Eeeeeeismeee - E

you know you’re deep in an ed when you’re triggered by finding out you have a higher than average birthweight 😭 like wdym i was nine pounds as a newborn? ok fatty

First day at my Grandma's, and she moved her bathroom scale an now I can't find it :(

So now I'll have to go two days without weighing myself, and I can check my weight in three days after my Dad and I are home again... it's not an issue, I usually don't weigh myself everyday, either, it's just that I was planning to do it to keep myself accountable... Easter with my Grandma, a dangerous game food-wise

its like i starved for control but then remembered that my body exists and i starved for weight loss but then i saw other anas counting calories and eating lower than 1000 calories so i started to count calories but like i felt guilty after anything even if it was low cal so then i remembered originally that i starved for control so now i starve for both control and weightloss

I fucking hate myself guys

It's the start of Easter break now and like any rational person I ditched all my plans and binged the first day and today as well

If I skip dinner and work out though I can probably do at least some kind of damage control (because I've eaten about 2000 calories now which is really fucking awful) and I can get my steps in as well... I'm just so disappointed in myself, because I was prepared for having my intake be a bit higher during the holidays, because sometimes when I have to eat with my family it just can't be avoided, but not like this, seriously

Anyway, looking forward I guess because I've already fucked shit up I can't change anyway 🥲

Come on hip bones, don't be shy I promise I'll treat you kindly pleseaasse poke out alreadyyy

Drinking water alone will get me hydrated and feeling overall better, but it's definitely not enough to make me skinny

Exercise may tone my body, but without a change in diet, in won't do that much

A cal deficit will make me lose weight overtime, but without exercise, it's quite slow (depending on the deficit ofc)

There are so many things playing a role - food is a huge part, but a whole bunch of stuff is important to make a safe, good change, so take care of your nutrition y'all

(Too lazy to make a proper list now - this sounded better in my head)

big plans this easter (getting drunk‼️)

parents tryna get me to wear a dress like noooo don't they fucking get the hints?

I love sugar free monster energy. Have I told you yet how much I love sugar free monster energy?

Yes? I don't care I haven't told you yet that I absolutely love sugar free monster energy.

I don't think I've mentioned how much I love sugar free monster energy.

Can you tell I love sugar free monster energy? No? You know what else I love? YES, it's sugar free monster energy.

(What a cringe fucking post omg)