I Feel So Gross Knowing I Ate All The Food On My Plate But They Didn’t Even Make A Dent In Theirs.

There is as good as no better feeling than going back to losing weight after a long binge for me

Everything I got from the store today! I ended up not getting too much because I reconsidered my budget, but here it is! They didn't have my usual protein bar flavours so I decided to try these new ones, and I haven't tried on of these monsters as well. I just like to amass safe foods and look at them it makes me happy honestly lol

Okay so. I've seen my fair share of transphobia on edblr [for crying out loud you're on THE lgbt app] and I'm just going to say that transgender people have the HIGHEST RATE OF EATING DISORDERS.

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Statistically 71% of transgender individuals currently or have previously at some point in their lives struggled with an eating disorder.

But why do so many trans people develop eating disorders you may ask? The biggest factor is: Discrimination. All around, discrimination leads to the development of severe disorders. The other major reason is gender dysphoria, with GD comes the feeling that you lack control over your body which is generally a huge contributor to eating disorders but most trans people tend to live in unaccepting or downright hateful environments basically leading to lack of control x2.

Trans people will also develop eating disorders to change their bodies in very drastic ways, especially when there is no access to gender affirming care like for trans men, top surgery and for trans women, to give a more sleek feminine look to the body.

I specifically see a lot of cisgender men in ed spaces complaining about the prevalence of trans men in the "male ed" tags but I'm going to pull another stat on you- 42% of cisgender men who struggle with eating disorders are also part of the lgbt community, so if you're part of that 42% and are still being transphobic, you should look into lgbt history in general and thank the group that gave you your rights. If you're a cis straight male complaining about trans people struggling with eating disorders, just remember that plenty of people will never even entertain the thought that you have a "woman disorder".

So if you're out here bitching about "why are there trans men in the checks tags" and plenty more hateful shit that I do not feel comfortable quoting- just think about this, statistically there is just going to be an "overwhelming" amount of trans people in all online ed communities. If you aren't comfortable with that then it's probably time you recover babe <3

my friend was complaining about how she didn't like the sweets she was trying and I said "awwww" as in a friendly banter kind of thing and she just shot back, "Well, at least I am eating."

She said that so accusingly as well but I felt super fucking happy

This Moment when I've borrowed my friend money the other day and I ask her about it - it's not even that I care about the money on itself that much, just wanted to remind her - and she just says that she doesn't have cash and offers to buy me something in the cafeteria instead - despite always being the first to make jokes about how I never eat

It's not that big of a deal, but it did kinda bug me, because the way she said it made it sound like she knew exactly what she was doing and stuff

Because she's always trying to pressure me into eating, which I appreciate, but then it also gets annoying

Not to be desperate but i need a gf cause well girls but also i need someone to be rlly attached too

The next few days are going to be incredibly busy for me, but that's awesome because I'll literally won't have time to eat :D

I'm not going to try and fast though, because I will need the energy

It started today with me having to stay at school until 6pm (🥲) because of choir practice, tomorrow I'll have to leave almost right after school to play at a concert (I know I'll barely have time to change and maybe practice the pieces one last time)

And on Saturday I'll have singing stuff from 8am to 4pm

Both crying and laughing right now because I know I'll be DRAINED when all this is over, but I won't be around my parents to watch me eat, I won't be at home with all the binge food and I'll probably be to busy to even think about eating anything, hopefully

As I mentioned though, I will be having dinner, because it's the only time I'll be around my parents and I will really need that energy

i made a post like "wow my mental health is so much better than it used to be" but then i deleted it cause i remembered that it's actually just as bad, but in a new, different way

i was almost bamboozeled into thinking i got better when i'm actually just a different flavor of miserable now

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