be under the cut as well (I couldn't write that long answer haha), but I do have to clarify in the beginning that I'm not a doctor or something, so this is just what I think I would do in a similar situation

tw: eating disorder

I don't know what your exact "goal" with weight is, at some parts it seemed like you want to lose weight, at some others it seemed like the loss of appetite is worrying you... which can absolutely coexist of course, and here goes what I want to say:

I haven't heard about this Zoloft before, apparently it's an antidepressant. even if losing appetite was listed as a symptom, I don't think it should be ignored (two weeks seems an awful lot for a side effect to last, or at least to me - I haven't had any meds with serious side effects yet). if you can trust your doctor with it (because I know there are some assholes out there with a Dr. before their name...), I think you should tell her about it. maybe you could switch to another kind of antidepressant which doesn't have / has less serious side effects (only if switching to another one doesn't make you uncomfortable, of course)

about the weight loss thing itself, again, I don't know what you want to do about your weight (and you absolutely don't have to share if you don't want to). but, anything you want to do with your weight should be connected to your eating and moving (?). even if you want to lose weight, I'm about 100% sure starving yourself isn't the right way to do it; you don't even necessarily have to eat less. there are many types of diets and special eating methods (?) that you can choose from. yes, it takes time to browse through them all and the one that you think you like might not even be available to you because (bad example): it would require you to eat pineapple every day, but you live in the Arctic; but it's still worth in the end. you don't need to starve yourself, you need food even if you want to lose weight. (also, important note that as much as you shouldn't starve yourself, you shouldn't stuff yourself either. for very different reasons, but I had a short period where I didn't want to eat much, but I tried to notice when I started feeling "enough" and what felt like "too much", and eat an amount somewhere in between these two. no need to eat until you're sick of it)

so yeah, all in all, I think it would be good if you talked with your doctor (maybe even through the phone, if that's okay with both of you - the longer you keep losing weight, the more serious it can become later on), because the side effects you mentioned are kind of worrying to me :c and if you want to lose weight, but differently, it could be helpful to look after some kind of diet (maybe even with the help of a dietetic - if there's one available)

aaaaaaand also again, I'm not a doctor at all, I just tried to imagine myself into your situation and think about what might be helpful, I hope I could help <3

[the two (?)s are because I'm not sure I used the right word, I'm sorry if I didn't make sense :D also, I'll tag this post with your tags as well, so people can avoid it if it triggers them]

ed rant under the cut bc this might trigger ppl and i dont want that :(

i started zoloft two weeks ago, i'm on the lowest dose and most of the side effects have worn off (still getting headaches most days, some dizziness, the fatigue and sleepiness is subsiding which iam v grateful for bc dealing with that on top of chronic fatigue wasn't easy)

but like..... i'm absolutely not hungry. i don't feel the need to eat and i'm content with very small portions. i know loss of appetite and nausea are possible side effects, but i wasn't expecting it to hit this hard dfherh. i dont have much nausea, but mostly i can't eat before noon, all i have is water and coffee, and trying to eat just makes me lowkey nauseous. it's triggering some good ol ed thinking patterns, and i kinda hope i can stay on this medication once i see my doctor again. smh. because i'll keep losing weight. so far i'm down 40 lbs since august 2020, and i want to lose maybe another 15 lbs. i don't have a scale and only get weighted every 3 months, when i get my birth control injection, so that's at least? helping me not spiral too much?

when i saw my doctor in april, my doctor wanted to send me in for a psych eval, because yes i was seeing her for anxiety symptoms, but i also have depression and psychotic symptoms. so there was talk about maybe switching out medications after we have a proper diagnosis, and she talked of seroquel to really target all my symptoms including the psychosis. i'm terrified because weight gain is a side effect, and i really don't want to go back.

i dont know. there's a lot going on in my head and i'm trying my best to eat at least a bit to keep me going, but this whole loss of appetite is really triggering and i'm leaning into it to restrict, even tho i can't do as much being chronically ill now, i become weak very fast if i try to fast :(

that's all rgihrtgi if you've read this thank u, idk if anyone will do anyway. i feel too self conscious about this to properly journal about it. probably will write armin fanfics bc this is how i cope

nathaniel university life quotes headers.

lile and credit @arendeiis on twitter :)

this is a test, they are simple headers and if i have a good engagement i do the other routes and also post in english and portuguese. <3

7 Lance 🙏🏻🙏🏻

ahahhh well yeah, sorry. I was thinking if I should even answer or not, since you found it, but I’ll link it anyway:

7. awkward moment

Bodyguard (Kim x Leo)

yes, this is absolutely not the second day of December.... I have commitment issues, I'm sorry 😭 this definitely isn't my best work, but I wanted to let it out anyways, as I didn't have a really good idea in particular for this prompt

Dykecember day 2: bodyguard

Words: 696

When Crowstorm blew up overnight, all members were happy with their newfound success. 

Initially. 

However, they soon realized that fame is not without consequences: they had to change their daily routines, pay special attention to what they do in public, and deal with fans who were not familiar with the meaning of the word ‘privacy’. 

Castiel first considered it hilarious, then annoying. Then, he received (at his home!) a letter with a little vial for him to send back ‘a lock of his hair and a drop of his tear’ – the ingredients for some kind of love spell. This was the point when they decided that people will overstep their boundaries more and more often, so they need to protect themselves. 

Leo was the one to experience this kind of ‘love’ physically. She wanted to run some errands, when a group of teenagers suddenly appeared around her. They asked for selfies with her, and one boy wanted to put his arm on her waist, but ‘accidentally’ lowered it. 

Leo hired a bodyguard that afternoon.

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"Sooo, this is it." 

Leo gestured around in her apartment, not really knowing what to add. The young woman standing in front of her (who insisted on simply being called ‘Kim’) started walking around, inspecting the doors, the windows, even the view of the street and neighbouring houses. 

“You’re taking this very seriously, I can see. Did you have to protect someone really important in the past?” 

“Oh, sure.” Kim stopped her examination to turn around, facing Leo. “I’ve worked for ministers, CEOs, and people whose title I can’t even tell you. Don’t worry, I will do my best to protect you. No one will die again under my watch.” 

“...again??” 

Leo was about to ask more, but she caught Kim’s smile while she turned back again. The rocker couldn’t help but laugh – despite Kim’s initial silence, she was starting to like her newfound bodyguard. 

“Well, that’s the least I expect. I can’t pay you if I’m dead. And hey, maybe you will even find me funny. Might motivate you to keep me alive.” 

“Oh, you need to work harder than that to make me laugh.” 

--- 

It turned out, she didn’t need to work harder. Whenever it was just the two of them, in a private setting (which happened more and more often as time went on), they behaved like ages old friends. Leo was an endless source of adventurous and fascinating stories, while Kim kept Leo grounded and motivated in more ways than one. 

One day, Kim decided to check out the Instagram page of Leo. This is not something that she hasn’t done before, but she still liked to scroll there from time to time. Leo’s page (as all other members’ as well, of course) was filled with posts about their upcoming album. They worked on it for a really long time, and it was supposed to be released in two months. 

Among the sneak peaks of the album’s cover and (muted) recordings from their studio sessions, a different post caught Kim’s eye: Leo and an unknown woman kissing. 

Kim sat up straight. How did she not notice this before? 

It was posted not long after they first announced the album. It was probably part of the campaign for it, but Kim couldn’t help but feel a little sting in her chest. 

Was she jealous? 

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When she met Leo, a couple days later, Kim had already made up her mind. What she said on her first day was clearly a joke, but developing feelings for the one she’s supposed to protect could cause serious problems for them. 

When Leo opened her door, Kim didn’t hesitate. 

“This is the last time you see me as your bodyguard. I want to end my contract.” 

Leo didn’t answer at first. She was shocked. 

“Is everything alright?” 

“I-” Kim sighed, then shook her head. “I want to protect you, but I’ve realised that I have feelings for you that aren’t right. I will always be here for you if you need me, but I don’t think I should be your bodyguard anymore.” 

With that, she turned around, not giving Leo the chance to reply. 

Dykecember challenge

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